14 february | well hello F R I D A Y!
Oh wow. How wild that we enter the blossoming, which is something I haven’t heard before in the duration of doing these readings for over 4 years -- but that today is Valentine’s Day and also that many of you are 100% hooked up into the feelings of your heart, but MOST of you are in a pile of tears because this is SO HEAVY, and real. But. We can’t question the astrology, and there is something to this that we need to be walking.
Today is saying our love natures were done wrong and therefore we cant help but go out into the world and do wrong things. It is inevitable. The point is, do we allow the huge mistakes we make, because we were not raised right or given the tools and support we needed to be stronger and clearer with our boundaries and power?
Or do we rise above them and correct our wrong moves so that we don’t have to feel the guilt or burden of something left incomplete. We all have things incomplete because we all are wounded and we learned to run from things that cause us pain or trigger our wounds.
So we all have ghosted – and truly all the best friendships have periods of ghosting that just occurs because of life. But we leave things and we come back when we are strong and ready. We leave our family homes to go off and learn about the real world and how to heal what was incorrectly done.
We go off and expand ---- but we expand and grow from the places that kind of scare us to go. I grew the most when I moved to San Francisco at 24, but I had never been there before. So it was kinda scary to go full on into an unknown that I knew 0% about. Well, I knew I wanted to move there, but I didn’t know what I was moving into.
And this pain we have been knowing in our lives over the past year is symbolic of where we are about to grow but where some debt or old pain or thing needing your attention is now showing up as a road block saying, DEAL WITH THIS. And what is great is that what we see or what we end up facing will then move us to get this party started and not fuck around with wasting our lives carrying this bullshit load.
And for real. You may get pissed as you wake up to what you have been doing. Allow that. Allow yourself to feel or to question, WHAT WAS I THINKING???? Motivation grows from this sharp change of direction to come. So this wake up call is your sign that change is on the way.
BUT. Remember that just as when we die and we can’t take anything with us, we now can’t take this debt or this heavy load or fear-based mentality or anger or jealousy – we can’t take that thing that is keeping us from our happiness.
We must let go – and for most of us it means we have to go into this to first clean it up and deal with it. The let go will take work, and that’s what gave you great excuse to keep it locked away. But now. Something in you is ready for a big change and we all should be focused to true north in heading towards what is in need of repair. Be afraid no more. March in and get this job done.
And THEN, oh then, oh blissfully then, then you get to be free. Keep working baby. Its not supposed to be easy right now. This part of our shift will be hard – and THEN easy. But not easy first. We got to show up for this and work for this and believe that our love nature deserves BETTER and that through this birth canal we get there.