T H U R S D A Y 31 dec |
OKAY THEN. Something comes to the head today and rushes forward into a space where things move into the other side. This will be a huge swoosh of energy that shifts us around and gets us seeing what actually is going on. People may be revealing things or sharing what is in their heart and it will be to clear the air on confusions. Answers are to be coming where for a while you have been in wait and wondering.
Be aware that this is to move you to the other side of a bridge where you now will start creating a better life for yourself. Something comes and you may wonder how you could have missed it before – but really this is just your consciousness waking up and noticing new things with new senses being activated.
This is going to feel real sweet for many of you where you will feel like it is the old days or something where the moments feel more valuable where you are more in it and aware of it. I live in a place now and it's just like the joy I felt every day when I lived in San Francisco in my mid to late 20’s. But now I am full blown conscious in ways I wasn’t even close to back then. So now my moments are so IN AWE of it all and smiling over everything. Actually. When I lived in SF my face was on automatic smile, to the point my cheeks were constantly lifted. Then I left and couldn’t smile again for over a decade – where I looked back nostalgically upon the old days when I smiled always because I was so overflowing with joy for my life.
And I have that again now, finally, and not since. But now I am older, wiser, kinder, working harder, expecting more and going to show up for what rises as opportunities for me. Through our journey of roller coaster rides we get firmer and stronger with boundaries and expectations, and we use our voices where we throw out the line and expect to catch a fish.
These changes happen over the years, and they are always too subtle to even notice, but over time we make completely different decisions, with completely different ways of going about them. Think of 1st marriage, versus 4th. Or think of 1st date versus 4th date. Or 1st day on vacation versus 4th day on vacation.
From the steps, we decide to walk different than we did in our past. HONOR that we all shift right now and for many it can get you loud on needing things your way. Allow yourself to be a peacock and to declare that you deserve love and that you are ready to be seen.
You got to put yourself into things and into the belief that you are an open line to the lake where all the fish are ready for you, but you got to throw your line in first. You can't sit in the car and just have your fishing pole in the back seat. You have to throw out a line to what you want. You got to get loud and proud about what your heart really dreams for. And then you got to sit in your boat and wait.
Sometimes you DO have to throw some things back into the lake because they are too small and still need to grow more – as if they are for someone else, actually. Do this with honor for all. Some things are NOT for you, but you may get what someone else threw out years ago that now is huge and wonderful and just what you have been waiting/working for. KEEP FISHING my loves! Your fish awaits. Don’t take what isn’t yours. See it as respectful to say no to what doesn’t fit. It doesn’t fit you but it fits someone else. We ONLY are to go towards what is natural and harmonious glue. Believe your glue awaits. It does. For each and every one of you.
We ONLY are to go towards
What is natural and harmonious glue.
Believe your glue awaits.
For each and every one of you.
This time will change you for sure! Something now is in place where you are focusing on what you are going to be doing with your life as this new level is now holding you and showing you support so that you DO have other things to focus on. Where things were like a slow drain at home, they now will start flowing again and from you making space to expand and apply upgrades to how you want to get out there far and wide. Because you DID, and kept with honoring that you need a certain level of support, you now will see that things are starting over and things are finally falling into place. This is going to be when you start to feel different and will show yourself in ways that are as if you have come out the other side or have another story to tell. You may even feel older or aware of how quickly life is going and how much you want to DO in order to GET what you really dream for. Something about the automatic is falling away and you will create a better day today that feels good in your body. If you have a headache, nothing around you can be fully enjoyed. If you don’t have a headache, everything around you can be fully enjoyed. See that others are a headache to you, or they have energy that doesn’t treat you in supportive ways you need. But when the headache goes away, we all have the best day. Because the pain was so intense, it gets us conscious and aware of FEELING how good the day is when we aren’t in pain. This time is flipping you to a new foundation that is as if the headaches go away. This means you will be more conscious with what you can do and what you want to do. Expect to take leaps of faith and to have no clue. Expect to put your things out there far and wide and to see affirmation that shows you that you do have a home here. Your energy is to reach out, but from a new base that really supports and helps you see that the rebuild IS taking place.
Something is coming alive in you that is all about you growing more powerful and using your impact to make a difference where your expressions support others through challenging situations. You are to be going through the process of transformation where you may feel a bit lost and confused for a while, but then things will shift overnight into better position, that then put YOU into better position. Something has changed around you where now you are seeing another side and it is helping you understand why things had to be the way they were. But notice that this is also getting you excited to want to clean up your hidden things and take care of what is a burden or what you would otherwise want to just push away for another day. Your voice is getting stronger -- and where before you followed along, you now will be blunt in keeping with what you feel, and honoring that there IS a way to see it all as something that IS correctable or to be put into an upgrade that brings it into better form. This energy wants you seeing how you forget how gifted you are and how you can fall into the fears that others just planted before you that now you are walking through. This time wants you seeing that you CAN start new and that sometimes tests have to be at the beginning to make sure we really know our stuff or can really be the authority or give of our things in the best ways. The light is coming and it will be wonderful! This will inspire you with new energy that wants to teach or show the way in how to bring nourishment to things. Taurus is the cow. Mama Earth is the cow. That means Taurus carry the structure of Mama Earth in them. Honor that in your words and in how you see your things going out there to reach others. Be conscious that what you do is an example for how you think others should treat Mama Earth. Seek to rebuild your public image and things that give off a perspective. Your view is changing, and it needs to be reflected in what you promote about yourself and your visions.
This energy is going to shift your focus so that you start to see how others have imprinted you to be the way you are where you always are seeking for more and trying to understand how to use that to have it represent a role for you to be seen as. This is like telling the story of an event while you are still in it. It's wanting to be somewhere else or in some higher role, when where you need to be is here now and putting nourishment and support into what you want to walk as your foundation. This energy is to pull you in yourself so that you can see things that otherwise you would not. What you will see is that you only value yourself if these certain needs are being met. And if they are not, you question yourself and then scatter about trying to do too much, hoping it will ground or settle you. You are learning new ways to naturally settle and to see that others just got you rushing along when you still need to grow with this and be with this and get to understand this without worrying so much to the point you fear and get confused. When you need to give attention to how your body is speaking to you about things – and is getting you to see that you have needs and your voice matters and the feelings that run through you, that in other times you talk yourself out of, are now rocking your boat and making it clear who is or is not good for you. You don’t have to keep your hand on the hot stove if it hurts you. This is a sign that it will hurt you – and that means it's a sign that it is not for your best. It's time to bring your emotions to the table with others and to work on healing the imbalance instead of allowing it to go along and become a bad habit. You are the one to use your voice and to do it in ways that are all about the feels. Be clear on how this feels in your body and how it makes you not feel important. Being honest like this is then to open a flood gate of creative inspiration. But it will go from empty to overflowing. There will be a distinct shift that comes where you finally will settle into what you need to see, and then, the solutions on what you need to hold you safely WILL come in to create a new garden to grow from. From strong boundaries come lush lands of love. Be firm and honest with your emotions.
This moon is to completely transform the way you look at the depth of your life and how it has created you into the person you are now. Something is to come that gets you standing taller and really feel proud of the new role you are ready to represent. Your view is changing, and it has you wanting to write and express and be around others where things feel comfy and at home. Your role in the world is to change because you are discovering more about the authentic comfortable ways to share of yourself so that you are not giving too much and depleting yourself or chasing after how everyone else is doing it and reading all the guidebooks on how to do the best way. This time wants you going into who you really are and finding the strength to show up in new ways where you are offering support or these good feels or things that you naturally do that assist others. There will be many details to work through and steps to where you want to be, but this moment is when you really see where you want to go and will feel this energy that is pulling you into any challenges that may be in your way so that you can get through it all and grow stronger. You should be feeling sort of badass and like seeing how we all can change – but also that life is a wave!! We sometimes are introverts and other times are extroverts. And right now, you ARE to be moving into positions where you are OUT THERE and sharing of what is your expertise. There are ways to offer support so that your own space is kept safe. See that. You don’t have to compromise to support yourself. You just got to use words that are about being glass half full and staying disciplined with your eyes on the prize – never leaving the idea of what you are working for. You WILL have good steam and grounded energy at this time that is to help you keep with things and keep with the shifts and goals you want to see checked off the lists.
Things are coming from those around you where you get the message that you CAN trust life and you CAN trust when things don’t look like they are going in the best direction. This time is showing you that things will be falling into place and your energy will be on the rise as sparks of opportunities appear to get you focused on the prize. You are to be sitting 100% in glass half full and where you are trying to hold compassion and find the ways to be non-judgmental. Things are leaving the old memory you have had about the path you thought you had to walk. This means your heart will speak loudly and you may even feel like you are confused in getting your message out or being understood by others. Something is getting you to show yourself in a new way where you are more of an authority or someone who shares innovation and ways to upgrade what was not working. You have the ways to bring things into a new tune so that you see your career or workplace scene is rebuilding and growing bigger like you would hope for it to. There is something with working for a goal and keeping with the challenges that are making you stronger and showing you that there ARE solutions and you ARE capable of getting through challenging situations with others. So, expect some surprises in what gets you showing up stronger, and really showing us your souls purpose gifts. Something rises now because you ARE good at this. You just need to surrender to life and know that you don’t ever really know. But right now, you are learning to honor your feelings and to bring them forward if they can make a difference. It's about keeping it real and not hiding behind how you feel expected to be in life. This also means CHANGE is in order as your feelings will guide you to let go of what actually was an escape mechanism keeping you behind you.
You are in for some big surprises! You were getting stuck in thinking things were wrong or something was not holding you anymore, when in fact something now comes in to make you feel loved and show you that you CAN have happy days again, and you CAN rise with your creative spirit, when it had gone to sleep for a bit. Things are getting you into a better position so that you just shine the brilliance that you are and don’t worry about finding a place. This energy wants the place finding you, where the order is FIRST you shine and THEN a position comes in to make you more comfortable. So do expect that you will be feeling strongly and having things impact you more than they would in your past. Your heart feels different and it feels like it is ready to rebuild and grow something again based on the loss and how things did not go how you thought in the last year. Things are stopping around your heart and feelings so that you can open up to something that IS showing how you need to be seen in these ways, but how it's not really authentic and it's based on what you think you need. When rather, you are to open to more and to expect that you don’t even need to mess around with declaring your needs or fighting your way to clarity. You just need to expect that you will have harmony and that you are valuable enough to deserve the best. This energy wants you waking up to unlimited potential and getting you seeing how your heart needs to be reborn and rebuilt from a position of abundance – and no longer scarcity. You also are walking into situations that are to put you together with others where there is a real connection here. You somehow invite this in from the changes you are doing behind the scenes where you face your own issues with money around value. Things are to be getting you more creative and where you find ways to sustain yourself IN LOVE. This is special because it's saying that you can have so much more, and it really comes from you being in your creative gifts and seeing that the world will find a place for you when you are ready to present a finished dream.
This is the moon that really transforms you and gets you starting over with the story you tell about how you think your future still can be. Something is to come where you see that love is still alive, and you are not alone, and you WILL BE LOVED. Something is leaving your system where you have traveled far enough, but it is where your mental space was going negative BECAUSE of the confusion and because this was not your ordinary path or what you expected. From the shock of disappointment or confusion, you stopped a bit and then your mind started going negative on things. This energy is to shift that back into a new place where a cycle begins and where you will feel more grounded about taking care of the heavy things, but not making them the worst thing ever or something that you keep telling in your stories and painting into your new day. Around this moon you will wake up and feel different where you somehow will see that things may take work, but the solutions are there and they somehow deal with getting you to choose for even more. So, the shifts to come will get you REALLY opening up and seeing that you are important and will still be loved in the ways you most desire in the future that is unfolding as it should. There IS work to do, and that is showing up as a burden you have been worried over or where you haven’t known what to do to correct it, but this energy is to show you where others got you following along and now living something that is not your song. From feeling and from wanting a life of love you WILL start to change what you believe you still can manifest. The point of this energy is that you are to believe in more and to not think anything from your past has ruined what is yet to be – to not think time has passed you by and the opportunities already lost. You still have so much to be excited for! So BE excited for the new life you are creating where your feelings matter and the world around you supports your dreams.
