M O N D A Y 30 nov |  
 
Oh moon! We love when you go full in GEMINI and when you get us to WAKE UP about how much authority we give to our minds as we have worked to bypass the true messages of our bodies. We also have a LUNAR ECLIPSE so this marks part 1 of 2 that will speak of the main pathway you will be walking and learning from over the next 6 months. 
 
With Gemini we learn to be okay with change and to move more as we see that we learn from actually walking and going out and SEEING what is going on with the world. If we stay too much in the mind, we get confused by all the options, which tends to then get you stuck. When stuck you only see what is wrong with you and how many turns and choices you made in your past that you would give anything to do again. 
 
In the mind we can be convinced to adore a false prophet and to not see the warning signs that others clearly see. We can be convinced that a young person who murders other humans is a hero. We can be convinced that it is OKAY to have someone making decisions that lead to money or resources now, even though they deplete things for the future and take away what could be IF things were not taken away in the abrupt ways they are now. We can say, hey, that’s okay because I GET IT NOW. 
 
Our minds can be the most wonderful place, but only about .01% of you even know that yet! You don’t even know the full potential of what you COULD HAVE if you only controlled your mind better. If you apply discipline and a healthy adult approach, you will see a different life before your eyes. BUT YOU DON’T. You buy into lies and fake news that are serving some other dark purpose that is illuding you and keeping you under a spell. And only because something about the reality TV show has you so hooked that you have grown addicted to the pain and to thinking it's okay to say and do and think these things. 
 
But, just like if you never took your trash out, it would eventually add up to something that smothers the life out of you. If you never cut your hair it would be down to the floor and tripping you and giving you real bad neck pain to deal with in your later days. This is when we are to face what we need to see and to honor that the illusion of it kept us from growing and expanding like we needed to do. 
 
For this reason, expect to see things where others have stopped you or where a move on their part is why you now feel like you are struggling. Something needs to be let go of with this and it deals with you possibly letting them go or not needing them in the ways you thought -- like when they pull away and you chase after them. There is a situation here where you are chasing and need to let them pull away and be gone if need be. Something about seeing how they altered your path is going to be what helps you let this go and move on for YOU. 
 
And this will be something in our minds that we could not let go of. Whether we really knew it or not, we were staying in glass half empty and kind of pushing the good away. So this time wants you starting over with a new story about how people treat you or how you think things will go down. It's about starting over where we shift into glass half full, and eyes on the horizon, and with our FEELINGS guiding the way. 
 
Because we are in a mental space right now, and because of the past weeks of teachings, OUR BODIES are really letting us know that we need to let go. Do be aware that you may feel sort of aggressive with what you are ready to let go of, and that is okay. For some of you, when you wake out of this spell it can be like WTF was I thinking??? We ultimately have been chasing the pain. And the energy that rises wants you seeing how your thoughts led to this demise, and that there is no time better than now to shift that focus and see that you deserve certain things that don’t trip you up or sabotage what you are working to create. 
 
Pay attention to your thoughts, and as you do, your feelings will grow stronger. In the old world the thoughts were programmed to blur the feelings so that you only choose for the thoughts. That is what is changing on Planet Earth. As you shift, things are to spark alive AND get you speaking kinder with yourself and others as we move into better times. 
 
See that your mind is the home source of all. If you feel suspicious, there may be something there, but steer to glass half full as you process it. See that there IS light or understanding to this, even if it feels murky and confusing. Invite the energy to be positive, not negative. Don’t be so suspicious because it will create a life that isn’t that fun to walk. Instead FEEL what you feel about this person or thing -- and know THAT is the truth. Your job is just to expand from what is out of order and keep YOU believing in yourself and in the better world you are creating. To see clutter is not a negative thing. Just clean it up in a higher vibing way. Things MAY need to go to the curb -- but try to do it with grace. 
 
 
 
LUNAR ECLIPSE IN GEMINI
 
I now commit to clear my mind,
To plant new spaces 
For hope to lead the way, 
To create the dreams for my better days. 
I realize I am in more control 
Than I was programmed to believe. 
BUT ACTUALLY, that which I think, is what I will see. 
 
I trust the process of my journey to higher lands
And surrender my mind to love
Where I work to hold hands 
With the light and dark --
But to always know I AM getting somewhere better. 
Moments of dark are not dark forever
Unless in my mind that is all I am willing to think and see.
That starts over today in me. 
 
 
moon journey: 7 to 18 Gemini
moon phase: bring it forward
numerology vibration: 9| Let go.
Full Moon LUNAR ECLIPSE 9 degrees Gemini

S U N D A Y 29 nov |  

Good morning! We are on the eve of a VERY POWERFUL Lunar Eclipse in Gemini. It is why we have been so focused on learning to not give authority to our minds to the point we declare this to be a circle when it is clearly and undeniably a square. If only others knew what we knew.

For this reason, your assignment today is where you need to be 100% in awareness of the words you use and how you dance with others. We are confronting tests where others are going to be 100% sure the square is a circle. And today things can hit you with the strength of a tidal wave BECAUSE you are so aware of the corruption and of how wrong things have been in dominating the way forward. We reach a peak point where IT WILL be challenging to not rip things to shreds with the rundown of how inadequate they are.We are not to do this today, though. We are to put something to a rest, or to begin in the desire for something to be coming to a close where the spell is broken, and we can see clearly WITHOUT also allowing others to intervene and confuse us.

I told you in 2016 that the theme of these times was going to be: those who smelt it, dealt it. Therefore, we always are to look to WHO IS SAYING THIS and to know that THIS IS THEM TOO. When we operate under the spell, we don’t connect things like that, and we take all words as the gospel truth and THIS is what is really going on.

Moving to San Francisco when I was 24, and leaving Southern Illinois and my original roots, REALLY opened me to the spells that sit over towns and hang an umbrella of energy over it, like giving it particular rain clouds, that other areas do not see. I HAD NO IDEA until I moved across the country and sat under a different umbrella. Then I moved to Arizona and New Mexico and Colorado – to feel the umbrellas and to feel out which one holds me best. But most people never go looking and never do discover that we all sit programmed to a degree from this collective space we sit and culminate with. What we see, we believe. What we believe, we go out there and preach.

Something about this wisdom hits us to the core as if we are under the water spout as it finally turns on. We connect things today in a way that feels like a season change where we really take note and stop to relish this new vibration.

BUT. There are challenges today where you need to NOT give in, DON’T GO THERE and really work to change the way your mind runs and your mouth releases so that you are not DISGRACING OTHERS because they sit under an umbrella that delivers different views than yours.

Today needs to be when you really start to let that go and stop trying to dominate others and be the male dog that wants to mount the other male dog and be like I AM THE TOP DOG. raaaahhh. Like, we need to let that go. We need to stop acting like we are right, even though we likely are 100% right, but still, we are a God, they are a God. We all are here to become sovereign upon ourselves. And that means something for you, and it means something for others. But you only need to focus on you. You only need to think that you are on camera and others are seeing how you respond, and you need to change today in understanding that others believe what they believe because their sources tell them so.

Can you change their minds? NO. Umbrellas are also like cults or family, with deep connections of loyalty, where we fully support and defend our family and name. So be smarter in knowing you don’t have to change anyone and just as I had no idea coming from a little farm town in Illinois that there was anything more than what I knew there. It was only from getting out. It was only from taking a leap of faith. It was only from deciding to change and allowing my life to take on other chapters in other places.

If you grow and become better, good on you! But if others don’t seem to be doing the same, BAD ON YOU for making them wrong for following that path. And bad mostly because YOU KNOW they won't change from your force and domination. So bad on you for not VALUING the gift that YOU ARE and honoring that your space does not deserve to be disrupted by people who have no idea how high you plan to climb and how far you plan to go towards creating something beautiful. 
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Release your throat and let something go, but use your throat to speak something from your soul that IS about healing or coming together to make better. This energy is different now and the Eclipse wants you to LET GO and see that your mind needs less authority because all the evil it sees is all the evil it believes is inside too. Keeping it real times!!!!! See this. Clear this. Use your mind and words to think about love and healing. Those who smelt it, dealt it. So pay attention to what YOU SMELL. Do what you can to smell gardenia and orange blossoms -- and not a trash can and skanky skank.


Those who smelt it, dealt it.
It is the ultimate con
And the ultimate demise
Because rarely is something beautiful
Smelt.
Mostly is something mean smelt.
So, look within,
As the collective smells what they actually dish out.
What are you smelling? 
Because that is YOU TOO. 
And it's time to make it better
And to vibe with love on the inside first.
So that love can arrive on the outside next.

S A T U R D A Y 28 nov |  
 
Oh yes. Good morning sweet peach! This day is POWERFUL!!! Be aware that it may be a day early or day late for equal parts of you. Something is so powerful that it is having to come in this triangle pattern that runs for 3 days. I guess I personally get hit by it today because I didn’t notice it like I do in this reading room. It's like KABOOM!! 
 
And the message is that you are to be coming together with others where you are showing yourself new and with a stronger voice, or even where you have stronger boundaries in allowing others to be, and TODAY is the gateway of when things shift AS PER what is going on inside of you where you are either shopping at the goodwill store, or expecting handmade and local and made especially for you. 
 
That was NOT a slam to thrift!!! Just an example that right now you need it better than you have had it before, and you ARE being asked to be more vocal in demanding that your needs be met. Like, full on, being the shape of the outcome of what you want things to be. If you have problems with someone, and you know there are touchy places when you come together, then you need to be the one to start drawing stop signs where you know you both needn’t be. Like YOU stop yourself. 
 
I was talking to my neighbor the other day, who DOES talk negative about others in a way that is uncomfortable to me as I am not into gossip at all – I don’t like to hear people’s bad sides through someone who has a biased opinion of them. That talk always makes me curious to the one saying these things to me. I always think, WHY are you so sensitive of them and so upset and wanting me to think the same way. I more go into therapist mode and take it with a grain of salt, but wonder what deeper thing is going on. 
 
So, I am learning to avoid certain talks with her, but the other day she was saying these things, and she kept saying, “Oh, but I know I shouldn’t say that. It's negative and gossipy and it's not kind.” BUT… – As she teetered back and forth trying to stop herself, while also feeling compelled and wanting to keep going and just get a few more things out. So, I interrupted and said, “yeah, I don’t need to know anyway.” And then we shifted into other things that were positive to talk about – and the conversation ended on a really good note with laughter and carefree feels. 
 
But listen how her insides where saying, STOP THIS, and then as she waffled with this pattern, I jumped in to help her do the right thing that she DID want to do, and we merged into sweeter lands. We basically got out from under the hail and rain and got on the porch to look at pretty flowers. 
 
So, expect to do the same in some way where you are not allowing something, when otherwise you may have accepted it just fine and took on the digesting of what it means, as something that you just do.DON’T ALLOW THOSE THINGS if they don’t feel honoring to you. This time is changing the patterns you have with those you dance with. And it may be that you need to lead more and to get things going into higher quality and luxury and better crops that will actually sustain you and help you feel solid and secure here. 
 
