M O N D A Y 1 feb | Okay loves. Be aware that this process of getting you into the new earth energies is incredibly faceted and long winded in that you will go forward and backwards, over and over, as you learn TO NO LONGER keep focused on becoming a victim in your eyes.
As long as you think you are something, you will live it in your future. Rule #1 on Planet Earth is Gravity. So, you will NEVER get away from what you put out there. You will NEVER get away from how you speak in your mind and how you talk to others. You are only filling up the space you will next walk in what you put out there.
In 2021 we get it like nothing else because things either are beyond the best dream you could imagine and you are on the FLOW OF GO – or you just can't get out of hating your life and hating what is in this moment now. Until you come into recovery and learn new tools that help you to use your brain in the new ways, you will stay in this rollercoaster life of having total faith in yourself and then losing it all and thinking you really ARNT going to be okay. That we can be rulers in our body and mind with what we choose to think and say is DANGEROUS. Well, at least on Planet Earth when it all comes back.
But the big point in what we are talking about right now is that you need to work your muscles and keep with the new patterns you want to become habits that get you in better shape in life. You know how good it feels to be out in the world when you feel good in your body. So, find the ways to be disciplined in using the muscles of your body. If you don’t use them, they go weak. If you use them, they stay strong when you need them.
Even when I slipped on the ice that I told you about yesterday – I stopped getting with my Pilates trainer because of covid, and then moving and needing to find a new one. But I am NOT using my core like I was this time last year. I am not as strong so that I could have caught my slip on the ice with my core, and not my inner groin muscle. It was that I am out of practice with staying core focused that I was able to strain my muscle and be forced to limp for days.
We are this same thing. We don’t get to just plant the seed and walk away. We got to work for our dreams. And you all are seeing where you need to put in more hours and more attention and to actually contribute to more beauty being on your eyes and mind. Like, go for the walk and notice the beauty of the trees.
Or, stay inside and worry about what a failure you are as you scroll social media that is 99.9% fake news and not really the person they want you to believe they are. NO WONDER you feel like shit after scrolling. THEY are sitting in shit that is covered in a pretty package with tons of money to put towards saying BUY ME, BE LIKE ME, WEAR THINGS LIKE ME, WATCH ME, CHOOSE ME – and really, they are still the unripe avocado just fronting like they are ready.
The world that you see is one big front of things covering what people want to keep hidden. NO WONDER so many don’t know where to go to really get grounded and confident with their path. Instead people are influencing you to tip forward and always reach for what you don’t have, staying focused that you aren’t good enough now, and only with these things out of reach and over the top superficial will you get what you dream. You are being manipulated!
And it's time to be the adult who talks to the 2 young siblings, where one has accidentally hurt the other, and the one hurt can't get out of making everything about how they were hurt. The adult needs to come in and get you expressing your feelings, but not staying stuck in needing them to be held in ways that the internet influenced you to believe. Such as, IT IS ONLY a real apology if they say this, that and this other thing and they do it in this precise way. THEN it is a real apology. Otherwise they are a narcissist.
And buying into this front of energy, that really just wants likes and follows, is why so many people can't be in relationships because they cut everything off after YOU HURT ME or YOU LET ME DOWN and WERENT good at reading my mind. They stay as the one sibling that can't let it go and won't compromise – then only seeing fault in the other sibling, such as that they are the narcissist. This way of being will keep you alone and never really healing. It's not all about them. It's a big part about you. And what you saw in your past that now is your reality getting you to feel what was done or not done – and to keep looking for characters to play out the role again for you.
You INSTEAD are being asked to go into the pain or confusion and darkness and INTEND that peace or a better outcome will come FROM getting to the bottom of things and not from the way social media tells you it needs to be. It's time to REALLY bring peace and healing to things, as sharp and dramatic breaks just bring more into your future to face.
Continue on and keep with.
Let go of escaping
Which is what you have mostly done.
Face this miscommunication
And be the peace
You wish THEY would bring.
Show them how you want them to be.
Lead by example
Or stay in the misery.