This energy is going to create a huge break of an old pattern of yours where you get emotional and then you go negative and into debt and into thinking you can't handle something. At least that is what you give off by the WORDS you use. This moon will get you opening to something that deals with your value system and your creative gifts, where you now are letting go of something that ultimately got you buying into scarcity, but that somehow deals with another and their perspective on life. Something will open you to seeing YOU can have your own perspective on life, and have it be where you live in a supportive universe where you just know you are being taken care of and you can trust the mysteries and the leaps of faith that take you moving into the unknown, and not really knowing how this will go. Expect to have strong emotions and to see that they are guiding you and getting you to speak more about how things can grow – instead of so quickly making them dead. Something is to inspire you, like when we go on vacations, and this is what will get you into a new path with your words, with your expressions and with what you want to share creativity. You are discovering a crack in the system that just needs more of your love and the belief that things CAN grow. How they are to may surprise you, but it is to get you seeing more into your power and into the amazing force of change you possess WITH your take on things. If your take is other people’s take and their take is toxic, where does that leave you? Listening to your body will guide you safely. And your body is taking you to what helps you to grow far and wide so that you ARE excited for life. See that the steps were made for you. See that you are ready to rebuild and do what it takes. BUT SERIOUSLY. Watch your words. Watch how you either crush or replenish. The crush is from another and it's a weed you no longer need to believe in. No toxins for you. Think slow and steady, and sweet and hopeful.
Things are to change DRASTICALLY for you with this moon, and by golly, do you need it! Something is to take you plunging head on into the depth of serious matter that has a heavy weight to it and that may deal with death. It speaks of transformational times where you are seeing into what wired you in the wrong ways. And you get to seeing these things when you plunge deep and feel strong and go to places that maybe you haven’t gotten to before. You may feel stunned by how you FEEL and how things get you looking back in nostalgic ways. This somehow deals with a way you go about thinking where you learned to go glass half empty or to question your path and to hold back in believing if you have a purpose here. Something is to awaken you and get you into creative spaces where you are thinking about how to better grow a crop, and one where you DO hold high value to things – even if they take a lifetime to manifest. You are about committing to things and to grounding in something that sustains. You also will see into new ways to use your creative gifts or to make them more of your day to day. You will have tons of energy to get things done, and WHAT INSPIRES this shift and change of pattern deals with something coming in and reminding you that you ARE valuable, and what you DO IS special. Now we get to what stands in the way of you believing in asserting yourself and going for what YOU dream – and not what others have dreamed before that got you believing this is ALL you can expect. Limitation covers where you have been – unlimited potential covers where you will go if you believe you are valuable enough and worth all the good that awaits. Something inside of you planted with fear or doubt and it is to fall away at this time and get you seeing how THE OTHER PERSON took you on a ride with their issues and their programming. But inside of you is a better way, a new path, a life that waits that deals with true support and things that help you to want to share your gifts and share what makes you special. New others are to arrive to show you how it feels to get full sun instead of only full shade. Are you ready for this? Speak like you are. Use words that show you are open and ready to receive.
You are to be stepping into a whole new role where you want to show yourself in a different way to the world. Something that deals with the dream, that you maybe put on the shelf and didn’t fully buy into, is arriving in January. And whatever this is, it is to change the way you want to walk this life as it will inspire new movement and support where before there wasn’t anything there. You have been held back in regard to some of your recent steps, because you were still buying into some level of victimhood and doubt that you would have your needs met or that you CAN trust in some lofty and beautiful dream. You WERE still sort of thinking maybe you were cursed, or something is actually trying to hold you back. IN FACT, you have been in spaces of walking through the mystery and not knowing what this means SO THAT you could hear your feelings stronger and get you back into the flow where you KNOW you are golden and will get up the mountain no matter what others got going on or how things SEEM to be knocking you backwards. You have been learning to have faith in yourself and the process. And to keep on trusting EVEN WHEN things feel like you are lost or have missed the boat. IN FACT, you slowed down so that you would wait for the BEST boat. See that things are not ever against you and you can trust that the solutions and ways to rebuild and grow a better crop are HERE and coming swiftly. Things are to come fast where the ideas come or the thing that gets you feeling grounded again and excited for moving forward. Be assertive with others and don’t hold back if you feel shy. This time wants you showing up as someone who KNOWS the world is ready to say yes to you. Your confidence will spring alive from what shows up in your space that feels familiar and supportive of the dreams you’ve kept hidden for eons. THIS you can believe in.
This will feel so good to you! Finally, you will start getting up and doing and going for more in life. Something is lifting away and transforming from how you have sat back and processed things, where you DO make space to be the victim or to not get your way. Something in you IS holding yourself back and it deals with something you have seen or heard that now continues to play out -- and THIS is what keeps you from really moving forward and sharing your truth. You now are to be learning about having compassion and also being non-judgmental with life that greets you. Your mental spaces have gotten you in trouble BECAUSE you are shooting for glass half empty WAY too often. You are the special ones here and it's time for you to awaken again – but to not think you have to do this with aggression or going against the grain. You are learning to find your place from believing you have one – and NOT thinking you have to fight for it. And then attracting the people and opportunities that elevate you and help you to feel like you are living your soul’s purpose. So, YOU are the driver in this energy and it's about you finding home with yourself again and putting things back into order so that your life feels like it is moving you along. What was stuck is in you focusing on being the victim or using words that bring fight or aggression to what is still in the mystery. From your past you now believe, but you need to start believing from your future. This means you need to do a huge let go and to start a completely different way to walk. This new needs you leading the way where you BELIEVE the support and the steps will be there. The old you did not trust this. Face this and shift your focus to glass half full where ALL things want to greet you, actually. Don’t stand in your way a minute longer. It's NOT where you are to reside.
The dream awakens! This is a great reading for you! The water or emotions are being turned on where creative ideas will now start to move forward as a shift took place that now has others noticing you more. This whole process will usher in a NEW WORLD for you where something you have been working on will have wings to fly, and because of how you are going for something career based, but not how you used to go about it. The changes with you following your own truth and going outside the lines is what now is to grow bigger with rewards coming as upgrades to your life where things just connect or come together with synchronicity. Stay tuned to your body to guide the way but expect to assert in new ways and to go for the love or to go for your perfect place out in the world where you ARE valued and appreciated for being here. And when WITH your new and supportive group spaces, you WILL flourish as you have dreamed for eons of time. AMAZING new views are ahead for you and you need to believe that you can rebuild what didn’t work out before. You are walking into a REBIRTH with what brings joy into your life. So, SEE that you have the place, the people and the life that makes you feel important. They are waiting for you to send out the call, from the depth of your soul, HONORING that you deserve to be held, supported and celebrated – and you soon will be! Create the world you really want to be living. Go to your heart and ask for extreme wishes of the wildest wonderfulness. No more scarcity for you! Take what you deserve. Dream for things beyond what others could even imagine. Awaken and come forward. No more hiding or denying or escaping from what your heart wants.
W E D N E S D A Y 30 dec |
Oh hello FULL MOON in CANCER! She came late last night, so we have the energies flowing into 2 days! BE AWARE that something got turned on in you and it has you with attention towards your heart and your feelings. This is all a test to see how you handle the feeling and to open to looking towards a better future instead of acting rashly and going into the outcomes that are from what you saw in your past that was dry, lifeless and lacking support.
Be aware that YOUR RESPONSE to something is important and that you see you are wanting to heal and make better and not just escape from or shoot down or go into some automatic response. The wound will speak, but will you allow it to hurt things further? Or will you open to how you need to let something go and start in a new way where you rebuild and want to nurture what you have around you so that you can get into a better position out there.
You will be thinking about your home and how you need these things in place, and you need this certain feel from what ultimately is what supports you. You will make changes to help things support you better. But the changes somehow need to come from your orders, and your desire to set them straight.
You are moving into an assertive position where your role will change because you get up and start doing something different. Just like how a baby goes from crawling to walking – and how when walking comes into play, crawling is not really the main mode of action anymore. It served a purpose. It got you to grow and learn. But then you start over in a new way, and one that serves where you will be going, which is then running and jumping.
See that right now you are STARTING OVER in how you think about your limited time on Planet Earth. Where you paused before or let others lead the way, no way if it doesn’t feel good in your body now.
This reboot or starting over point will have you VERY selfish on the inside, in that your needs WILL feel strong as some things will feel no longer acceptable -- that you possibly just attracted BECAUSE of your wounded state. And the flow of following along in your old ways will no longer give you steam. I am seeing the image of a backed-up pipe and the tub not draining and how you can't put the rubber stopper in, because the pipe is full and there is no space for the water to be drawn down.
So, it's just like all one big pool, as a puddle would be, until it finally drains. So, SEE that many of you can feel backed up in this way, where you have overgrown into areas and now are just sort of sitting there and waiting for something to get you moving. When there is a clogged pipe, something AWAY from what is visible is the problem. It's not the bathtub or the water in the tub, it's something down below that now creates this chain reaction.
So, understand that for the steps of things. Be patient as your clog undoes itself. But for all floating moments, dream of how your life will move along and you in a higher position of wisdom and inner comfort from the inside – which likely is being birthed from this experience of floating with your backed-up material. Almost so that you can really see this and then say, WAIT. Do I want to take this with me into the future? With what backs up around you, is this what you want more of?
If not, set it straight for the next drain. When it finally leaves, let it go. And if it comes back later, show up and represent in a different way so that it knows it is no longer a part of your being that now dreams for better things. We don’t just suddenly start crawling again or continue to do it. We did that thing. It got us to another level, now let it go and focus on walking in a better way. And with others who are still crawling, respect their journey. They may start standing tomorrow!
It's not on you to judge, it's only on you to support. Show yourself as this better example. Your heart and feelings are leading you to get into what feels like it will love on you. Let go of what makes you chase after it and constantly wonder. What is real is right here and it FEELS a certain way. The feelings will get you to heaven – even if it takes going through hell to get there. Think about dating and looking for people who resonate with us. Most people WILL NOT be the one. But it doesn’t mean there isn’t a one. It just means you got more steps to walk in life still until you can find each other. Walking through NO’s is not a NO in all of life. It's just no for this thing – as inside you feel you must wait and work for this other better thing.
FULL MOON IN CANCER.
Let go of what you chase after
That moves further from your reach.
That asks you to jump through hoops
That never feels like peace.
This is a fence. This is not for you!
Wait until a gate arrives
And then you will naturally walk through
And into what supports and wants to love on you.
Give up imbalance
And thinking things have to be hard.
Expect absolute resonance.
And for all good things to take you far.
T U E S D A Y 29 dec |
Hello part 1 of 2 of the FULL MOON IN CANCER!! We LOVE when our Moon sings the vibes of getting us all in the feels so that we start to do the things that get us wanting to feel cozy and safe and secure in this world. We need those particular feels in order to get us defining how NOW we know what we need, and now we will work to put this barrier or new level of protection in place so as to assure safety.
Expect to feel real emotional and stronger about things going on around you. There will be a force that gets you to clearly see how you have been manipulated to follow some path and believe in its ways to the point you haven’t really seen how this is NOT your thing. At this time, things rise that deal with YOU buying into something that now you need to transform and rise higher in regards so that you are not choosing for glass half empty and continuing old patterns that are hard to break BECAUSE YOUR RESPONSE SYSTEM TO THEM is so ingrained.
There are ways to start over at this time and to see how we need to communicate in ways that allow things to grow again – and not just cut them off because we are hurt, and we do hurtful things when we feel hurt. THAT IS SO OLD WORLD. To get even is to dirty up your pool and to live out the ego way of always needing to be number one.
What we awaken to in the last days of 2020 is that we have been exposed to too much, so we demand too much. We have been offered the whole internet, so we demand that everyone in our lives give us everything we need to feel safe and secure here. BUT. To demand, is to speak through your wounds. The demand voice is the wounded voice.
