M O N D A Y 25 jan |
The energy is putting you in contact with others today, and you are to take this and open to the solution that wants to help bring things together and get you in the clear in how you are feeling around what has been needing to make it to the surface.
Today is about lots of movement and going along as you feel but seeing that you come together with others and your communication is on empowering things or coming together and feeling more hopeful about life. You may hear people talking about blessings and feeling so supported by what is synchronistically showing up – when most had started to lose faith.
We need to normalize temporary ghosting – because we ALL are at capacity in ways and processing the trauma of the past few years. Now with covid, we ARE with anxiety and quick fuses that can send us into collapse. It's just what happens with trauma and processing it when we haven’t really been able to face it. So, stop jumping the gun in destroying what is still in miscommunication or wounded new understandings unfolding.
Getting a feral kitten was the best decision I have ever made because it showed me the process of YOU AND ME getting out of our wounded ways. I couldn’t touch Moonbella until day 8, where I just stroked her head, while she was trapped in this space where she couldn’t run away. She would hiss as I came in and hiss as I pulled my hand away.
Then day 17 she was snuggling with me on the couch and letting me do all the loving I wanted to do on her. But I could have given up on her sooner. Having a cute little kitten that had no human contact is kind of torture because all you see from them is that they don’t like you. And I had to look beyond that. I had to see that this is what she knows and it's what she will keep giving me until she learns she can trust me.
And over time, it has actually worked! This gives me so much faith in the human condition, and in my own wounded human condition! Now she trusts me, and she is in LOVE with Mamba and rarely leaves his side. We are the cutest little magical team of total connection. But I didn’t see it for almost 3 weeks. I had to stay around and trust that this would be worth it. Now I got the best kitty for me!!
And keeping it real, day 16 I was sort of fed up with how distant she was with me and I started to lose faith in her ever losing her old ways with me. And the next day we snuggled on the couch. What a difference a day makes. We need to honor this truth and GIVE PEOPLE A CHANCE to come out of their wounds. We are wild hissing cats way too quickly, and others push us away way too quickly. We all are cats in a cat fight and are just being very dramatic with it all. When really we need to slow down and see how OUR EFFORTS can be different, can be more patient, can be more compassionate.
From my journey with Moonbella, I learned a new patience because I decided I would give her whatever she needed to feel 100% safe and with things on her terms. I expanded as time moved on, which led to finally petting her.
So, see how you can dance different in seeing what others need first, or understanding there IS a 3 week time to work through before you cut things off and continue that old pattern of yours where you don’t deal with what is really here. What you are going to put out is like the salve to your own soul in what you need others to see about you. Even me and my cat, I was TOTALLY feral with a mother who hated the sight of me. Who only showed me anger and disgust.
So. I was Moonbella who didn’t know I could trust anyone, who didn’t know what organic Mama love felt like. So that I would hiss at you, is something I totally understand now. And I didn’t take any of it personally with my kitty, and you don’t need to take any of it personally with those around you who blow off steam in confusing ways. Why would they push your love away?? Because they don’t know what love is. Give them a chance and others will give YOU a chance.
It's not personal.
We all have a lot going on.
If you weren’t sensitive around rejection
You wouldn’t take the silence
As an insult to your value.
We’ll get back to you!
We all need a pause button right now.
Believe your connection will come
When we all are ready.
Don’t turn it dirty.
MOST LIKELY it's not as bad
As it seems to be.