F R I D A Y 25 september |
Oh loves! This is such an important day!! SO. This energy feels to me like moving day and how there is so much to do but how you have to stay on things and remain positive in knowing you are building something important here and it WILL bring a sudden change to your life. We are in something where we do need to pay attention and give it our all, but we also need to play with this and have fun with this and laugh, even though you have 6 more times of work to do than you planned. Moving is always 6 times what you thought.
So, know that things are heavy and also that the loads need your constant attention. AND the real big point of today is saying that you need to remember that these big moves do not last forever. They are one big point in your life where all these things come together that HAVE to come together – all at once – but then you move on and it just becomes a memory of what got you to, hopefully, you next great leg of the journey.
So be in it but also be in the big picture and keep reminding yourself that this too shall pass. All things do. But this passageway is just SO important and it needs your love and EXTREME attention. Think of being a surgeon and showing up for this person (your life) who needs you to heal it. It will take all your skills and all that you have learned from the journey thus far, but this is your big moment. Don’t forget that you DO got it in you to walk your talk and show your expertise.
Now, do be aware that many people around you are doing things or saying things that are very shocking to your soul. Things may look extreme like with violence and war. BE SOMEONE who can throw out an anchor to others. In the stores, if you feel called, through some pain in another’s eyes, pull your mask down and give them a smile. We need to start connecting again and, on a day like today, you showing them even a smile can flip them back into having hope again. People are that on the edge and it's why we all need to look out and do whatever tiny thing we can. It matters today.
Waving is great! If you feel that anyone needs you just wave to them in their car. It's a sweet thing that is really lighting people’s hearts. It helps to see these happy go lucky things when most people are magnetized and addicted to only reading and talking about very hateful and negative things. So shine your light and know that it really matters today. We are to bring back the old days in some way but remember, sweet family of mine, we are the leaders here. And the flock of sheep out there are following the wrong leaders. Are we to try to convince them of that or are we to walk this beautiful life that shows we ARE happy here and ARE working for better days? Eventually, like all trends, the tides will shift. So don’t wear what you don’t wear anymore. Don’t wear the style they are trying to front as the in thing when you know it needs to stay in the past.
Watch that John + Yoko interview in bed and how what they talk about is where we all are now and it's mainstream – but watch the battering patriarchy try to make it seem crazy or where they bring big anger in trying to point out and create division. That is happening the same in our world right now. So don’t fight back! BE the new way and walk it until our trend becomes mainstream because it sure AF will. Trends; they take over when you least expect it. Because of trendsetters like you and me! And our numbers are growing, my loves. We are waking like popcorn and when we take this new form, we can never go back to the limited, small minded, conservative, fearful seed that we began as. Get ready to pop into expanded form where you ARE lighter – but from the friction of changing from seed to popcorn. That transformation is where we all sit right now. Let’s pop together and jump into our new magnificent world together! 1… 2 … 3!!
Think of being a surgeon
And show up for this person (your life)
Who needs you to heal them.
Be here now.
Do your best.
That’s all we need from you right now.
T H U R S D A Y 24 september |
OKAY THEN! Get ready to have A LOT to say and also to see that you are looking into your life in a new way where you DO expect to be supported and taken care of and IN NEED of more comfort and good vibes that surround. Expect to make a decision or to see that something needs to be let go of as you see that you need to make space for this other new and expansive thing.
Something feels very changed, where we are dedicated and really aware that we have to take advantage of this opportunity or this moment in time and not let something fall away because we feel inadequate or too wounded or NOT worthy of getting the support we need. We are aware of where we pause, but where we feel pulled inside to SAY SOMETHING, to DO SOMETHING. So, see that you may have to compress in order to squeeze out movement where your truth rises and you seek for what will make your life better.
REMEMBER that we are so wounded, we automatically go to what will NOT give us what we need. We will go to less than and we manifest things that give us our fears. So, to manifest a better life we have to find the places where we have bought into others’ programming that keeps us only seeking for what is in one small box – the safe route, the conservative path, the limited way, the plain version.
And ENOUGH OF THAT. ALL OF Y’ALL are sitting side by side with something that is the other side to what would hold you and what IS a start over with something that IS nurturing and supportive in the ways I speak of how my new town is for me. Like, where I have a need, it races in to fill it in the most comforting ways, as if meeting me with beds of wool pillows. And in the last town I lived in, I was met with people pulling away as I fell into them and letting me slam into jagged rocks and broken glass. So, this is REALLY NICE for me to now experience pillows.
See that whatever lessons the Great Mystery throws your way, that deal with the truth of the hidden things that are inside you, manifesting as outer world situations, can NOW rebuild this aspect and set it into a higher level of expression. We all can heal and we all can make our lives better. Just like when I said free education is BRILLIANT and it shows that we love our children and want the best for them.
But, keeping it real, not everyone will go, so it's not like it steals opportunities from those deemed more worthy. It still takes people showing up and wanting to commit to some long-haul process. With no price to it, only those who really got it in them to finish, will show up. Many others will make excuses and keep delaying the mountain climb. So, it should be free. Our tax dollars should go to that. If more people were in college and climbing the ladder in life, they would feel like they have a purpose and they wouldn’t be out killing others and struggling to survive. It would be an out that we all could count on, like having a good parent that we know would be there for us no matter what. It would be a counted on support system.
And something in life right now is presenting a real support or something that will facilitate you really stepping into a better position in life where you ARE more secure than you have been in your past. Things are here for us to invest in and they may deal with our creative gifts, our love nature, or something to do with our careers. A special piece is here and it takes us believing we deserve to get another chance to do something better with our lives. So soften when you want to judge yourself or think you are too limited to rise above and have what would make your heart happy. It's time for YOU. It’s time for YOUR dreams to come true.
Soften when you want to judge yourself
Or think you are too limited
To rise above and have
What would make your heart happy.
It's time for YOU.
It’s time for YOUR dreams to come true.
Make the space and keep making it.
moon journey: 4 to 16 Capricorn
moon phase: start to get the ball rolling
numerology vibration: 1| Assert. 9| Let go.
W E D N E S D A Y 23 september |
Good morning loves! It is fair to expect that you will be a little tired today. Something will have you feeling a bit spacey or where you just keep going into daydreaming spaces. It can be like how night owls are in the morning and how they seem to be a bit stunned for a minute. So be patient with yourself as this feels like a sudden seasonal change where it just takes you a minute to acclimate.
You also may have things on your mind that keep pulling you into: what does that mean or where should I go with this? You WILL be led to something that is far off and not yet in your current moment and you ARE to sit there with the feelings and notice how you feel inspired to see them grow. What comes at you will want some space to expand into, so be there for that and take all the time you need.
At some point today you will snap into motion, where you will be seeing into a plan to rebuild something better and from a changed perspective that is planting some seed that you need to go for this and leap into the feelings that it is giving you. Do expect layers to the information coming to you, but also know that this time presents a better path for you to walk down and to do something where you are walking your talk and taking advantage of what feels good to your heart – where you DO see that you deserve things better.
A gateway has opened and it deals with us attracting things that are otherworldly feeling or where you can tell that something magical is going on. This means, where we have been dreaming and hoping for something wonderful, things finally start to come our way. BUT REALIZE we also can be tested with something so magnificent that we go back to our victim visions as we wonder why would I deserve such a thing? You may start to look with negative eyes and think you are NOT worthy of a beautiful life -- but let that go.
Stay focused on seeing into a higher understanding, where things bring clarity to aspects of why things had to be what they were in your past, but relinquish control in thinking you know how things really do need to look. Just put it out there that you want big love and a life full of joy because there ARE things around you that are a part of the rebuild into your better world. But something will ask you to see all sides and to listen to your heart when it tries to confuse you in getting you to wonder about your own value or place in the world.
Expect to go there but also expect to be the one that lifts your OWN SELF up in seeing that the next chapter will be better than the old chapters. SOMETHING waits to greet you and it IS what your heart has been wishing for. So, move where you feel called to reach out but don’t expect to have all the answers or to even understand why you feel so moved by this. The heart knows more than your mind could ever try to understand. Surrender into this new way of navigating life from your heart speaking new things to you.
Your heart knows more
Than your mind
Could even try to understand.
Listen to the song
That softly plays.
This means something to you.
T U E S D A Y 22 september | sun into libra.
What a beautiful day! BUT, only about half of you will say that because 100% how you are seeing things - before they happen - IS WHAT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW.
So, this day kind of comes as a big warning in that you have got to wake up and stop this old pattern of steering yourself into the gutter and into the fear and into KNOWING this negative thing was going to happen! Well, yeah… because you wished it into place! DO NOT WASTE YOUR MENTAL SPACE ON NEGATIVITY today! If you do, you will get what you are thinking about.
If you have a free day and you sit at the computer and game for 3 hours, then you will have 3 months of the feeling of what was in those nasty and addictive cigarettes, I mean games. So seriously be aware that you don’t want to escape or lose this opportunity right now. You want to be out and about and you want to be around others who are on your vibe and all about growing better together.