IF you can stay out of compromising who you are in order to keep others happy first, you WILL manifest something today that gets you through a pattern where you didn’t think you deserved these really nice things. So, see this day as important mostly just because it is when you are to change the tune on shooting for just good enough, and really start looking to the moon and back to provide you any and all best possible outcomes. 
 
From privilege, you naturally expect to receive. Do what you can to remember that you are a child of the Universe and that you can expect to be cared for proper, where your needs are met in the highest of ways. You can shift gears and look to a new direction and just become this person who suddenly feels like they are worth a million bucks. 
 
In partnership we are to come together with others who make us feel sexy, valuable, high quality and the cream of the crop. For some reason, to find those partnerships, we often have to first create the relationship inside ourselves, where we learn to love ourselves so much that we ARE willing to leap over the cliff and expect Mama & Papa Universe to provide the protection for a safe journey. 
 
So, get to know yourself in ways where you soften and tune into what would value the better person you are growing into. Think of growing things and be soft and careful with what you grow. This time is to give some solid new feeling inside like you are not alone and like you can really expect better things.
 
So, allow the new to come in and ground you so that you DO feel more powerful with the love you got to give and the ways you DO feel like going against the grain is going to benefit you. See that others have not been where you long to go, and they are not to be the council of if you should or should not go. Only those who have gone before should ever be the ones telling you what you need to do. Don’t look into scarcity and keep making it your home. Upgrade. Even in the dark, you will find the way. 
 
 
Don’t look into scarcity 
And keep making it your destination. 
Upgrade your point of view. 
Even in the dark, YOU WILL find the way.
So, stand firm like a tree
In OWNING that abundance 
Is the flavor of your destiny.
Scarcity is so 2020. 
You are SO 2021.
 

F R I D A Y 27 nov |  
 
Whoa. You all are going to notice a shift around this day! It also may have something to do where at first you can’t sleep, or you have lots of body pains that are coming out of nowhere. You may strain your wrist, then your back in trying to not use the wrist. Then your hip because of the back strain that came to counterbalance the wrist strain. Some of you can really feel beaten up. 
 
BUT this proceeds the shift that gets you up and going. More people now are going to be coming out of stuck positions because of the energy upgrades that are tweaking where you are needing oil to your dried-up movements. You have gotten so stagnant that you need this adjustment to get you smoothly rolling into your new things. We want you showing up in a nice car that is well loved, and not a clunker that wobbles its way to you. So, honor that pains are just where you are needing to love more or value yourself more or honor that it IS time to come out of a stuck position and get on the road again. 
 
Many of you will feel real sensitive where you may wonder if you DO have creative gifts that can sustain you. If you do get hit, and fall sensitive, go into the deeper meaning of how this hits you. So, if it comes in the body pains, what do those body parts symbolize? See that things are bringing you messages like going through and ordering as a restaurant manager where you make note that something is running low. And you wouldn’t just stand there, and be so bummed that you are running low on an ingredient, to the point you just focus there. You wouldn’t. You see that you are low, and you go and order more. 
 
Try to apply this way of thinking as you face what comes today. FOR MANY this day is sort of deflating and where you won't really think you can figure your way through money issues and getting out of the scarcity life where you DO keep planting ideas and thoughts around your demise. Like, body pains, you lean things towards them staying around as you stay fixated on how uncomfortable they are to be in, feeling that they are in control of you. 
 
At this time, you are to make note that you are low in certain areas, as you go around as the manager and take stock at this time. But really be serious about believing that you WILL figure your way through things and that it is okay to draw boundaries with others who are not choosing to live in the same ways as you, even though they probably REALLY want you to their side of things.
 
Stand stronger in knowing you are valuable, and you deserve to be sharing your space in crops where similar things grow. You deserve to be around what you wish to grow up and become, instead of what goes at a clash and always has you questioning yourself. Where you are low, you need to fill up and you need to go into something simpler and where you feel like you want to get up each day and do the things around you that need your care. Things can start to feel more sacred, and like you don’t just want to go to these things because you are expected to, and have them crush you, when inside you are remembering that you DO have a say and you SHOULD be expecting things WONDERFUL that grace you in kind and sweet ways. 
 
This time will test you to see if you go towards the scarcity, because you know it so well, and have addictions to that uncomfortable feeling, or where you will decide to create a new plan for what you will consciously create so that you do feel like you are connected more in this moment and in the gift of what is here in your life right now. 
 
Something is to soften where you look out and start to see things with love, even when they are in need of repair. And it is that love that will generate a better solution to what is in need of repair. You are to look at things as if the broken down can just be summoned with a fix and be something that will support you even better. There also is a test today in asking you to step up and believe in yourself as valuable enough to go against the grain, or others’ domineering ways. 
 
So, expect to use your voice and to declare that you need things better in certain ways. This is like asking that the windows be closed in the winter nights so that the heat of the fireplace can stay inside. You DESERVE to be warm and toasty. But something may test you to deal with others who left the doors open and where you have to use your voice to get them closed again. You have to somehow make it known that you deserve better things and that you DO deserve to say the words, in whatever form, even if they sound like a child, where you DO talk clearly about what you are feeling or your ideas around creative plans for a more sustainable world to be walking. 
 
Get ready to speak and to know that you can order whatever you’d like. You can have it. But don’t be surprised if you do go low and shoot for something just good enough. That is the test. Do you stick with the same, so as to not make any stinks, or do you go for the best thing ever that feels like an upgrade to all your senses?
 
 
Do you stick with the same? 
So as to not make any stinks. 
Or do you go for the best thing ever 
that feels like an upgrade 
that feels like it values you 
that feels like it is big enough
for you to grow into.
Don’t stay the same. 
Invest in yourself and your future. 
You CAN DO THIS. 
You deserve the dream. 
 

T H U R S D A Y 26 nov |  
 
This is a big day for sure!! My goodness. So today is all about transformation and transmuting what we are dealing with that we may feel as negative or something that has held us back or ruined us. We are looking deep into the cave, or a long pipe with crud all over it, and at this point you are seeing if it is clear enough to pass, as if this is okay to carry along with you -- or if you need to stand up for yourself and do something that you know is important, even if others don’t feel the same. 
 
So, it is a get real day where you have to draw a boundary or do something with a strong forcewhere you are breaking through the solid wood plank. Something about this force is like showing up or signing up or declaring that you are ready to rebuild and to not just allow the old to be what is the dream of a future you want to walk into. 
 
EXPECT to get a bit hot headed even where your body feels so strong in needing to express something. BE OKAY WITH THIS. You may want to throw your body to the floor or get so vocal with your throat that it burns. Something needs to be strong in breaking through the wood plank. So, don’t judge your steam today ---- but do look at what it is upset over. Look at what is getting a rise in you because it is so corrupt and untrue -- but also see that you handle it differently now and where you are aren’t just looking into what is wrong and buying into that it CAN’T be fixed. 
 
This day wants you building again – and with thoughts of your future where you ARE GOING TO have the money, the stability, the expansion and the structure that you don’t feel you have right now. EVERY SINGLE FEELING that gets you low or feeling like you don’t deserve to exist is there for you to use like colors that haven’t blended yet and aren’t really the ending of the story. But just like to make purple, you need red and blue. One is warm, the other cold. They don’t seem that similar in any way. But together, when joined and applied with mutual contributions, there becomes this beautiful new color that is warm AND cold – and better – and with more life to it. 
 
Know that you are leading the way out of an old pattern or cycle in your life. And this will require you to be braver than you want to be, and to leap when often you still won't see. This is all a part of the cosmic plan of these times. But this energy for a while is like driving switch backs, where you kind of have to go slower, and at the end of the line you have to make a drastic 180 degrees turn, that is coming from a higher perspective. So, as you walk this day, see yourself going back into similar directions but with a stronger knowing that you need to lead this forward in a better way. You need to lead yourself, possibly, even.
 
But leading needs to be the action, and OUT OF things that are sucking the life out of you and not allowing you to see clearly or to trust wildly that things WILL work out. They will. They always somehow do. But they do in the most wonderous and magical ways for the people who first shovel the snow of their dreams, and make the space, and work for it DILIGENTLY, even if it takes decades. Show that you are ready to be led out of old aspects of your life and stay pressed to doing things how YOU FEEL is best. 
 

Show that you are ready 
To be led out of old aspects of your life, 
And stay pressed to doing things 
How YOU FEEL is best.
At this time, we let go
And we move on better
Because of what we leave
At the curb. 
So be generous in what you release.
You deserve what making all that space
Will manifest you next. 

​W E D N E S D A Y 25 nov |  
 
Okay loves. Today has two paths to it, but there is something that comes that can really deflate you or get you thinking you were wrong to believe in yourself. Be aware this is SUPPOSED to occur, and it is what creates the fork in the road. 
 
This bump is to test you where you are showing how you handle the hit of feeling low on yourself, and if NOW you will finally decide to take the high road and not keep affirming reasons to be in spaces where you are breaking yourself down or making yourself too flawed BECAUSE of what is presenting from your past or with memories coming back. 
 
You also can get provoked from seeing someone online that you feel affirms you have no worth. Just think of this like a weather map and know that at some time a little storm comes through, where you will have the choice to get out of it, by taking the high road, or staying in it and walking in line with the path of the storm. If you have accidentally chosen the path of the storm, you will be seeing others who are real mad and acting out of nowhere and not paying attention as they may even hit into you. 
 
Realize this path is all about a storm, so it means things of more power can come in and make your path difficult to traverse. So even putting your toe into that space is all you have to do to know you chose the wrong path. And you got here because you didn’t value yourself and you didn’t see that you DO have a purpose here and there IS a reason for you. If you went so low as to use words that diminish, so will be the journey you walk on today. It all is a test, but it is to feel so strongly and be so evidently IN CONTRAST to what you want, so that you wake up and see what you were doing in treating yourself with so much hate. You need to be compassionate as you heal and respectful with words that you speak of yourself and others. 
 
On the high road, things are changing!!! Once you step on this other path today you are going to see that you are really ready to move forward on something and to expect that the tides have changed. You will feel like things look brighter or they have a strong essence to them or there is more life here and it is making you want to run faster and get even closer to more of it. It can have your whole body moving differently! It's like running into home or something that is a final stretch. 
 
For those who find this path, you are in for some real big shift with something that is in your heart and that is different from what others are working on or planning with their future. But the high road today somehow lights the fire into what will reveal in 3 to 5 days. So be aware -- this day is really special in wanting you to finally leave some path of your wounds that was defined so strongly that you felt you HAD to follow along. You are to heal from that old path in just honoring that you deserve to feel better and you want to do what you can to go out there and generate a better life to be living. 
 
