M O N D A Y 31 august |  
 
WOW! Something flashed open and it is revealing our new way of living or something new that we know we need. This will bring an undeniable shift where both eyes will suddenly be open. You have probably noticed that there have been lots of cars on the road with one light burnt out, which was symbolizing how we aren’t totally awake and fully here yet in 2020. But that changes today or tomorrow. This energy showed itself as the other light finally coming back on and thus giving us full vision of what is in front of us, which we have not had yet this year. 
 
With things suddenly turning on again, we are waking up to seeing how we DO have so much power and it all is in how we dance with others, and how we come at them ready to fight – thus getting more of that -- OR, we come with love and in ways where we hold the space for a solution to come to make things better, even if we have no idea at all how to make that be. We are waking at this time and things are connecting with bolts of lightning that show us that WE ARE THE ONES IN CONTROL. 
 
Things are to be manifesting quickly where you think something, or about someone, and then it comes to you. This is to keep you at this and moving towards seeking for the solution instead of staying stuck in the problem and planting more problematic seeds to have to eat and deal with. You are planting what you will eat – and others will often blow wind into your field, that does change things, but it is on you to correct them in how you need them to be again and NOT stay fixated on being mad that they blew wind your way. Think about that. 
 
You also need to keep a pen nearby because ideas will come, and they are what you have been waiting for. This deals with answers or solutions, likely related to business or career goals, and these are the shortcuts or what you need to do to take things next level. So be aware, and stoked that things come to bring clarity and to show you the better way. 
 
But this was all about timing and you had to wait for the right time that is not your manmade mental space timeline. But when your dream does arrive, nothing else feels wrong again. We are receiving things that spark us alive because we have been fixated too much on the problem and forgetting that we are here to hold space and to expand into the new Earth that is on the rise. We are not to wait for this; we are to meet this through holding the vibration of love and kindness and acceptance and forgiveness and compassion and all the things we have been forced to discover through losing it all. 
 
If not for the heartbreak you would not be reaching for the things you are today. So, allow your mind to just surrender into not knowing how this correction will take form, but knowing it will take a better form. The past is gone. Learn from it, see for a better solution and carry on until you find your new home. 
 
 
 
Hold the space for what you really DO want.
Release the focus on what you do not want. 
Seriously.
You have dreamed enough of it into your reality. 
You deserve a new day. 
 

S U N D A Y 30 august |  
 
Good morning sweet loves! So. Today is different. You are going to feel like you are seeing things different but in a way like you haven’t seen things before. Something is coming as colorful and where our hearts are speaking up and making strong things known, recognizing that we DO want this other sort of life. 
 
You may even go through some sort of quick cycle that takes place over even just 20 minutes where you cry for the death of one person, and then another, and then another and then another. You may just go from one sad thing to another and the tears will flow. If you are listening to a song and it triggers the tears, put it on repeat!!!! You need to take advantage of this energy as much as you can. It is 100% true that crying out tears heals you. And if you don’t cry you are blocked in all ways. Tears need to be the norm – and many of you will need to reboot that because of it being programmed in you that tears are a weakness. We really were programmed in all ways to go at a bias to what we really need to think and believe. So, when you feel sad or low – go there deeper!!! Go full on and let your body express something. 
 
Now. EVERYTHING is about how you are communicating and holding the space in your mind for something better to manifest as your reality. So, stay aware that illusion can fool you into thinking old world things, but your body is ready to upgrade into a life where you are enjoying the daily, even as we rebuild and go through decades of getting things better. 
 
See that it all is a con job to keep you negative and holding no hope and hating on one another. GOD is LOVE – and the truth is inclusive and seeking for the coming together and the rise of things. So, question all that is not love – because hate has a lot of money to promote and market itself and put itself in your face so that you think it is love. Cognitive dissonance is real. We can be manipulated – and we have been manipulated all along. To think we suddenly are not when we follow something that is mainstream or “alternative” – as opposed to alternative and underground, which would never wear a tie – is going from one manipulation to another. 
 