This day is real potent in bringing the love or shining the light on us seeing new perspectives about something that would make us happy or be something that IS solid and secure. So be out and about and expect to find yourself in something that gets you seeing that you have changed and now your love nature speaks a new language where you ARE expecting to have the happy ending or something that comes later in life and IS the best thing ever.
Just like I have been telling you about my new home and the town I live in – like, I didn’t know this place existed, that I could find land that felt like I am at the spa on the daily. It's totally a spa to my soul. It's just where I fit into all the spaces as if they were created especially for me. Like, WHAT??? I seriously had NO IDEA I would find what I have now. And I am almost 50! I’m where the patriarchy and those programmed by it are trying to tell me it all is dead and done.
So how come EVERYTHING is better than it has ever been my entire life? How come THIS HERE is my favorite thing ever? It’s because I kept with the journey and kept hoping that the more I healed, the more I got to receive, and the more I took a leap of faith, the more I got to see that things DO actually get better and better – and thatONLY IF I still believe them to be on the decline do they actually travel.
Just like when I told you, in Durango, the space I was in was on a vibration that was at a clash to my natural code, so it instantly sent me on a decline, that I was 100% aware of, and constantly trying to steer OUT of fear -- and then the moment I got here I have been on a swift incline – with much to clean up from 2 years of decline, BUT I AM ON AN INCLINE and now it is all I can see!! All I can see is where I want to fly and how I want to expand and how I want to go for and how I AM going to fulfill my dreams – no matter who tells me it can't be done or I am too flawed to receive the good life.
So be aware that if you are pulled into debt or into fear or into negative anticipations for your future, you 100% will get all that today. AND be aware that if you are waking to seeing that you DO deserve to be loved and valued and seen out in the world as someone special then you WILL get that.
We are magnets right now and it really is about taking us to our new beliefs and giving us reason to see that we CAN believe, and it IS all worth it. Time is but a measurement to give your mind something to grab onto so right now allow it to be something you are excited for and NOT feeling like too much time has passed. SEE that things are happening in perfect timing and see that the best is yet to come for you. Just use your energy to stay away from the gaming escape and step into what is here for you to get to know better. Look around, the Universe is bringing you what you need to expand into. See a better story for this.
You get what you think you deserve.
And it's time to believe that
Next comes the best.
So, sit with anticipation.
Dream into your future
With visions of expansion.
How would you like to see this grow?
So that you do have a heart
That gets to smile and glow.
Look to your horizon
And see it like a rainbow.
M O N D A Y 21 september |
I walked into the reading room today and heard: go into your mystery, go into your depth. We are being asked to keep at something and to not want to run away or to get out of the pain or confusion. You are to stay with things and be fixated EVEN IF you don’t have an answer and you can feel there is something more to this. Your feelings are VERY activated today – but they come 100% with an existential quality or where you can't really put your fingers on anything. But still, you feel that something is coming or something is on the way.
This is a great time to ground yourself and to do what you can to clear before you take more in. You WILL elevate from what is on the way but first you almost have to saturate in too much, to the point you feel lost -- and THEN comes the sun a-rising or the shade parting so that you can see another side of this. FOR SURE something is coming and it will shift things dramatically for you. But surrendering into the confusion or madness or non-sensical things and just allowing them to be something for you to see and feel IS the point of this day. You got work to do and we all need to face things that we otherwise have wanted to deny or even to paint as something really horrendous when, in fact, there possibly is beauty in there.
So open your mind to understanding that if you have gotten off on the wrong foot with someone or you are diving into fears from times or experiences past, then you very well may open to something today that gets you seeing how incredibly off you actually were. IN REALITY there were backstories and they have importance that you won't be able to understand until now.
But the big point of this energy is that we are to see that we had something wrong. That what formed us, got us looking at something that NOW needs a new appraisal. Time has passed and more layers are being revealed so YOU need to go with the flow and upgrade as you go. THIS MOMENT is one where YOU need to step higher and to NOT do what you would have normally done. That old way was not honoring – and you know that now. Allow these new pages of this interesting chapter to reveal on their own. But stay present to knowing that light will follow whatever deep feelings are rising now. This will bubble something beautiful to the surface that has needed YOU TO CHANGE how you see something and allow it to define you or your life or your future or your healing journey or whatever.
So, expect a big rise today that feels different from how things began and see how you are making good changes that ARE rebuilding your life. See that you DO have something to dream for and to move into that IS a leap of faith. See that something is rising lighter in you from the depth you have been EAGERLY looking and feeling into. If not for you showing up and doing the work, you couldn’t go through the gateways up ahead.
So KNOW THIS and feel that you ARE with a therapist now and you ARE safe and you CAN look and you DO NEED TO USE the hour with total consciousness – like, be present in your deep experiences. If they cause you to feel – this is something you just need to be very present with and not wanting to hide it away or color it anything other than what it presents to you, minute by minute.
Like with sobriety or changing deep, outdated patterns, it all is day by day – but that is what gets you acclimated to the beauty way. From the day by day you see that you ARE stronger than you were programmed to believe. And when YOU WAKE, the world changes. When you stay asleep it stays the same. So, hello my love, good morning to your new life. There IS light up ahead for you and you ARE turning a corner. So sit tight and feel it all and see how it inspires you to want to change. THAT THERE is the lesson here. We need to get your passions rising.
From the day to day
From feeling on the edge
From feeling you have no control --
From there, you find your voice
To draw boundaries
To speak clearly
To heal your past
And to rise with direction, determination
And a passion that can't be burnt away.
Fire won't destroy an ignited heart.
It merely wakes it up.
S U N D A Y 20 september |
Here comes a big warning that something is going to ask you to draw boundaries and to be clear on how you need this to be different than how it is being delivered your way. But there is a big test to the day where you also will need to pick your battles! So, expect to need to apply discernment where you will walk away from a fight, giving it none of your valuable attention, and possibly also asserting your voice in another way, where you ARE making your needs known.
I imagine the fight will be an ego thing, that you will bypass today, and using your voice will be a heart thing where your feelings will get you to stand up stronger. There is a fine line with this so be aware that it can be awfully tricky for many of you. Another example could be if you feel the need to defend something that makes no sense or needs all this explaining, back out! BUT if you are in something that needs you to set the record straight, where you can just step in and then step out with it, then do so. If it could potentially create baggage, don’t go there today.
Now something about this day is really special where you are to find the strength or gain some powerful feeling from choosing to draw a boundary and to not give when others are trying to manipulate you or stronghold you or distract you from where you really need to be. BUT – you are to do it with grace and not in a disrespectful way. What you put out there is coming back your way, so be clear with it, but don’t go low or don’t allow yourself to lose control because you feel controlled or manipulated by others. Today, honor that you deserve to be treated a certain way, and if it's not going on, get out.
We also are to open to something that liberates our minds into wanting to see for a new outcome or to focus on some new thing that really does light us up. MANY of you are going to feel like a gift comes today and it somehow opens the light or gets you seeing into another corridor that you didn’t know was there. And this should feel exciting. It should feel like you are onto something or you are digging away at something that screams, warmer, warmer, warmer.
So, expect something kind of exciting that shows you it really is worth the hard work. But do know you can pass this glimpse of an opportunity by if you get tangled up with others stealing your energy. And if you DON’T GO THERE, you get to go somewhere new that is beautiful and that inspires you to keep growing your new crop of wonderful things to come. So remain open! Don’t let anyone get in your lane and try to show you the way – UNLESS it feels like love.
Don’t let anyone get in your lane
And try to show you the way --
UNLESS it feels like love.
You decide today.
Draw boundaries around a beautiful day to come.
S A T U R D A Y 19 september |
Just remember! You DO deserve things better! You DO deserve to have people treat you in a better way. You DO deserve to feel like you are looking out at the life you are walking and you LIKE what you see, or at least you like seeing that it IS getting better. So today know that you need to spring into action where you are going towards things that support and nurture you or GIVE when you have a need. Choose for better things. Weave them into the story of your future.
Like, during the first week of living in my new dream home, I was throwing a stick in the back yard and it went deep into Memo’s throat where he suddenly gushed blood and foam.
AND DUDE. I just moved to this town, which I only first came to see when I checked out this house I moved into -- and I didn’t even know where I was!! So, I looked up vets and called this one and was like, oh my gosh I just moved here, and I think this stick may have gone into my dog’s lungs. Oh my gosh! They were like, where do you live? I was like, oh my gosh I don’t know, um, um, um, um, and then came up with the name of the organic grocery store around the corner (perfectly placed for my dream neighborhood) and they said, you are 8 minutes out; we are prepping for surgery in case he needs it. So I raced to the car and got my baby to them in 8 minutes where they took him in and had him back to me in 6 minutes, with medicine, because it was triaged into being a watch for 48 hours, especially for for white gums. They then went back to their normal schedule to do the other surgeries for other animals in need.