JUST DOING THAT and just committing to WANTING the better is what gets it showing up in just a few days! Trust this work and treat yourself like a baby who IS being heard and whose needs ARE being met. You don’t have to know to go. But you do need to go towards what feels right. Things are changing and you deserve to be living in the light. Release your addiction to thinking you don’t matter. Assert and do as if you are a top priority. Something needs you showing that you ARE ready for the better life. And it needs your body moving or arms reaching out or fingers sending the email or phone numbers being called. GO DO FOR YOU. And know that when you do it today, you somehow bring your life into a healed space where things are not so out of balance. 
 
 
 
TODAY is the gateway 
where we are tested to see 
if we believe we deserve 
the moon and back. 
Seek for the most far out
And declare that only
The most exalted life
Will be next lived by you.
This fork in the road 
Needs you gunning it
Towards what feels right
And light. 
Let go of thinking you have to 
Chase the rain. 
 
 

T U E S D A Y 24 nov |  
 
Good morning sweet dumpling! Today we have some energy that is to make you feel a bit unstable BUT FOR THE PURPOSE of getting you to ground down into reality whenever these patterns of drama or negativity or emotional waves of TOO MUCH come your way. 
 
With life, we can't just escape from it all. None of us get through without knowing the worst situations we could imagine. None of us get to win all the time. None of us get to ride high from beginning to end and NOT touch down into unbearable pain and confusion and loss. 
 
We need the nooks and crannies – and therefore we need to learn how to be stronger in how we handle them so that we don’t batter the heck out of ourselves, and each other, when ultimately we just need to go within, and feel this out, and sit with things instead of running from the pain. 
 
Knowing you will never be able to avoid it, start to deal with pain in new ways. Things really don’t stick around when we face them head on. We need to learn to be honest with our feelings and direct with how some sort of confusion is going on, but no longer are we to run from things, which actually means we cook and stew on things, and they grow more potent – AND are wildly distracting. They steal your life. When you fall down those slippery slopes of others drama and unresolved curiosities with things, you lose this moment now. 
 
I stepped off of Facebook in 2016 when it started to get so incredibly ugly. It had been this really sweet and wonderful place. But I stepped back in again this month and I went to some pages to look at people I knew, and I saw 4 years of the same anger and hatred still there as if 2016 was last week. 
 
This is 4 YEARS of life LOST. To allow the precious gift of a human that YOU ARE and with a LIFE to be lived that you don’t get back – like paying for rent, you don’t get it back after you pay it. So why are you wasting this precious life that is ticking away on hating and being mad and with unresolved rage over feeling like life has not turned out the way you had hoped. Because keeping it real, every person who is still there 4 years later -- with posts calling people stupid and REALLY FEELING they are -- are people who are mad that life has not turned out like they planned. 
 
They didn’t think it would be this hard, like this. They didn’t plan to be so alone and in things that feel stuck. So, to process that, they stay in anger at everyone else who they think DOES get the good life and to move forward, or whatever. But keeping it real. NO ONE with love in their heart and in a healed and healthy space is fixated on hate. 
 
Those with love in their heart are working to transmute this anger and to not give up life to wishing evil and feeling furious inside at how wrong you may deem someone to be. Remember, I have been telling you since 2016 that ALL the media sources, mainstream and “alternative” are owned by a singular person with strong opinions, and where they are trying to get their following to ultimately buy into whatever message this one person wants to get out there. 
 
Basically, like me. I talk in a way and express because I want you to believe these things. Fortunately, my media channel is not mean! Unfortunately, every other news source IS mean – and they are NOT healthy people teaching you the way. So, think about it the next time you go to your news source to be fed your daily energy. It's like we are in high school and some of you are following the mean popular person and others the competitive sports person and some the quirky goth artist. 
 
Realize no matter what, you are being LED to believe in the ways of one opinionated soul. JUST MAKE SURE your future grows in the eyes of your media source. If it keeps you in the past and in the anger and in furious vibes, then so will be your future and your life. Pick wisely, wise being. The ones with money and marketing to spread wide and far are not so loving as their agendas are actually to hurt you. Do you want to stay stuck in the past 4 years or are you ready to grow and let that go and get back to creating a life where you DO deserve to be here and you DO deserve to rise high with your visions for the better life. Don’t compromise because news is like a reality show that you can't stop watching. It does that on purpose to suck the life out of you. 
 
Can you even believe you fell for it for so long?! That’s okay. Just get up now and do more with life. It’s already here for you, we just need you coming back home to you and seeing that you ARE a special one who is here to defy all the odds on your climb to the epic heights that are defined in your soul’s purpose. You are destined to rise. So get to it. 
 
 
Just get up now and do more with life. 
It’s already here for you, we just need you 
coming back home to you and seeing that 
you ARE a special one who is here 
to defy all the odds on your climb
to the epic heights 
that are defined in your soul’s purpose. 
You are destined to rise. 
So, get to it. 
Don’t compromise on those
Who only want you to stay mad.
And sad. And lost. 
That place will not create the future of your dreams. 
It replicates the horror of your past.  
Aren’t you ready for a change? 
 
 

​M O N D A Y 23 nov |  
 
Now I hope you got some space for yourself yesterday because it will be a safety guard to keep you buffered, whereas if you go into this day feeling depleted, you are really in for some big waves of instability that CAN get you really losing your place in line, in life, in this moment. You can feel like you are out on a hike and got lost in the mountains, as you turn in circles and have no idea where to go. 
 
For that reason, honor these readings because I can see that the road is split today and it's where those who gave too much to others and all their things that you didn’t really need to participate in are feeling like they are drowning in this energy and they can't see straight. But those who got grounded and out into nature are going to LOVE this energy because something is on your mind that is a dream, and I can tell you that it starts to blossom by the end of the month.
 
Something with TODAY and what you are working on, that deals with you coming out of the shadows and really sharing who you are and what you REALLY do know, IS manifesting something that IS a part of a dream you have been working on. This actually deals with DREAMING, so literally being out in nature and thinking of the new vehicle you will be driving, the new home you will be living in, the way the world rejoices as you share your gifts. It is from the places we have been in fairy tale land of seeing the truck parked under the carport, or feeling that others acknowledge your gifts as valuable, or seeing the ways your life will change when this dream of yours comes true. 
 
And it is because when you dream, you feel good. When you dream, you sit in the energy of what it will feel like to have, and – the only thing better than that feeling is the actual having. So, see that the dreaming aspect is what builds the donation thermometer. It goes up as more money, or dreams, are raised. Know that the old world DID NOT want you knowing you could dream in private and manifest what those dreams are. They wanted you to think it was foolish. They coyoted you. They made fun of it, while actually protecting Ancient Wisdom that KNOWS your inside energy matters MOST. 
 
You will be coming upon others who speak of other ideas about things, and you are just being asked to listen to your body on this. But also know that drama abounds, and it may be tempting to buy into it or give it your energy. Think of this as approaching a hot stove and keep your distance when it starts to hurt inside. You are to be in control of your energy today, and not give it away, because there are things for you to discover and land into and they deal with you standing up prouder about who you are. They deal with you seeing how you have been hiding yourself or finding ways to see that you are too flawed, or something is just wrong with you. 
 
Something is to HEAL at this time. The energy wants you to see, feel and then heal, as in applying the fix and seeing where you were out of balance and in need of honoring the intent of your view. Most of you DO think glass half empty about yourself and your future. And you were programmed to. Even old-world astrology, which is 98% of what you read, holds you in boxes that will be REALLY hard to get out of, actually. That’s why it's important that we don’t just take everything in and place others in positions of authority BECAUSE they placed themselves there first. 
 
We must honor that when we hear something it sticks like glue. And all the fear and how love will be hard or you will be challenged in these areas or you ARE in the negative because of these things in your chart ARE fake news that we don’t need to buy into. This month you all are going to get smarter on what you eat up like pudding because it tastes so good in this moment, but it IS crippling you and boxing you in and keeping you fakeand not allowing you to really find yourself in your own good timing, which starts in our 30’s and only gets grounded when we reach 50 –--- 
 
SEE. Another lie put into you all. They wanted you out early and going to bed when you reach 40. But it is the opposite. You are to stay in bed until 40 and THEN get out and show what you KNOW – and not what you just intellectualize, which is what our 20’s and much of 30’s are all about. And it is a wait and see situation, but as others said to me, and I certainly can say to you, YOU WILL SEE. 
 
The natural flow of humanhood is different than what they want you to believe. Coming out too early can hurt your later proper coming out period. It's like meth or cocaine abuse and how they kill your ability to really feel joy later in life. There is a whole other way for us to be and all of us are waking to this truth right now as our bodies are speaking to us louder, as if the veils are thin and we keep getting visions and feelings of what we MUST DO and MUST CHANGE. 
 
DON’T GET DOWN on the tears or memories from your past when you got it so wrong. Just feel it and correct it from this day forward. Have more compassion with yourself. YOU DID do the best you could do at that time. And it all tells a story of where you will rise in more magnificent ways BECAUSE of how wrong you may have done things in your past. When you get it right, your karmic lesson is learned. But karma placed you in patterns to rise out of. It means something that you don’t need to know and fully grasp. But it is time to walk with more compassion and to NOT be the negative things others may think we are or think we do because of boxed in ideologies. Planet Earth rebooted and now all that old is not going to feel as good as all the new truth risings. Feel your way to truth. It IS different. And you DON’T have to sit in fear just because others think it is the way to live. 
 
 
 
You don’t have to sit in fear
Just because others think it is the way to live. 
Go fill your dream thermometer
With fundraiser visions of how great
Things next are going to be. 
See that you are on the incline 
And that there is no more decline
In your near future. 
Look up to get up.
Look down to stay down. 
Any questions?
 

S U N D A Y 22 nov | 
Good morning loves! The sun is now in Sagittarius and WOW could I feel the shift! There are a lot of new players in the energy and it definitely feels different than yesterday. What I feel is that we are NOT going to be messing around with people who are in illusion and following beliefs that were programmed into them to follow -- like with the coyote, where one makes noise, but the rest of the pack is in the opposite direction because they KNOW the prey will run away from the sound the first coyote makes. 
 
Something in the air is revealing the con job on humans as some of you are rising above this and connecting how those who smelt it dealt it, and we need to start looking at the people who say the ugly and nasty things and realize this is THEM.  It is the same when we have strong negative feelings for others, or when we are envious of what they have or who they are, and how we can want to plant negative seeds to others so as to get them also believing and seeing the same thing. 
 
This energy wants us seeing where we do that -- and getting real about our own personal con jobs of us smelling it – because if we smell it with passion, we MUST also be participating in dealing it. It is a karmic law on Planet Earth. Where there is passion, there is something big inside of us. When your heart gets lit over someone, whether in love or hate, this is something big. 
 
Last week we really started getting in tune with our body messages and honoring that THIS IS OUR TRUTH. But this week we start facing how BURIED our beliefs are under all these false things that we scream the loudest in wanting others to know as the truth. But we need to wake up and see that we are talking about things that are FAKE. We are spreading lies. We are spreading hate. We are manifesting futures in the gutter BECAUSE of what we do today. 
 