One of my most cherished friends is one of the most loved peoples on Earth. And I’ve used her as an example in my own goals of how to be because I know how it feels to be around her and have known for almost 20 years – but the key to having all your needs met with others is to NOT NEED ANYONE TO CHANGE.
The demand voice wants YOU TO CHANGE. It barks out orders proclaiming that YOU NEED TO DO DIFFERENT. And do you like others telling you that? Do you EVER adhere to their glue and do what they want you to do? NO. You don’t. You get rigid and resistant and then go in the opposite direction just because you don’t want to do what they want you to do. MANY OF YOU operate in that rebellious way.
And my dear friend lets you be whoever you show up as – BUT where she applies control is that IF SHE DOESN’T LIKE what you show up as, she is not in your life. She won't be with people she doesn’t REALLY like. But those she is WITH are the luckiest alive! It feels SO GOOD to not feel judged in any way and to feel a harmonious flow that is ONLY supportive. Winni is like a soft wool down comforter on a wool down mattress pad – and you get to be in the middle.
But the reason she doesn’t want to change you is because she doesn’t have wounds around everyone else needing to provide for her like the internet does. But most people do. And if you are younger than 34 you CERTAINLY do expect it all now – BECAUSE you have been given it all – and the internet programmed you to be this way, where now nothing is enough and no one is good enough.
And just as the internet is becoming boring for most of you, SO ARE YOUR LIVES if you TOO keep demanding that others be these other things – when ultimately we need to discover the WOUNDS that keep you with sensitive spaces where now you project that others will fall, as you demand they jump through hoops and do all these things FOR YOU.
When we are wounded, we want back. We need YOU to hear. We need to know that YOU understand. We NEED. NEED. NEED. When you are balanced and without wounds inflamed, you don’t need things anymore. Or rather, you need your space to be clear and supportive and filled with nurturing things.
And if we are wounded, we keep projecting that another will hurt us. Just like how I told you how that women let her attack dog loose and it came right for my dog and a fight ensued – which my dog has never seen before. And yes, I can tell you that now my dog has been aggressive with other dogs. He has been a rat bastard most every day since. So he saw the fight, and now he is bringing the fight with other dogs. And that is ultimately what we all are doing until we heal our wounds. 100% if we saw the fight, we now BRING the fight – and we will construct whatever story to keep getting it, to keep hurting ourselves, to keep going towards sad situations of limitation and loss.
The ONLY way we stop this cycle is when we heal. When we face OURSELVES and stop making it all about the other. Keeping it real, all the psychotherapy things on insta are so fraudulent. Not all. But a lot. It's just ego and money. But in my opinion, they keep you in your wounded space. -- My love, you need an actual therapist, not people fronting – and THUS, confusing you all. Most things I’ve read sound like someone speaking from their wounds.
It can feel great to sit around and gossip over negative things. We are addicted to it. But it can feel GREATER to see that the only reason we love to be that way is because we have been hurt in our past and now GET OFF on inflicting pain in our certain ways. BECAUSE our own pain has never been addressed and allowed to heal.
We can keep being brats, and now starting fights with things that DO want to love on us. OR, we can face that we have been hurt by scary things – but that we won't let it change us and turn us into a scary person who only sees scary things and scares others with their huge list of needs. You can start over today by letting things be and also deciding to only go towards what allows you to grow and get better. If it blocks, maybe it is a rock.
You can start over today
By letting things be
And deciding to only go towards
What allows you to grow and get better.
If it blocks, maybe it is a rock.
Or maybe it's a wound
Unhealed and giving you the feels
So you finally will allow yourself to heal.
You deserve the good life.
Your wounded state travels
In the opposite direction.
M O N D A Y 28 dec |
OH WOW!! These energies!!! Today is when the majority of you have gone through the reboot and now your heart is aligned in a new direction, like when we fall in love and how NOTHING else matters and how EVERYTHING feels so amazing.
We all are stepping into situations that bring the dream into reality and into a balanced space. For many, your steps now will feel like you are VERY AWARE of the magic and in wanting to be conscious in all the ways of the journey so that you get all that you can get from this. We also have the hearts opening wide and really getting honest about what we dream and how we want our futures to be.
There is a new light over Planet Earth that is a very pale pink -- and rewards are coming where we have stopped judging ourselves and talking privately in negative ways, by being in our head with hurtful thoughts for ourselves or others.
WITH those thoughts, life is murky and always out of reach. We don’t get to the gold by painting it black and ripping it up and throwing it away. We get there by adding the love to what is yet to manifest and seeing that we DO deserve to live it all and to be HAPPY and to have friends and to hang out with people and talk and love life even more because of it all.
We deserve these pleasant and lighthearted conversations and experiences. So, we must talk about them coming closer, and talk about the good times – as we release our addiction and attention to the old times. The old times don’t need you bringing them along anymore. Your vote needs to be on positive things and on how you LITERALLY are growing a new dream for your life.
You know I have been giddy as all get out since I moved back to New Mexico. It's been PERFECT this 2nd time around and in a different town. But I can tell you that I am almost 50 and I am in the best days of my entire life. Every single day feels like those best days you’ve had in your past. Every day takes my breath away.
So THAT should be inspiration as fuck to have you keeping with the process and not giving up on your Golden Dream.
In times where things plummet, gold is to rise from Artists believing in their dreams. Stars are to twinkle BECAUSE of the pressure demanding they do something. We need pressure, like a doorbell doesn’t just ring all willy nilly or all night long. It rings when someone actively uses their finger to press in the button to activate the sound. It's a process that gets to this particular thing, which is to awaken and alert the person inside the house.
You are a doorbell that needs to be pressed so that YOU can be alerted and awakened – and in this case, to the TRUTH that you can build a better life and have LOVE and have stability and have everything you need to feel safe and secure. You just got to push the button and do something different and make a change and accept that IT IS time for a new view.
You deserve a new view and you get it when YOU TOO see that there can be something better for you besides what your mind negatively sees and won't let go of. See that there is to be a wave to what hits you and honor that when you first get hit, YOU ARE STUNNED. But then honor that in about 4 days you will feel different, where things will be less intense.
Ride loosely with life but always steer your mind to trusting this and knowing that someone is watching over you EVEN IF no one has before. You can trust that you won't be dropped. You can trust that things will stay around. When things are right, they are like glue. We just have to climb our mountain and keeping working for the GREAT HONOR of finding what glues. If things don’t glue, don’t add extra adhesive to try to make them work. Honor that glue works when it is supposed to work. If it doesn’t work naturally, it's not your glue.
In times where things plummet,
Gold is to rise from Artists
Believing in their dreams.
Stars are to twinkle
BECAUSE of the pressure
Demanding they do something.
S U N D A Y 27 dec |
Good morning! Today we start processing something that hit us over the past few days that was hard to figure out. Where you had been in confusion and not able to swallow something or get around it, you now will shift into a new view and where you can see the solution or upgrade that will come from it. This means you also will be noticing that you want to talk more, or you want to share what you have been going through or listen to what others are going through.
We are in a space now where we are getting you to talk more about personal things and to bring the emotions back into importance. But just like in the BETTER old days when you had to stand in line and wait and not get everything right away, we learned to expect that not everyone wins in this moment and not everyone can be on top in this moment. We can't all be president. In the internet programmed world now, we all want to be president, top dog, the most seen, the most liked, the most viewed.
And -- to live a life NEEDING THAT keeps you from living the world that is here now that will DEVELOP YOU so that you CAN find the mountain where you get to be president. Needing it now keeps you pushing away what gets you into the person who can actually manifest and hold and maintain the NOW that is of your dreams.
Everything at this point in history -- with monumental energies RAINING DOWN ON -- you are going towards ways to find what supports you and what gets you wanting to rebuild your life and keep with it – but you also will run into things that challenge that and that are complete opposites of what you think things should be.
REALIZE – this is how it needs to be for the contrast of Planet Earth and how you have to walk the fire of what is your greatest desires. To get to the best, you kind of have to travel through the worst. It's what keeps the best only to those who do the work.
If it was too easy, as the internet is, people take advantage of it. What you get on insta is 99.9% ego or money or ego and money. Authenticity and true Authority are the rarest things on there – as they were BEFORE THE INTERNET. It has always been that only those who work hard get to the top of their own mountain and get elected president – and the journey to get there is hard because it needs to be a gateway journey proving who really has it in them to HOLD this vibration and to really know their art and their expertise and THEIR THING so that even when others come into things, to disrupt the flows, they STILL know they are President of the United Mountain.
This time wants you in your mind but AS President in the making – as 99.9% of you are STILL baking. You are not ready to go out and hold the mold of what your mind thinks you are. That day will come, and for some of you, TODAY. But no matter, no matter what others are doing or growing at rates of, what matters is that YOU GROW and keep yourself growing, honoring that time is just something we decide to personally define – and always in ways that hurt us. What I know is that it was JUST 3 holiday seasons ago. I swear 10 months ago it was 2018. I’m almost SURE of this.
But we need to stop letting life go because our minds think we need some exalted version of life RIGHT NOW – when we haven’t even done the work for it. We want the house built and where we are living in it and enjoying the view – but we haven’t even drawn the blueprints yet. We can't have it all right now because we are not prepared.
But 99.9% RUIN this moment now where you shame and blame it for not being a full-blown built house yet. And WTF with that. How could we be programmed to discount the true journey of life, so that we taint every moment of our present with anger that it is not a built house yet. We sit at our plot of land and curse it for not being done, where we would be sitting pretty on the front porch swing.
Connect this with your mind. See how you do this and see yourself never doing it again. Time needs your love and attention. It doesn’t need your hatred and rejection. Allow yourself to be BUILT and to GROW. Be a conscious seed with all that you plant and intend to one day BE. There is no rush up YOUR mountain – but to be president you need to be developed and ready to hold the position. You can't just THINK you could do it. We need to see that you HAVE done it and DO walk it and ARE of it.
On Planet Earth
You must walk the fire
Of your desires.
To get to the best
You have to travel through
It's what keeps THE BEST
Only for those who do the work.
S A T U R D A Y 26 dec |
Okay loves! Today feels like a flash of light coming our way so that we REALLY SEE something. We are in the space of letting go of the ways we have followed, because they were mainstream, and where now we are feeling things that inspire us to look in different directions but to NOT REALLY KNOW how this will work out, or to not understand what we are feeling or to not get what this all means, is how we get to the next level.
You should feel like something where you are trying to shake the water out of your ears. And this is about feeling a bit off and sensitive and insecure if maybe you can believe that you get a 2nd chance or that life can be beautiful and wishes do come true. You need to be in a soft space today where you just let your body meander and do what it wants. Start removing yourself from the internet and make it discipline that you cut certain times out and use that time to do whatever you feel like doing that IS DOING.
We are shifting into VERY creative spaces in our lives where we will be VERY in tune with wanting to be in creative things because it will be like the drug we chased after when we went out to escape; it will feel just as great. Things will be pulling you inside yourself so that you can be a better person around others.
When you are triggered by others and show how they make you feel, that is not being the better person. That is feeling hurt because of wounds from your past. And that is the issue, not the person triggering you now. If someone in your past made you feel like you are not valuable, then you will project that onto people today where they are doing the same thing to you, or so you will think.
Be aware that you just need to see this and NOT let it get you worked up. You need to NOT let it tank you and throw you in the gutter where you have gone in your past. You instead are to feel how your wounds have been filled with gold and you are to get your mind allowing your feet and reality to see a new story.
You are addicted to the pain from your past, so you MAY quickly see that you are a victim and others don’t value your gifts, but stop today and question if this is really based in reality or you trying to bring your old story into a new world unfolding. These days are new, so you don’t have to rewrite WHAT WAS.
BUT. As we stand at the gate of the old and new, we now decide what we want to continue and bring forward into our glorious futures.
