W E D N E S D A Y 6 jan |
Good morning sweet beauties. So today can get many of you confused as something comes in that is a bit illusive. This is a ripple of your past several years coming in to test you in seeing how you respond THIS TIME, like on today.
Things are wanting to move you along and get you with this thing that lights up your heart, and it takes you standing up against some inner mental defeatist thought that you did learn from something you saw, but it's time to face it and shift it into the other side of an expression. It's time to stop leaning over into spaces that you were pushed into.
You know I told you how that woman let her dog loose, a dog that IS aggressive and she knows it, but she just thought, hey, let me take mine off leash and see if it's a nicer dog. And before she even started, I said NO. I put my hands up even like NO, don’t do this. And she did. Then the dog came racing for mine and started a fight, which was my dogs first fight.
THEN days later my dog started acting aggressive with others’ dogs. He started snapping at dogs, even his friends! And THEN he started chasing cars, or when we walk by them on the road, maybe he sees a dog, but he’ll all of a sudden scare me as he leaps towards a moving car! I’m like, DUDE. Stop this shit.
But understand that this is what happens with us too! Someone comes in and starts something nasty or shows us some way that humans can be, and then we start doing it ourselves! And THEN, we start doing other weird shit, like pushing others away or ruining true love relationships or throwing away opportunities because we are SO glued to our wounds and with all these needs that must be met before we allow others in. The only reason we are so unstable is because of how others have hit us. I will get my dog back to his normal ways – but we have to honor the healing journey of rewiring what got torn down or violated or destroyed about our trust.
If someone betrayed you, you will likely now go and betray others in some way, and then you will push away people that would never betray you. When we don’t heal, we stay glued to situations that affirm HOW we have been hurt. When we rise around and above our wounds, we attract the people who would never betray us – and it is natural in how we come together.
So, to get back to our old selves, before everyone done fucked up and broke us, we have to heal how they hurt us. We can't just move along and get over it. We HAVE to face what was done and we have to see how it has us dented and leaning in ways that are NOT OUR TRUTHS. This energy wants you waking up out of particular wounds that really keep you in the past. This will happen from getting you to see that what happened to my dog, happened to you and me.
Finally getting into professional trauma therapy, which I recommend you all do, got me really seeing the error of my ways, but that were my ways because of the abuse I lived. I didn’t know I was such a rat bastard in how I treated a lot of people and things. I had no clue that I was doing anything that wasn’t okay for me to do. But getting older and wiser and healing my wounds, I see how I pushed it all away because I couldn’t believe anyone or anything could really love me or be amazing.
Some of those birth and childhood wounds cover our eyes to the point we are boggled as to how you could even love us – because we didn’t naturally get to see it. And we really don’t know what it is. But we know being hated. And therefore, we go out into the world and HATE everything. You are not okay, that is not okay, you are a bad person, you are not as good as me. If we weren’t raised correctly, we hate a lot of things when we grow up.
And it is ALL because that first dog came and attacked us. Then we started attacking other dogs, and then, we started chasing cars. But before the dog fight, we never even thought of doing those things.
So, honor that wrong was done, and YOU HEALING sets it straight. There IS a way. There IS a solution. You WILL come to the other side. But first, you have to honestly look at how you now are starting fights and chasing cars, when you know you don’t really want to be. That is step 1; face how other influences got you leaning in not the best ways.
Face how others got you
To be the leaning tower of Pisa.
Face how it got you to be
Who you are NOT.
Make peace with how
You haven’t shown up
As your truth
And make dedications
To straighten your act
And to find your natural groove.