F R I D A Y 6 nov |
Okay loves. Be aware that you may feel tired today and like you are totally at capacity with everyone else’s things. It all will feel like too much today, and you need to think of this like loud music playing outside that is disturbing you, as you are to choose for your sanity by going inside to place yourself in a container of protection. DO THIS TODAY. You don’t have to fix anything or try to understand anything – but do be aware that emotions are strong and if you are around too many others it can really get you swinging all over the place and floating up in the air where we don’t really need you.
We need you processing things in your new way today, where differences are okay and where we look at others in a neutral way and not where we let them take us into fighting mode or “I am an authority on how it needs to be” mode or into division – because ultimately with you being in the 12th grade, and your opposers in the 3rdgrade, you need to quiet down your ego that needs to be RIGHT, and just get out of there when battle sparks do rise.
You need to NOT be a provocateur and make your differing opinions known. THIS IS NOT THE TIME OR PLACE. And you will not win with any slam back or vengeful act that you want to deliver someone. The test is about you not going there anymore and really seeing that you are holding back your dream life by fighting with those who can't even envision the dreams for themselves that you have been dreaming for your future.
The test is to see if you really are holding so much of the past that you don’t want to let go, that you have adapted around the backup in your pipes and just are used to things draining slow. Of course, we can adapt around the abuse and make excuses, like well, he’s not perfect, but… AND THAT LANGUAGE is making excuses, because you only say that when covering up huge flaws. It's a statement to calm your mind into focusing on the good. BUT IS IT GOOD ENOUGH? It is not good if you actually have to use those words. Because those words cover dark energy.
For example, if you were describing me to a friend, and then you said, I mean, she’s not perfect, but… Then you have to see that you would only say that BECAUSE I LET YOU DOWN in your past and I did something that DID impact you to see me in a negative light. And it lingers with you. So you adapt around it and still see the good in me, but also are aware that I messed something up – and are still holding me in that light.
This time wants you looking honestly at how you say things about what has been or where you do want to go or how you do want to rebuild. And it's time to make choices around not just adapting with the disfunction but really starting over and creating a new crop from all that you learned along the way. Be aware that this energy will create big breaks in relationships BECAUSE we realize it's time for a new plot of land to hold us.
And if people ARE seeing you still for your faults, then it may be on you to make shifts so that you are around those who see you as the best you that you are becoming, and who honor the journey of life that got you here. Addiction is not a negative journey in life. Some of you incarnated to learn through it. Even like with me, my family owned a bar for 99 years, and wouldn’t you think I would have had to face some sort of addiction issue? And I had a stepfather who was a raging throw furniture around alcoholic, and even seeing that I organically stopped drinking in my early 20’s and since then only drink 0 to 3 times a year – and nobody around me drinks either. I didn’t get hung up on alcohol at all. It wasn’t my journey to walk. But for many of you it is. And it IS where you are supposed to be learning something. So stop judging it as bad.
This week we are learning to let things go as we just say, this is for them, this is for them to learn, I am not a God over them, I am not their authority, I will NOT go to their level and try to save them as if their level is wrong!! Who knows? Their level may be what turns them into a world-famous artist or empowerment coach in 3 years. Their level may be what connects them to the love of their life. Their level may be where they learn their true gifts where they will influence others who find themselves on the level they walked.
This week we are to surrender more and just trust this. Through pain we learn a lot. Through separation we learn to love. Things take us through things and deliver us to other outcomes that we couldn’t even see. So, surrender into the Mystery and set your new story of love free. You HAD to walk the journey you did. You HAD to experience the pitfalls you fell into. You HAD to go step by step by step, but now it is time to see that the tides are changing, and your body is speaking about needing to honor the space that you share with the world and others. And you need more grace. You need more kindness. You need more support so that you CAN keep dreaming the wild dreams. And if it is not there, start planning a move. You need to uproot. YOU are the priority here. YOU deserve better here. And if you give it the space to grow, where you dream this can come true, it will. But it needs you dreaming for it.
If you give it the space to grow,
Where you dream this can come true,
But it needs you dreaming for it.
It needs you calling it in
And expecting it to come for you.
Put the money in the machine
And expect it to give you what you ordered.
If you don’t put the money in
It won't deliver.