S A T U R D A Y 12 september |
HERE IT IS. Here we go, babies! So. Now we are totally in this space of knowing we must shift our focus and get out of hiding being things or being a sell out or following along because we have fears and memories or those damn mental blocks where we stay walking the life of people who are manipulating us.
When we have wounds, we make BIG MISTAKES. We say yes to what clearly should be a no – and we push away things that clearly are a yes. When we have been led astray and let down, we go towards what will hurt us.
Allow those words to be what settles you when you look at a huge chunk of people around you and wonder how they can believe such a thing and go towards what CLEARLY is a no. If you can understand how we operate, when knowing trauma or things that have damaged us, you can see why people are going towards something that ACTUALLY is manipulating them and IS going to hurt them.
This is life. This is what we do. And we do it with 100% confidence in what we are doing UNTIL we wake up to the wound and to our part in holding it in position through expecting certain things to be. As you all know I came from the worst kind of mama who actually hated me from the moment of conception until I was 11 years old when she finally got some therapy and looked at herself. She was the ultimate bully. She was cruel. She kind of even got off on wanting to hurt me and see me suffer; even to always show that my brother was #1 and a billion times better than I ever would be. I was NEVER affirmed, valued or held safe by her. She actually wanted me out there struggling and knowing I was the trash. And I am a Pisces, born on March 11, which is exactly where Neptune sits at this very moment as it opposes the Sun.
But keeping it real, from her horrifying ways I grew up to make real bad decisions. I grew up to leap into those that would want to hurt me, and to push away the ones who would actually love me. But I could not even see that until I was in my 40s. I was not even 1% seeing that I was going for what was bad for me. Now I understand how we tie like a web into everyone’s wounds, and it's why some people can have really awesome lives where there isn’t much friction – and it's because they have worked on themselves and faced their cruelty or how they are hateful inside and spewing ideas about wanting to see others suffer – BECAUSE they have suffered in their past too.
I mean seriously – that Christians raised big money to support a 17 year old who thinks he’s such a tough guy, who went out and MURDERED people. That someone would see that as the Christian way is 100% further proof of how wounded we are. That is brainwashing at its worst – and brainwashing is what is happening to the USA right now – even though it's always been happening, it's just that now there is another player in broadcasting lies our way and getting people to totally throw themselves over the cliff. That boy is going to be crying a river real soon -- because he killed people. He chose to be god and take heart beats and people that other people loved and valued and thought would still be around. That kid is now imprisoned to hell in the life that he is gonna have to walk. And I’m from Illinois, like the shooter was. I’m a Southern Illinois girl by roots.
But anyway, look out with new eyes as you see so many people who appear to be fractured to the core. Remember that they WERE hurt in some way and are being influenced and mind controlled by people who also were hurt, and therefore they go towards what is wrong.
We only wake up to this wounded way when we heal and face our things and stop projecting and making everything else everyone else’s fault. If you are bashing on others, you really need to open to how you have been hurt and how something about where you are now IS reinforcing the old story of your life. So break free!!! START OVER. Feel this and get to where things ARE supportive and nurturing on your soul. You need to make a decision about what you allow to manipulate your dreams where you stay fixated on what took away your safety or stability. Decide to see for your superhero ending where you rise from the ashes, defy all odds and DO get to something that holds you safe.
Make the decision to see
For your superhero ending
That you dream your life to be.
Go towards what holds you with love
And supports you to thrive like weeds.
moon journey: Cancer
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 6 7