So, this energy is getting you to see that you wear a mask of ideologies from OTHERS, and it's time to awaken to what really is love and God and kindness and understanding and compassion. COMPASSION awakens on a different level today. And what this means is that you are going to notice a HUGE SHIFT where you are wanting to GIVE where your past only showed you as being taken. 
 
Where you were left empty, and where you even have wounds of scarcity, you are to apply the fix and step into GIVING TO OTHERS where you were never given. You are to step up into higher shoes of being the better person and seeing that THEY ALL are just being programmed to be the coyote. And we need to start looking at people as the pain and confusion they carry, and how news sources DID step in and say, HEY I’ll clear that up for you. But they did the coyote. They all are tricksters. 
 
This time wants you pulling away and vibing with this natural flow of the day so that you can start seeing above the illusion, like we started doing last week, but where we talked about you going to the ground in order to not get hit by the fog curse that is hitting so many people. The answer is in getting to the ground. And we can think it means laying down on the ground, which is good, but it really means getting out into nature. Get to the GROUND. Get to the soil beneath your feet, a wood chip trail, rocks leading to the river’s edge. Just get to things that ground you and hook you into this new source. Today meditation will take you to higher levels. The gifts are close in that your answer comes when you unplug, and quiet the madness, and stop the coyote games, and just be in your body, in the world as it is right now. Surrender.
 
Something is going to pull you out stronger FROM going into a retreat. So, see that this is the gift you have been looking for and it comes when you pull into your body and really tune into what you are feeling. The feelings will be heightened now, but it is because this gateway opens in clearing your state of mind on what you REALLY need to be buying into. Here comes the truth. Your body knows best!  
 
 
 
Be in your body.
Be sovereign today
In knowing you have all you need. 
And then go out, and see
That the world has changed. 
Feel like you got it all,
And that Source is holding you safe. 
Then you will see
The world vision has changed.
And there is way more to 
Be stoked for
Than the coyotes want you to believe. 
 

S A T U R D A Y 21 nov |  
 
Something is coming out into the open and it means things can now start moving into this other space. Expect this to come out of the blue, but to see that this is changing the systems and getting them running in a way that is about keeping up with the times. 
 
For this reason, expect the solutions to be unexpected – or at least wrap your mind around the need to invent or create something new, which means it isn’t even in your database yet. It isn’t something you can go back to, as you are to be in the space of WAITING UNTIL YOU GET HIT BY MYSTERIOUS INSPIRATION. All caps because things are to rise for us and to surprise us so that we do go through a sort of jumpstart. 
 
We need to shift gears now and it means we don’t know what we shift into or how it will look or how it will hit us. We just got to allow the clutch to be pushed down with pressure and shift into a higher gear for the next feeling to come our way. DON’T get too heady in this time and DO stop trying to figure things out. Don’t stay so pressed to wanting to know in a mental way but instead stay pressed to trusting that the answers will come and the path will reveal. 
 
It's time to trust more and to hold a feeling inside like you KNOW you have a home here and you know the next steps of your journey will be revealed. It's important that you don’t buy into others who have story lines that don’t talk like the visions you dream for yourself. Don’t think you have to compromise or buy into the limitation of what others see for themselves. You don’t have to save them, and you certainly don’t have to follow them. 
 
We are learning to honor that we all have a place here and that it is on all of us to dream our way to next levels. Don’t stay content if it doesn’t feel real good. But don’t demand a result show up with the snap of your fingers. That’s not how things work. Instead wait with excitement that SOMETHING comes, but be like at a fireworks show and just wait and see. 
 
Would you even go to a fireworks show and spend time beforehand imagining what you will see, like think of what you expect from it? Or do you just go as open with excitement for the surprise of it and with the hope for the best show ever. You do! You go at it blank slate – but positive and with anticipation. So look at your life and go as open with excitement and hope for the best show ever. YOU DESERVE IT!! 
 
We are in a special energy and right now you are paving the way for new spaces to manifest out of the blue. I encourage you to be really excited with what is to come your way. You deserve to get shivers reading these words. You deserve to feel like, maybe your time, your answer, your dream, the thing you most want IS on the way just around the corner some hours or days away… maybe YOU CAN STILL TRUST?? Yes. You can, my love. Keep with this and see that some new day is here for you and drawing closer by the hour. Wait with happiness in your heart that you ARE about to be found, but don’t waste the energy trying to define what shall be. Just be open and blank slate stoked.
 
 
 
Be open
And blank-slate stoked. 
Like with a fireworks show -- 
You really don’t know
Until you know
But from the get-go
You are open about this being
A really decent show. 
So, know that your own show
Will be really decent too. 
Go in curious, open
And knowing this is like
Your surprise birthday party. 
Expect every next moment
To be the moment
You have been dreaming for. 
Wait for it -- and be giddy. 
 

​F R I D A Y 20 nov |  
 
Oh yes! I like this day! Although it will disrupt a lot of people as it brings a big shift to what was solid, and in a way that most won't feel comfortable with. So be aware. But for most of you what is on the way is an answer and something that pulls you out of the ditch. Something is to come as a surprise but where it is the connection, like the line being thrown out, and it is what you have been waiting for. 
 
So, in some way a cycle changes, but because the grace of light breaks on through. This energy will be wildly uplifting and where you will notice that your old thoughts of fear and worry are somehow no longer in your system as reliable sources of direction. Something will alter enormously in us at this time where our minds are NOT where they used to be – and where things that were superheavy now have their solutions coming, and therefore a quick and sudden sense of ease will hit many of you! -- How good it felt to type those words!!
 
So be aware my sweet dumplings! Most of you are about to get hit with what you will think of as a miracle because it comes out of left field, and does surprise you, but it is exactly what you wanted and it will bring an opportunity that DOES feel like home and that does feel like something you would have passion towards contributing to. This will be about resonance and where things just fit on the automatic and where no one is having to hide their light in order to give it over to another. 
 
It's like we all can sit here and BE LIGHT. But honestly, we have to go through healing work and hit rock bottom and lose it all and have to start all over again in order to find the ways to love others who have light and good things and blessings and the best lives -- or so we think. Our first inclination is to feel that there is not enough to go around, and therefore to feel that you are a threat to me if you have what I want, that I do not yet have. 
 
And that is being rewired out of us so that we really can celebrate ALL and go in deeper to heal the ways we DO STILL FEEL THREATENED by others. And how we do then plant seeds of anger or mean-spirited things where we wish them to fall. All this wishing for others to fall unfortunately also signs us up for the same thing. In the wind we are the same. This time is to bring us rewards that get us more aware of our moments and what we do have and how we are contributing to something greater for ourselves. Those plants don’t just grow overnight. We have to work through lengths of time and to work through trial by fire and to go through learning the path of NO so that you really know the path of YES – and really honor your time on it when you do finally get to it. 
 
If you just got to the correct path from the get-go you wouldn’t know how precious it is to finally land into home. In absence, passion grows. In abundance, life is lived in the rushing waves. Abundance is made more powerful by following the soul-searching spaces of absence. You can trust your journey! And one day you WILL say it’s been SUCH a beautiful journey you were blessed with traveling on Planet Earth. 
 
 
 
In absence, passion grows. 
In abundance, life is lived 
in the rushing waves. 
Abundance is made powerful 
by following the soul-searching spaces 
of absence.
 
 

T H U R S D A Y 19 nov |  
 
Keeping it real. Today can have some pain to it. And it speaks of you wanting to give up and to think you just can't handle what you see around you. Be okay knowing you will feel today, but keep it real knowing that nothing is going to keep you down, and something about facing these challenging situations is what gets you through the gate. 
 
So we collectively stand smashed against others and where we are ready for change, but we are backed up and with the feeling of panic from others -- and it WILL be hard to not take it on to the point you end up totally confused and sad and depressed. EVEN IF you don’t have the words to put to why you feel those things. We can be taken from how much others are suffering and how deep and real things feel right now. 
 
But I am being shown that this energy is a fog THAT WILL LIFT, and it will be here for days to come, but right now if we get low to the ground and get beneath all the chaos of energy that others are giving off, we CAN feel really productive and seeing exactly what we need to do to get things in better position so that we feel like we are rebuilding and not staying buried under debt and patterns and manipulations of others that got us thinking their way was the only way. 
 
Something is so big and gross right now that it automatically wakes people up to the illusion and how influential it really is. We need this dark cloud of WTF so that we can get low – and get beneath it. Because I am shown dark clouds above us, but how you can look off to the horizon and see blue skies – and I’m being shown beautiful blue skies out there yonder. 
 
Knowing that this too shall pass, like the storm clouds with lightning that do move along, be with this and watch it roar in whatever ways it wants to -- but be detached in getting too emotional over anything. This time really wants you stern, fixed, honest, blunt and on the seek for an answer that will expand things and also bring them to a higher level of productivity. So think like you are in higher education, and be there for what is being offered to you. Don’t skip class. Don’t waste the time by hanging with friends. You can do that later. 
 
While in school, learn what you can – while in this moment now, learn what you can and see this as you are learning what you need to let go of ABOUT YOURSELF or about your dance with others. See that where you clash with people or things that seem to try to dominate you or get you feeling insignificant or get you feeling left out, or things that have you feeling like your timing is off, see that it is time to let go of how their fear stays with you to the point it changes who you really are. 
 
Nothing stays the same and everything is always moving into some other element of what NEEDS to be around in our lives. But just like when we finally go from crawling to walking, and how we DO know what to do, even though how could we? But we do get the job done – and people do squeal all around us as they are encouraged by how far we have come. Remember that you are here to come far and to have made choices in your past that you would never choose again now. See that you are growing – but that you only grew when the road got rough and complex and confusing. We need the element of friction in things. We need to let others down or do something not what we wanted SO THAT we affirm even stronger that we WILL rise to some higher way of being. 
 
From the pothole that jars your system, you devote to never hitting another one. Allow your life to help show the ways on how you can be a better human. You are worth the life that upgrading will manifest you. You are worth something that just needs to be rebuilt and with you really here now in the planning of your future thinking seriously about the building supplies you want to invest into. And step by step until the pieces all come together. But nowhere in here do you need to stop moving. It won't always be hard, and things change quickly. Just keep it going and build like a boss. 
 
 
 
Build like a boss
And know your opinion matters. 
Lead something into its better version. 
Walk slow and sure.
Keep going until the job is done.  
 

W E D N E S D A Y 18 nov | 
 
This day is going to be all about keeping it real where you have messed something up --and not just escaping from it or letting it go by ignoring it – but clearing the air and doing whatever you can to rebuild from where a fracture has taken place. Many of you are seeing things clearly so that it gets you wanting to get up and DO something about all that is making you depressed and not like you are really walking the talk. 
 
We are learning how we need to be patient with life but to also see that things are hard often, but only because something with this is a transition – and it is special. Just like how we have to climb up in order to get out of some old box of a situation we are in.
 
