Here is where we need to talk more! The last time we discussed this aspect of the gates most people felt that when they were born during an open gate that times were easier, where as closed gates felt more problems and struggles around feeling supported in life. So, what was your situation?
What do you feel about your upbringing that aligns with having a closed or open gate. As you may know mine was closed at birth and I was born by forceps where my mom was knocked out, and also where she spent 9 months not wanting to have this baby at all.
My dad did love me, as if I was the best thing in the world to him, but he grew up behind the bar of his father's restaurant and taproom, and they got divorced when I was 2 when my mom cheated on my dad with his friend. I'm sure, just trying to get his attention, but I was told that he was gone because he didn't want to be a father and that he didn't love me.
And I was 28 in my next closed gate, sitting at my fathers bar, when one of his friends brought that time up and said that's why they got the divorce. So I had no idea for 28 years, but during my next closed gate the truth revealed.
But there was not a sliver of love for me from my mother until EXACTLY when my first gate opened at age 11 -- and then she did SO GOOD with me for a few years. So I am in 100% alignment that closed kept me shut off from love, at least in terms of my birth closed gate.
My next closed gate I was drenched in love and living the good life in San Francisco and Arizona and Oakland and then Santa Fe. I wasn't able to hold myself monetarily that whole time after San Francisco, but I WAS drenched in opportunities to meet people and learn teachings and get primed for my position to come forward at 41 and begin my career when my gate opened.
So. Closed is not bad ----- BUT what does it mean when it shows up at your birth. Are the lights off? How we're things with an open gate at birth? Did your parents stay together? Did you feel valuable and loved? Let's talk it out!