So, where there is doubt in self and feeling that OTHERS keep you from being somewhere, see how you can build a new view of this perception of illusion that could be shifted into a better view of reality. We have to stop intentionally hurting others because we are hurt by something they did. That action is the unhealed wound of your past speaking out and now creating friction so that you DON’T get the good things and don’t get what you really want. So, IF you still believe this friction can rise, BECAUSE you have seen it in your past, you are more likely to keep attracting it. So, we must see beyond the friction and INTO A HEALED SPACE where the correction is what we now expect.
To GET TO the correction, we have to pass the test of not falling for the old provocation. Get it? We ALL get it around this day, and it will move us to come together and to really listen, but not from a wound needing to be filled, but rather from a wound filled that now isn’t so sensitive to stimulation and is grounded in a higher sense of value, expecting the best, but not demanding it.
We demand things
From our wounded voice.
Needing things just so.
We expect things
From our high value voice.
And if what comes is not the best
We just step over it and move along
Without an ounce of doubt or regret.
What you are inside
You will attract.
Keep growing the love
And anticipate it will come back.
F R I D A Y 25 dec |
I just had to share something that made me laugh. I JUST realized Pluto is in an exact square to my midheaven and 4th house! Which means I also missed Jupiter and Saturn! Some of the hugest life events that can happen, and I had no idea. It wasn't connecting. But no wonder!! Like, no wonder to so much.
And this makes me happy though, because we are not to be too much in astrology because it keeps us out of this moment too much, and we are aware of what is to come so we actually change what is to come. Like hunting down our Christmas presents early and then having to pretend we didn’t know when we actually DO open them in front of others. We could have also just trusted the process and gotten to open them with PURE JOY at the realization that we got what we want or totally love this new gift.
But we always want to know NOW, and to go into things early. Astrology will hurt many of you and it has hurt so many already. It's kind of a trickster like that. And a little IS good but too much will hurt you. There even are curses around Ancient Wisdom -- where you end up cursing yourself and those who hear things from you if you are not yet an Authority on things that are Ancient Wisdom. Just because the internet allows all, doesn’t mean you NEED all right now. Native Americans would never just go to the Chief and ask for the wisdom ways to be shared all willy nilly.
But honor at this time that you don’t need to know it all and you REALLY need to stop and slow down and just trust this moment right now. We are hurting ourselves with wanting too much.
From someone who is the last peoples who lived their formative years before the internet, which for me started around 27, I can tell you that now people are single, friendless and living at home -- and they were NOT before.
The ways we are NOW when we used to be around so many people and with things simple and around the neighborhood and doing and being together is represented in these covid times. That people spend ANY time gaming is represented in these covid times. We constantly chase what kills our lives and what keeps us from seeing how beautiful it can be OUT THERE when we come together and cook together and play together and forage together and do things around the house where you are in creative spaces and keeping busy with doing all these things you want to do. We escape instead. We don’t do. We stay hooked to our past and keep manifesting how horrible it may have been. We check out and go back to the old ways and get lazy around staying constant and fixed with growing our new dreams.
This time now is when parts of you are to dissolve from this magical energy raining down on Planet Earth. It deals with where you want things fast and where you now need to learn a new slow and steady pace.
You will notice that your senses are coming alive, and many of you will have strong ear ringing around things that are a YES. But only trust it when it comes out of nowhere, and then look to what thought you just had. That is a yes, do that. Things will be pulling you into this moment so that you can smell them again and find presence in the sweet beauty that 100% is around you right now. You just got to go outside and plant your feet to the soil and touch the trees and hug the leaves :) and roll down the hill and giggle at how fun it feels to just not have to worry about so much, and instead to feel like you can trust the ways that help you feel good.
The scrolling doesn’t help you feel good, and it is to be FEELING even worse in this new energy of 2021. What is not a fit will be evident, but it's not so much people as it is habits and things you have allowed because others are doing it too. And to be a follower is never the way of the Aquarius Nation.
You are to walk what followers do, but you are to tune inside to what FEELS RIGHT and to make those things the discipline of your focus. You are to upgrade and bring solutions to. So, see that the ways you have been following always have you feeling like you aren’t good enough or you have no value.
When you place yourself side by side with WAY TOO MUCH, of course you are going to feel a bit less than and into the scarcity pool. SO LOVE YOURSELF MORE AND STOP TAKING ON THESE THINGS THAT HURT YOU. No one else is going to stop you. So, you have to stop yourself and set your path straight. You deserve this better way.
2021 energy births today!
Slow is good
Steady is good
Creative spaces are the best
Internet spaces need to be
Be with your hands and with YOUR MIND.
Not others’ minds.
We need you finding that
You got the ways inside
And it's on you to find them.
This will be the year of independence
In relationship and unity with all.
T H U R S D A Y 24 dec |
Okay then! Be warned that something may drop on your path out of the blue and it may be someone who has that thing about them that triggers you and gets you falling into this other state.
This will be where something comes in to tempt you, and to see if you will go low in how you handle this, and if you will take it on and let it consume you in the brain. THIS IS ALL A TEST! And it is about YOU CHANGING how you show yourself so that you honor your pool or your path and you don’t just take this on or allow it to follow through because it is familiar and where you DO often lose it.
But remember that you DO also regret losing it and HOPE you won't do it in the future. This time is your future back to haunt you! So, do it right today. MOSTLY because there are rewards that come quickly for those who do the right thing. This means we have support around us that is waiting for us to say no to the madness and to say yes to our own sacred spaces.
To let something go with something that you KNOW is going nowhere and has no better solution to it, is to honor that you don’t need to get mixed up in all people’s things. You don’t have to be here to heal all the problems on Planet Earth. You don’t got to do it all, but you do got to choose for things that keep you living clean and feeling like you DO MATTER.
There are worlds and people and places beyond that WILL value you. And it is YOU valuing you that gets you there. This time is a gateway to see if you really care about you first, which is not selfish, it’s getting yourself strong so that you can be there if others do need you. It's getting YOU into good position. Do you really want to open a café if you don’t have the workers yet and you don’t have all the things you need? Do you really just want to do it and have to give that bad impression that you are out of things and in the weeds? Rather, when you love yourself, you want to wait until you can give the best impression and really be ready to give your all to your dreams.
So, see that today is where something comes to you that gets you seeing that slowing down and facing what needs to be rebuilt and brought up a notch is what then opens for more potential to come. So, we are to see how we are planting important seeds and we want to think of how this will grow and sustain us in the future. Something comes to show some part of your creative gifts that is NEEDED and when you make the space for it to be something big, it will grow into something big. Don’t cut it short like you have your whole life.
Just try to see all good things as THE THING. Because this time is bringing you THE THINGS. And what comes our way is just a reflection of the love that we are inside. So, expect to be pleasantly surprised! You are more loving than others have told you so. There is goodness inside of you and just defensive wounds that keep you from knowing it true. But the energy matches with us today and is bringing us what we need! So be open to what comes in to love on you and see that you CAN have what you dream. You CAN trust that your seeds of years past now are growing something that will sustain you and value you.
It's time to raise your bar and to see that good things come when you elevate your value from within. And for many of you, it will be others that really puff you up! You are to be seen in new ways and this is really to get you waking up to your original ways – and original vision for how you want to kick ass with your short time on Planet Earth. It is time to move mountains and to show that it can be done. Believe, my loves. Something is growing special for YOU!!
Be open to what comes in to love on you
And see that you CAN have what you dream.
You CAN trust that your seeds of years past
Now are growing something
That will value and sustain.
Be a confident farmer with your new field.
W E D N E S D A Y 23 dec |
Good morning sweet loves! Feel this different energy! Something with LOVE COMING INTO YOUR HEART is getting you to feel more compassion for what others are going through and understanding WE ALL are doing the best we can do.
This love coming into YOUR heart will have your eyes looking out and seeing how others aggression or determined ways are really just a cry for help or something personal that IS another part of the situation where it IS TIME for you to finally see others in your own equations.
This energy will feel like you are being softened, even though before you would want to fight or fight back. Notice that the tests are there and people with their controlling ways are acting out and trying to thrust through things – but notice how your eyes aren’t seeing it the same way and your body is not digesting it the same way. Something just feels different – it's hard for me to even put words to! It's just when you level up and grow and get older and how things just don’t instigate the same reactions out of you.
Like teenager reactions versus 45 year old reactions. It's hard to put words to how much we change, but we do. And this new way you are processing things will show up today as a test where you walk through and will feel kickass for NOT buying into the old drama and illusion and mystifying forces that were ONLY keeping you in the gutter and keeping you thinking you are destined to fail.
We now wake up out of scarcity syndrome. Which was planted inside of you right beside your blood. It is something that runs in all people – and even more so in people who have a lot of money! The most scarce mental spaces come from those with a bit too much monetary privilege. It implants this fear of losing what they have so they work to give as little as they can and will ask for pardons or discounts when those having to ask for government assistance DON’T because they don’t want to appear poor and ask for pardons or discounts. Those with too much money are the FIRST to try to talk out a deal and get a lower price. 100% of the time. While those without, will take whatever they get. They don’t deal, they say okay and thank you.
So, scarcity, in its many forms, runs in EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU. And it is what has created so many people who are sad and still searching. Because SCARCITY MENTALITY = DEATH. It is a nosedive into glass half empty. It is accepting and planting seeds that failure is imminent.
And to take that path in life is sad AF. It's NOT where the joy does rise! It's not where you find your dreams. It's where you stay hooked up into the system and follow this other regimen, that ultimately is like paying 70% taxes to the government but still having to buy your own health care. It’s killing you. It’s like cigarettes, where you inhale heated up things that become toxic from the act of heating them up – because you have allowed it to be your habit – which trust me I was a big smoker myself until I quit at 35 – so I know, it's a NICE habit to experience, but it's a bad habit for your body to process.
And in the long run – if you really love yourself and want the best for yourself, you only choose things that keep you thriving now AND in the long run. This new energy wakes this up in you. Which is why you will let go and draw boundaries CLEAR AF where you now stop this thing forever and BELIEVE IN THIS OTHER THING forever.
Today it will seem like nothing stops you, and that which does attempt to, merely ends up inspiring you at how rad you are for not falling for other people’s ways to the point they become your ways, and mess all things up with your processing. To face a challenge and rise clear with a new voice getting through to the end is where you need to focus. To see that you will get through this and NOT GIVE UP OR GIVE IN – but get better and see into other people’s hearts and work to REBUILD instead of destroy -- is to see you crossing into new lands where you DO feel next level and seeing that you HAVE changed. So, lead with your heart and assert towards a fresh start. Something needs you doing this better and not playing out an old pattern yet again. Rise high vibe in all that you can.
Lead with your heart
And assert towards a fresh start.
This new you is gonna love
The new view.
Go for it and DO.
T U E S D A Y 22 dec |
Oh wow! What a big day this is!! Something comes in and lets us know that we are not alone, and it will inspire us to move different throughout the day (and beyond).
Something is FILLING YOUR WOUNDS UP WITH GOLD and getting you to see how YOU are the one holding yourself prisoner if you keep the shame, blame and guilt in your constant thoughts. Something is waking up in us in regard to our wounds – and this is to really snap people awake in how they see they DO have control, and there IS another view to take.
This does mean there now is much to rebuild and put into a better place -- but inside notice that you feel different and are not feeling so “gullible” in falling into self-defeat – or at least, staying there. Watch how something may suddenly bring you down and have you feeling like you are a loser, or you have done something wrong, but then you will QUICKLY BOUNCE out of that low feeling.
The TEST is in you seeing that it is forever and always foolish to say anything negative about yourself or your path. It ultimately is unfair for you to think you are such an authority that you need to be driving the car of your ultimate Planet Earth experience. WHEN --- what needs to happen is that you SURRENDER to the GREAT MYSTERY and see that you are held and ultimately have incarnated to play out these experiences that deal with you eventually NOT having to come back here.
The point is that you reincarnate, over and over, reliving what you did not rise above before. And the answer to all is that you just need to surrender and trust that MAMA & PAPA Great Mystery GOT YOU. And you need to be like the child who doesn’t need to know all the details. You need to be more in the energy of PLAY and creativity and LOVE where you 100% put yourself CONSCIOUS in what you want to stay and grow and make better.
