Oh hello NEW MOON in Taurus + Earth Day! AND -- today marks the 50 year anniversary of Earth Day, and you know I only know that because my friend, one of the dearest souls on this planet was born on the first one as a premie baby! Happy birthday Kris! Or, as I would do it, Krrriiiiiiiiis. Gotta peel it out slowly when you really love them.
And loves, you too are going to be feeling blessed with this energy as suddenly and out of the blue you see into your past and see how the wounds you were forced to walk are what get you walking in certain ways and manifesting things that only while already tangled in them do you see how wrong they were for you, or beneath what you would choose if you really loved and valued yourself.
But we all walk this path together and know this story that plays out over and over. You are to see that you DID choose appropriately when you said yes to that thing, and you also needed the thing to show you how wrong it was for you, like those lovers from your past where the hindsight is so clear, but when it is in current reality you DID NOT allow yourself to see the things that were signs or negative points that you had already declared you don’t do. Your inner voice didn’t speak up because you thought this was good enough or it would do, or you could compromise and maybe look the other way.
AT THIS TIME, our inner voices are standing on the crossroads of life and showing us things that HAD TO HAPPEN. You are to release your hold on thinking you did something wrong just because you sit in an uncomfortable situation around it. Life goes up and it goes down and it goes up and it goes down -- and thank goodness for the variety because we learn things while up that we couldn’t learn while down, and we learn things while down that we couldn’t learn while up.
We need the day and the night. We need the black and the white. We need the ripples of the waves to get us into position for what NEXT flows. We go to school or apprentice for the one day when we get to do it on our own or even teach others to do it. But we don’t just jump to positions because if we do, we won't be able to HOLD what we are comprehending and experiencing on the Earth Walk. INSIDE we won't be solid and gelled like we need to be, and THUS comes insecurities and fears that we will be found out or something that reveals we took a “short cut” gets in the way of sustaining our growth.
And remember that 2020 is about our energy on the inside being “visible” on the outside. So ultimately, taking short cuts is so 2016-2019. As we have been programmed to exploit and to use others for our own gain. Short cuts are about you lose and I win, or I get the upper cut or the advantage or the privilege. And in the old days you could get away with it. But in this new 2020 energy that is HERE TO STAY, we got to hold what we preach and own what we teach.
We got to tend our lands and grow our veggies and actually walk the experiences that get us really knowing what REALLY is going on. Just like how I did the 40 day fast and now I KNOW the experience. Same as if I climbed this big monument that only a few have, along with Jesus, like with the 40 day fast, then walking it enables me to guide others on what they too can experience.
We can't just point and say DO THIS because we read it in a book and heard that it was this experience for another. I can't just tell you what it's like to live in NYC when I’ve never even been to the North East! I can't tell you what it's like to experience the Corona Virus anxiety when I live in a small mountain town in Colorado and am not in the epicenter of NYC, or Italy.
We need to GET THIS. Our poor little internet brains are so programmed, and we only think FAST and I know best, right here, right now and deserve to be seen as a leader or authority. Like, the "internet human" vibes those ways -- swipe, swipe, next, next, and but me, but what about me. And for good reason, you were programmed. It keeps you not taking the time to really get to know someone or something and not dedicating yourself to the purpose of creation and growth. Fast is microwave which kills ALL THE NUTRIENTS!!! Personally, I would NEVER use one and never encourage that anyone would. What’s the rush? The tradeoff is food with NO high vibes. And we are what we eat. So it will MOST LIKLEY make you feel shitty afterwards.
And when we talk about your value as seen from your guides and your inner voice NOT shielded and playing the good little obedient one, then we only hear that patience brings you the best things that will truly value you. So deep breaths and look into your far range plans. You ARE going somewhere and we need you slowing down in this moment so that you can make better decisions that don’t speak of a lesson needing to show you that you ARE worthy. Wait for something better. Rushing won't get you what you want.
In this new 2020 energy that is HERE TO STAY, we got to hold what we preach and own what we teach. Our insides lead. So we best pay attention.