Something is to liberate you at this time where light breaks through and you suddenly see your way out. This likely will be a psychological thing where you couldn’t let go of something but now you will see you have, or you now understand something from a bigger perspective or shift within your system. At this time, we get some sort of reboot to where we look with smarter eyes and with strong needs from within where we are ready to stand firm in what we believe in.
 
You may feel like your eyes are suddenly at 20/20 where you can see how it is a waste of your time to go low in trying to show people how low you think they are. Let it go! We are to pull towards people who are our kind of peoples – OR, we are to start showing ourselves as more neutral and not so reactive or provocative around others to the point we feel they ARE NOT our kind of peoples. 
 
It’s fun to just go into places you don’t go to anymore but to act like you totally fit in and are enjoying every minute of this. We don’t actually have to show ourselves as elite and better than and YOU ALL are not good enough for me. And when we do, when we show ourselves as real and humble, we see that people ARE beautiful, they just are maybe watching the wrong news, and that doesn’t have to be our concern with them, just as we are not concerned with how they design their living rooms. So, let it go. Choose higher for yourself.  
 
 
Let it go. 
Choose higher for yourself.  
 

​S A T U R D A Y 29 august |  
 
Okay loves. Many of you are tired and totally fed up. BUT. Keep with this. You are going to see hella progress over the next few days where you start to notice big shifts that change the positioning to the point you are looking in a new direction. But right now, it is like you are still driving up the mountain and have not yet reached the big expansive, open lands that will inspire you to see that you ARE getting somewhere. 
 
It's important that you are watching your words and making sure you are focusing on speaking in ways that plant seeds for the potential rebuild, and not in a nit-picky way where all you can see is what is wrong, which then just makes things worse. If you go glass half empty around this day, you can really find yourself feeling like life is worth nothing and you might as well kill yourself and be done with it. So, do what you can to just steer things into surrendering at this point while you still stay focused on where you want to be. 
 
Things start to connect at this time, but for many of you there first comes something that frazzles you and has you going in circles because you just can't figure this out. Take some deep breathes and stop yourself because you are operating through the old way, and you are to create the new way from the inspiration of how WRONG the old way is, and NOT take the old and try to work it into the new that is rising now. 
 
Think about that because the old world is tempting you to pack it along too for your vacation and to keep it in your body where you are still thinking in scarce and limiting ways. Just because caves are dark and can last for years doesn’t mean they are negative things. I keep meeting people who have lost it all and gained it again and lost it again and gained it again and maybe even lost it again. And they speak of losing soul mates to death or losing all their money or losing what they thought they could never live without. 
 
And each one that I have met are very happy go lucky now as they have stated that through each hard challenge in life things ended up getting easier to process and handle, but also it ushered in gratitude with each new gain into the black or into stability or security. Now that I am not living in fear for my safety, as I was since February, I walk each moment with full inhales and exhales as I take in the essence of all moments of the amazing life I now am living. I have NEVER loved a home like the one I have now – nothing has been THIS warm, supportive and cozy – and this came right after one of the worst living experiences of my life.  
 
So, keep with the work and get ready to see something collide in a beautiful way that gets you stoked to want to plan for more upgrades or solutions to what needs to be put into a better position. Don’t look at things as broken forever, use their flaws to inspire your mind to visualize something divine. You are in a space that is to inspire you to want to get back into the dream of your future – but it sits side by side with where your past let you down and where you TOO may still be giving focus that is keeping your car steering you into situations that match where you are giving your attention.  So, think about how you ARE going to find the way and open to the synchronicity blasting you with something beautiful that inspires you to keep with it. Something is on the way. 
 
 
 
Don’t look at things as broken forever, 
use their flaws to inspire your mind 
to visualize something divine
and hella better. 
You can do this. 
 

F R I D A Y 28 august |  
 
OKAY THEN. The energy of yesterday continues and it goes a level higher with intensity. You may feel at breaking point or where something just has to give – and it will, so be patient with this next sensitive space. 
 
