Now loves, this energy can hit you in different ways – but no matter it's going straight to your heart and to spaces where things have been left undone or there are fears around death, disappointment and POSSIBLY making the wrong decision. It can feel like a whirlwind of energies with things making you feel like you aren’t special and there IS something wrong with you. Be aware that you are in a huge healing space and we need you feeling a bit insecure and raw SO THAT you can see how you actually are staying in the past because of where you have kept quiet with others or where they have devalued you and now you are taking that as the gospel on things.
This time needs you drawing boundaries around how life has let you down, and NOT allowing this wonderment to fill your space with things that will affirm how low you feel on yourself. Something about love or lost love or where the story in your mind didn’t become the reality for you to walk will rise for you to express something that you kept on the downlow. For this reason, this can hit you where you are floored and can't get moving – OR, it will be like you already hit rock bottom and now you are out of there for good.
This energy basically wants you looking into darker and hidden spaces, but not doing it looking for the negative or looking for someone to always be there holding you back or keeping you from growing. There is some sort of gray energy around the top of your head that deals with how you need to stand up for yourself and not ALLOW YOURSELF to stay in places where you feel defeated. This is like addictions where you know this is hurting you – and at this time we need you waking up and moving towards healing and the things that CAN get you out of the gutter and into a new pattern in life. On your own, your mind can't really be trusted right now – because you have too many memories of how people have NOT treated you correctly. And this is painting so much of what you keep seeing for yourself – and it's creating a dense gray and lifeless energy that is BLOCKING the sun of what could be coming your way.
Ultimately, this is an addiction that others got you hooked on and now your mind feels that there IS something wrong with you and that you WON'T have the love and people who really understand and see you. The future can look dark when you sit in your wounds with memories of doom and gloom. And it's time to wake you up to how incredibly special and talented and valuable YOU ARE. From the ...