BUT DUDE. THEY TOOK CARE OF US. I was a priority. My huge and gaping need was filled in under 20 minutes. And THIS is because I made the epic change to come where I have never been – BUT I FELT CALLED TO BE – and DOING SO – TRUSTING SO – got me to discover a place that holds me IN ALL WAYS I have ever needed!!!! I have never laid my feet to lands that love me so much. I am only loved and supported here and it has me dancing wildly over how wonderful it feels!!!
SO, my boo. My love. My sweetest of darlings. YOU DESERVE A BETTER LIFE. But you got to work for it. You got to hold the hands of it. You got to stick with it. And you got to keep going into the fire of whatever it brings so that you can heal. You are to shift from the fire into something powerful that is unique to your soul. Just like I now will express more as my truth because I journeyed through years of chaos and pain – since Moon Bear died and through my time in Durango – but I just kept with it and I didn’t ever fight it.
I NEVER fight back with negative things happening to or being said about me. NEVER will you hear me defend what I don’t like to see when it comes to me. I just take it inward and know that it DOES relate to me because I attracted it or because it bothers me or is in a clash with another person. And I can't change anyone else – I can't change what they will do. But it always inspires something for me to see inside about myself what I am not facing and that I NEED TO correct and strive to be better. I know from the laws of the universe that if my life feels fucketh then I am somehow fuckething it up. And I need to be the one to change things. From within we manifest an outer world. Stand by that code of ethics.
To surrender is to just look from a different angle and to understand that we all are magnets – so what comes to us, what comes up, just needs us to surrender as we look with eyes for correction and the desire to be better – TO BE BETTER MAGNETS. And why? Because we are worth it. We DESERVE to manifest a life that makes us happy. So keep digging, keep working, keep holding hands with your dreams. You ARE getting somewhere and you need to be stronger with it. Be determined! This is never too much, but it does lighten up if you allow it to, and then it gets gorgeous! What do you deserve? Something that makes your heart smile. Go out yonder and find it. Expect to find it. And keep at it until you do.
I strive to be
A better magnet.
What I put out there
Will come back to me.
I won't forget this.
I WILL clean things up.
Even if what I see
To clean is to heal.
To deal is to feel better.
F R I D A Y 18 september |
This energy is POWERFUL!! These really are the best new moon vibes ever – even though, for most of you, the pressure or force that gets you to act may not be what you really think of as the best! I am a Virgo Moon, born on a Full Moon, and I do like some pressure, actually. I do like to be pushed beyond what I think I can handle – SO THAT I SEE I ACTUALLY CAN HANDLE THIS – and more. I’m not afraid of pain and I do know that it always and forever leads to gain. It really does. It always does. But if we are in years still of pain, we don’t know how soon “the gain” will finally arrive and shift our baseline focus.
Understand that we all have cycles in our life that some people think are a standard 7, but I think they waiver, like with Chiron, between 5 to 9 years. As in, we all change dramatically and are provided with a new path aspect when we reach those years. For some of us it may feel like every 5, and for others, every 9. It is not a standard 7, across the board.
But we all are coming together at this time, as we all have been synched, whether we are in the 5 team or the 9 team, and at this time we HAVE THE CHOICE to make a dramatic change in our lives. BUT. For this one, we must assert ourselves into making it happen. We must reach out, move out, go for, stop doing, start doing, and completely experience an old world being left and a new world being started WITH DISCIPLINE holding it in place. That is the key as we must keep with it and keep with it and keep with it. This is when we are to stop giving up on ourselves and on things that take time to birth.
All the good things come lately -- so that we can learn and go within and heal and become the better peoples who CAN manifest these brilliant and soul soothing lives. Something is rising now where you are hearing of people who are in really great spaces in life. This is the new energy that is available for us all – and the more we work on putting things into order in our lives, trusting the erratic curves of the journey and all the things that seemed to be a YES until minutes before they became a NO, and the more we just KEEP DOING, but only what feels right, the sooner we get to this new manifesting space where things ARE pleasant and we ARE seeing people come together who are bringing more beauty and light into the world.
You talking about your beautiful journey helps me see the same for myself. So, plant the other side of life and see that we will get around the corners and we WILL see that it was a beautiful ride. Don’t allow yourself to fall into despair because you don’t know! You are rarely to know in life – and honestly, I have found from research that the more you think you DO KNOW what is going on, the more likely something really shocking is on the way to humble you into just surrendering into the journey. Life lesson #1: Try not to ever think you are at the top and you got it all figured out.
Something about life wants us to NOT be all cocky and know it all. Might DOES NOT make right. Love makes right. And we get “mightful” when we don’t like the lives that are in front of us, as we try to rip them open or push them out of the way. TODAY LEARN TO NOT BE AFFECTED BY OTHERS. Stand FIRM in the new discipline of your NEW PATH ASPECT and do not let anyone fear or nonsense you back onto their path, which was going nowhere anyway. Or, at least was not the path for you to thrive.
You deserve to grow and to be happy and to feel healthy and whole. But at this time, we must get up, make a change, and get going towards something that goes against the old way –therefore we need to be an anchor with our dreams – as in we need to be present with them and to hold them and to support them and to not let go. Imagine you are holding a little child’s hands as you move through a crowded carnival. Like, hold your little child’s hands! HOLD the hands of your dream and keep going until you get to the destination. KNOW that you deserve it better and it IS there for you to journey towards. Don’t let the clowns get you down. THERE IS a test here.
Might DOES NOT make right.
Love makes right.
Get that straight.
YOU lead the way.
It’s not on you to get them to follow.
But it IS ON YOU to not follow their negative lead.
T H U R S D A Y 17 september |
Oh hello NEW MOON in VIRGO! OH! We LOVE when the Moon goes new and joins along with the Sun in Virgo! This will 100% bring some sort of shift that gets you wanting to seriously change your life and do something with the time you have left. Something that shifts inside of us also ushers in the people or situations we need, so that we CAN get over some hurdle that has been flipping us back to the old world ways, when we yearn so desperately for change and for something to help make sense of what has not worked out in our lives.
Expect to run into people and for it to really mean something for you. ALSO expect to need to be the person who steps up and does what is right. Many of you will be in quarrels with others where you hold the key to peace, to balance, and to something that gets you both seeing things in a better way. BUT YOU HOLD THE KEY, my love. You need to remember that you are not waiting on another to do what you know needs to be done. You must humble yourself and really go out there and make something right.
Don’t look at any problems around this day as dead ends or something that can't be overcome. THIS is to be a challenge that changes your life. THIS RIGHT HERE is a gateway situation in your story that needs you to lift it to a higher perspective where you DO expect the best to play out. DO NOT dip down into despair or into thinking there is not a solution.
Use this energy to turn your ship around and to finally start the day-to-day habits that get you building something better in your life. It all starts today. Don’t discount the scope of this! Today literally is the first day of the rest of your life. Steer it like this is your only chance and know that you ARE going to be able to shift into a higher gear if you stay in the moment today and see where you need to accelerate. It will come and you will know what to do.
Something about surrendering also plays in with the energy. So, think that you are about to merge ONTO the highway where you will need to accelerate, but you are to wait until the space comes when you know 100% that - now - you are to go. This is a part of the energy where we are working with Spirit, through the ebbs and the flows of life, but where even if things feel slow or like they are not moving, we are NOT giving up on ourselves by deciding to go back home. Stay on the journey and sit in traffic if it is there but know that YOUR TIME is coming just up ahead. Sit patient and with excitement that THIS is what you need to flip into a new gear where you ARE going to see things finally fall into place. Trust this wild journey and know the pieces today need you to stay curious even without totally knowing, but still moving towards, what needs you to pay attention to it being completed.
DO and you will get somewhere today, but don’t forget that you need to do where you feel CALLED TO DO and not where the old-world shames, blames, and guilts you into doing. If it doesn’t feel right, it's not right. Pause, go within, feel what feels right to YOU, and then DO more of that. The feelings are palpable because they connect you to something wonderful that you otherwise would pass on by or not believe could really be yours – so feel to heal your life and to see it fall into better position. Steer your boat like THIS is what you have been waiting for. Put your muscle to it and head into this brand new direction. It opens for YOU and brings a new tune that will get you feeling like you ARE living your Soul’s Purpose. This change is TOTALLY worth it.
NEW MOON IN VIRGO
I am ready for the changes to come.
I am present, in the moment, and
Ready to dive into what I need to see
So that I can feel free to be the real me.
This change is epic and it alters my path
But I will give it my all because
I am worth the sun that will shine my way
When I turn around to accept my birthright
To lead this planet into healing, love, and light.
I am here and ready to get to work.
Use me, Great Mystery.
Give me a reason to be here now.
W E D N E S D A Y 16 september |
Sweet loves. We got some BIG TIMES going on right now. You need to listen and listen like your life depends on it – because it does. RIGHT NOW we are going to be starting new patterns that are dramatic and where we change our focus in direct ways where we give purpose to not going as it has been done before. Something needs to stop fully and to take on this new pattern with how things are being run in your day to day.