Now do be aware that you are likely going to say too much or express something that you later regret. Your ego may get hit and it can have you saying things that you don’t really mean. Just apologize and the slate will be wiped clean. It's not that big of a deal. The test is on you being a bigger person and making things right after you possibly make them worse. 
 
And in this energy people are being outwardly mean to others but it relates to this totally other thing. Like, you are frustrated over something controlling you, so you are lashing out and beating into or trying to hurt others or anything that is in your way. You may grow fixated on a target – but your target is innocent, and something else deeper inside of you is fueling this outward motion that is clearly about anger over how things are and how they aren’t moving as you had planned. Just like when you are looking for a home or a job and you keep checking craigslist every few minutes and how each time you come up with nothing you get mad. 
 
Look at those ways that you are expressing!! They need to upgrade. You need to train yourself like with a new puppy and stop getting mad when you don’t get your way. To think you are not getting your way is to not have faith in your place in the world. Remember that we are billions of people -- and we all connect and affect each other. Sometimes others need to get their way first so that we can then get ours. Things may have to happen in front of us before they can happen for us and then for others behind us. 
 
We all truly just wait in line, together, and when we wait with hate we tend to have a life that doesn’t feel that good to actually walk. When we wait with patience and are kind, we have the best life available to us. But again – we were programmed to get mad when we don’t get our way because we were taught there is not enough to go around and you have to fight for what you want. 
 
So, to our brains when we don’t get, we think another person getting is WHY we don’t get. – So, we seek to beat into what gets what we think, from a mental perspective, is ours to possess. But really, is that the best? Is this thing what would put us in the best position down the road? Is it really? I mean the past few years have been a total surprise, so do we really even know what is for the best? 
 
Try to see with different eyes today and rebuild with a new sort of determination to remain glass half full even when things look glass half empty. Just because this slice of life looks like it does today doesn’t mean it will always be that way. We know this. Just stick with a plan and focus on getting closer to the goal. Don’t worry if it rains for 10 days straight, which may ruin your new crops, just keep doing the details and build from a more solid foundation that feels like something you can grow into. 
 
See where you want to be and do NOT get down at this time with the hard work getting you there. You will get to celebrate when you get to the top of the mountain. So, keep doing the work and stay with all that needs your attention. It's not going to be hard forever. But hard work pays off in this energy. 
 
 
It's not going to be hard forever. 
But hard work pays off in this energy.
So, get to it. 
And do it like you know
The results are going to be divine. 
 

T H U R S D A Y 27 august |  
 
Oh wow! We have been waiting for this day and the energy that comes through!! New vibrations are in our environment that will be affecting the wool being pulled away from our eyes where we are seeing much clearer into what we have done, what we have agreed to and what we walked that now we feel total shame or embarrassment or sadness that we weren’t more conscious with times in our past. 
 
BUT --- to get to that higher perspective, we have to walk some journey that triggers us awake and that gets us humbled or down and out so that we do finally ask for help or surrender at the lowest points. It is not bad to be in the gutter!!!!! As I always tell you, I was in the gutter from 28 to 38 (and was in the highest point of my life from 24 to 28) and even though I was SOO frustrated having to suffer with not more than $5 to my name at all times and where I was always getting fired or just couldn’t stay in any jobs. But. The person that I am now and the unique way I share was because of that time from being in the gutter. I am not anything intellectualized and just sharing what I read or heard. I walked ALL OF THIS.
 
Recently this person asked what astrology move I was talking about in this energy update I was sharing. And the thing is that I don’t look at the chart to find things to tell you -- I FEEL things happening or my guides come through and will tell me that you all need this certain message. They then make me feel all the things all at once, and then I share the post – and go on my way. 
 
But it was the gutter that taught me to get out of the mind with astrology and to try FEELING IT instead. And then years later I started to try it out in doing the readings without looking at the chart at all, and only at the end looking at it -- and I nailed it EVERY SINGLE TIME. I don’t need to look at the data. I can feel it first. Data is just the un-existential confirmation for me. Feeling it is the existential getting my attention to go deeper.  
 