We don’t get out of it by just moving around as if all is normal. We only get out by exerting big energy, and usually being pushed beyond something we want to endure. Always it seems like we are challenged to go back to the old ways and to not believe the dream. So know that about this energy. It can feel heavy, because it is heavy duty. But be in the mindset that you are moving the most important mountains – and this week. 
 
See that something switches you into another gear, that may come with a hit of something that either comes out of the blue, or it pops you out of nowhere, but somehow into a better space. So expect that sort of journey, but also be excited for finally moving into a new foundation where you now are getting to think about how you want to color the walls and how you want to make this something that is the other side of the hard road you have traveled. 
 
This energy wants you into something next level from what has been. It wants to sum up the past 10 years and give you something better now, and something that rounds the corner so that you understand in some way why things had to be the way they were. It gives you the other perspective that really shows you ARE on path and you ARE on schedule and you DON’T need to give up on your dreams. You just need to surrender and think of plans for how you would like things to be. It's time to switch your focus and to see that with a plan and a vision for something more beautiful, it will come to be – it will come to be your life. 
 
Like gravity, you can't fool it unless you hold it back from its natural form. And it's time to stop holding yourself back -- where you are not allowing yourself to choose for more love. Where you are accepting the cold and brittle and dry life – thinking bottom of the barrel is good enough. It's just time for you to see that you don’t need to suffer like those around you who talk always of fear ARE suffering. You don’t need to be like others. You don’t need to follow the ways they think like God is to be feared. That isn’t real. We are to know that God is love. 
 
And the fear was the old world that came in to manipulate so as to keep people from realizing the whole point is that You are a God and you are a Universe all to yourself, and that which you put out there IS going to circulate and become what you believe life to be. It's time to wake up and see that you deserve better and you don’t have to count on others to be the guides for what you are waking up to right now. You only need to be patient as you steadily climb this next dangerous pass. The wind is strong. The temps are super low. The edges are narrow. So, this time just needs you heads up --- and patient. 
 
But knowing UP is the only way to go. You only reverse if you have intentions of reversing back into a problem that does need your new take on it so it can be set straight. Otherwise no reversing, as if you want to go back to the old oppressive ways. Get on the road and meander as it takes you. But commit to getting to a higher level in the next few days to weeks. Honor this mountain pass. This IS to get you to a better path and to really see that THIS JOURNEY NOW is what MAKES YOU for what is on the way. Don’t sweat it! Enjoy the ride and commit to staying open to what you need to learn. Nothing is to be fought. It all is to be integrated into a more solid structure in your life. You deserve this. The new is waiting for you. 
 
 
 
A winter storm is on the way.
So, stay inside with a fire
And let it be what inspires you
To build again
And to create your greatest plans
For when the snow melts. 
Use this time to see your next rise. 

​T U E S D A Y 17 nov |
 
Good morning sweet beauties. Okay. Today can be a bit rough. It seems like you are going to be tempted with going down paths that you KNOW you shouldn’t do, but you will feel a strong temptation to do them. This can be like hearing not to look at that email or feeling like you shouldn’t open that thing – but then you talk yourself into thinking YOU DO need to -- so you do, and then you end up in trouble. Something that is trouble, or limitation, or fear is there to be opened -- and you actually DON’T HAVE TO. 
 
But. If you did and now you feel sort of sick to your stomach or real unsafe in this world, then you just need to sit with the feeling and stay there until you rise out of it. This one is just a bump in the road – but it is another lesson coming that is telling us WE NEED TO LISTEN TO OUR BODIES MORE. We WERE warned. We DID get the sign that this was a no-go – and we DID GO. So, see it for the lesson and move on. This one is not for you to just sit in all day and keep looking for how flawed you are and how you are never going to get anything right. 
 
DO BE AWARE that we can be sort of negative with looking at our pasts or really seeing all the ways that we have messed up or hurt others or damaged our potential. But my loves, understand that when you look back, at when you did fuck it up, you DID NOT REALLY THINK you were fucking it up. You thought this was an a-okay thing to do. YOU DID. So honor that you are changing and becoming a better person – and it is only now that you see the error of your ways, and that’s okay! It is that you see them that changes everything and allows you to vibe higher on Planet Earth, and thus manifest a higher life. So, feel all this old stuff where you did with no consciousness, and chose from scarcity or selfishness. Feel it, and then be GRATEFUL that you finally feel it and that it's no longer buried as dead weight in your life. 
 
And now. Let’s rebuild. Let’s rebuild you so that you don’t make those kinds of choices again. So that you see things need to be fair and just and that the good thing needs to be done by all. BELIEVE that you can start over and rebuild yourself. A key is in letting yourself off the hook from seeing how you actually were doing the best you could back then, from what wounded you and dented you and got you in those awkward ways that you can be. 
 
So, honor that a story got you here, but that a new story can be written from today that doesn’t need to be about the past any longer. You don’t need to keep manifesting the old learning situations. At least. If you cross the bridge in life when you finally FEEL what you have done, and how at this point in your life, you would never have chosen that again. 
 
When you arrive to that position, you can finally choose a new chapter to step into. But if you are all ego, and I am right and YOU ALL are the problem – you can't heal or feel or get to that position of awakening when you see that YOU CAN BE BETTER. You can think more of others. You can care for others and how something hurt them, before you care about how it hurt you too. When you can tip and lean into YOU FIRST, you arrive at a higher level in life. This shift and change comes from the heart. NOT THE MIND. 
 
The mind sees the way to the higher lands, but only the heart can get you there. Like, how we talk about intellectualized learning of subjects. Reading in the book only keeps you in the mind on what this really means. WALKING IT and learning as you go, bravely often alone, is how you vibe this higher essence of what others are only reading about. You can read every book there is on the Grand Canyon in Arizona, but until you actually go, you have no idea what it's like to go to the Grand Canyon and how it will take your breath away. You can read everything there is on living in Phoenix summers, where it will remain 120 degrees in the night, but until you walk it, you never know how hot that really is. 
 
We are at a juxtaposition where we really get this thing right now and see that we CAN be brainwashed to do and believe in ANYTHING. You 100% can be manipulated to believe that a square is round.  You all are chasing the beliefs that certain humans hold and present as authority. We need to learn to NOT DO THAT. And to not just allow our sovereignty to others to be the guides of who we are. 
 
When we hook into our feelings, we find the true way home. You hear the truth when you listen to how things make you feel. You are an alarm system that you just don’t understand yet. But when you learn the ways of YOU, you are going to love the system that you can be. You can go for more, be more, and YES, those miracles ARE just around the corner up away. So, keep on believing my loves. Believe that your body will always be here to let you know and that there is something special for you that others are not to go for. So don’t let them judge the journey when you are to go beyond where anyone around you has gone before. 
 
 
 
Believe that your body will always 
be here to let you know 
and that there is something special for you 
that others are not to go for. 
So don’t let them judge the journey 
when you are to go beyond 
where anyone around you 
has gone before.
 

M O N D A Y 16 nov | I want to go higher. Higher, baby. 
 
Oh loves! This is a special day! Things are changing with us so that we really do make better choices that come from us expecting more and expecting there to be some amazing thing to take a risk and leap into. As we raise our eyes to expecting something that we haven’t seen before, the steps of the rebuild will start falling into place. WE DO still have A LOT to rebuild. And it's important that you are acknowledging that today, and that you really only need to go one step at a time, but to keep them going UP and not giving in so quickly that you are like, oh, my bad. I give up on my dreams. I’ll go back to how it has been.
 
NO. NO. NO. Stop yourself. YOU KNOW YOU WANT BETTER and it is going to require that you stick with this and be excited for putting things into better position, as you are to eagerly see into what plans need to be put into motion as you give your eyes the opportunity to see it all, or to see long range plans. 
 
Use this energy wisely and ONLY see to how you can expand your life and get out of the stuck places where you don’t feel like you are really grasping the bull by the horn. It can feel real sad and depressive if you think too much about how you feel like you messed up and lost out when you had another chance. DON’T GO THERE. Don’t even give your energy to the past as if it is all there is. Today you are to start the first day of your life where you DON’T DO THAT ANYMORE.
 
You are to be more trustful with life and with the Great Mystery. There IS some ending to a chapter that WILL one day explain it all, but until then, you don’t need to know. You don’t need to know what it's going to look like, but you do need to PAINT IT as how you hope it will be. Because most of your life you painted it how you DIDN’T want it to be – because you became obsessed with worrying the worst and being eaten away by fear bugs. 
 
It's time to come out of that cave, and that choice in life. It's like being liberal or conservative – and it's time to look for more and to want to not keep things the same just because we think they give us comfort. People are walking zombies because they don’t go for more. They stay in a small box and just keep moving around it. And that can get boring. That can take the life out of you. BUT THERE IS another view; there is another level to grow up into. And you don’t need to worry about who grows and expands alongside you, but you DO need to keep looking up in regard to everything going on around you. 
 
Look up, and OVER the illusion. The illusion stands in the corners of the small box and tries to scare you back into place or pull you back into drama so that you can't concentrate, and you lose time. Wise Mamas know to draw boundaries and to also use their time wisely. So don’t just give it away because another comes in more dramatic and coming from a place you DON’T want to go. LEAP OVER THEM. Think of yourself going higher, and over. 
 
Don’t stay at the same level, as in the small box, and instead see yourself getting out of it this time. See that looking for a better thing actually DOES bring you a better thing! It's time for the new chapter to take hold. Expand with this. Be open to how better things are next going to be. Smell the change in the air. Nostalgia and excitement to do something better are to be what moves you now. And my love, you need the new. And you need to believe it true. In order to draw it to you. YOU got to believe, before you see. To dream, before it becomes your reality. Be like the child and expect to have your needs met. Be like the child and use bold colors. That go outside the lines. You deserve the beauty that awaits.
 
 
 
My love, you need the new. 
And you need to believe it true. 
In order to draw it to you. 
YOU got to believe, before you see. 
To dream, before it becomes your reality. 
Be like the child and expect to have your needs met. 
Be like the child and use bold colors
That go outside the lines. 
You deserve the beauty that awaits. 
 
 

​S U N D A Y 15 nov |  
 
Oh hello New Moon in Scorpio!! We are in the magnificent power of this energy and something is to reveal or open up today that gets you seeing into another layer that deals with you finding a life that feels worth living. THIS MEANS we all are in active work mode and you are being shown things where you are going to have choices in how you process them. It will be very clearly divided, but it will deal with you either thinking more of yourself or you thinking more of the other. And for some reason I am being shown animals as the other for many of you. So be aware that they are crossing paths. 
 
AND. This is a huge test for us, and it is the most important one of this year. It will flavor your next few months and it contributes to a gift coming your way that helps you see the light in a challenging and dark situation where you have been stuck AF. So, to pass the test of today is EVERYTHING. So listen up sweet beauties!
 
