T U E S D A Y 2 feb | Okay loves. This one is going to be a bit hard on many of you as you will get stuck in your mind and may get confused over how you are going to get through some fear that you worry about with your future. Your mind will be real busy but it won't be able to anchor down into any truth just yet. The test of the day is to sit in confusing spaces where the answer is not yet to arrive, but to STILL stay focused on seeing that something will save the day or get you through some challenging situation. The point is that we aren’t to focus on ALL to the point we muddy up our energy and spin out in the mud. Instead. We are to see that we are aware of so much in our minds, but to still keep pushing the words and thoughts that are open to a solution arriving.
You may try to sleep and your mind will be full of words that make you doubt that you are okay. Just keep being the adult with your teenage mind and say affirming things about the tests before you. See that nothing is here to break you and it is only getting you to get up and make something happen. It is when we reach empty that we finally get up to fill the water. But when we are not at a desperation point, it is easy to escape and do nothing. At times we need things slamming us into the cup running out so that we exert energy to correct an imbalance.
It is in correcting imbalances that we eventually get very confident when they arrive at future times. So, see that this is a test to get you holding too much and still being able to sift through and get to the stability of things. YES, you may have things taken away later in life, or, for example, you will see that the decision you made yesterday may feel like a mistake in 6 months. But you made the best decision you could make at the time you made it. We all evolve AFTER we make moves that feel like we are pushing through and doing what is best for us. And often we look back and wish we had done it another way. This is human! This is what gets you to take future events seriously and to not just think this is something casual and just no big deal.
So, expect this sort of transaction today where you ARE in that 6 month point of looking back and saying, dang. But honor that this stop in the road is on time – and it will be in how you digest how you WISH you would have done something different that now moves you to not fall into the old traps that are there to try to illude you. You can trust ALL your moves, actually, but you also need to see that as you get older you DO get wiser and you DO get HELLA better. You are MOST not yourself in your teens, 20’s and 30’s -- so we need you making moves that are not YOUR moves and then walking a life down the road that doesn’t really feel like it fuels you. This is what births your truth in your 40’s and gets you strong AF FOR REAL, and not just flimsy strong AF that collapses every month because things are only superficial.
Be kind with yourself as you get older, stronger, wiser and as someone who is solid with who they are. The patriarchy put you in the wrong order and got you to buy into believing we are best in our youth, when really, we are making decisions based on what others are doing or think we should do. In our youth we are VERY impressionable, like cookie batter with fingerprints pressed into it. We can be conned into racing over the cliff and suffering broken bones because of it. As we age, we finally get wise on how to navigate life. But if we didn’t make all the “wrong turns”, we wouldn’t learn a thing. It is the confusion in life brings true joy because it is in things you have to work for and work to understand that you wake to how you ARE getting somewhere and you ARE getting through things that in your past you DID think would break you.
I can tell you that in my 20s and 30s I would get so upset or emotional over things and I needed everyone to be what I needed them to be so that I didn’t feel ruffled. I was saying, IF YOU DO THIS, I will be happy. As we get older, we shift out of that gear. We realize that we can't control others, so we shouldn’t make them responsible for our mental health. But you will ONLY learn this from getting older. There is NO OTHER WAY to get wise to the Earth Walk than to walk it – and to trip and fall OFTEN on it. Forgive yourself, this was the path you were supposed to take.
There is NO OTHER WAY
to get wise to the Earth Walk
than to walk it – and to trip and fall
OFTEN on it.
Getting up and rebuilding
Is what empowers you
To create your best future.
Confusion gets you to grow.