So see into the higher reasons you have had to walk the journey you know – with the pieces that are on your mind – and look to how they are something that now makes you wiser than others and more skilled to be a authority in life. Think about a mountain guide who only read about the journey versus the one who has traveled it often. This stuff matters more than we want to THINK. – but it is everything – it IS the missing link.
 
This current energy will shine the light into the illusion you have bought into that keeps you looking at a gift in a negative way, and thus shooting yourself in the foot. Something in you is confused as to how you SHOULD be treated and when you make this shift you will see you needed the chapters in order to complete this epic journey of a novel you got planned. At this point you are to be waking to your power and seeing that if you can believe it, you can achieve it. But if you don’t believe it, you won't get to hold it. 
 
Think about free education for all. It is a genius idea and it is what good parents would want. So, countries that do this DO actually care for the citizens and want them to be their best. But just because it is free doesn’t mean everyone will go!!!! That is the big thing. You have all these nature things that are free around you, even education things, but you don’t exert the energy, or you just wish for something else to appear. But it was there. And free education would still mean most people wouldn’t go – because people have been programmed to be lazy – to love TV, toxic fast food and things full of non-tested chemical fragrances.  
 
But to have it available is a beautiful thing. And you TOO have free dreams that you COULD be living if only you see that what destroyed you was to groom you into an authority where you DO know best. Trust your process. 
 
 
 
What destroyed you 
Was to groom you into 
An authority where you 
DO know best. 
Trust your process.
It gets better. 

W E D N E S D A Y 26 august |  
 
Be aware that people are going to be sensitive in different kinds of ways today. Something comes at an awkward angle and it hits us where we aren’t expecting to be hit. It may also be that you thought you weren’t fazed by things like this anymore, so it's kind of a letdown to go there again with yourself. 
 
There is something to this and it deals with an old pattern where you ARE holding the energy still – and you need to see how it is controlling the potential for expansiveness in your future. And if you are sucking life out of the potential through ACTUALLY believing maybe you DON’T got it in you to succeed, then you are pulling the blinds on what you could be looking at and potentially walking into.
 
And listen here because we all have our wounds and we all lean into wanting to batter ourselves for not being good enough or not making the best decisions – but you have to understand that your life was orchestrated in the same way the full and new moons and all the wild cosmic dances occur 100% on time. Just as often a season will shift into its first day and on that day the leaves start turning colors or they start budding. 
 
Things are eloquently put together, even though they are all the shades of life combined. NONE OF US get it all good. NONE OF US get to escape heartbreak and death and being the loser and devastation. We all get pieces of the pie at times in our life. 
 
So, we need to ground ourselves in knowing the storms sometimes come – but they never ever stay around forever. They just don’t. AND just because things go black doesn’t mean it's so bad. THIS is what we are learning this month – we learn how to interpret differently so that we aren’t always taking ourselves to glass half empty, and therefore having to manifest what it is when you believe in scarcity and there not being enough to go around. 
 
This month we see that when we do seek for glass half full, we find things better than we expected. So, make today a day you test the waters and just see how seeking for the best and being patient with the rest will help you feel a shift today to the point you ARE feeling more hopeful about your future. When inspiration hits, a new day takes form – and you need the surprise of the hit in order to wake you from complacency. We would be lazy if not for all the ripples in life. Live for another day.  It gets better. 
 
 
Seek for the best 
And be patient with the rest. 
This is how you shift today.
It gets better. 
 

T U E S D A Y 25 august |  
 
This is such a big day. So, be aware that you will not be able to stay out of the line of fire. Something WILL get to you and will cause you to be fixated into something that makes you wonder or gets you buying into something scarcity based and where you will think there is not a way. 
 
BUT. On this day all you have to do is keep looking to the high road and look to the farthest place your eyes can hit and allow them to be open to something beyond this moment right now. The road divides today where some of you are going to stay fixated into something you can't control and it will keep you spiraling on that for a few days to come, maybe even up to 10 days. 
 
