T H U R S D A Y 22 oct |
Okay!! This is a big day and we are going back into the wound of the last 8 years, with a spontaneous change of energy, that can give some of you vertigo or leave you feeling ungrounded, but where you are going to be saying your final good bye to something that was in your system and allowing this other thing to come your way.
For example, when you are wounded you say YES to things that are absolutely a NO and you say NO to things that are absolutely a YES. You get real confused because you weren’t shown love or loyalty or compassion or whatever. And where we were wounded, we attract to others who will give us what will hurt us or let us down. And we do this until we wake up, or we heal, or until we get a therapist who truly is an authority and who truly wants to see us grow.
When we get less, we choose for less. IT IS A FACT. This one is 100% verifiable. So see that something that was done wrong to you that influenced changes within the last 8 years, that got you choosing for things that did not work out well, is now leaving your storybook where you are rising into the teaching of it and seeing the error of your ways.
For example, when I moved into my last house, I got so many warnings in my body on the woman who owned it. I saw the image of a snake, which I interpreted as me needing to protect myself, so I demanded that we get a property manager so that I wouldn’t have to deal with the owner. I saw that my warnings were just so that I would take protective precautions, like you would with a snake.
And basically, now living in a new home, and with how things ended up, I have a whole other way of walking life, where NO WAY IN SHIT ASS HELL am I going to get in a contract with ANYONE who I feel I have to protect myself from. This was one of the top worst experiences in my life and where I really saw a way that a human can be that I never saw in my whole life. From the moment I moved in, the neighbors poured in to visit to talk to me about how I should probably break the lease and lose a couple months rent because they said NO ONE leaves with what they came with and the owner usually tries to hurt everyone who leaves.
And keeping it real, I didn’t believe them. I actually didn’t take it seriously because I had NEVER heard anyone talk so nasty about another person. This was like Jerry Springer madness. So I kind of judged them for talking so negatively about someone who was not here to give their side of things. But. You know what. At the end of the journey, I now see they were 100% correct and warning me because they didn’t want to see another person hurt by this woman.
But I had to walk it myself and believe it was not as horrible as 100% of everyone, the neighbors, the power company, the propane company, the whole town, was telling me, SO THAT I WOULD GET STRONG ENOUGH TO NEVER DO THAT AGAIN. Because of doing that bad move, that maybe was a perfect move, I have a tongue that is sharp as a snake in that I know if something doesn’t feel right, IT IS NOT RIGHT!! It means GET OUT. Only the wounded would try to make it work. So, think about that. Only the wounded try to make it work. The healed say, fuck that shit and give a clear NO to what is absolutely a NO and unacceptable to step into. I didn’t get it going into this experience, but coming out, my standards have gone next level in what I will or will not allow into my entire world. It changed me that much.
So also see that we all have a playbook of where we too rented the house, signed the agreement, got into a collaboration, a partnership -- when we had warnings galore – and where we then sit in hindsight feeling so down that we said yes to this thing that deserved our no. But just realize, it's hard to understand but we HAVE to learn our lessons through walking them. We don’t just get to show up street smart about life – UNTIL we learn the hard way. So, embrace this hard way and kick this old habit to the curb that gets you accepting less than. You made a choice, you paid the price, let it go and grow from it. It HAD TO BE to get you this wise. Trust.
You made a choice,
You paid the price,
Let it go and grow from it.
It HAD TO BE
To get you this wise.
There is no other way to enlightenment.