M O N D A Y 1 mar | We start March in a gateway where we are seeing into the wounds we hold that deal with the narrative of how we don’t feel valuable or seen by others. You can feel like you are HAVING to hide and HAVING to be this other representation, and it can have you feeling nuts! It can make your brain go livid at the thought of having to abide by others way when it just doesn’t feel good to do it.
What changes now is that our feelings are getting so fine-tuned that they ARE finally muffling out the confusion we contribute to by trying to make things make sense in our minds or come to some understanding. When ultimately, the body feels a way for a reason, and YOU DON’T NEED TO KNOW. You don’t need to get to some understanding, you just need to flow with the feeling of how things guide you towards situations, people and mental states that DO feel good.
Confusion is a step towards clarity, and we are learning new ways to digest confusion so that it becomes interesting instead of debilitating. To not know is not a weakness! And the only way to REALLY KNOW is to walk things and be curious to what The Great Mystery will next bring. You are learning to be loose with it all, but to also honor that you DON’T HAVE TO steer yourself into the pain and the negative and the fear and the wonder if you are getting it all wrong. You just need to stop needing to know it all and now get out there and experience it all.
Don’t think life needs YOU figuring it out. It needs you trusting the journey and seeing to revolutionary ways to present yourself in the world and to expect that the same love you put out there will find you and amplify the beauty you know you are inside.
When we are at a rough angle, the friction inspires movement where we value our space more. To see that you deserve to use your voice and to expect that your feelings are the truth, you open and show vulnerability that gets you in situations where the correct people and opportunities are there to give you space to keep growing. So. Do this. Be vulnerable and real and expect that this gets you to more REAL beauty in your life.
There is a new way for me to be
And it's not the story of my history.
It's the idea of real beauty
And revolutionary shifts
That bring me to the other side
Of where I used to be.
Time to grow a more powerful me.