S U N D A Y 13 september |
Feel this, my loves, and allow it to take you to something new. We are in a space where something needs to transform and evolve into a new path that is based on you choosing or seeing something better for yourself where you know you are important, and CAN create a life of happiness to come. If you only saw one reality, like with domestic violence or addiction or betrayal, then you have to work tons harder to NOT keep expecting those things to continue on – EVEN IF you acknowledge that you want them to be gone.
WE all know we don’t want pain, but if we saw it in our past, we fear its arrival, again and again -- even if we don’t want to hold that fear. If you were in a car accident, it's hard to forget. And this is what this is all about. For that reason, you will feel sensitive today in regards to something that was left empty in you or unrequited. BUT today you just need to sit with the feelings and to then consciously affirm that you are starting over today as you feed your insecurities with positive words and visions for how you WILL rise from what crushed you. And that this is not how you go down and stay down. Plant the seed and spend time today actually seeing how what you saw is not what you are going to continue to see. Affirm that today is a new day as you now are swinging to the other side of things.
One thing about the last 2 years living in Durango is that everything started to backslide, like the moment I got there and found out my internet was grossly subpar for running an internet business. But it was one thing after another, from ultimately living in a house that didn’t offer support for me. But my wounded self went straight into the no and tried, like all wounded people do, to make it work.
And then the moment I got in my new home I have been moving in forward motion again. I am 100% getting back on track, but for 2 years I was only going backwards – and it was hard to have to sit with and manage, while not losing hope that in the future it could be corrected. But here I am, and I now feel full speed ahead, as I go back and correct what was all undone in the last 2 years.
So, accept that going backwards is not always the worst thing, and it won't last forever. You have to see how you will grow stronger from this moment and not how much it has hurt you and hurt what you built and thought you could count on. Things may have you feeling limited and short sighted, so be your inner coach and set the record straight. Just because you have been manipulated doesn’t mean you always will be. But you do need to follow the love and follow what reaches out to support things because manipulation is about hate and division and ultimately getting you to waste your mental space with negativity. Only the wounded would say yes to that and agree to something that DOES limit their future potentials. So, look out at what gets you to feel and see how you need to start attracting better things through cleaning up your expectations for what is to come your way. The good is there and if you listen to your heart you will discover new needs and stronger boundaries that need to be put into place. Do so and your flow will turn back to gain.
Look out at what gets you to feel
And see how you need to
Start attracting better things
Through cleaning up your expectations
Of what you think them to be.
Expect the light to find your way
And for the day when the backsliding
Returns to gain.