This deals with a shock, something sudden, not at all what even makes sense, and where it comes out of the blue and you change because of it. BUT ---- it teases many of you, not all, but many where you will only think about how this will hurt you and how this messed up your plans and now you have to pay money or do something to correct what was done wrong. 
 
There is pain with what happens because our old selves are being teased to see if we do really want to keep creating the old stories and seeing how there will ALWAYS be debt and something standing in the way and FUCK IT ALL. The test is there today. But what I want you to sit with, and to also notice when it happens to you, is that you ARE showing concern and your heart does hurt for the pain of others FIRST. You ARE changing, even if in little bitty increments, which is totally okay, but you are changing. 
 
And your heart needs to be broken open so that you can feel how manipulated you have been by others to be this other thing THAT YOU ARE NOT. This time, and for months to come, and months already walked, is about you learning how your body IS speaking to you and how others ARE going to try to manipulate you to NOT buy into that because it goes against how they are programming your mind to believe.
 
What we believe, we see. In the same way that gravity falls. Gravity brings down to reality. It doesn’t float around and get confused up there. It drops into reality. So, your thoughts, your feelings, your intentions, your wishes, your lovely ways, your unhealed anger reactions, they all drop into your reality and create a world for you to walk. THERE IS NO WAY AROUND THIS, just like with aging, it happens. We can slow it in healthy ways, but it happens. 
 
This energy is to get you dropping into really seeing what you are doing and what you are allowing to be. You know I talk a lot different in the past year than I used to when I first launched my business. I wanted us to be softer and to forgive them all and to try to be the peace in things. Whereas now, I am like fuck that shit, YOU BE REAL – and expect that they will fight you and try to make you feel small so as to knock you off your game WHEN YOU DO stand up for yourself. So now I prepare you for what is reality and not the one where we STILL stay the victim in making everyone else’s life pleasant. Yes, in some ways we still are to! In most ways, we are to. BUT NOT when we feel sick over the energy that others cast our way. Not when they come in and dump their loads that we do NOT feel okay with. 

This time is to break you out of old patterns where you don’t got no boundaries in place and you just said, yes and thank you, with a smile always still wanting to be presentable and attractive.
 
NO MORE. The only people who get that beautiful you are the ones who you naturally give it to. Where there are those who try to block your light or fight your mission or cast shade on you seeing your dream, fuck ‘em. You are not here to fix them. You are not here to teach them the way. You are not here to be “the better person”, that they try to get you to believe YOU need to be. 
 
See through the domination and see that actually YOU know best and YOU deserve to show yourself true and to then walk out the room with NO EXPLAINATION. You don’t even need to explain yourself, my love. Just honor that you are magnificent and on this deep sea dive mission so that you can see what blocks your light and what gets you to fight and what gets you to cast shade on your dream… because if it's outside of you, some fear inside of you is calling it near. Like gravity, things fall. And if your reality has you here now, then inside of you we just need to heal where you started giving yourself away to another. It's way back in there, somewhere deep and hidden. But NOW is when you are to suddenly awaken again into the power of WHO YOU ARE WHEN YOU GET TO DECIDE THINGS. 
 
Expect yourself to erupt and to really pop into a new level. This time is to get you back home with your power and to get you raising the bar on what you think of yourself inside and what you really think is the potential. If you thought amazing things, and for real, then they WILL happen. So see where you cut yourself short and see that another planted that doom and gloom on your future. RELEASE their curse. Awaken to your higher ways. Keep looking to the horizon and expect a miracle. This time is special because it is when you are to dig up the most important piece. 
 
 
 
NEW MOON IN SCORPIO
 
See where you cut yourself short 
and see that another planted that doom 
and gloom on your future. 
RELEASE their curse. 
Awaken to your higher ways. 
Keep looking to the horizon and expect a miracle.
This work is heavy duty 
Because the reward matches. 
It's worth every pattern shifted. 
And every fear released
And every line drawn
When before you would never have gone there. 
Awaken.
You are stronger than you thought. 
And you about to find out. 
 
 

S A T U R D A Y 14 nov |  
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​Hello New Moon!! We LOVE when you go new in Scorpio and grab us fully and fixate us deeply into what needs to be seen that we were not aware of, as if we go around our house and check for leaks in our system before the cold of winter arrives. It is about looking for the unknown, and with expectations of taking care of what is not working, and facing things head on IF something is pulling things out of balance. If the predator comes in and creates a hole in your floor so they can come in and stay warm in the winter, YOU need to declare your own needs and draw the lines in telling the little rascal to go find a new home to torment. 
 
Where things are WRONG, we now are to face them head on and work to find the solution that makes this better. Where there are boulders in the road, we are to plow on through and keep coming together so that eventually things move. This energy wants you ON IT and working to transform old patterns where you just followed along where others wanted you to go. 
 
This time is when people make discoveries and things come to the light that may shock, but this is needed to break through the boulder. We may need to see some combusting things in order to break down what is heavy with dark vibes that are trying to keep you from getting to the light. Just know you were built to conquer things at this time and to really discover something that somehow makes you feel even more powerful. It is not to break you; it IS to make you and get you seeing YOU DO KNOW BEST and that YOU can listen to your own counsel. 
 
Be aware that you are NOT getting the truth online. You are getting fear tactic stories to send you over the cliff and into seeing that there is not a way. Your fears kill the hope you should be holding – and it's important that you are not coming from a weakened position in this current energy. So, honor your boundaries and don’t let the leaks in just because you find them. WORK to fix them. Work to seal out what is going to be something that keeps you from living comfortably. 
 
At this time you will be letting things go that deal with the heavy burden of a weight they demand of you – but the wildest thing is that to change this old pattern you have to see something different in your life like not seeing that you are doomed monetarily, but that you just need to get up and DO. You may have a breakthrough that gets you seeing YOU are the one standing in your way, and actually it is that you believe in scarcity and the lies from the media and “alternative” media sources. 
 
Basically, make it a rule that if you are watching a news station that has millions to promote itself – it is totally biased and from the perspective of some bitter person who is in control and who wants you to hate others and to keep the division alive. BE SMARTER. You don’t need intel from others. You don’t need to give away your own sovereignty to needing others to educate you on what is really going on. The liars out there are working overtime right now and it really is 99.9% fake, fake and more fake. 
 
So, realize this nasty energy is something YOU ARE TO RISE ABOVE and to grow stronger BECAUSE OF. Like, this is a gift of a New Moon that wants you learning a new way where you stick with things until you gain a benefit and where you don’t think being in the dark is a negative thing. 
 
You are learning to wake up and to realize you DO know best, but it comes from the feelings inside and not your mind that IS under a spell where you are being manipulated to KEEP PLANTING THE NEGATIVE SEEDS AND TO KEEP TALKING ABOUT ALL THE FEARFUL THINGS THAT COULD COME. If you talk about something in a negative and passionate way, you ARE parts of it, and if you keep talking about it, IT WILL MULTIPLY. So be in your space consciously. DO NOT PLANT MORE OF WHAT YOU SO DESPERATELY FEAR. 
 
And we may not be able to see it just yet, but this work will pay off. And what is most important is that you no longer give your thoughts, words, attention or space to the negative. And I don’t mean live in denial; I mean stop reading those fake things that are just getting you to go ugly and spew out hatred. DON’T BE LIKE THEM. You are to be like love – as that is the Godly way in actualization.
 
This is your ultimate test. Do you still crave the vengeful energy of hatred? Or, are you ready to let that go and transform and rise higher in how you handle things of a negative or opposing nature? Trust what you see, but always work to make it better. NEVER look at it and keep it the same if it feels negative. ALWAYS give it the space to grow into something more powerful. 
 
We don’t stay wounded and keep manifesting a disappointing life because we were let down. We heal and manifest a powerful life where we are present with each miracle we finally bring in, where before we only knew scarcity and feeling valueless. Don’t dwell where others let you down. Grow something new to prove your value 10 fold. Don’t get mad; get even – and take the lead. Hard work gets you somewhere good. 
 
 
NEW MOON IN SCORPIO
 
I am ready to face this head on
And see what I need to see
Because it is time to lighten my load
And set my spirit free. 
I am not responsible for the pain and fears you carry --
Trying to convince me I need to believe the same. 
I am transforming
And bringing light to what is dark
Not allowing the old to remain. 
So, step out of my way
I got a new life to design
And I deserve something better
Than your shade has cast on my mind.

​F R I D A Y 13 nov |  
 
OKAY THEN. Get ready to face this very unique energy where others all seem to be VERY sure of their side of things, even though we know there are at least two sides to things. So straight away, don’t bother yourself with whatever anyone else thinks and how strong they come at you with fear from the mouth and fire shooting things that DO seem to be about wanting to burn you down and burn the hope that is growing in you now. So just be aware of that because the dragons are out, and your job is to stay with strong boundaries so that no one gets to just come all in with their wounded and misinformed selves and mess up what you are creating. 
 
This day is for ACTION. This day is when we are to assert towards something that brings us to the other side or to the depth of something that finally reveals a reason for WHY. This time wants you landing into something, but where you mysteriously stumble upon it, and because you are finally waking up to your power and realizing your body is guiding you every step of the way. 
 
The reason good therapists are so busy is because we aren’t listening yet, because we were programmed to shut down the heart and the feeling ways and to just buy into the words, the programming, the intellectualized understanding of things, and where you TOTALLY LOST your ability to discern. When the mind has no heart or gut it can be manipulated into seeing that a square is a circle. We may see 4 pointy sides, but others can be manipulated to see it as all round and continuous. 
 
And that is what will make our life very difficult for months to come. BUT --- don’t forget! This all is right on schedule and where we stand stronger and get smarter about what is reality, and how at this time people now know that you can say anything and get away with it. You can photoshop, you can lie to hog heaven – and totally get away with it if some people see that square as round. 
 
This is a spell and it's why you need to look at it that way and think of it as a virus that you need to put your distance between. Like, put on your mask, don’t get too close and realize what you are seeing that DOES NOT FEEL GOOD IN YOUR BODY is a sign of what is taken by illusion -- and where you are not to follow. The reason your body is showing up so loud is because we are learning to listen at this time! And many of us need a push into realizing that YOU DO KNOW BEST. You DO feel these things for a reason. And now is when you are to draw the boundaries knowing that your way is the best way. 
 
Since I got to my new town, I have met several people who are very sure of what they feel and with gifts similar to mine they tell me. But they have felt different things than I feel. And because of HOW STRONG and SURE they come at me, it HAS gotten me to walk away questioning if maybe I’m wrong and I can't trust my feelings. But let me tell you, what I feel has been all coming true, and it always has really, but now what I have predicted is so big, when I was the only one, that now I feel very sure and badass as they come in regards to feeling VERY competent and confident with my gifts. 
 