This energy is waking us up to getting real serious with each moment we do have so that we finally stop choosing for negativity and fear and loser and me against you and there is not enough to go around so I have to FIGHT you. Things are crumbling now where suddenly the fake mask is not able to hold what was really going on in there.
Be aware that things need a new view and perspective from you – where you now see things violent or full of rage or doing all the things wrong, and you just need to see that they are on the road to recovery. See that everything and everyone is just on the road to recovery. This helps you let go of trying to control others who have hurt you or who create strong reactions inside of you.
The point is we need your pool clean and where you are holding thoughts that speak of coming together or understanding or peace being made. It's about getting out of the stuck position with the car in the gutter and 2 flat tires, to then doing what needs to be done to get it back on the road. WE ALL have things to rebuild. And with the perspective of CAN DO, we can do it all. We just need you holding the CAN DO. Take the T out of can’t and make a cup of tea. Use it, don’t abuse it. T is for drinking not for holding you back.
Peer into where you thought you were broken and see that NOW you get to heal because of what you SEE and how it hits you differently. Something about this energy bulletproofs our systems so that things just don’t hit us in the same way. Like, when I told you about the woman and her vicious dog, that she took off his leash, and her dog raced straight for my dog’s throat and started thrashing.
And keeping it real, being a Pisces, I would 100% have expected to be really upset and falling back into my childhood wounds over the shock of it. But it didn’t ruffle my emotional system in the slightest! I did what I needed to do in breaking it up and getting my dog away and then I walked away without one look to the owner and dog -- but threw my arm out with a chop motion, making it clear with only one word spoken: BOUNDARIES. Nothing else rose out of me. No anger, no mean words, no WTF. I just FIRMLY said the word boundaries and decided then that I will turn around and go the opposite direction 100% of the time if I see this woman again and her dog.
She got 1, 2, 3 strikes with me -- and that is all someone should ever get with you too. Like, you CAN be clear, and you CAN say NO and if they don’t honor it, GOODBYE MY LOVE.
Because GOOD TIMES for MY LOVES is what is in your future if you say goodbye to all the nonsense that tries to rock your boat. You are in charge more than you think. And it all comes from how you process what comes at you where you see YOU DO deserve things better and you DO HAVE every right to thrive on Planet Earth. No more of the lies telling you that you CAN’t DO. That little t is a lie. Just go out and give it a try. And you’ll see. It was a crutch slowing you down from your dreams.
With the perspective of CAN DO
We now CAN DO IT ALL.
Take the T out of CAN’T
And make a cup of tea.
Use it, don’t abuse it.
T is for drinking
Not for holding you back.
You CAN DO, my love.
M O N D A Y 21 dec |
Good morning my loves!! What an interesting day!!! Okay. So, what is happening is that all of these things are perfectly connecting. And like nothing we have seen before. It's where out of the blue things just finally sat down into a new position, and in positions that are critical ones to move OTHER things along.
I’m trying to come up with the words for you to see because it's actually hard to put to words!! But it's like police going into a house to do a raid, where at first, they are waiting, and waiting, and then they plunge into a new position and do what needs to be done, and in this case, in a way that is just and proper.
It’s like something was off and hidden and not in our awareness, but now it jumps into our reality, even from out of the blue, and it gets us like, OH MY GOSH. It is to be changing the scene – in the same way that you wonder about an outcome and wonder and wonder, and then find out it didn’t go in your favor, or you weren’t the scholarship winner – so you move on and get into a new space of thinking. It's not that the awareness will bring things negative, as that’s all I mentioned in examples thus far!! But. The point is that sometimes things come a bit shocking in order to be a BIG GROWING. But then it's all about moving on and keeping with the new awareness in tote.
BE AWARE. 95% of the world is being rewired. THIS MEANS they will be very loud, out there, erratic, and where they are connecting in obnoxious ways. It can be like mice set loose and just coming at you and coming for you when you just want to be left alone. EXPECT these weird connections that are highly annoying and where you WILL get a bit triggered or set into anxiety.
If you get anxiety anymore from this time forward, you just need to look down at the ground and 100% ignore everything else around you. Do the 108 breaths or just listen to the heavy breath sounds your body can make -- and move when you can, knowing that you have permission to do this.
The point of the energies are saying that we move when we can, and if we can't, we wait. But never do we lose hope in the dream while we wait. We just think that we are in line waiting for something, and that soon we will get, and all will be good.
Be aware you are the 5%. You aren’t being rewired, you are being rebooted. And this means big changes are to come around what you start choosing for and how you start making clear that you have feelings about things and you NEED to feel love and joy and GOOD where you are and where you hang your hat. Home is coming in real important because in these times of the collective being rewired, our safe and abundant place needs to be home or our rooms. We just need a room. But we need it safe and on our terms.
This energy is showing that we are growing into something new and it needs us constantly watering it and giving it the attention to fully become what it can be. This time wants us seeing glass half full into all situations where we go back to our true ways where we ARE aware that we are here co-creating with the Universe, with our parent called God, or what you call the Great Mystery.
When you know you are hooked into support from your body and from your intuition and from the actual signs, you flow in different ways. This energy is allowing us to learn a new flow where we just trust it all, and then it all DOES work out.
Miracles of healing will be occurring because we are ready to step out of the glass half empty viewpoint. This is like how I quit smoking on Dec 31 2005, and I never looked back. I never dipped back into cigs. Like the moment I was set free, I never went back to that old stinky money sucking weird and toxic habit. My mind opened to this other way my body would operate, sans toxins, and I liked it better. I also NEVER contemplated getting a pack again. Like, it never occurred.
I shut the door when I shut the door. And YOU ALL are shutting the doors too and opening to a whole other world to be living.
So, go with firmness in where you draw boundaries with others, and do NOT allow them to be the leaders unless they FEEL real good to you. Smoking is like feeling icky, and not smoking is like feeling good. When you see you can have good, you don’t allow yourself to fall back on old patterns and habits just because you think maybe it will work out this time. It didn’t then. It won't now.
This new you is ready to go for where things are lush and abundant. So, choose like you deserve it all and see that now healing takes place to change your path so that you do feel like you are going to live it all to the max. Suddenly the view changes and you are naturally going to believe more that being the 5% means life just got a whole bunch easier for us to manifest the better things.
An incline has been put into place, so fill your heart with love and YOU WILL live a life of miraculous grace.
I do have to say that the energy is BEAUTIFUL today. I can feel it as if someone is behind me while I’m writing, and they are squeezing my arms and with pressure on my whole backside. It's like SUPPORT watching over my actions. It's like something so sweet that it makes you KNOW you are supported and what you wish for is ready to be here for you now. Oh loves! Let’s get you to heaven! It's here for us all to be living here now. It's where you draw the boundary.
We may be seeing a planet show up or something that hasn’t been seen before. It's come in and out 9 times in the reading room, so we may have 9 layers of energy that ripples through us, like sifting for gold, but where we are aware of something in the number 9. This also may occur over 9 days. So, know that work is being done, but it's got some layers to it. So keep looking for MORE and make MORE where you want to be.
Make your dreams a priority.
The old world falls away today.
And only what you hold onto stays,
See for the new rainbows and the new mountain tops.
And remember that what you feel
And what you want, wants you.
Go full speed ahead into the love.
It's what you deserve to do.
moon journey: 22 Pisces to 3 Aries
moon phase: plant the seeds
numerology vibration: 1| Assert.
SUN in Capricorn | Winter Solstice
S U N D A Y 20 dec |
I am loving this energy! There is so much going on in here, so it took me a minute to adjust to what I was seeing, but things are coming in many forces that bring about a quick and sudden shift. Things are working in ways that may feel like conflict or things not collaborating in the most proper ways, but from that pressure or squeeze or confusing situation you are to rise into some brilliant way of seeing something that you 100% were not seeing before.
This is to get you seeing that things change, lives change, people change, and we need to be more about going with the flow in life instead of stopping the train because we always are so upset that this is not what we bargained for, that THIS is not how we thought things should be. But we stop the train when we stop in this moment and make it something we interpret as wrong.
Forces are coming at sharp angles and also ones that do the action of hitting one thing that then moves it into another space. So, you may feel abruptly moved, and that is okay. Watch how you handle this and how your body is not so emotional or worked up – and rather, coming in firm that you will NOT allow this into your space.
There is this woman in my town who has A LOT going on, and it can feel heavy to be around her. I’ve only seen her three times but every time she tries to push her aggressive dog on my dog and tries to get them to be friends. Like, over and over, she will say, can we try again. And for the last 2 times I was firm in NO. Keep your dog away from my dog. The last time I saw her I even put up my hands to say NO. I was firm in NO, and what she does is picks up her dog takes off the leash and then lets him lose where he runs at my dog and starts a dog fight -- which in my time as Mamba’s mama he has NEVER seen.
So I had to get my dog out of this vicious dog fight, and instead of being upset or ruffled or emotionally tested, I just kept walking away and then threw my arm out like a chopping cheerleader move and said, BOUNDARIES. – and nothing more. Her friend yelled out sorry, and I still gave nothing more, because I SAID NO and she wildly crossed my boundaries by choosing to unleash her ATTACK dog and let him gun it for my dog’s throat. BOUNDARIES was the only word the situation was going to get out of me at that point. And honestly I forgot about it instantly – because I handled it high vibe – but I can tell you that 100% next time I see her out walking I will stop and turn around to stay away from her, which is what I first thought to do when I saw she was coming my way the other day.
YOU DO NOT have to take on all people’s energies. You do not have to try to fix them or help them feel better. If they have too much going on to the point it fills up your space and makes you feel sick and unsafe – get out of there. This energy is really making it clear that some spaces are not okay for us and we are allowed and given permission to stand up for what YOU FEEL INSIDE. If I had listened to what I felt inside I would have turned on my heels and moved away from what ended up being a dog fight for my baby to now have to process. Because I chose being polite over going for what my belly told me to do, my dog had to pay the price.
You are going to have to do something where you come out of the shadow and just do what feels right to you. Notice that you are MOVED to do this, and it actually comes naturally. Something about walking this situation is going to be letting you know that you can trust what you feel OVER what you see and what you see needs to be what feels right inside of your body. Otherwise YOU need to be the one making adjustments to your view. LISTEN TODAY! Your body speaks of a better way.
You can trust what you feel
OVER what you see
And what you see needs to be
What feels right inside of your body.
Otherwise YOU need to be the one
Making adjustments to your view.
Keep shifting until you feel loved.
Until you FEEL loved.
S A T U R D A Y 19 dec |
Good morning my love! There is massive rewiring to this day, and two different paths are to be walked. Many of you are going to feel mentally exhausted from what you have been taking on, and it will leave you feeling a bit frozen or where you feel like you need to pull back to heal. Do know that your body is going to be warning you to take a break and to not end up sick because you push yourself beyond the limits.
When you feel like it all is way too much, pull back and consciously do things that bring support and safety to your spaces. This can be about burning candles or making things look more lovely. It can be about getting in the tub, instead of scrolling Instagram, and getting out into nature instead of in others business. Just make changes that feel good in your body – and make that the priority for the weekend.
Things are getting you ready for an event and something about this time needs you strong and where you are not taking things personally or responding from your wounds. This time wants you walking into situations where you face the trigger, and it no longer has a grip on you. But first, you need some sort of rest that is to reboot you and get you coming in stronger with who you really are. It's about you coming out of the shadows and revealing something that IS dear to your heart.
Others are on this path where things are like fireworks, and it's really exciting to be in this energy! You may be just walking down the street, but all your senses will be noticing things and it will go back to feeling this Grandmother energy around you and where everything looks, feels and smells so incredibly beautiful.
These moments FOR SURE will jump start your heart and they are to get you fully waking out of the spell that had you absent for life and off in some app or off in some addiction need or off in some self-fulfilling prophecy of suffrage.
