M O N D A Y 24 august |
Good morning sweet beauties! Today ushers in an energy shift where you will feel a new sort of dedication and passion towards something where you feel like you can concentrate again or really see what you need to see. This energy feels like aging, and how it is the greatest gift to your mind – because as you get older, you think stronger, and what got you to collapse in earlier years will be something you get over in a blink as you get older. Things don’t matter and things DO matter in different ways as you get older.
Today we are in some space where we get it or we see it or know what we need to do. You may at first take a battering on yourself and still question your timing in thinking you are getting something wrong or you can't count on something good in the future. Expect to feel self-conscious or to doubt that a vision can come true.
But also honor that this is just a dip in the road getting you to clarify again what you DO want to do. It's like when someone dies and how it gets other people to want to wake up and live more. It is not pleasant, but it elevates lives. Without death we wouldn’t go for our big dreams. But the cycle getting us from the crash to the elevated space is to take a peculiar journey.
As I told you when Moon Bear died, it took me one year to stop crying every day. On 12.30.20 it will be 5 years since I lost her, and I only had her for 4 years of her 5 years of life. And honestly, I STILL do not have my shit together from losing her. I still am in the mode of trying to fix what got messed up when I lost my Moonie and lost my grip – and lost all that I built. But you know what, I do not think my journey is a mistake. I would rather it have gone a million other ways, but even as I still crawl along, behind on all schedules, barely hanging on and I still see that I am getting closer to my goals every day.
I still see that I am learning so much and realizing what is really important about life. I still see that there is something to this, and months or years from now I will be in a better position so that I am finally up to date and keeping up on my position in this field. I haven’t been able to show up for my job in 5 years from having my heart so severely broken. But still, every day I am getting closer to my dream and farther away from the chaos of what exploded things into bits and pieces to be healed back into place.
And so are we with this pandemic in our lives. And maybe we too will cry daily for a year and not get things back to norm for 5 years, but SO BE IT. We cannot control what befalls our path, but we must trust the journey in how it builds us into better humans. I WISH I could have started my business days with the way my mind and body and ego feel now. Instead I will have to make it a 2nd return, but who I am now is only because of all the challenges from the past 5 years. So, it was not a mistake, and neither were all the things taking you into the gutter and into the negative spaces and into the throes of viscous life circumstances. It all is a part of your song. Sing it low when it goes there but sing it loud and high because that too is always to arrive.
Trust your life.
It all is a part of your song.
Sing it low when it goes there,
but sing it loud and high because that too
is always to arrive.