T U E S D A Y 29 dec |
Hello part 1 of 2 of the FULL MOON IN CANCER!! We LOVE when our Moon sings the vibes of getting us all in the feels so that we start to do the things that get us wanting to feel cozy and safe and secure in this world. We need those particular feels in order to get us defining how NOW we know what we need, and now we will work to put this barrier or new level of protection in place so as to assure safety.
Expect to feel real emotional and stronger about things going on around you. There will be a force that gets you to clearly see how you have been manipulated to follow some path and believe in its ways to the point you haven’t really seen how this is NOT your thing. At this time, things rise that deal with YOU buying into something that now you need to transform and rise higher in regards so that you are not choosing for glass half empty and continuing old patterns that are hard to break BECAUSE YOUR RESPONSE SYSTEM TO THEM is so ingrained.
There are ways to start over at this time and to see how we need to communicate in ways that allow things to grow again – and not just cut them off because we are hurt, and we do hurtful things when we feel hurt. THAT IS SO OLD WORLD. To get even is to dirty up your pool and to live out the ego way of always needing to be number one.
What we awaken to in the last days of 2020 is that we have been exposed to too much, so we demand too much. We have been offered the whole internet, so we demand that everyone in our lives give us everything we need to feel safe and secure here. BUT. To demand, is to speak through your wounds. The demand voice is the wounded voice.
One of my most cherished friends is one of the most loved peoples on Earth. And I’ve used her as an example in my own goals of how to be because I know how it feels to be around her and have known for almost 20 years – but the key to having all your needs met with others is to NOT NEED ANYONE TO CHANGE.
The demand voice wants YOU TO CHANGE. It barks out orders proclaiming that YOU NEED TO DO DIFFERENT. And do you like others telling you that? Do you EVER adhere to their glue and do what they want you to do? NO. You don’t. You get rigid and resistant and then go in the opposite direction just because you don’t want to do what they want you to do. MANY OF YOU operate in that rebellious way.
And my dear friend lets you be whoever you show up as – BUT where she applies control is that IF SHE DOESN’T LIKE what you show up as, she is not in your life. She won't be with people she doesn’t REALLY like. But those she is WITH are the luckiest alive! It feels SO GOOD to not feel judged in any way and to feel a harmonious flow that is ONLY supportive. Winni is like a soft wool down comforter on a wool down mattress pad – and you get to be in the middle.
But the reason she doesn’t want to change you is because she doesn’t have wounds around everyone else needing to provide for her like the internet does. But most people do. And if you are younger than 34 you CERTAINLY do expect it all now – BECAUSE you have been given it all – and the internet programmed you to be this way, where now nothing is enough and no one is good enough.
And just as the internet is becoming boring for most of you, SO ARE YOUR LIVES if you TOO keep demanding that others be these other things – when ultimately we need to discover the WOUNDS that keep you with sensitive spaces where now you project that others will fall, as you demand they jump through hoops and do all these things FOR YOU.
When we are wounded, we want back. We need YOU to hear. We need to know that YOU understand. We NEED. NEED. NEED. When you are balanced and without wounds inflamed, you don’t need things anymore. Or rather, you need your space to be clear and supportive and filled with nurturing things.
And if we are wounded, we keep projecting that another will hurt us. Just like how I told you how that women let her attack dog loose and it came right for my dog and a fight ensued – which my dog has never seen before. And yes, I can tell you that now my dog has been aggressive with other dogs. He has been a rat bastard most every day since. So he saw the fight, and now he is bringing the fight with other dogs. And that is ultimately what we all are doing until we heal our wounds. 100% if we saw the fight, we now BRING the fight – and we will construct whatever story to keep getting it, to keep hurting ourselves, to keep going towards sad situations of limitation and loss.
The ONLY way we stop this cycle is when we heal. When we face OURSELVES and stop making it all about the other. Keeping it real, all the psychotherapy things on insta are so fraudulent. Not all. But a lot. It's just ego and money. But in my opinion, they keep you in your wounded space. -- My love, you need an actual therapist, not people fronting – and THUS, confusing you all. Most things I’ve read sound like someone speaking from their wounds.
It can feel great to sit around and gossip over negative things. We are addicted to it. But it can feel GREATER to see that the only reason we love to be that way is because we have been hurt in our past and now GET OFF on inflicting pain in our certain ways. BECAUSE our own pain has never been addressed and allowed to heal.
We can keep being brats, and now starting fights with things that DO want to love on us. OR, we can face that we have been hurt by scary things – but that we won't let it change us and turn us into a scary person who only sees scary things and scares others with their huge list of needs. You can start over today by letting things be and also deciding to only go towards what allows you to grow and get better. If it blocks, maybe it is a rock.
You can start over today
By letting things be
And deciding to only go towards
What allows you to grow and get better.
If it blocks, maybe it is a rock.
Or maybe it's a wound
Unhealed and giving you the feels
So you finally will allow yourself to heal.
You deserve the good life.
Your wounded state travels
In the opposite direction.