But no longer. There is MORE and it will be all people want to talk about. Our minds are transforming in such a powerful way that it's going to be hard to put words to, but it relates to scarcity and just not really buying into it anymore. It just won't be an option. It's like when you go vegan and suddenly see all the amazing things you can eat and how great you feel, and it makes you think of meat as something that is no longer an option.
As the new doors swing open, don’t be surprised about what you no longer do or think or dream for. If it is not right, it won't stick around you. Honor this because we are moving into energy that brings us together better and where we really see we deserve to be loved and deserve to have things that stay around and stabilize us.
Stay in spaces where you see how you are to learn to be the higher expression of what was left empty for you. Where can you give where others did not give to you? Pay attention because this unlocks blessings for us, and it really is where we are to have compassion where others did not act compassionately with us.
It all is about filling the scarcity as something we DO for others now. Like, I grew up super poor, with a single teenage mother, who was a triple water! So. It was scary. And now in life, I always come in to help people out of scary scarcity. I race in to want to help you see better and I share every spare dollar I have to help others. I even work every day to put together little packages with notes and hearts and special things for donation boxes.
Where I was left in fear for food I now VERY MUCH SO want to see others NOT hold the same fear.Follow that lead in yourself and fill your potholes with what was left missing so that others don’t have to know the same pain. This is your missing link and secret to success. Give and you shall receive. And what is on the horizon is MIRACULOUS to receive. So expect to get top quality things. No more dumpster diving for you, my love. Give where others know your pain -- and no longer will you have the same pain.
Fill your potholes
with what was left missing
so that others
don’t have to know the same pain.
This manifests you bliss.
To care for them
In the ways no one cared for you
Heals your wounds.
F R I D A Y 18 dec |
Okay then! We have a lot coming in today and so many things are exciting because they facilitate this movement where things just keep getting better. But many of you need to first go through this test that comes today or tomorrow where you really do see into your biggest wounds and how they have gotten you to go smaller or to go so deeply into your interpretation of the flaw of them.
In 2012 I came out honest from the get go about how wounded I was – but I was one of the first to openly disclose my woundedness. And it WAS what really got me in contact with a lot of people. Now it is never a shock to hear someone open up about their pain. But years ago, most people still played it like, I’m so awesome and all is so faery tale vonderful! It’s just vonderful!
But now through forerunners first walking the way, we find ourselves in spaces where we all can be open and supportive and SEEING for ways out of our wounds. If not for the first open ones, we would still stay shut down – and not realizing that THROUGH the healing of our wounds we get to rise like the phoenix where things ARE to become 100% more valuable and beautiful to us.
When you come out of the wounding of your wound, you get to live life again! And it is wonderful! Not only vonderful, where there is a front, but Wonderful, as 2 peace signs together for each other – from the inside out. Vonderful is only when you say you are doing good, and act like everything is a-okay, when inside you feel this other way.
So EXPECT that you will run into something that shows you how you were hurt and how it now has you feeling like you are ruined – but to then feel this rush of GRANDMOTHER ENERGY come in where you see will you NO LONGER take that approach to what others did to you and your future.
This energy is to cocoon you in love and then sweep you up to this higher space of viewing. This makes me think of where I moved and how now it feels SOOOO GOOOOOOD. Like every single day feels so incredibly good. I have found the home I didn’t know was out there! I found my home on Planet Earth where I feel 100% better than I have ever felt in my life. I joke that I even manifested a Grandma house that was built in the 40’s by an artist and has design features from the 70’s from the next level of artist on board. It’s lovely. I love every step I get to take in this home!!
But before this moment, I never felt anything like this. I imagine this is what it is like when we really fall in love, for real, with that person who really has been working to find us. I imagine it will be the same where it feels like a home you didn’t even know was out there. And only in finding this do you understand what is YOUR PERSON or YOUR PLACE or YOUR THING TO DO.
The healing space for your wounds right now has the most beautiful support around you!!! I was shown an image of you going through the quick healing journey of how you were violated and then as you agree to embark on this healing journey, on the other side are all these Angels and beings who have their arms outstretched, as if you are a child and they are waiting for you at the airport where you flew by yourself to get to them.
They all are showing up as ready to catch you and ready to then get you to this new space. BUT YOU GOT TO BE THE ONE DOING THIS IMPROVEMENT WORK AND SEEING THAT YOU HAVE TO FACE HOW YOU WERE HURT IN ORDER TO NOT KEEP HURTING YOUR FUTURE.
Now you know what is coming. And now you know the support that waits at the airport. But, first you got to fly by yourself. Do that and you get to the NEW LOVE. It is 100% worth it. This time wants to show you that YOU are worth it and worth the better and worth people treating you like the most valuable thing.
SEEK for the world wanting to give you all the deals and all that will benefit you growing better. If you seek, it will find you. Just ask – and your answers are coming. MAGIC is in the air where you can get what you want, but my love, you got to see that you deserve all the beauty in the world and all the ways the Universe wants to love on you.
See that you have a special place – and that all time restraints are merely like driving you up the mountain where you want to get the BEST view of the sunrise. You don’t want to just get out of the car until you really are in the best position. And the best positions DO tend to come after a lot of twists and turns taking you higher and higher. The first spots to turn off are where most people will go. YOU are to go higher – and get the best view for you.
See that you have a special place
And all time restraints
Are just getting you to the best position
Up the mountain
So that the sunrise
Will delight your eyes
In a way that gets you seeing
You deserve this.
T H U R S D A Y 17 dec |
Okay. This day has another real big shift feeling to it and it talks about how much more we are going to be looking out at things as if THERE IS a solution and there MUST be some way to make this better. NOTICE THIS SHIFT IN YOU. It may start small, but you will notice that your take on things isn’t so dire as there has been something that broke on through and now gets you thinking maybe there IS a way.
This time is showing as rain coming and these raindrops have things in them that clean us and get us seeing new perspectives where we REALLY DO GET IT NOW. You may also be seeing into your past and will not even believe you could do the things you did, but at the same time, notice how you aren’t shaming yourself – instead you are stoked that you have finally changed your ways.
AND THAT is the change occurring in all of us now. We lighten the load of a pressure where ultimately, we kept ourselves nose diving into the gutter and into visions that we will next have to suffer. That is changing in you. And this is reason to feel really excited for life. All you need to do to change your world is to change your view of it. That sentence can confuse people for decades before they get it, but we all will be getting it this month. That which you sow, you reap. It has always been. It will be louder than ever in December.
This means many of you are running into people and it is a dream come true. Collaborations are to set fire, as are people saying things where they notice how lucky they are to get this. Connections are occurring. I even had it the other day where I bought something, but then had to cancel it because I sent it to the wrong address, and doing so saved me $100, but even to begin it was $100 lower than it was supposed to be. So it turned into 50% off. Then the next day the same thing happens where I reached for this one small thing and ended up with a bigger thing that, again, made it 50% off. Another thing happened where I WAS SO LUCKY!!! Oh my gosh. Can't go into the details but it kind of stunned me how lucky I was with being perfectly on time with something.
And I have not had one single IN THE BLACK thing like that happen for a couple years!!! Suddenly it turned into boom, boom, boom. And now I AM EXPECTING MORE!!! I’m like BRING ON THE MAGIC!!!
And this is to be happening for you all so that you too can make that shift where you expect the magic and not the devastation and struggle. To believe, is to attract and call in.
Be aware that old memories will come out of nowhere and all of them deal with healing in some way – and where you need to transform your view of it. Something will come to lighten the load, but it may also frazzle you because it comes out of nowhere and it really goes right back to where you were avoiding wanting to be. But this healing is important. And it's about you finding ways to think you don’t fit into the world or have a home here. It DID get you off path. But now it's time to put you back on your perfect path. It's time to see how this strengthened you and to use that strength to draw clear boundaries in that this thing needs to burn in the fire and be gone. It's time to seek for new levels and new groups that hold you in this moment now, where you are aware of who you are now and not who you were before you were hurt by others. That yearning for the times before keeps you rejecting the wound and not understanding how it also can be what elevates you and gets you out into the world as unique.
When trusting in the Universe and your dance of life while here, you don’t seek to make things so negative or wrong. A step gets you up to the next room, but it is not a part of the next room, nor is it a part of the room you are leaving. The step is just something that comes in as the catalyst for change.
So, see your steps as essential. Fighting your steps keeps you from following through and getting to the next level. Think about that.
A step gets you up to the next room,
but it is not a part of the next room,
nor is it a part of the room you are leaving.
The step is just something that comes in
as the catalyst for change.
So. See your steps as essential.
Value the journey in-between.
W E D N E S D A Y 16 dec |
Good morning my baby! OKAY. There is so much going on with the energy and many messages in this day! So, heads up and check out the details.
First off, know that you are in something that requires you stick with this and not just escape or go off and be confused about things. Just stick with the heavy loads and get things rebuilt so that you are able to create a new feeling foundation that will hold all your dreams.
But the foundation of you is jammed on fight, flight or freeze, and it's created a world where you aren’t really here with us and holding steady with what you DO know about yourself – which is that you are special here. And important. And your things take time. Your things require more from you. But your things also will manifest more for you.
Just like building a house, there are many layers and facets and numbers to be figured. But you don’t give up halfway through because it's been hard for too long. You don’t give up because you have halfway more to go when you start to doubt if you got it in you. You keep going no matter what, no matter what the delays, because you are working for a goal where you have planned to one day live in this home and then be free of the burden or chore of putting it together and getting it done right. So, with goal, you are like the other side of a magnet that HAS to get to its thing. No matter what stands in the way. So know you are in something like this and you need to be. It is about climbing patiently – but climbing, nonetheless.
We also have an energy that is talking about getting you to see into the depth of things where you are seeing another side and it is somehow beautifying or releasing a negative clench you had on your view of a recent past clashing with another. Allow this other view to help you let go because you are needing to come to the other side so that you can let go of the negative energy it creates inside of you OVER processing this clash and how things were left undone or done wrong. So, see that beauty comes in to display another side that your body was not really registering before. This is to lighten your load. This is to take back your sovereignty.
For many this will feel like something is being peeled back, and it can have the sting or shock of waxing. But it also will shift quickly. As layers are lifted, you will see quickly that this is for your good and something about this empowers you to see another view and therefore to choose for a plan that corrects where you were going, which was not for your best.
Expect the peeling back session to really get people changing! This is good! They all will have smooth soft skin to come up against! And like seriously, as these important pieces are lifted from our consciousness, we DO become softer with others and not so combative and ready for a fight. With wounds running the show, we fight often. With wounds rising like a phoenix, we only fight to protect and defend – and never to initiate and anticipate. This is a change occurring where you will start to step back from other people’s projections and wounds and NOT take them seriously to the point you jump into the drama and take on their world views. This is them, not you. We know this now.
So, allow your new body to rise with new power and to go for new plans that WILL get you to new heights. Keep working on bringing in things NEW and reaching out to others in NEW ways. Expect big patterns to shift from this time.
Also, another part of the energy is building and it's all about things being revealed that then trigger strong energy. This can be like an earthquake that triggers a tsunami. So be aware that WILD THINGS start presenting soon and you are just to keep leading these forward so they can move out of their incorrect stuck position. Violation is coming up and things that you just can't believe.
But they come up for you to handle them different, to face what is here while holding a NEW VISION for how this could be transformed. So, with all things, for several days forward, KEEP LOOKING TO THE HORIZON as you hold what comes your way. This is not too much – don’t make it personal. This needs ALL OF US seeing a new vision for correction and a total rebuild. We have it in us to get the job done. So show up for work. The world needs you.
With wounds running the show,
we fight often.
With wounds rising like a phoenix,
we only fight to protect and defend
– and never to initiate and anticipate.
Where are you?
Are you ready for a fight?
Are you able to defend?
Be able, and never ready.
To be ready means you are waiting for.
And waiting for, you draw near.
Shift what you wait for.
T U E S D A Y 15 dec |
Okay then. With this energy we are to rise like bread that is under a towel – but we also are to then settle down in a better way. So, we are going up and expanding, but then quickly going down with something and working on bringing the other side to things so that beauty can be woven into the next steps of your rebuild.