This is when you will start a new program or system that gets you going at a grain to how you were doing it, or how others have done it before. You will be starting something at this time, and it is to deal with healing you and helping you to get back into some original form. But you were bent out of shape and you won't really see how bent incorrectly you were until you can clean and de-clutter your life and remove yourself from things that your gut DID tell you were wrong for you.
REMEMBER – the choices you make deal with what you saw in your past. If you are wounded – as we all are – you make bad decisions. You say yes to what others would quickly say no to and you say no to what your higher self wants you to eventually say yes to – seeing that you deserve this WAY better. We attract situations so that we can be tested to do the right thing, where we DO value ourselves and DO see that we serve great purpose here.
When you know you have a soul’s purpose, even if you don’t know what it is by definition words, you should LIVE for the day where you DO discover what it means to you. My Soul’s Purpose is to Support and Nurture. IRONICALLY, I came into this Earth with no support and no one nurturing me. So, where I was left empty, I now am to serve in an exalted way. And I supported and nurtured others -- I DID livedmy souls purpose work -- when I worked at cafes and coffee and chocolate shops until I was 40. I’ve always lived my Soul’s Purpose (as do you). I took care of you there; I take care of you here. I take care of people – when no one took care of me – and even that I was named Kerry!
How crazy is all of that ----- OR, how perfect is all of that, that the Universe wants me to really learn that I am here to give the greatest of care, but first I must get none, give none, and learn from that so that I want to GIVE IT ALL to know that YOU are okay and thriving.
WE MUST walk aspects of life from empty, to then doing it wrong (because of the empty) to THEN doing it RIGHT because we wake up and want to be better peoples. It's like recovery – where we do see BEING in the pit of hell is actually what inspires you greatly to never go there again and to finally REALLY LIVE for the first time in your life. We must change something to bring this new light.
So. KNOW that we are in a VERY, VERY, VERY SPECIAL SPACE RIGHT NOW. All caps are needed, We are tuning into something where we will surrender into the perfection of it, even if we never could see it or understand that THIS IS IT.
We couldn’t see what we needed to see -- until the next 3 or 4 days. When you GET IT, you are going to be good to go in the best way and with a new you showing up seeing that there IS a way and you ARE perfect just the way you are, with all the things you thought of as mistakes because they did put you in the gutter, or in an addiction or in something that ultimately is keeping you far away from the love and joy you DO NOW seek.
So, open up and wake up to your new world. It's time to change your groove. Something better awaits you. Do something to reach for what is worthy of you and that gets you excited to go and grow. It's time to start a new way to run your daily flow.
Open up and wake up to your new world.
It's time to change your groove.
Something better awaits.
And it comes when you MOVE.
Nothing right now needs to stay the same.
Get up and rewrite this thang.
---- It goes UP like this…
And, it’s gonna be hella better like that…
Reach for the stars, you beautiful star.
Reach out for what you really are.
T U E S D A Y 15 september |
Something feels so sweet today!! Expect to have your heart hit with something that really gets you looking around and appreciating what you DO have access to. New feelings are going to be bubbling up where you are wanting to be creative and wanting to spend your time fixing things or redecorating things. You will be looking around with new eyes wanting to DO where before you maybe didn’t even give it a thought.
Time is changing for us right now where we are finally realizing that we waste a lot of time. And it can give you anxiety, but also make you hyper aware of what needs your attention or what you COULD do to make a difference, to be more creative or playful with the time you DO have. When we wake up to something, like water shortages, we go frantic when we see others with water running down the street, because they are wasting something that we know is running out.
Which, for the record we ALWAYS need to honor that others have backstories that are not what WE think they are. We may go straight to negative, but they might have a perfect reason for why they are doing what irritates us. I was living in West Oakland in my mid 30’s and was on a nightly walk when I noticed water running down the street. So, I followed it to its home and marched up all mad that they would waste precious water, as I was ready to scold them for NOT paying attention to it.
And I knock on the door. This dude answers. I go in, all dramatic, in SHOCK that water is running down the streets, and then he just blinks at me a few times, with no facial expression. Silence between us. Crickets chirping. Then he says, “we just had triplets; we have 3 babies that are 3 weeks old.” – And I was like, oh, wow, congratulations, 3! As I started to take steps backwards, with hand in the air waving bye and, “okay then, just letting you know the water can be turned off now. Have a beautiful day!”
So, comprehend that your new sense of timing running out CAN get you a bit dramatic in needing attention, or in getting your message out. So, roll with who is around you and don’t jump any guns or do anything until you really are in agreement that your thinking around what got your heart to react was correct.
Our hearts, they do speak today!!! And now it's just on you to still be compassionate as we come together with others and try to work together to create the better days. We all are the walking wounded. We ALL have been hurt, let down, lied to, violated and we really don’t know what is going on anymore. We THOUGHT we were about to expand and rise this year, but now we all look around and wonder WTF?
But understand, the intensity of the times + Earth’s time running out + time going by so quickly in our own lives = YOU & ME finally really waking up and taking a risk on what we feel from our heart and what we DO see we can control through taking these day by day steps into running our life in a different way, with different patterns throughout the day.
Being lazy is on the out – but don’t get me wrong; lazy days are to be self-care and rejuvenation for the inward cycle of being able to move outward with proper steam and dedication. But the lazy, to the point you only scroll the phone and get down and lifeless and feel depressed like you don’t have a place in the world and nothing WILL ever work out for you, IS the lazy that was programmed in you so that you DO stay a cookie cutter, an assembly line, and someone who doesn’t really reach for the stars.
Something is rising in you and it needs to. But once it gets out of you, WORK WITH OTHERS to take things next level. None of us are the only ones that are correct. But the more open we are and true from the heart, the more we come together and create something more beautiful. Express and blend or merge so that something progressive DOES occur.
Don’t be a sell out
To a life that has no passion.
Reach for the stars.
Go towards where your heart
Is telling you THIS risk is worth it.
The new way is about love.
Expand into it.
moon journey: Leo + Virgo
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 9
M O N D A Y 14 september |
Good morning sweet loves! OKAY. This day is wildly important, and it deals with us facing something that is a part of a pattern that we are letting go of, but this one was more recent and not really childhood or back in the day. We are letting go of something that got us to stop dreaming wildly and to instead focus on our insecurities and thinking maybe we are past our prime or there is not a place for us in the world.
This ultimately was a dent to your car, like I talked about how the last few years were for me, but it doesn’t mean the car has to continue to drive in the pattern of defeat or insecurity or feeling like you don’t got any creative gifts or way to be seen for what it is that you love to do. Just because you got hit and they messed up your game, doesn’t mean the sun is not ABOUT to come shining your way soon.
This is the kind of energy that asks you to pick yourself up, but to also put yourself to the front as 100% valid and deserving of good things. Don’t hold yourself down and out and think you DO deserve to suffer. RATHER, you ARE smart and you ARE beautiful and you ARE special and you ARE going to kick ass at life when you get over the damn ripples in the road caused by others and how damaged they were.
No one has been able to handle their anger in a healthy way, except for some Italians, where they are so overboard with all feelings, so it all is drama when a message needs to be shared, whether positive or negative. But it is never that big of a deal and you can ALWAYS calm them by letting them know that you hear them and understand their point. But I have never known an Italian who was mad, and I didn’t know it. They don’t do downlow, they do in your face because they so naturally bring things to the surface and get them out of their bodies. They keep it moving and flow with whatever it is, honoring that sometimes they also are like smoke alarms, with things really needing to be addressed.
At this time, YOU kind of need to be dramatic and expressive and in their face about really sharing who you are in getting your messages out there. Know that. We need more artists, not sellouts. Just at least try to look at a blank canvas and imagine what you would like to do.
This energy also wants you putting the spotlight on your heart where you are asking what YOU really want --- and how YOU really want it to be – and WHAT you imagine when you think of a dream coming true. What would that be? Where would that put you? What leap of faith or risk would it take? And, ARE you willing to take it? Remember too that we don’t have a price until we hit rock bottom where then we see that it is now or never, so we finally get up and go for the dream. This is bottom for many of you so that you do finally show up and let us know what is in your heart. Roar the love you feel and demand that it become your reality. Just share whatever needs to rise and take a risk in knowing that your heart needs to speak. And maybe this wasn’t something important to you before, and you didn’t feel need to bring it up earlier, but things can change, and now you DO feel this way. Good on you. Share your truth. Free the way.
Roar the love you feel
And demand that it become your reality.
There is something that needs to be created
And it will be inspired from pain.
It's the artist way.
It's the only way to travel.
moon journey: Leo
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 8 9
S U N D A Y 13 september |
Feel this, my loves, and allow it to take you to something new. We are in a space where something needs to transform and evolve into a new path that is based on you choosing or seeing something better for yourself where you know you are important, and CAN create a life of happiness to come. If you only saw one reality, like with domestic violence or addiction or betrayal, then you have to work tons harder to NOT keep expecting those things to continue on – EVEN IF you acknowledge that you want them to be gone.
