19 february | well hello W E D N E S D A Y!
So here we are, and we are in BIG WORK right now. Be aware that you will be tired, even though you will somehow get the work done. There is a switchover going on in our bodies – which is something similar to psychic surgery -- and it’s causing a real big downward of energy before you then bounce up with the steam. But notice that this switchover of our system is getting you stronger in your mind so that just like when something is snowballing or adding up, you are to still hold firm inside that you will get through this.
Or, as I call it, WALK GRACEFULLY. It’s like when you are in the mountains and come upon a spot that is precarious and with a small window for you to pass safely. So you walk gracefully, which means each step has your total and utter focus – with nothing else allowed on your mind. And when things fall apart or come one after the other or where we see there is a pattern playing out, we need to walk gracefully and in the moment of each step because it ultimately is just a job, like rock climbing, that requires 100% of your awareness of what you are doing and what choices you will next make.
When things show up as they are for many of you as we switchover into a better space, you ARE to watch all of your moves and to consider them from the perspective of, would you do this a few years ago? Is this the best decision for you? Is this being chosen with a conscious heart and something that faces the darkness or fear? Because our old ways are to ESCAPE. Our old ways are to let the fear crumble you into a ball of escape land.
But here is another thing. Because of how much we all have escaped from, we also batter ourselves at the doorway of wanting to run from our problems or other people needing things from us. So where we sit is where most of you are going to have to fight the demons of your mind and work HARD to stay like the good teacher where you are talking in empowering ways and feeling compassionate with yourself that you ARE facing this now and working to create a better life for yourself.
When we start a big journey or project or dedication, it begins with first steps that are the hardest. They are the steps of getting us to get up and DO THIS. In our minds, life is another thing. But in reality, we have to get up and work with our bodies to get them doing so that we aren’t filled with so much to judge and break ourselves down over.
I was telling my new manager how doing readings is like surgery because you have to be 100% in it and you CANT be thinking of food, or that person and that situation, or the future thing that really needs your attention on it. You can’t be anywhere but fully doing a reading. And that is EXHAUSTING. I often just want to escape and be in my mind (I’m a Pisces, too) like what we get to do with most jobs.
Working in a café, you may be there, but your mind is also holding tons of thoughts that are nothing about what is going on right there. Like this one time when I was 23 and I was working the patio, which means I was the farthest out from the kitchen, and the bartender tells me he heard last night this guy I dated a year earlier was HIV+ -- and has known it for years. As I then had to juggle a full section on a busy Friday night AND I may have been exposed to AIDS?? But still, no one knew till I got home to my boyfriend where he was so sure I wasn’t infected, which I wasn’t, but I also never got chicken pox or the flu, and my last cold was 7 years ago, so it may be my system.
But – and WHY that example just flew into my mind, I do not know – but that is an example of how no matter WHAT we got going on around us, we must pay attention to our full station and just do what we need to do while keeping our cool and KNOWING inside we will get through this. THERE IS A WAY!!