Where others feel like a fraud, I always say, you are still cooking. I didn’t come out as an astrologer for almost 20 years. Because it didn’t feel good in my body to make an impact on others yet. I felt nervous and I remember once saying, should I read other astrology readings to see how to write the daily readings? Like I thought that years before I even decided to do daily readings. But my first thought was, do I copy? Is that how I best express my gifts? And it never felt right. And it didn’t yet feel natural to say HEY, I can do THIS for you. But now all these years later, I would eagerly run up on stage right now and say, HEY I CAN DO THIS FOR YOU!!!!! I am fully filling in my shoes and only now feel really ready. 
 
So, listen to how your body does tell. There is something you need to listen to and when you do, and then see it DOES come true, it will light you up to trust in you! And that’s what the world needs most. It needs you believing in you. It needs you standing up when others are still sitting down even though the majority stays sitting. It is standing up because inside you are SO SICK OF STAYING DOWN. 
 
It has been a long road trip across the Midwest and now it's time to get to the mountains and CLIMB. It's time to use your legs and MOVE. It's time to break through all fears that may come on the journey, with gratitude to be here now, and RESILIENCY from the recent journey learned. You are stronger now. GO GET IT DONE. Don’t let any more illusion – or pit in the stomach, doom and gloom – take you to destruction.
 
Some will walk over the cliff. Will you? You won't if you start honoring that you need to walk towards what is healing and beautiful and feels better in your body. Just listen to the body and know there is something WAY deeper going on around you and with others and YOU need to be the one that gets through this spell that is all in the mind. It's all in the mind. Stay true and believe that you see a square, because you do. 
 
 
 
Listen to how your body does tell. 
There is something you need to listen to 
And when you do 
And then see it DOES come true, 
It will light you up to trust in you! 
And that’s what the world needs most. 
It needs YOU believing in you. 
 
 
moon journey: 24 Libra to 8 Scorpio
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1| Assert.

​T H U R S D A Y 12 nov | 
 
Okay loves. Today you get hit by something and it almost 80% will get you thinking you are all wrong and you really CAN'T believe that things will change. It can send you to the gutter and thinking you really are a mistake here on Earth and you are foolish to think you are something special. 
 
BUT ALSO KNOW that we need you hitting rock bottom today, even if it's only for a few minutes, but the day asks for you to touch into something like a hot stove where you quickly move away from that wrong way, and AFFIRM the new way you NOW WILL walk.
 
SO, you NEED to tank it or to see full on reason for what a loser you are. YOU NEED THAT DIP IN THE ROAD because this is to get you flying in a new way where you will never go back to how it used to be. And what you wake up to, because it is to come like a jolt of lightning where you remember something or it connects and now the flow can get moving, but this is to be something that is what you love to do and what you need in your life. We need a new passion where we want to show up and be here now, and for many it comes with a fall to the ground first. 
 
But do expect to see to the other side today, and to see that there WAS a reason for things, and that NOW the partnerships can come together and the people who can assist you or help you get to some other side in life. There is more beauty and balance here now where things CAN flow in a better way. Again, see how not having or not feeling, but then getting your needs met, DOES amplify your appreciation for what falls into place for you. Like, we need the scarcity in order to call in and value the prosperity. Otherwise we take it for granted and just assume it will always be there. Also, I HAVE HEARD that when we have too much money too easily, we often don’t have as much happiness -- like we feel the full scope of how good it feels to be HAPPY only when we understand the antithesis of happiness. 
 
And when we go without, we certainly DO work to never go there again, as we work to create something stronger and more secure from what we learned from the story of scarcity and suffering through the journey of life. WE NEED to suffer in order to feel how good it feels to gain. 
 
Because we need to feel. And were programmed to believe that feelings are not important in the functioning of the Earth game. When in fact, feelings guide the way to health, healing, happiness, and all things that need to guide us on our journey. At this time people are feeling things that get them wondering if they messed up on the path of the recent years, but just realize it didn’t get you what you thought you wanted, but you will see it had to be to get you to the NEXT THING COMING. 
 
And we all sit close to seeing something new that comes together out of nowhere but was just hidden in the ground like a potato waiting for us to dig down and find it. WHEN WE MAKE LANDING, we live life with more power. So, wait for it!! The next few days can be wabbly on many of you and HIGHLY emotional and with many doubts or lingering fears but deal in this energy like the professional surfer and be excited for the wild events to come. Be stoked for the wave and don’t collapse and throw yourself in it for it to just tangle you into illusion and pain from the past. Ride this wave like you want to be there.
 
 
 
Ride this wave
Like you want to be there. 
Own the experience
And beg it to push you to the edge. 
It's time to wake up and LIVE MORE. 
 

W E D N E S D A Y 11 nov | 
 
Okay then! Today we really are seeing that dreams are coming true and we can trust this. Many of you have the feeling that the energy is different and you have more hope or thoughts around seeing things as glass half full, even though most of you don’t have proof yet that things are in place or your foundation is solid. Things are changing right now because of changes you will make that deal with manifesting situations that test you to handle others where you are drawing boundaries and not just allowing the old way to be what you HAVE to do and have to follow along with. 
 
Many of you are thinking of the holidays or things in the future and how you are happy to not share space with others. This time brings an energy that is similar to solitude but it's really about finding yourself again and finding your voice and finding the passion to want to leap out into the dreams of something and to not let go just because others come with strong energy in declaring that THEY know best. 
 
Just be aware that we are in choppy waters and you have to use your core to maintain balance. This means things may be rocking around you, but still inside you need to stay focused like you are a tree and you are focusing on the roots holding you strong. Doing this will help you remember that YOUR vote matters most and that YOUR feelings are the truth for you. 
 
Just try to see that others are seeing things from an angle that very well may describe what they see. Think about it. If someone is behind you, they are going to describe your back. And if someone is in front of you, they are going to describe your front. THAT is what we are seeing in life right now, BUT the dark side of things, and the directions that are with intent that is evil, ARE darker feeling places. THEY FEEL a specific way – and they instantly take you to fear, fighting and everything being an attack upon, or a shortage of. It's like a fly zapper feeling where you can't relax and just let go. You keep getting snapped up and fried over things. THOSE PLACES WON'T GROW YOU THE CROP YOU WANT, my loves.
 
So, if you feel good, it's the place for you. But if you don’t, stop messing around in the things you don’t want to see as your future life. Stop caving and giving in because others expect you to or come on so strong as if the angle of your backside is the truth of who you are. 
 
Also get over thinking you need to explain yourself. That day is done. That old spiritual lie where you have to be so kind and generous and reaching out to bring understanding to all – that day is done. Earth has a clock that is ticking, and now we needeth not messeth around in anything that is not moving at our speed. 
 
So, don’t explain yourself if you got to go. Just do what calls you to do this different. It feels bad because it's using your energy in the wrong way. And keeping you attracting a soap opera life that is full of too much mystery and not enough reality. Always inching closer and closer while NEVER getting to anything. 

This time is also about getting us to finish things, as if we have only a few more steps to go. So, leaving the soap opera life, SEE that you are finalizing things and that the healing is here that gets things running smoothly again. See your way out of the soap opera and go get what you want NOW. Don’t let it steal your energy and keep you lingering in wonderocity. It's time to step out of that way that only loops you and loops you, but never delivers you to what you dream. 
 
 
 
Plant your seeds of self-worth
And your garden will grow. 
It's time to plant
Like your life depends on it. 
Because it does. 
Because your needs matter. 
Because what supports and feeds you matters. 
Because you deserve to be happy.
And you got to PLANT IT
To own it. 
So, plant away!
And see that THIS will one day feed you.
With no question or control over what day. 

T U E S D A Y 10 nov |
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Good morning sweet loves! Be aware that something is coming to try to mess you up today and if you get hit it can have you nosediving into a pile of fears and thinking maybe things are too far gone and there is no way to correct this ship.
Just be aware that someone comes in and they will try to dampen your hope or your faith in something that really is a bit of a dream – and something that IS way out there. But you are to see them coming and put up boundaries so that their drama does not become your path to walk and to then have to clean up.
Things can be coming in many directions right now where it feels like you are seeing something unbelievable and you will be amazed that others could even believe this. Be like yesterday and just close the door and get back to your own business. This day wants you seeing that your future is worth your time and effort, and there IS NO POINT IN FIGHTING NAYSAYERS or rejecters of what you feel inside is the correct thing for you.
I know when I moved to San Francisco at 24 that everyone fed me with fears of earthquakes and violence and all kinds of things that could make my dreams not be what I was hoping for. And I know I had to fight my way around a lot of people that did not want me to leave and who ultimately didn’t want me to go and see what was out there. So, I had to digest their fears and not let it keep me from living my own dreams. And I did it successfully! I STILL moved and I STILL got to experience living the San Francisco dream. But I also could have bought into their fears and never left my hometown, or stayed in what I knew and what was comfortable. But something inside of me had a dream. And I did NOT know how it would go. I only knew that I longed to plant my feet at Baker Beach and to call that city my own.
And YOU ALL have dreams where you have longed for something and had these feelings that have never let you go. YOU may have talked them down or played all glass half empty as if they were just childish things to believe in. But you are being asked to pay attention and to really start seeing that you are good at particular things and you WOULD enjoy doing the day to day running of things in a new way. So, this demands that you put in the energy and stick with the step by step so that you do see something grow.
Things are to come quickly for many of you, but there will be a bit of resistance early on, as if it has to break through some hard shell. So, expect that you may have to get hit hard by something that snaps you awake into REALLY wanting this new future and really being ready to give it your all to see it manifest. Expect others to come at you like dodge ball and stay alert and in the moment so that their envy or jealousy of you getting somewhere doesn’t actually stop you and hold you back.
Take this seriously and make changes, even if you have to cancel plans, but go with the flow and don’t just allow others to come in and dampen you. You somehow will be tested to not take it on and to know YOU know best here and YOU see better things for yourself than others may see for you. And that is to be expected. This moment needs you seeing for YOU and not seeing through how others see things they want you to see too. Don’t be confused. Their stories are dramatic because they aren’t based in reality. Just like with soap operas, they have many open-ended scenarios to hold fear over. And you got better things to do than to live someone’s drama filled expectations of what life is supposed to be. You got higher lands to seek. Get going toward the dreams.


This moment needs you seeing for YOU
And not seeing through the lens of how others
see things
and how they want you to see them too.
If the sky is blue
Don’t argue with anyone telling you it's green.
You follow the blue skies. 
You follow the big dreams. 

M O N D A Y 9 nov | 
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Good morning sweet loves! OKAY THEN. Something is LOUD and it is in our faces and trying to get a reaction. Be aware that you are tested to be love, love, love – and to not fall back in old ways where you handle others who are coming at you with limitation and where you somehow buy into what they bring so that you feel you need to overcompensate to prove your choices or path.  
 
We will be learning how to handle others in different ways at this time where you are being asked to walk your talk and to shut the door on something without wasting time in putting it in its place or going down a level in order to use words that define how wrong you see something. 
 