WE all know we don’t want pain, but if we saw it in our past, we fear its arrival, again and again -- even if we don’t want to hold that fear. If you were in a car accident, it's hard to forget. And this is what this is all about. For that reason, you will feel sensitive today in regards to something that was left empty in you or unrequited. BUT today you just need to sit with the feelings and to then consciously affirm that you are starting over today as you feed your insecurities with positive words and visions for how you WILL rise from what crushed you. And that this is not how you go down and stay down. Plant the seed and spend time today actually seeing how what you saw is not what you are going to continue to see. Affirm that today is a new day as you now are swinging to the other side of things.
One thing about the last 2 years living in Durango is that everything started to backslide, like the moment I got there and found out my internet was grossly subpar for running an internet business. But it was one thing after another, from ultimately living in a house that didn’t offer support for me. But my wounded self went straight into the no and tried, like all wounded people do, to make it work.
And then the moment I got in my new home I have been moving in forward motion again. I am 100% getting back on track, but for 2 years I was only going backwards – and it was hard to have to sit with and manage, while not losing hope that in the future it could be corrected. But here I am, and I now feel full speed ahead, as I go back and correct what was all undone in the last 2 years.
So, accept that going backwards is not always the worst thing, and it won't last forever. You have to see how you will grow stronger from this moment and not how much it has hurt you and hurt what you built and thought you could count on. Things may have you feeling limited and short sighted, so be your inner coach and set the record straight. Just because you have been manipulated doesn’t mean you always will be. But you do need to follow the love and follow what reaches out to support things because manipulation is about hate and division and ultimately getting you to waste your mental space with negativity. Only the wounded would say yes to that and agree to something that DOES limit their future potentials. So, look out at what gets you to feel and see how you need to start attracting better things through cleaning up your expectations for what is to come your way. The good is there and if you listen to your heart you will discover new needs and stronger boundaries that need to be put into place. Do so and your flow will turn back to gain.
Look out at what gets you to feel
And see how you need to
Start attracting better things
Through cleaning up your expectations
Of what you think them to be.
Expect the light to find your way
And for the day when the backsliding
Returns to gain.
S A T U R D A Y 12 september |
HERE IT IS. Here we go, babies! So. Now we are totally in this space of knowing we must shift our focus and get out of hiding being things or being a sell out or following along because we have fears and memories or those damn mental blocks where we stay walking the life of people who are manipulating us.
When we have wounds, we make BIG MISTAKES. We say yes to what clearly should be a no – and we push away things that clearly are a yes. When we have been led astray and let down, we go towards what will hurt us.
Allow those words to be what settles you when you look at a huge chunk of people around you and wonder how they can believe such a thing and go towards what CLEARLY is a no. If you can understand how we operate, when knowing trauma or things that have damaged us, you can see why people are going towards something that ACTUALLY is manipulating them and IS going to hurt them.
This is life. This is what we do. And we do it with 100% confidence in what we are doing UNTIL we wake up to the wound and to our part in holding it in position through expecting certain things to be. As you all know I came from the worst kind of mama who actually hated me from the moment of conception until I was 11 years old when she finally got some therapy and looked at herself. She was the ultimate bully. She was cruel. She kind of even got off on wanting to hurt me and see me suffer; even to always show that my brother was #1 and a billion times better than I ever would be. I was NEVER affirmed, valued or held safe by her. She actually wanted me out there struggling and knowing I was the trash. And I am a Pisces, born on March 11, which is exactly where Neptune sits at this very moment as it opposes the Sun.
But keeping it real, from her horrifying ways I grew up to make real bad decisions. I grew up to leap into those that would want to hurt me, and to push away the ones who would actually love me. But I could not even see that until I was in my 40s. I was not even 1% seeing that I was going for what was bad for me. Now I understand how we tie like a web into everyone’s wounds, and it's why some people can have really awesome lives where there isn’t much friction – and it's because they have worked on themselves and faced their cruelty or how they are hateful inside and spewing ideas about wanting to see others suffer – BECAUSE they have suffered in their past too.
I mean seriously – that Christians raised big money to support a 17 year old who thinks he’s such a tough guy, who went out and MURDERED people. That someone would see that as the Christian way is 100% further proof of how wounded we are. That is brainwashing at its worst – and brainwashing is what is happening to the USA right now – even though it's always been happening, it's just that now there is another player in broadcasting lies our way and getting people to totally throw themselves over the cliff. That boy is going to be crying a river real soon -- because he killed people. He chose to be god and take heart beats and people that other people loved and valued and thought would still be around. That kid is now imprisoned to hell in the life that he is gonna have to walk. And I’m from Illinois, like the shooter was. I’m a Southern Illinois girl by roots.
But anyway, look out with new eyes as you see so many people who appear to be fractured to the core. Remember that they WERE hurt in some way and are being influenced and mind controlled by people who also were hurt, and therefore they go towards what is wrong.
We only wake up to this wounded way when we heal and face our things and stop projecting and making everything else everyone else’s fault. If you are bashing on others, you really need to open to how you have been hurt and how something about where you are now IS reinforcing the old story of your life. So break free!!! START OVER. Feel this and get to where things ARE supportive and nurturing on your soul. You need to make a decision about what you allow to manipulate your dreams where you stay fixated on what took away your safety or stability. Decide to see for your superhero ending where you rise from the ashes, defy all odds and DO get to something that holds you safe.
Make the decision to see
For your superhero ending
That you dream your life to be.
Go towards what holds you with love
And supports you to thrive like weeds.
moon journey: Cancer
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 6 7
F R I D A Y 11 september |
Oh loves. I just noticed that Mars went retrograde yesterday and THAT was the un-existential confirmation of the energy I felt coming through!! This is a really great sign that this Mars retro cycle is going to bring outstanding upgrades to how we have been seeing something to the point we DO start over and start seeing that we do deserve the best and we do deserve to be here now FIGHTING FOR Mama Earth and her regeneration.
We were conditioned to be so indecisive that we do nothing or so lazy that we get nothing done. We also have been programmed to believe in the end times and to just wait it out and do nothing. I told you a little while ago how we reached the tipping point, where now we can't get back what we lose, but we CAN stop more from being lost.
This is not the worst place to be because there is the side of how it gets us to stand up like a protective Mama Bear and to ONLY think of doing the right thing as we fight for the light and fight for life. And being this way makes you VERY present with how you co-create your future. It puts you on the edge, where you don’t really want to be, but you finally get present and full of gratitude or prayer as you work for manifesting a better situation. It wakes you up. And we need to wake up AND GO with things.
We need to be assertive with what has heart and soul and is NOT ABOUT HATING ALL THINGS DIFFERENT THAN US. Wait a minute -- but was Jesus disrespectful with those who didn’t agree with him? Did he go out and kill people or cheer on other people doing it? I have yet to read the bible, so I don’t know for sure, but I’m pretty sure he was trying to bring us all together, right? So where is there a place to follow anyone who talks or engages in hatred of anything created by God? How on Earth is THAT the way of love?
And honestly, with minds that are full of envy, shame, blame, guilt and hatred, we CAN'T get to the life where things are light and free. And no longer can we carry that lowdown energy with us in 2020 as now we all are showing our inside energy and manifesting a reality that matches it. So, we need life showing us where we are not offering/offered support, and instead are cold and brittle with the handling of things. We need to learn how to be warm even when we DO feel at a 180 from how others are with their ideologies. In some way, we still can be warmer and kinder and less attached to needing them to be any certain way other than how they ARE showing themselves.
Today something lands into your heart and gets you to feel a lot of feelings. BE OKAY with this!! Many of you may try to push away the emotions or distract yourself with something else, but realize you are to surrender into this sudden way you are feeling – because there is something to this. Around this day we first get woken up to some bit of information and then we open to feelings that have us wanting to assist or help or do whatever we can – but in ways we are not used to.
This energy will confuse a lot of you, but really, just let it flow. Something within your own system is starting over and the space between leaving the old and moving into the new creates some sort of imbalance that will confuse you. But it deals with feelings – so be confused with them until they become what heals you into better form. THAT is what feelings are for!
Don’t get lazy.
YOU are the chosen ones.
The only ones that can save Earth.
Because of YOU,
Life will be better.
It’s because of what YOU do.
moon journey: Gemini + Cancer
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 5 6
T H U R S D A Y 10 september |
Good morning sweet beauties!! Here comes the big shift I was feeling somewhere in September!! I got so jazzed as I walked into this reading room!
One of the things about waking up is that when we do it, we can never go back to how we were. Like what I talked about with yesterday in moving to San Francisco and seeing that there was A LOT more going on in the world outside of the small dot where I grew up and was conditioned to believe was reality.
