S A T U R D A Y 20 june | READING FOR EACH SIGN
OH HELLO SOLAR ECLIPSE IN CANCER! And right at the first degree, so this one is very much about Gemini too, as we will see from a higher perspective how we need to WALK OUR TALK and not just stay in this intellectualized world like what Robin DiAngelo was in presenting herself as an authority on racism when she is white. This is like someone who has was never had a baby or children positioning themselves as an authority on birthing and raising kids. It's just this outside perspective, where you MAY be a good writer, or front person and able to be the newscaster holding the balloon of a subject, but you are not really holding the vibration of the depth of the actualized experience.
And we are thinking now about where we feel insecure or not really confident – and because we aren’t really the authorities we maybe would like to quickly position ourselves as, in a capitalistic world programming you to take and exploit and to not wait for actual development, so we ARE feeling emotional and not so grounded with what we THOUGHT something was going to be.
This time is going to feel epic and DIVINE for some, like the baby is finally here and in your arms, and like waves of monsoons hitting one after the other for others. What we see in this energy is that where you are not as solid as you THINK, a flood is coming in to get you really wondering about what is going on in your future. This will cause instability and something where you feel raw and out of control. You may even be like a caged animal and like, get me out of here!!
Some of you will feel claustrophobic to the life around you and it can have you showing yourself in ways that are full of outbursts or tears or even falling to the ground unable to cope. AND THIS IS OKAY. There is some way you have not been keeping something real, as you were programmed to keep it superficial and to just try to make this pass. But in 2020 our depths rise – and if we haven’t done the work, or haven’t faced what keeps coming up like a ball in the water, or where you didn’t even really know how to go about doing the work, then things will be coming up in such large ways that it CAN feel very overwhelming. Things can feel fast, and slow, and too much and not enough. It's all over the place with much bringing upset tummy feelings and nausea at not feeling in control of enough. This space is the birthing canal and it needs to be treated as such. So feel and yell and let your truth OUT. Don’t hold back. This is your time to be you and if it roars, so be it. You deserve to set something free.
Now others are going to feel that this is the shift that is everything you have needed. You will feel different in your body as something is grounding you to see that you can start over, and that when you start going towards things that support and nurture you, you DO feel grounded and more hopeful and free. It is just when we are in situations that are dry and reserved and where you have to chase after things to get what you want that we never feel grounded and safe here.
Life wants us making decisions where we feel things that DON’T feel good and where we then have to USE OUR VOICES to stand up for ourselves, or others, and demand better. We don’t just get better because we think it is a part of the life journey. We instead have to sit in what is fraudulent or doesn’t work and we are to find the way that works FROM THAT provocation. Which – the provocation always does play a part. Just like how Robin DiAngelo is using her white privilege to be a wrecking ball into this awareness – but now she is to use the hole she made to bring in people who ARE authorities and who DO know this subject authentically, which is not going to be white people. Her responsibly in being someone who is walking their talk is to then DO SOMETHING with this opportunity in putting black people in positions to lead this correction forward.
Walk your talk or go home and keep learning so that you eventually can. Space needs to be held for true authorities to rise and not just egos wanting to monetize on something BECAUSE THEY CAN – because the system allows for balloon energy to be put in front of our eyes and to con us into thinking THIS IS IT. But when we go deep and feel within our bodies, we are hesitating because this IS still cooking, or it IS in need of adjustments or ingredients before thrusting outward with the ego always driving the purpose.
There is a better way and we all need support to grow. With support, we grow into something of authenticity and we stay where we should without spreading ourselves thin trying to capture all the fish and feed our greedy egos to keep our balloons afloat.
Walk your talk
or go home and keep learning.
We aren’t ready until we really know.
And when we KNOW
The universe opens up to help us share that knowing.
This growth comes from within.
It all changes when WE change.