S A T U R D A Y 19 september |
Just remember! You DO deserve things better! You DO deserve to have people treat you in a better way. You DO deserve to feel like you are looking out at the life you are walking and you LIKE what you see, or at least you like seeing that it IS getting better. So today know that you need to spring into action where you are going towards things that support and nurture you or GIVE when you have a need. Choose for better things. Weave them into the story of your future.
Like, during the first week of living in my new dream home, I was throwing a stick in the back yard and it went deep into Memo’s throat where he suddenly gushed blood and foam.
AND DUDE. I just moved to this town, which I only first came to see when I checked out this house I moved into -- and I didn’t even know where I was!! So, I looked up vets and called this one and was like, oh my gosh I just moved here, and I think this stick may have gone into my dog’s lungs. Oh my gosh! They were like, where do you live? I was like, oh my gosh I don’t know, um, um, um, um, and then came up with the name of the organic grocery store around the corner (perfectly placed for my dream neighborhood) and they said, you are 8 minutes out; we are prepping for surgery in case he needs it. So I raced to the car and got my baby to them in 8 minutes where they took him in and had him back to me in 6 minutes, with medicine, because it was triaged into being a watch for 48 hours, especially for for white gums. They then went back to their normal schedule to do the other surgeries for other animals in need.
BUT DUDE. THEY TOOK CARE OF US. I was a priority. My huge and gaping need was filled in under 20 minutes. And THIS is because I made the epic change to come where I have never been – BUT I FELT CALLED TO BE – and DOING SO – TRUSTING SO – got me to discover a place that holds me IN ALL WAYS I have ever needed!!!! I have never laid my feet to lands that love me so much. I am only loved and supported here and it has me dancing wildly over how wonderful it feels!!!
SO, my boo. My love. My sweetest of darlings. YOU DESERVE A BETTER LIFE. But you got to work for it. You got to hold the hands of it. You got to stick with it. And you got to keep going into the fire of whatever it brings so that you can heal. You are to shift from the fire into something powerful that is unique to your soul. Just like I now will express more as my truth because I journeyed through years of chaos and pain – since Moon Bear died and through my time in Durango – but I just kept with it and I didn’t ever fight it.
I NEVER fight back with negative things happening to or being said about me. NEVER will you hear me defend what I don’t like to see when it comes to me. I just take it inward and know that it DOES relate to me because I attracted it or because it bothers me or is in a clash with another person. And I can't change anyone else – I can't change what they will do. But it always inspires something for me to see inside about myself what I am not facing and that I NEED TO correct and strive to be better. I know from the laws of the universe that if my life feels fucketh then I am somehow fuckething it up. And I need to be the one to change things. From within we manifest an outer world. Stand by that code of ethics.
To surrender is to just look from a different angle and to understand that we all are magnets – so what comes to us, what comes up, just needs us to surrender as we look with eyes for correction and the desire to be better – TO BE BETTER MAGNETS. And why? Because we are worth it. We DESERVE to manifest a life that makes us happy. So keep digging, keep working, keep holding hands with your dreams. You ARE getting somewhere and you need to be stronger with it. Be determined! This is never too much, but it does lighten up if you allow it to, and then it gets gorgeous! What do you deserve? Something that makes your heart smile. Go out yonder and find it. Expect to find it. And keep at it until you do.
I strive to be
A better magnet.
What I put out there
Will come back to me.
I won't forget this.
I WILL clean things up.
Even if what I see
To clean is to heal.
To deal is to feel better.