Around this day a piece of information is coming to change the way you feel about things. Now do know that you are going to have a lot to say as you come to the other side of things and see how others have wounded you or conditioned you into something smaller than what is actually available. This also can be like when you get the job offer or something shows up to show you that you are saved.
So, wait for it!!!! Don’t fall into despair today, just be out and about and expecting something good to connect for you. Most of you will make a shift in the way you have seen something from your past where you were holding yourself prisoner or shaming yourself or making YOU the problem in what actually was another person doing wrong or sharing false and fake news with you. Things are coming to show you the other side and get you seeing that it's time to move on and rebuild what has been done wrong.
Expect to see people who look like they are living a different world or where you feel something hopeful when you see them. These people are being shown to you so that you can dream for the better world you are working to create. EVERYTHING is about you needing to be more of an artist in your mind, using words that want to explore and expand into vast potentials waiting to be seen.
So, look at what comes as inspiration and something snapping you awake into wanting to dream for something that you maybe were settling into it never being. Just how I tell you how the majority of you should NOT be out and about big time with your career until you are in your 40’s. And then it is to rise through your 70’s.
THAT IS the truth. Just when the patriarchy wants others to hide away and go over the hill into their demise, we actually are to go over the hill and FLY. But our mental spaces are crushed and hold the space that we ARE past our prime. When really, we aren’t there yet!! The old world gets us to shoot ourselves in the foot JUST when we get to where we have always wanted to be – just as we round the corner and get to see, we turn back and accept defeat.
Realize your mind is the problem and it also is the solution. SO, allow your mind to see that there are things yet to arrive that WILL help you see why things had to be. You can trust that you will know what you need to know when you get up the road on your journey. Around this day we see into something we have needed desperately and getting it makes things clear in a way we couldn’t see until it got here.
Your mind is the problem
And the solution.
Focus on the solution.
Always look for resolution
Of the best kind.
W E D N E S D A Y 9 september |
So I know a lot of you have been feeling more pain than you thought you would be feeling. And do know, there IS going to be a big shift this month, but it doesn’t happen just yet. What we are in right now is the chaos of too many things and not being able to process them so we kind of feel like we are actively in trauma and staying alert for our safety. That way keeps us unhealthy and with shallow breathes and vision of futures that gray and dwindle.
So be aware that things are still rough waters and changing by the minute. We ultimately are being asked to stay loose and to not think things are going to go one certain way. There will be a test today where someone will come in with their strong ego thinking that they are the ones correct, and it is just on you to pass on the tango and to instead take the high road and remove yourself quickly.
DO NOT think you have to be polite and stay around until there is an open space to kindly part ways. Just speak up and do it. You may seem rude, but if you don’t resonate, clear the space -- BUT do it with love. You may feel tempted to clear the space with authority as if you are entitled to act in a two-faced way, seeing that the other person is less than you.
THAT is a big test today that you don’t want to trip into because you don’t want to show yourself as an ego maniac who also has an ugly side when you feel superior. We all have lacked discipline in taming that baby beast within, but ultimately, it's like carrying a cement brick for a 5k you want to run with 100 other people. Like, being evil with your words or thoughts, when you think no one can see, is what weighs down your life to the point you really can't get anywhere.
So, we must purify. To bring in New Earth and to stop the devastation that is on the way, WE MUST GET CLEAN inside of ourselves. WE MUST walk our talk and stay diligent on the daily in working to express as our higher selves and not our baby ego not getting its way. We are SO programmed to hate and to divide. It was the original con put into place. Two sides always keeps things divided – and seeing strongly that you are always the right one, on the right team, on the right side.
When we stay locked in choosing one out of two options, we stay locked in limited lives continually protecting the only things we know. Just like how I always tell you how I moved to San Francisco when I was about 24 and it was before cellphones and internet – so we only knew what was right around us and what came on cable or magazines. I grew up where cable wasn’t wired so I have only watched cable in my whole life at Airbnb’s.
But when I was suddenly exposed to people from all over the world, it totally opened my mind to how limited I grew up only knowing the St. Louis area as all that there is. And immersing myself in the expansiveness of the reality, that I was one small dot of the actuality playing itself out, humbled me to the point I meander in life, go with the flow, try to remain open to other people’s sides and not judge things as if I know best. Moving to SF showed me I am in a sea of geniuses and beautiful people with stories to what they bring, and it's best to respect and just allow everyone to be who they are – knowing there is a background to all stories or representations others bring to our awareness.
We are coming together with others today and it will be busy. Things are to be unexpected and I want you out there showing the love and looking for things that help you feel light and carefree. You may want to do something artistic or take a class where you are around others that you don’t know. You also may run into something that has many sides to it and you will walk away wondering what that meant. Go with what your gut says. There was something to the connection. But as long as you play it clean it was on them to learn from. You were just a catalyst or something.
You are not the only one.
You can't always be the best.
But you are A Special One
And you CAN always expect the best.
Give and you will get.
moon journey: Gemini
moon phase: bring it forward
numerology vibration: 2 4 22
T U E S D A Y 8 september |
This day has a lot to it, and you need to be aware that just because something is stuck right now doesn’t mean it won't rush forward and get to moving real soon. Something will feel like it blocks you or you will feel frustrated with how much gets in your way, but do what you can to be patient and to just hold the space that you DO know you are important and all things throwing you off schedule are NOT signs that you won't be seen.
The test with today is that you just need to not take yourself low and try to affirm your lack of value and how you really don’t have any gifts to offer or you are a fraud and will be found out. Just don’t even go there anymorebecause you have traveled that road often and you know that eventually you see it was just a dip in the road.
So, dip – but then do what you can to get to higher grounds as soon as you can. Things DO suck sometimes – but they also can be essential pieces that are a part of your ultimate upgrade and what gets you to the better life.
Right before I landed in this most wonderful home where I have NEVER LOVED A HOME MORE and have never felt more supported than I have in this new environment. Like, this home is the comfiest home I have ever lived in!!! It just feels like you are at Grandma’s house and hugged and safe and like every single thing feels great about it. But it came after 6 months of having my safe place taken from me by a predator who stalked my house late at night, leaving signs and doing things wanting me to know he/she/they were there.
For 6 months I didn’t even sleep. I didn’t take any deep breathes. I didn’t relax. I was so stressed I totally went gray when I had not even gone gray yet!! And I didn’t even tell anyone until I told a few friends days before I reached out and told you and asked for help. It was so traumatizing. Yet here I am NOW in the best dream I have manifested yet!!!
So, hold on my loves. I know that things were so hard in my world a few weeks ago and I questioned every day if I could get through this. I was like breaking down, as I know many of you are right now. And then, just like that, my whole world turned into MORE than I could have asked for. This is JUST what I need to heal and to get me back into position. And it came after HELL.
AFTER I lived the worst thing, I manifested the best thing I have EVER had. So, TRUST THIS. And write a story for your very near future that is beautiful, where you do come out the other side, like I have, and go out there and ONLY see that you are A Star and one who is being schooled into the best position for your Souls Purpose Work to offer to the world.
You are supported and you need to walk like you know you are, and you need to be creative so that your nervous system can attract it all. YOU MUST disconnect from your devices that need batteries to fuel them, and you need to get to nature so that you can slow down and get back into your true flow that is not based on scarcity, lack, fear and what the media gets you to buy into. THEY ALL ARE LYING TO YOU. If you are watching anything that has millions or billions of dollars to promote itself, it is a LIE that you are buying into, and probably hurting your future because of it.
So, disconnect from all the fragmentation of the internet and scrolling and see that something more creative based is there waiting for you to give your heart and soul to. AND this will feel good. With the current energy, the moment you say YES to the good things for you, your nervous system calms and some other reality will start to play out. Kind of like when you put on headphones and you suddenly are in this other thing. THAT is available to us all right now. And this is reason for us all to yell out, HELL YEAH!
Now get to celebrating growing the crops of your dreams. Make this a dream you are walking into, no matter if right now you are in the nightmare.
What goes down
Must come up.
Hit your bottom
And shoot to your top.
You got places to be.
moon journey: Taurus + Gemini
moon phase: bring it forward
numerology vibration: 1 2 3
M O N D A Y 7 september |
OKAY THEN!! Today brings a shift of the most epic and where you do not want to miss out on this!! DO NOT engage in any conversations or emails with people who you know are ready to blow or where you will come at sharp and uncomfortable angles. It IS okay to walk away.
It may feel like everyone you don’t want to see is who you see because there IS a test to the day in bringing you friction so that you can make the choice of taking the higher road and honoring your own space by removing yourself from what YOU KNOW is Russian roulette. At this time that gun is fully loaded so you DO NOT WANT TO GO THERE. And seriously, just know that it IS the test today to see if you will open Door B when you DO feel uneasy in your body at the THOUGHT of opening it. Listen to your body.
If you can get around the land mines, that seem to be there to keep you from getting to the prize, then you CAN actually step into something where you are back again and doing it from another angle where you have learned to be better or to not go there, realizing THAT is just your ego needing to get its way. What we learn this week is that getting our way can often mean we end up in more pain. Because “getting our way” comes from this old world mentality that has us pushing and forcing when we really should wait and surrender.
