OKAY. HEADS UP. Today we are back in the manifestation of the fears that you are still holding inside, from what took you off path over the last 8 years. We have been coming back to this space often to plant new seeds of a new pattern where we correct from where we bought into something wrong or where things just went off in partnerships or collaborations or with YOU being able to come together and do more with others.
BUT. Today hits HARD into the wound of you not feeling seen or special, and ways you may feel rotten to the core in thinking that your mistakes cannot be corrected. BE AWARE that your mind will be pressed to the past and you will wish you had done things differently. You may even get real low in thinking it's all too messed up and it will never be a better day. ALSO, be aware that nostalgia is all over the place and for that reason you will look back into these old feelings and will be looking out at the future and thinking that nothing will be the same again. There is the feeling that nothing will be like how it was, and it can PLUMMET people where they shoot down and think maybe they can't even ever get back up. This also can leave you in FREEZE where you just look stunned and staring off into space.
But. My loves! This is all on schedule and we actually need you in this desperate position, wishing for a miracle and REALLY FEELING what your decisions, or others’ decisions, have created in this moment now. And it did not go as planned. But. My loves! In a few hours this will shift and it's going to be the final feeling you really need so that you finally pay attention to the decisions you are making.
Are you just allowing yourself to be hooked to the internet and searching for answers, answers, answers – while feeling your energy empty, empty, empty. But unable to stop yourself.
KNOWING THE SADNESS you feel for all that has been lost and all that you said yes to when you should have said no, and all that you said no to when you should have said yes, ALL THAT is to sit in you hard and heavy so that you wake up to the decisions you get to make today and moving forward. YOU CAN CORRECT. But YOU got to be the one choosing for it – and you were programmed to follow along, so you won't naturally choose for it. Instead you will choose for the phone, the snack foods, the drugs and alcohol, the projecting on others and hating them – as a means of processing your own hatred for how you have NOT ACTED like you wanted to.
So, sit in that stew of sadness and honor that you are there to create something better with your life where YOU FINALLY SEE that you are important, and you CAN order up whatever you want as if you are a child. You can be like, I WANT THAT!!! And -- you are encouraged to do so. BUT THEN, my lovelies, you got to get up and do. You got to move towards the new life. You got to rise from the misery of seeing so much pass you by that you didn’t think you needed to grab on to, and FROM THAT PLACE you will be reborn into life on Earth.
And reborn as in finally you will realize how precious this all is and it will get you going towards what is love, and not what is pain. Our wounds keep us glued to what will hurt us and affirm the beliefs we hold inside that think we deserve to not be loved, to not be seen, to have to suffer because others stole what was something pure about who we are. They keep us in the state of damn you for hurting me. Which is not a state we want to be in.
And yes, this happened. Yes, it happened. BUT. Let it fuel you finally into a better direction in life. If you have no control, don’t stay in what continues to affirm that. Get up and go do something for you that does make you feel lighter, like playing with kids or animals or being out in nature and just not worrying about time or the past or the lessons YOU HAVE HAD TO WALK.
Because bottom line, you needed to walk what you did – even if it makes no sense to you why. NONE OF US UNDERSTAND WHY for most of our lives. Why did I have to lose so many pets to other people killing them? Even when I was about 6, my mom HAD to go to this popular concert that everyone was going to, so she hired this new babysitter who had never watched us before, who while my mom was dancing it up, drowned all my kittens because she said she was trying to kill the fleas. I was just a baby, and this stranger came in and killed all my babies. One of the most painful moments of my life, up there with having Moon Bear killed and stolen from me too.
But that WAS my life. Everyone came in to violate, disgrace, diminish and attempt to destroy me. And yes, for some reason I needed to experience every one of those things – not like I deserved it in the ways we can get confused in understanding why things happened. BUT THE FEELING is what I needed to experience. And other than that, we aren’t to question it. IT DOES MEAN SOMETHING. Even for me, I realized long ago that I am not to want revenge on those who have hurt me – so I am tempted with THE most extreme acts of injustice to tempt me to curse others, which would then curse my own life, as that is how it goes. So, I do understand it more now, but I used to curse everyone who hurt me, and they all are in the gutter today, none have soared. But I also couldn’t soar because I cursed myself by cursing them for hurting me. Now I will NEVER HATE YOU if you hurt me. I will go into silence and stay there until I heal, but I don’t wish anything negative for anyone again.
And you will learn the same about what hurt you and took you off path from where you planned. DON’T HATE what is here for you to see. It's FOR YOU, for some mysterious reason, and it IS to better you or get your sweet soul expecting more loving situations to grace your world. Be what you want to see. Take this VERY seriously.
DON’T HATE what is here for you to see.
It's FOR YOU, for some mysterious reason,
and it IS to better you or get your sweet soul
expecting more loving situations to grace your space.
Be what you want to see.
Take this VERY seriously.
Dwelling in the past keeps you
Manifesting a future that is the past.
You deserve to rise over this learning curve
And get to the teaching that sets you free.
Step into a new honoring story.