It is time to pretend that you were waiting in line to fill up your water, and the wait may have been long and it may have been torturous because you had other plans, but the moment you get your water you are on the way and forgetting about the hassle of waiting to get your needs met. 
 
So, pretend that now you got your water and MOVE ON. It is important that you are not staying in the past and doing what you know is not what needs to be done. This energy wants you to make a quick movement that is like passing the baton and instantly going into a new role – or instantly now going into a new direction. BUT NOT DWELLING ON THE PAST. It is so important that you don’t go back to how you used to operate – which actually kept you in the hate – and kept you never manifesting the smooth and sweet life you have always wanted for yourself. 
 
But to stay mad at the past keeps you manifesting the past and having to walk it again and again. It keeps those bad things coming like a magnet – but really for the purpose of you facing something and seeing how you are buying into a fear or buying into some message where others are trying to manipulate you or be stronger in demanding that you go their way. Don’t play that game with others where you actually are insecure and needing them to affirm you or to be what gives you your value.
 
Stand strong and independent and do what feels good in your heart. People are waking out of a spell, but it deals with more people being overtaken than you can imagine, so you need to be grounded in what IS reality. Because the con of things is 100 steps in front of you. 
 
And we all are being manipulated. And those who have more money to spend are the ones who should not be giving you ANY messages – as they know they can say anything and get away with it. And ultimately, what they say, they are. It is a con to plant the seed and project something onto another, so that in defense the other looks guilty. IN defending or saying, hey YOU are the one doing that, it makes you look like a child just throwing out, and so are you! 
 
So be aware that you only have to trust yourself and also realize that the illusion is as thick as you will ever see it. And something is building that will get ugly – and it's on YOU to not keep looking at it so that you also become ugly. Break yourself away and look towards healing. Now is when you are to jump into gear in life where you will be working on putting things in order and diving into creativity in a new way where NOW you see the light or are seeing that there is hope for a better day and hope for something to keep working towards. 
 
ALSO be aware that now starts an energy that is getting you to realize why you are here! SO, hold your hopes to HIGH and expect that things fall into place soon where you will have a new passion and something igniting or shifting with how you run your day to day. It's coming. But it DOES take you letting go of the past and really committing to not giving it your energy. 
 
This means doors need to close and patterns need to be stopped. It means we must give something up in order to gain what we dream of manifesting. This will hit you hard and you will know what YOU need to stop giving your attention. Yes, that. And probably a thing or two besides. 
 
Stay open. It's time to heal but it's time to get on with it and actually work towards it. 
 
 
 
 
You must give something up at this time
In order to gain what you dream of manifesting.
Fear has no home in you. 
Scarcity has no place for you. 
Give up how you want to give in --
And open to 
All the beauty and abundance you NOW
Are ready to appreciate
And create from the love
That grows within
That finally now
Is ready to predict YOU ARE
For the win.
 
 

S U N D A Y 8 nov |  

Oh loves. What times we are in. SO. As I told you like a week ago, the tipping point was reached, and we moved into the space where the Feminine Essence rises in things – in all things.
The desire to empower what supports, cares for and helps ALL to grow is what was planted in each thing that breathes life on Earth. Suddenly lights are going to be turning on where things flip over and you see this potential where before you had no idea it was there. I am seeing the game of chess, but this energy is showing that we were only to see that things could not move forward and that we were being fought.
We were tested to nose dive into negative spaces thinking there is no hope and no way out of this, but we were SUPPOSED TO GO THERE where deep inside that confusing space we find the energy and passion to rise TOGETHER and to bring the change that brings the ALL into consideration – and not just those who already are smothered in abundance and prosperity.
The feminine essence is to be one that thinks about all the chicklings being taken care of and looked over. It's about valuing the human and all that are honored to be here on this Earth now that get to take breaths that sustain a journey.
When we awaken, we will tend to have tons of tears and also body pains that show where you are not allowing the new energy. Many of you will have hip problems at this time that deal with either needing to humble yourself and ask for help OR needing to assert yourself and believe in what you got -- and GET IT OUT THERE. So, the hip lets you know where you are needing to be as the energies shift. Even you recognizing that you need to pull back or move forward IS what can relieve your pain. It was just a message getting you to see, THIS direction. -- Not 100%, but I am being shown that right side is ASSERT and left side is ASK FOR HELP.
Many also are feeling seen and excited with this energy that is going towards something that gets the heart feeling like we can have peace or there is another side that reveals where we have just been waiting for something to swing over this way. At this time, it swings and it brings a new energy that will hit people so hardcore that it WILL shift them out of their old positions and into a new pattern. 
This energy was what I talked about the other day with some superhero that comes in at last minute to show who REALLY is boss. And when this shows for you, you are being shown that dreams DO come true. And that hard work DOES pay off and that even if all the naysayers are loud and gross with how right they are, you do NOT have to follow their beliefs and allow it to muddy up what you know in your body is correct.
Like we have talked about this week, be the punk rockers from the 70’s and 80’s and LEAD the way as alternative people who do not look like others, do not act like others, do not believe like others – and where you see THAT IS OKAY – AND PREFERRED.
I want you proud to be who you are and no longer blending or even going to others’ levels trying to one up them that YOU are the top dog. Like, that’s never attractive and it's always indicative of wounds in need of healing. Those who scream the loudest are in the most pain. Honor their scream, but don’t take it on. Be calm and guide them to the better way, through holding it in your body today.
We have to LEAD through strong forces of opposition at this time, but to really step up as the bosses, and as those who are SURE that they are ready for this new where we do finally start looking at ALL that is in need of correction and healing. It all needs our attention – NOT JUST FOR THOSE most privileged and always sure of protection. Now those who suffer most are to rise in our hearts where we do truly care – and truly feel again as we are neighbors or family or connected by breath and we DO need to have each other’s backs.


Those who scream the loudest
Are in the most pain.
Honor their scream,
But don’t make it your same.
Be calm and guide them to the better way,
Through holding it in your body today.
We don’t fight anymore.
We instead vibe love hardcore. 
Hello, new world!
We been waiting for you.

OKAY. HEADS UP. Today we are back in the manifestation of the fears that you are still holding inside, from what took you off path over the last 8 years. We have been coming back to this space often to plant new seeds of a new pattern where we correct from where we bought into something wrong or where things just went off in partnerships or collaborations or with YOU being able to come together and do more with others. 
 
BUT. Today hits HARD into the wound of you not feeling seen or special, and ways you may feel rotten to the core in thinking that your mistakes cannot be corrected. BE AWARE that your mind will be pressed to the past and you will wish you had done things differently. You may even get real low in thinking it's all too messed up and it will never be a better day. ALSO, be aware that nostalgia is all over the place and for that reason you will look back into these old feelings and will be looking out at the future and thinking that nothing will be the same again. There is the feeling that nothing will be like how it was, and it can PLUMMET people where they shoot down and think maybe they can't even ever get back up. This also can leave you in FREEZE where you just look stunned and staring off into space.

But. My loves! This is all on schedule and we actually need you in this desperate position, wishing for a miracle and REALLY FEELING what your decisions, or others’ decisions, have created in this moment now. And it did not go as planned. But. My loves! In a few hours this will shift and it's going to be the final feeling you really need so that you finally pay attention to the decisions you are making. 
 
Are you just allowing yourself to be hooked to the internet and searching for answers, answers, answers – while feeling your energy empty, empty, empty. But unable to stop yourself. 
 
KNOWING THE SADNESS you feel for all that has been lost and all that you said yes to when you should have said no, and all that you said no to when you should have said yes, ALL THAT is to sit in you hard and heavy so that you wake up to the decisions you get to make today and moving forward. YOU CAN CORRECT. But YOU got to be the one choosing for it – and you were programmed to follow along, so you won't naturally choose for it. Instead you will choose for the phone, the snack foods, the drugs and alcohol, the projecting on others and hating them – as a means of processing your own hatred for how you have NOT ACTED like you wanted to. 
 
So, sit in that stew of sadness and honor that you are there to create something better with your life where YOU FINALLY SEE that you are important, and you CAN order up whatever you want as if you are a child. You can be like, I WANT THAT!!! And -- you are encouraged to do so. BUT THEN, my lovelies, you got to get up and do. You got to move towards the new life. You got to rise from the misery of seeing so much pass you by that you didn’t think you needed to grab on to, and FROM THAT PLACE you will be reborn into life on Earth. 
 
And reborn as in finally you will realize how precious this all is and it will get you going towards what is love, and not what is pain. Our wounds keep us glued to what will hurt us and affirm the beliefs we hold inside that think we deserve to not be loved, to not be seen, to have to suffer because others stole what was something pure about who we are. They keep us in the state of damn you for hurting me. Which is not a state we want to be in.
 
And yes, this happened. Yes, it happened. BUT. Let it fuel you finally into a better direction in life. If you have no control, don’t stay in what continues to affirm that. Get up and go do something for you that does make you feel lighter, like playing with kids or animals or being out in nature and just not worrying about time or the past or the lessons YOU HAVE HAD TO WALK. 
 
Because bottom line, you needed to walk what you did – even if it makes no sense to you why. NONE OF US UNDERSTAND WHY for most of our lives. Why did I have to lose so many pets to other people killing them? Even when I was about 6, my mom HAD to go to this popular concert that everyone was going to, so she hired this new babysitter who had never watched us before, who while my mom was dancing it up, drowned all my kittens because she said she was trying to kill the fleas. I was just a baby, and this stranger came in and killed all my babies. One of the most painful moments of my life, up there with having Moon Bear killed and stolen from me too. 
 
But that WAS my life. Everyone came in to violate, disgrace, diminish and attempt to destroy me. And yes, for some reason I needed to experience every one of those things – not like I deserved it in the ways we can get confused in understanding why things happened. BUT THE FEELING is what I needed to experience. And other than that, we aren’t to question it. IT DOES MEAN SOMETHING. Even for me, I realized long ago that I am not to want revenge on those who have hurt me – so I am tempted with THE most extreme acts of injustice to tempt me to curse others, which would then curse my own life, as that is how it goes. So, I do understand it more now, but I used to curse everyone who hurt me, and they all are in the gutter today, none have soared. But I also couldn’t soar because I cursed myself by cursing them for hurting me. Now I will NEVER HATE YOU if you hurt me. I will go into silence and stay there until I heal, but I don’t wish anything negative for anyone again.

And you will learn the same about what hurt you and took you off path from where you planned. DON’T HATE what is here for you to see. It's FOR YOU, for some mysterious reason, and it IS to better you or get your sweet soul expecting more loving situations to grace your world. Be what you want to see. Take this VERY seriously. 
 
 

 
DON’T HATE what is here for you to see. 
It's FOR YOU, for some mysterious reason, 
and it IS to better you or get your sweet soul 
expecting more loving situations to grace your space. 
Be what you want to see. 
Take this VERY seriously.
Dwelling in the past keeps you 
Manifesting a future that is the past. 
You deserve to rise over this learning curve
And get to the teaching that sets you free.
Step into a new honoring story.