Today you are to expect things to go slow, but then they will thrust forward when you do receive what is waiting for you to tune into. This likely will come as a thought that comes out of nowhere or where you just suddenly get filled up with energy seeing that you CAN DO THIS!! We are to be creative at this time and really thinking about a new plan that will showcase our creative gifts or provide an opportunity for us to do what we love.
You are to play in the soil of your imagination as you feel out WHAT you are good at and what comes natural to you, while not plucking it out like a weed thinking there is not a way to make money from it. From our creative spaces we are finding the way!! But this all is new, so you can't really figure it out until it lands on you and plants you with this new seed. Trust that something pops awake – but it needs the safe space of a healthy plot of land to arrive in. It may not be able to break on through if you have placed cement over your garden through others drama flooding your visions for a better day.
See that you are valuable and create a space that welcomes the new arriving to ground you in a better way. Today you should find purpose in why you are here EVEN IF you still don’t have all the answers. That’s okay! Just feel that you do have a home here and you WILL figure out a way to sustain what you need to keep you grounded and secure. Building a new house takes some time, but it most definitely will be worth it when you finally get to sleep your first night. Plan this journey and get to the step by step, with integrity and high value every thought of creation.
Plan this journey
And get to the step by step,
With integrity and high value
Every thought of creation.
You got it in you to make this better.
Decide with your beautiful future in mind.
S U N D A Y 6 september |
Okay loves. Realize that people are losing it as they face their realities crumble and stability possibly gone. BUT this time is 100% as it should be as we shift into New Earth – where many of you are already residing. There is an available space for us to vibe into that keeps us manifesting opportunities and beauty and love that we will see grow before our eyes.
What is birthing is the most powerful thing that Earth has witnessed with humans reaching a new reality in what they can create. BUT. The majority of humans will not reach this state as it is only for the Aquarius Nation of humans who incarnated now to bring through and hold a more powerful manifesting ability. You literally are superhuman. And YOU are the Aquarius Nation if you ever find me – even if you can't stand the sight of me, if you find me and are fixated, you are this other kind of special human. So, don’t even question if you are; of course you are, my love.
And over the next two days you are to shift and awaken to this special thing where you suddenly snap out of a fog and start paying 100% attention to how you are using your mind and holding a space for what you really do think is going on in the world and with you own personal potential.
If you really hold fear, you are going to next go down a slippery slide, as your powerful essence will quickly manifest your demise. BUT!! If you fall and end up all a mess, you HAVE to learn something from this position. Remember that I was in the gutter from ages 28 to 38, with almost no stability, with NEVER more than $5 to my name. I would walk a few blocks down to Farmer Joe’s in Oakland and get tofu, lettuce and potatoes and live on $25 a week for food.
And I can tell you that absolutely I did NOT know how I was going to get through it and was in so much fear because I couldn’t figure out the way to make money and be stable. I got fired from almost every job!! I was CONSTANTLY getting a minute of stability and then I would go back to the edge of the cliff again. It was like walking on water and constantly sinking into where I so wanted to get out of.
But what I know now is that living at the edge of the cliff is WHERE WE HAVE TO BE to learn certain lessons in life. And as I told you, in 2020 all of our insides are suddenly clear as day and life is manifesting according to WHO WE REALLY ARE INSIDE. And look at what 2020 is!! An absolute dysfunctional shitstorm. And one that ultimately also resides inside all of us on a collective level.
So to heal all that, we have to heal and deal with what we are doing with our energy, with our thoughts, with our attention, our intentions and all the secret and downlow ways we ACTUALLY are being evil with things where we feel our ego is superior and righteous in doing such things.
If your life is magical right now, then you have done amazing work on yourself and now you get to live the dream unfolding as things will change as dramatically as when baby is finally born, and in your arms, and no longer just in belly.
If your life is NOT magical and it is like it was for me at ages 28 to 38, then you need to look at yourself hardcore – and keep it real as if this is your final hour. It IS now or never. Get up. And go high with it. You have to soften, to become kinder, to NOT be so reactive, to NOT think it is your way or the highway, to NOT push others because you feel pushed by life.
You are to surrender into your roller coaster journey and find the ways to clean your mind so that you ARE surrendering and trusting that The Higher Power knows what you need and what is best for your development – like how I learned all the wisdom I get to share with you now WHEN I was 28 to 38. THAT WAS MY SCHOOLING!!!!!
So don’t judge where YOU are being schooled. Just wake up and be the best student you can be. IT GETS BETTER IF YOU DO. It gets worse if you don’t, though. You are creating the lesson plans you are to next learn from.
And go high with it.
Humble & soft is hot.
Aggressive & dominant is snot.
S A T U R D A Y 5 september |
Good morning baby!! So, you really need to do something different today and to step into where you feel called to get up and go. Something real big is changing with how we assert ourselves and with how we are seeing a world unfold that seems to match our intentions and beliefs. FOR SURE we are noticing that what we put out there is what we most certainly are getting back – and quickly on a day like today.
I’ve been telling you about some changes I’ve been going through, but this relates to how I have been quick to bow down and to apologize or to be like I am in their way – and they are NOT in my way. And today I was out walking with dog and noticed how sweet it feels to be able to hold that position and to quickly go into FRIEND, PEACE, I MEAN NO HARM and to verbalize that and see how others then so quickly go into the same mode. When one of us softens, the other softens right along. And you can see how giddy they feel to be approached in a way that is not dominant and get out of my way. It's nice to be treated with respect and consideration and YOU first.
The patriarchy is about me first. The matriarchy is about we first, or YOU after I have filled up with me, but YOU and US and WE as the priority. The group mentality is waking in us where we really want to join in community and see that we are filling others with good vibes to the point they want to be a better person and live a better life. This new energy is getting us to look out and notice who needs us to show up for them.
I will be talking about it in a video, but with where we are now, WE ALL have to help people who are just behind us in line. So, like if you are at poverty, you will help someone who has it worse than you or who is living on the streets. And if you are in luxury, you will help as many as you can who are behind you. We all are to turn back and see who we can help, even if it is with the little that we have. It matters right now!!! It matters that we show others a softer version and something where we are looking at them like a baby and giving them attention and not coming as a threat and something to fight over.
Walk blindly today in that you just go to where you feel called but where you don’t focus on the future or another moment in time. Be in the moment and just DO because we are making far out connections and being rewarded for the good that we do. So, start being a better person today. Don’t go out into the world worrying about your future. Go out noticing the trees and architecture and birds singing. See that there is a way, give when you feel called and trust this moment as you birth into a new space where something with your love nature is starting over and your words are starting to sing of glass half full feelings that ARE coming true. Be in this energy and consciously see that magic is here as something is showing you that your new day is near. Dream like you need the money.
Like you need the money.
Call this magic your way.
F R I D A Y 4 september |
Oh babies! We got a big warning day where you can plan on getting hit by something that another person possibly unknowingly brings, but it will either take you to something real low where you feel like the ultimate loser OR it will take you to something real solid and grounding that sets you into KNOWING you are doing something your way and it WILL work out.
So, you either deflate or you soar. And IF you deflate, you actually can get out of it really quickly today by just using words to affirm your worth to self. Be like the good parent and show your child how better to think. You are NOT a loser. You are a work in progress. So don’t lose hope, and just know that the point is that the Great Mystery is asking you to stand up for yourself and to choose for you and to see that even if you can't find the way just yet, that you do trust it is out there as something from within moves you to keep on dreaming for it.
We are to look into something mysterious and to KNOW that our bodies, our intuition, our feelings are giving us these signs because we need to apply discipline and energy towards the rebuild of something that will bring us happiness. But we can't just escape into lazy-land and not do anything to get what we want. The old world wants you to lose steam and to buy into the illusion that you have no right to exist and your gifts are non-existent, ACTUALLY. The illusion wants you selling out and falling short and giving up on the discipline of drawing your dreams near.
But at this time the feelings inside of you are showing that there is a way to live life as an artist and to create something better than there has been before! Inside ALL OF US the seeds are planted for some dream life – and now it's just on seeing who is going to keep with it and not give up, and who is going to listen to others who are ruled by propaganda and fear and will fall to the wayside where things stay in the past where things only decline. So clearly, if others aren’t talking about positive views and are only slamming things in a negative way or are dividing things where OTHERS are all bad or the OTHER team or the OTHER side, like, get out of there!
You are creating a better future where life feels good in your body and the MAJORITY of humans out there are negative to the core and hateful because they feel like life has cheated them and they have had it hard because of others. WE ALL HAVE HAD IT HARD as life IS hard. But it is how you digest it and handle it that matters. Where there is hate and division you are being programmed and manipulated and WILL be kept from your dreams. Because the better life you wish for finds you based on your vibration from within. And if you are full of anger and hate then you can't be allowed in.