Just like with falling in love or spiritual awakenings, we have a honeymoon stage when things are real expanded. And then they settle. So, know that this energy has many sides to it still and each one just needs you present and READY to rebuild. Like, where your heart is open, and you are ready to listen and to hear what it is going to take.
Some of you may feel humbled by the beauty or humbled in seeing things finally come together, when maybe you had lost hope. You don’t have to know, but what is changing for you is that you are waking more to your value to the point you DO expect to be loved or supported or able to be seen for what you dream. You ARE showing up as someone who is ready to take the bull by the horns and to not even need to know how or why, but to know THIS IS FOR YOU.
Know that tests come after big solar eclipses like the one we just saw, and this is about holding the dream even though you have to walk through the old world still. And truly, the way we soar in life is just through not being affected so much by others and their opinions to the point we go numb and forget what we stood for or wanted to be doing with our day.
So, expect tests where you are high as a kite or seeing into something that shows you a totally different and exciting view, but still seeing people who are acting wrong. THE TEST is for you to see how they are acting and to just acknowledge that that is what they want to create for their future vision, and just affirm how you are building your way OUT of that mentality. You WILL see many closed minded people who have manifested lives that are not the envy, and it is JUST for you to see how you don’t want to choose for that and to get stuck in some rut where what they see is then all that you can see.
Stand strong in this day in knowing you are building something better, where you finally will feel like your crop is growing new plants. This energy will make you feel LOVELY. It's just something where things can hit you where you are really conscious of the moments before you and where you will decide today that you will never let life pass you by.
The awakening that hits us is to get us seeing that the future needs our most hopeful dreaming. And only that. Enough of the sad stories. Even when you see closed down businesses, you also can see that now there is opportunity for a new business to come in and give it a shot. The canvas may be going blank in places, but that just means more opportunity for something exciting and new.
Where we will all head in our careers is where we can sit RIGHT NOW and be an authority. It doesn’t matter about levels or money or ego. It matters that YOU KNOW YOUR SHIT. And you love it and vibe it and want more of it.
Where we go is that we now start finding the 4th leg on our chairs so that we are not only on 3 legs and constantly needing our core to maintain balance. With the 4th leg, STABILITY is on the rise. So, get ready. What you rebuild makes space for a better addition to your world vision. This is important here and it needs you being assertive with declaring the best ways for you, and NOT backing down or changing because of others. Draw boundaries and make your space safe. YOU CAN DO THAT. You have permission to do that.
Your future needs
Your most hopeful dreaming.
Build your castle
And don’t let others determine
M O N D A Y 14 dec |
Oh hello Solar Eclipse New Moon in Sagittarius! WE LOVE when this happens. WE LOVE Saggie energies coming to rain down on humanity and get all of us looking around the corner to see where we can step into MORE in our lives, and into spaces we have always dreamed of exploring.
Imagine you lived on one floor your whole life, and now the 2nd floor was just put in and you have all this other space to expand and live in. THAT is what is happening now. WE ALL have space to move into, and it will require us leaping into the unknown – but into something that FEELS like it is ours to experience.
So, expect to put yourself out there, but to really feel like the mystery beyond this WAS BORN to be yours. You are going to be hearing of people moving and making big changes with their career where different things are now important. Many of you will be thinking of a leap of faith that you considered in your path, and now it will be clear that you need to try this. And it will be something inside of you that has changed -- that is now giving yourself permission to be happy.
Whoa. Did that hit some of you hard? Those words should have brought a heavy realization inside your body that many of you DON’T actually believe you can find happiness and live the life of your dreams. You think about it. But you don’t BELIEVE it. You don’t sit ready on the edge of your seat waiting for it. You do what we talked about yesterday where you fall into the failure interpretation of ALL. No matter what happens, that is not light and wonderful, you tend to digest in a negative way where you DO use words and thoughts that diminish your value and plant seeds for desert walks with no water in sight. You see the limitation, the scarcity, the dry life that lacks luster. You SEE FOR IT. And you were programmed to operate that way.
But now you wake out of that spell. Your eyes are to flutter awake and find that thing that feels like your thing, and to GUN IT into a new perspective or new way of seeing something so that you are in a different league and operating in different ways. I know that I get to take a bath every day if I want and just soak up the abundance of water. And I know others have to walk 5 miles and haul their water back home. I lived on well water before that ran dry and had to bring in my own water for a few weeks.
Wherever you are, and what you have adapted to, you need to start looking for a higher level of living where things ARE EASIER ON YOU. And it comes when we make a change and get out of what was stuck and keeping us complaining. We are to see that the complaining was getting us to move ourselves out. But what we have been in has been so deep that we couldn’t see how to climb our way out. NOW WE SEE and now inside your body something wakes up, or wakes up AGAIN, and this will let you know that it is time and you need to reach out to what is out there far and wide, and BRING THIS INTO YOUR LIFE.
The energy is showing as us wildly declaring I NEED MORE and bravely looking into the beyond, and not in this moment where you keep doubting yourself or going glass half empty thinking, wait a minute, if I risk going out there, I may NOT get what I want, and then go through rejection or whatever. --- BUT. If you put yourself out there and you DO get what you want, then you get your dream life.
ALL OF YOU are ready for this risk. Because all of you are set to step into a better view. And it all evolves, or rises like a slow volcano, from within you. And from you FINALLY facing challenges in a different way, where you don’t hold back with imaginary fear, but instead leap into imaginary hope. Imagine that everyone is going to get what they want. Everyone will have their needs met. And now see what that inspires you to see for yourself! If you know we ALL get, what do you REALLY, REALLY want to get. It’s time for a change.
SOLAR ECLIPSE IN SAGITTARIUS.
Because you are facing challenges in a different way --
where you don’t hold yourself back with imaginary fear,
and instead leap into imaginary hope --
your wishes are now drawing near!
Imagine that everyone is going to get what they want.
Everyone will have their needs met.
And now see what that inspires you to see for yourself!
If you know we ALL get,
what do you REALLY, REALLY want to get?
It’s time for a change
That deals with your ultimate dream.
It's time to make this a reality.
Make the space in your mind
And you will walk this forever.
moon journey: 17 to 30 Sagittarius
moon phase: plant the seeds
numerology vibration: 1| Assert. 2| Try to understand. 3| Things are changing.
New Moon Solar Eclipse 23 degrees Sagittarius
S U N D A Y 13 dec |
My loves! This energy is magical. And it's my Dad’s birthday! And tomorrow is my soul’s birthday. And I am feeling something really special going on!! I first heard, this is the time when miracles happen, and healing takes place that is out of the norm.
So do know that what was done wrong CAN BE DONE RIGHT. You need to awaken your healer and see with the eyes of someone who knows you CAN get through this. Because you can. And you always do. And you always have.
But this time will be different because your MIND IS UPGRADING, and it is learning new ways to handle challenges so that you are feeling the HOPE and the desire to keep moving with things until they get better. The old you had a quick trigger reaction where you make everything your fault or that you are not doing good enough or that you are too damaged to get to the dreams that only others get to experience
In many ways, you instantly find fault when things don’t go your way and you make it into something where you believe your time is over or it is too far gone, or you have done too much wrong. When in fact. You manifested this situation that needs you digging your way out BECAUSE of the skill it will give you FROM digging your way out. In karma, you needed the skill perfected. And the skill wraps around whatever life collaborations get you walking the journey to learn the skill. It's like boy scouts and you are earning your badges.
But until you learn how to change the flat tire, you are NOT SKILLED at it. You have to do it once to learn the way. And inside of you, something was planted where you fear the change of spontaneous life and when it shows you something that appears as a challenge. And with the challenge, how do you respond? -- In the old world ways, to the floor with your body believing you are destined for losertown.
In your new world ways, to the horizon with eyes knowing all challenges are here to elevate you. Nothing is here to destroy you. Everything is here to awaken you and get you seeing how incredibly powerful you are and GOOD at getting your jobs done. Speak like you know this is a part of the journey up the mountain. Speak as if the spots where the road narrows, against a steep cliff going off to dark voids of nowhere, are just where you need to pay attention and be here now – and not where SURELY – THIS – IS – WHEN – YOU – FAIL.
You grip for failure in all that you do and see. And that grip needs to be released. There is more for you to dream for and it comes when you see there is more for you to dream for. There is MORE FOR YOU TO SEE. You have spent your life seeing for the failure and for things not going your way. So just play today and start shifting that to seeing this is all perfect, divinely orchestrated and only to get you stepping into your soul’s purposeand into doing what really gets you feeling like life is valuable.
This awakening can be like the one you go through when you discover factory farming and fast food restaurants. At one point, you could eat a quarter pounder with cheese and only see how amazing this tastes, to then knowing what you are really eating – and then stopping cold turkey and never eating it again. I know I stopped McDonalds and all of them about 22 years ago. And it was when I learned about factory farming.
So, allow your mind to open and your eyes to see there is something more than the path you are on, that manipulated you to get you there. Find where you organically want to go and use your mind to dream of the great heights you will go when you take a leap of faith into the unknown. Just push your mind to see for something more. Steer your car towards the mountains and go.
You grip for failure
in all that you do and see.
And that grip needs to be released.
There is more for you to dream for
and it comes when you see
there is more for you to dream for.
Don’t stop your dreams.
Don’t expect to fail.
Just go and see and be happy
No matter the leg of the journey.
S A T U R D A Y 12 dec |
Everything is coming in to assist you in using your mind in the best ways so that you are not running from challenges, but rather running into them as if you know they will earn you a reward or give back in some way that gets you feeling better about your life. This energy is something special and it really is about showcasing your power and getting you wanting more and more.
I remember I talked about how I never had a car with under 100k miles on it until my current one. And WHEN I made the purchase, I suddenly started looking around at other ways I wanted to upgrade my life, because the FEELING of getting in a car, where I had nothing to worry about breaking down, had me living this whole other life!
I was suddenly free to focus on better things. And I never could have guessed that would happen. I only adapted around having older cars and always being alert that something could go wrong. I didn’t know that choosing for more and choosing to walk a more luxurious life for myself would also get me realizing I was compromising on way too much. It like activated me wanting to reach further than where I had been before. It made some things suddenly feel unacceptable, when before I thought it was good enough.
So expect to go through your own sort of awakening where things are just not acceptable – and you have to be the one to put down the new way that things need to be, which MAY MEAN you have to deal with money, or the lack thereof, and find the ways to make lemonade and to get to some new perspective on your past SO THAT it frees you to go to some next level or view or land in life.
There may be a tight squeeze today, where you leap into something that is an investment, and not proof just yet, but face that fear and just tell it where it now needs to go. Talk about how we DO need to invest and trust and DO before we sometimes receive. This may feel like a trial by fire where you are having to go against others or something that you didn’t really believe was possible. It feels like pain in here, but something that shows you how strong you are and how much you DO need to keep digging and get yourself into better situations that ARE available if you do the work.
All of us are seeing the light up ahead and this is to empower you in knowing you are getting out of a situation that was taking your life, but you have to deal with what is here to get to there. Value the journey of what this teaches you. It ONLY makes you stronger so that you demand hella better this next time around. This next time you are coming from a totally different position – thus you will manifest a totally different outcome. SEEK for the new. The old is ready to be clothes that don’t fit anymore that need to go to donations. Assist the process. And get ready to awaken to a new power that you didn’t know you even possessed.
The old is ready to be clothes
that don’t fit anymore
that need to go to donations.
Assist the process.
Pack the boxes.
Drive the car.
KNOW that this
Will get you far.
DO to get.
Lighten to enliven.
F R I D A Y 11 dec |
Good morning my sweet loves! TODAY we let go of something and you really get to see that things are changing. I am being shown this shell falling away from us, where there was a mold holding us into a way that IS NOT OUR WAY. And only now are we really seeing it and really understanding that WE ALL CAN HAVE MORE THAN THIS!
Suddenly the dream is waking up so strongly in you all and this will have you dropping things and letting them go when before you may have been so completely fixated and unable to detach from the drama, THUS putting on the mold and totally losing your vision for what can be.