When you change, the world changes around you. This is 100% true. Go test it out. Because you are worth better, and God is not about hate and doesn’t want us staying focused in life where we are always right and someone is always less than us or a problem where we are the authority on what they should be doing.
We can stay focused on tailgating the person in front of us as we drive through the mountains on vacation. We can stay bitter that how dare they interrupt my plans by going slower than I wanted to. We can only look at the back of their car, their head, the license plate from another state, and boil with anger over how much you hate them and hate that they are in your way.
OR, you can BE a higher person and pull back, adjust your speed, and look at the beautiful mountains you are driving through!!!! Look at the big picture of where you are and stop staying addicted to misery and nasty people talking non-stop about how nasty everyone else is. See who really is love because what they are inside is what pours out of their mouth. And THAT is reality speaking.
You are NOT a loser.
You are a work in progress
With a future that is going to be the best.
Don’t give up when you are so close to it!
To give up today
is to plant seeds of regret into your future.
T H U R S D A Y 3 september |
Okay loves!!! BE AWARE – and notice how we have used those words so much in the past readings. It is all about staying heads up in these rough and wild waters so as to not be taken down by what abounds. Today people are way too talkative about how much of their world they feel is out of their control. It can be like everyone is talking in real negative ways and where there are floods of energy that is palpable and can almost fool you into thinking THEY are correct and you, holding to some beautiful dream, are just foolish and need to convert to their wise and all-knowing ways.
But do not be fooled!! The illusion is thick today and it comes in an energy that does not feel good. This is your body warning you that this person or this idea or this road or this thing is just not good enough for you. But it will come like sludge and it will try to suck you in and see if you can be taken away too – just as THEY are.
So, we must stand our grounds and step back from the ocean waves if we do not want them to soak our feet. We have that control!!! But you will be tested to see if you remember how to step back and save yourself and honor that you don’t need to waste you day messing around with wet feet. You deserve something better. And if stepping back pisses them off – so be it. At least you don’t waste your day to feet soaked and miserable thinking how you WISHED you would have stepped back and done what your body and heart were telling you.
So, heed this warning and take this message seriously. You must DO SOMETHING today and it deals with doing it in a different way but where you are working to see the positive in others, or working to see that even if this moment will cause something more stressful, that it WILL bring good results when it heals again. So don’t let things take you into despair! See that the cure is there and that you just need to seek for the glass half full and to see that something is coming together to bring healing to a situation.
But you HAVE to hold the space for this as you pray and meditate and get out into nature to see that there IS something to this and you CAN trust and believe in a beautiful and magnificent future to come. Be a pioneer and lean into the healed way from what is now fractured and exposing things that CAN feel scary to see. Just don’t escape to the point you check out as a way to buffer others, which ultimately is buying into their drama and having it steal your day. So be PRESENT and face things head on but don’t back down if it doesn’t good in your body. Like, for 100%, don’t compromise today. EVEN IF it is unthinkable that you would change your focus. Still, DO IT anyway.
Listen to your body
To be leading
Your mouth to speak.
EXPECT to stand up
For what you feel inside.
Your feelings matter.
W E D N E S D A Y 2 september |
Oh hello Full Moon in Pisces! We cover two days with this moon because Pisces is mutable and always on the change! When we see Pisces come through first off know that you will be tired last night and up with lots of things that hooked you in and kept you from falling asleep. This energy will tend to put you in a bit of a zoned space so that you can fully surrender -- and see that it is for your good. So, to feel sleepy today is 100% expected. But see that it has a higher motive in getting you a bit out of it so that you can hear something or fall into some meditative space where you DO connect something that brings you to the other side -- where you can let go of what has been keeping you hidden from the good life.
There is something in you that will need to be revealed and this time is when you have to follow those feelings that are showing you that you can't keep this on the downlow or you can’t deny what feels SO STRONGLY to you inside. BE AWARE that others are going to try to manipulate you into staying hidden, as if swatting you back in line. So just be aware that forces may come that try to take you down with their high drama waves, but still this energy wants you sticking to your own guns and not letting go to what you feel you must do or say or go for. Be aware of others wanting to get in your lane and mess up your plans – so watch for them coming and leap into another space to keep them at bay. Don’t answer the phone or look at any emails from people who you suspect could trigger you -- but even more so, your body will speak to you, so if you feel like, oh I know I shouldn’t open that text – THEN DON’T.
It's just a test today and if you listen to your gut, you 100% will have an amazing day where you are more inspired than you have been in years. You either walk into a dream or a nightmare at this time – and your body leads to the dream. For some reason it can feel like others are trying to sabotage you or your high feelings about life. But expect the polar opposite view to this day because we are DONE with the old world and to see others wanting us to stay in the down spaces is to be expected as people ARE programmed to be jealous of others and to want to pull them down to lower levels. We were NOT raised to encourage others to thrive – and today we see that, and it should inspire a correction in you. This needs to be healed. We have to talk about this, and we have to feel in order to heal.
Something with a better way to run your life shows up around this day. But it comes when you are already in stillness and checked out a bit from the uncontrollable aspects of the media as they are trying to get you to dance to another beat. Turn off the internet and hit the forest or the ocean waves. The answer is out there, and it is NOT coming from a person with a heartbeat who thinks they know best for you. Listen to the tree, not the media man made human.
FULL MOON IN PISCES
I allow my body to guide my journey
Where I work to heal
What is fractured from the old world
Forcing a programmed system upon me
That keeps me small and following along,
Over the cliff into a sea of wrong.
I walk with faith
And listen closely
To what is inspired from within
And not pounded into me by others
Trying to prove that they know what is best for me.
I don’t walk alone, but I don’t have other humans
Defining my way home.
I walk with Spirit inside me.
T U E S D A Y 1 september |
Oh hello SEPTEMBER & the Full Moon in Pisces! Oh moon!!!!!! We love when you go full in Pisces and when you get us opening to ways we have been following along and hiding behind how it has been done – pushing aside the feelings that vibe things that often confuse us with their conflict of interest in how we have been taught to believe.
We love when you go full in Pisces and when you awaken us to that which causes us to feel – and to notice that things DO NOT FEEL OKAY right now. We love how you get us noticing what our bodies are telling us as we suddenly feel intuitive about how wrong things are that come at us trying to preach that they are The One Right, The Only One, The Only God, The Only Way.
At this time your road is to part in some way where you are listening to your heart and how it is inspiring you to take a leap into the mystery and to trust that your feelings are guiding you to somewhere better – even if the journey is up and down and on the change every few steps you take. It can feel like the ground is moving and you really don’t know where you are going or what this is for or what you need to do – BUT at this time we are learning that we CAN have faith that things will work out, and we CAN hold our attention on glass half full, seeing that we ARE eventually going to get to where we need to be.
But be aware that the warning comes where you can get lazy, as Pisces can be lazy to a fault, letting the good life pass you by because you don’t exert discipline over time. I am a Pisces so I can slam you with that truth, but I also am dedicated to helping all of us be more focused and disciplined so that we can attract the dream lives, like what I feel I have now with my new home and new environment – where I have NEVER felt more in love, comfortable, supported and like this 100% is where I was always supposed to get to. But where I landed was planted in me years ago with curiosity, but when the person who was stalking me started showing up late at night to terrorize me in my safe space, I started seeing visions and had strong feelings about checking out the area I now am honored to call my home.
So understand that even if you are stuck or not where you want to be, YOU ARE getting insight into where you NEED to be and where you need to use your voice and speak up about how change needs to occur to get you to something you just FEEL is where you need to be or what you need to be doing. This may relate to a career move or romantic or foundational, but it's about bringing things into a better working order through sacrificing something where you WERE just doing what you were expected to do. It is time to come out of the programming lines and to see that what you feel you can have, that maybe others have taunted as make believe and you need to get over that, is actually WHERE you need to shoot your arrow and stay focused in seeing that your body is smarter than any other human who is trying to convince you of how things need to be done or how right THEY are.
FOR SURE things come at us at this time that are wrong to the core – but we only land into safe spaces if we honor when our body says NO when others try to convince us of their YES. You will need to use your voice and to go for what you feel but that may not have any proof just yet. Be okay feeling a bit nervous and unsure – but listen to your body and heart, and you are 100% safe at this time. You need to see that there is a higher plan going on and there is support that assists even outside the realm of dollars and stocks and corporations having all the control. THERE IS a higher order to things and your vote matters most. So listen to you, do what it tells you to do, and EXPECT others to try to get you to turn back and come their old world limited way. EXPECT to have to face a conflict within where you feel one thing while others preach of another. ONLY LISTEN TO WHAT YOU FEEL.
FULL MOON IN PISCES
Only listen to what you feel.
You are the real deal.
Others will try to get you to oblige
And to follow along as it has been done.
But inside you feel something different.
So, follow the feelings,
With deep faith that you WILL rise into
A sweeter space that values
The person you are becoming,
Who is full of love and grace.
We all can transform.
We are here to grow better.
Show them it can be done.