This time is to be powerful where you are seeing how you were conned and how manipulative forces were all about getting you to give to those who don’t even deserve your love and light. Just know, the mold got you conned like the bubbles of energy I talk about above each town, where the area lives with this particular belief system -- that can be something real different in different places.
This mold is the same thing on you, and breaking apart now, where your eyes can be flying awake over how real things are and how NOW you see the way. This energy is dropping something from the sky that is purple and that is like dish soap coming in to dissolve the mold. Know that something special is here and it is clearing the way. Clearing the tar. Clearing the mold that gets you only seeing so far.
Many of you will be real tired today and this is to pull you inward to help you see your own insight at connecting something that before you couldn’t see. But know that we all come to deep wisdom that is particular for each of us and that deals with a pattern needing to go and needing to be rewired so that we ARE shooting to find things that love us to the Moon and back.
Keep digging till you find your gold – and honor that we ARE seeking for gold – knowing that our determination at changing old patterns or ways of being is what is getting us rewards. The moment I moved to my new home every aspect of life shifted into harmony. Nothing was right in my old home. No matter what I did or worked hard for, nothing worked out in my favor. NOW I have things happening that are my ultimate dream come true. Not just the house! Other things too are THE BEST THINGS EVER. I haven’t talked yet but – yeah.
What I let go of and what I decided to work through and get through and deal with, AS I pursued the light of a better path, GOT ME the best path I have ever gotten to walk. I am 100% living the dream now. And I was 100% living a nightmare in my last house. THINGS CHANGE. When the vacuum gets real loud, it's working on something real deep. Trust this. Allow your WRONG to leave its addiction on you. And stand firm that you are doing this to rebuild what you DESERVE to be living. NO wasting any of your time on anything that doesn’t love on you. It's time to draw your boundaries and get clear on rebuilding this with the best there is to offer. Keep digging until you feel how essential you are. Expect to manifest a surprise that is everything to you from what you let go of that diminished you. The space you make will create something that gives you cause to celebrate. SO, DO THIS. Commit to you and go deep on the matters at hand.
Go for the things
That love you
To the Moon and back.
Keep the stars in your eyes.
Sweet star that YOU are.
T H U R S D A Y 10 dec |
OKAY! Know that you are being asked to put your heart into what is needing to be rebuilt. This means really speaking up about how you need things to be and THAT you DO deserve to feel safe and secure and growing in a healthy way. AND NOT on the edge of the cliff, trembling in fears, and wondering if you really do have a purpose or place here.
YOU ARE NOT to be doubting yourself at this time – and instead to just allow this to play itself out, but to know that your FEELS are strong SO THAT you see your body is speaking, and something really does matter. You may be making a decision, but it's not time yet. For now, try to still remain open as if you are watching a spin wheel come to a stop. You really can't do anything more than what you can do. So, trust as the turns keep going BUT DO HOPE that you are a winner.
Just try what you can to look at what is around you like you WILL get what you ask for and what your body is telling you is correct. We are moving out of the way of others and for that reason it's tempting to fall in line with them and to not really honor the path we wanted to take. Just keep turning if it doesn’t feel right – and don’t go head on into things that go against your wishes. Such as people who come in with their power, or bad timing, where they interrupt when you just wanted to go along in peace. So, change course and don’t smack straight into things because you think you have to, or it keeps from ruffling others or having them talk negative about you.
That doesn’t matter. Those things become forgotten. What matters is that you stop giving away your peace because something just so happens to be there or just so happens to be offering those trigger things. Like, step up and love yourself more! Don’t give up your space. Draw clear boundaries and know that how they take it is on them and nothing to do with you. Focus on you.
Focus on you creating a day where you get to be taken care of and YOU are the one who feels loved on. I realized we are to be with people who think we are the most kickass thing ever. We are not to be with people who talk about how perfect they could be for us or who WE think they could be for us. We are to be with people who make us FEEL like we are wonderful. It's about how you feel around them. Just like with my new home and how it feels sooooooo good!!! It’s so cozy! I am in Grandma cozyland – and it's just what my body needs.
But it took me standing up for myself and demanding better than I had seen before. LISTEN TO THAT. I needed the pain to help me really come up with the best dream ever and to FINALLY be held in the ways that feel good and honoring to me. I needed the antithesis in all its ways IN ORDER TO DREAM WITH PASSION and to allow the Universe to say, oh you want this then? And to finally be able to say, YES! YES! YES!
So, demand better. DO NOT SETTLE. This time is the time of big dreams. So your mind needs to be on getting your own Grandma cozyland thing. Call in that partner who makes you think YOU ARE the best thing ever. Call in that job that makes you think YOU ARE the best thing ever. Go get your best because you deserve this – and we are choosing for ourselves now. No more making space for others to dominate the way. It's time to draw your own new course – that goes towards love and harmony. It's time for you to get a home like mine.
It's time to go get
What makes YOU FEEL
Like you are the best thing ever.
Forget the talk or ideas you THINK
HOW DO YOU FEEL?
You deserve to be.
W E D N E S D A Y 9 dec |
Today we write a story in a new way and where we ARE finding the support we need and the family we need that honors us and the things that get us feeling safe on Planet Earth -- no matter what others around us may be going through.
WRITE A STORY and see that there are other sides to things – and always when we are most confused. You are to look into there being some other side that explains it all and get you seeing why things had to be. But ultimately the energy is here saying that you need to DIGEST THIS and process it so that you are not so quickly finding fault or focusing too much on what is out of balance.
It is so old world to focus negatively on what is not working. It's not even where we need to be anymore. It needs to be that EVERYTHING that is messed up gets us thinking like a nurse running in to help some emergency call. We are to go in KNOWING all that is broken has some sort of hope for betterment and WE can be the ones showing up with that knowing on the edge of our aura -- where we anticipate we will have what it takes and that no corner is going to get you running back into fears where you buy into thinking that you DON’T GOT ANY SKILLS.
So, hold it today. Expect to be looking into a mystery book where you really don’t know what is going to happen with the characters and all the suspense. Be like a child with your story and with your book. We just need you expecting a good solution to all that hangs in peril. Like owning that you KNOW things are going to work out, and that is that.
Steer your mind today to seeing the love and the harmony and the sweet visions of things coming together in the most wonderful ways. Don’t seek for imbalance to be the end of things. Don’t push things over the cliff in trying to make them fall apart further. Just seek that all your needs will be met and things mysterious will unfold perfectly because you are so perfectly positioned in this perfectly timed experience on Planet Earth.
Do be aware that tests come to get you to stand solid and sure. But the test needs you seeing to the other side. It needs you remembering that you DO get through the storms and that you do got it in you to rebuild and rise stronger than ever in the coming weeks.
See a beautiful story for yourself where the love is there and the community is there and you are able to show yourself in a new role where you are not over-compensating for how others have hurt you, and thus dented your approaches, now creating dances of confusion with others.
See that you are coming through clearly and that you have every right to keep it real and to show what you really feel. EXPECT to get back what you want. Like, don’t go as a victim and think of course the answer will be no. Like, go KNOWING you are going to get the job, the person, the position, the dream, the home, the opportunity.
You all don’t know all the stories yet, but I got a home in a town that everyone is trying to move into because it's one of the best places to be in all of the USA. So, there are TONS more people applying then there were back in March. And my landlord only showed a few pictures in the listing, not even really revealing how incredible this PERFECT house is -- and she ONLY reached out to me. She got to my email and said, oh let me reach out to her.
And I hadn’t even really written that much! I did say I think I love this house!! And I knew it then!!! But she felt my energy and was like, this is the person. And, I GOT the best home ever!! I pay so much less than I used to and have more than I have ever in my life had. This is 100% a dream come true and my life has 100% shifted into the black, as the GV students know, when I had been 100% in the red since I moved into the last house I lived in.
NOW it is A DREAM!! I love every single moment of my life now!!! I just want to savor it all. It is absolutely the best I have lived before. For 4 months straight, all moments are what I have dreamed for and called heaven.
But I conjured such a dream life from living in the dysfunction of my last home and how it wrecked everything out of place. From living in something that was like cold and unwelcoming energy, I manifested dreams + HOPES for something warm and cozy – and I manifested the coziest wool duvet bed experience EVER.
From being homeless or out in the cold or with nothing that holds and supports you, you THEN WISH FOR WHAT WILL.
And this is what calls it forward. We need to wish more, dream more and keep seeing to the other side of why we are here now in these things. There is more for you, my love! See what I see and just keep your eyes on the horizon.
And KNOW that miracles happen. My story was a MIRACLE. But I dreamed so hard for it that it HAD to manifest. So dream hard for your better things.
This other side to your life,
The story where it really gets better,
So do your part and
See the art in what you are creating.
Believe the best is what comes next.
T U E S D A Y 8 dec |
Oh loves! This day is exciting because it is crossing lines with others where we are seeing where we are needed, or where we STILL NEED TO GROW. This is like opening a present and not knowing what it will be, but today we open something that either affirms how great we are doing OR it empowers us to see that we are still growing. And that is okay.
Think about flowers and how they have this timed lifeline from birth to blossom and from blossom to death. They don’t stay around forever as they all do something where they give their all, and then they stop giving of it. For a certain amount of time they GIVE and then they just suddenly stop.
But never do the flowers look around and feel envious of other flowers who bloomed quicker. Never do they sit in fear or talk negative about other flowers who are already bright and colorful, when they are still waiting to bloom. They just trust AND THEY ENJOY THE RIDE.
You are to be finding this vibe that deals with you being plugged into something that gives you joy in doing it so that no matter the journey of feast or famine, it's all good. If you have to put 100 pieces together of something that will take an hour of your ultimate attention, you will ENJOY IT at this time. When we get plugged into “our chore” it will feel like fun – and notice that you are making connections with your body and how it FEELS GOOD to be doing this or you feel good in the moment. NOTICE THIS.
Something will have us getting up and going where we seem to feel more in control of things when we DO. Enjoy this energy because we don’t always get a gateway like this where we ARE being assisted to get things done and to not let them linger. Also know that you could only be standing at this point BECAUSE of how you are now seeing off into the horizon and dreaming for better days for yourself. YOU got yourself off the couch, and at this point the energy IS going to start assisting you, like with a mama helping you to take your first steps.
But getting here was on YOU making YOU a priority and NOT allowing others fears to keep dictating your way. Fuck that shit. There are ways for us to bring things into balance so that we are not so lopsided in life and leaning into some negative stance on things. This will lighten and get you seeing that it just had to be that way.
It was a chapter in your life, it was a lesson for you to walk, but now it's time to let it go and see how it made you RESILIENT. I met this girl in Taos when I first moved here and she went into the mountains for 2 weeks to camp all alone, all by herself. And I think she was like 24. And -- I was like, NO WAY!!!! I would NEVER EVER do that. I could NEVER EVER do that. I don’t NEVER EVER want to do that.
But I was like, how kickass are you! I told her I wanted to interview her for us so that we can hear how IT CAN BE DONE. And for those who dream of doing it, this is what you need to know. This time is showing us that things can heal, that they can be done, that the best CAN be what is just around the corner. That you CAN have love later in life, that is better than anything you could dream. You CAN have a career later in life, that is better than anything you could dream.
You CAN have beautiful things STILL. And what I know about life is that they call it the golden years for a reason. Like 50 and beyond is to be Golden Times. And gold, like shining, like sharing TRUE WISDOM, like knowing the path and now stepping into Galactic Vision.
So enjoy this day for how it reveals your next way. And then. Get things into order and see that each new piece gets you higher up the mountain of your dreams. It all is worth it. DO this for you because you deserve to see what is over the horizon and waiting to greet you when you are fully cooked and in position.
Enjoy this day for how it reveals your next way.
You go up OR you keep learning.
To go up means to take a leap of faith.
To keep learning means you stay held safe
And can just watch things be, with no pressure
To extend your balloon and puff your chest
Before it's time.
Jump or ground.
Grasshopper or turtle.
A lot will be moving around!