But what we are to do is release our hold and our fixated focus on what is wrong and how upset we are over it so that we can start breathing life into unknown spaces that DO offer the solution we could never have imagined. Today you will feel a big shift where you feel like things are coming together and moving along. You are to go on what you feel needs your attention and do not get held back by others who want to take the safe route and to play it like how it's been done before.
 
The land you are to go into is where you make peace with life, and in such a way of surrender that you then open a whole other way to be in the flow with how it also can be on Earth. Things are cleaning up with the energy, and it's hard to explain but it really is like an air or water purifier that just does this kind of magical thing that we can't see. Something is cleaning us, as if we are under the faucet, and it will make it easier for us to see clearly and to not stay in things that fixate us into dysfunction, and always away from the dream we keep thinking we can manifest. 
 
We are to grow and go out there right now and it means we need the fuel of something to inspire us to leap. So, keep your eyes on the farthest point and wait like I would do sitting in my foyer when I was kid, waiting for my dad to come pick me up for a visit, which he would say he would do but he only showed up about 5% of the time. 
 
And I NEVER stopped waiting on the bench, and would sit there for hours, with my eyes on the driveway -- where I would sit with hope every single time. It’s sad to think about now, but honestly I knew it was a gamble because he had not shown so many times before, but every opportunity to sit there and hope that my daddy, who DID love me more than life, MAYBE would be there this time, was enough so that I sat with hope 100% of the time and for like 3 hours past the time he said he would get there. If he said noon, that bench would get me until 3pm at least. 
 
But, yes, he averaged 5%. I rarely got what I wanted. --- But when I did!!!!!! And THAT is what you all need to think about. We may lose out A LOT of the time. We may be the ones who see everyone else win and only 5% of the time does the bonus come our way. But, whatever!!! THAT IT COMES is where your focus needs to be – because we need to get you out of a rut, and it's a rut you created from thinking you don’t have a reason to be and there isn’t a place for you to share your expressions or truth. Don’t see that there is not a way because there so often has not been before. Create new, look to the future, hope with all your might and just wait for it – because you ARE about to land into something sweet – and you deserve this new thing. 
 
 
Find a prize 
And keep your eyes locked,
Expecting to accomplish,
Even if not until 99 losses.
 
 

M O N D A Y 24 august |  
 
Good morning sweet beauties! Today ushers in an energy shift where you will feel a new sort of dedication and passion towards something where you feel like you can concentrate again or really see what you need to see. This energy feels like aging, and how it is the greatest gift to your mind – because as you get older, you think stronger, and what got you to collapse in earlier years will be something you get over in a blink as you get older. Things don’t matter and things DO matter in different ways as you get older. 
 
Today we are in some space where we get it or we see it or know what we need to do. You may at first take a battering on yourself and still question your timing in thinking you are getting something wrong or you can't count on something good in the future. Expect to feel self-conscious or to doubt that a vision can come true. 
 
But also honor that this is just a dip in the road getting you to clarify again what you DO want to do. It's like when someone dies and how it gets other people to want to wake up and live more. It is not pleasant, but it elevates lives. Without death we wouldn’t go for our big dreams. But the cycle getting us from the crash to the elevated space is to take a peculiar journey. 
 
As I told you when Moon Bear died, it took me one year to stop crying every day. On 12.30.20 it will be 5 years since I lost her, and I only had her for 4 years of her 5 years of life. And honestly, I STILL do not have my shit together from losing her. I still am in the mode of trying to fix what got messed up when I lost my Moonie and lost my grip – and lost all that I built. But you know what, I do not think my journey is a mistake. I would rather it have gone a million other ways, but even as I still crawl along, behind on all schedules, barely hanging on and I still see that I am getting closer to my goals every day. 
 
I still see that I am learning so much and realizing what is really important about life. I still see that there is something to this, and months or years from now I will be in a better position so that I am finally up to date and keeping up on my position in this field. I haven’t been able to show up for my job in 5 years from having my heart so severely broken. But still, every day I am getting closer to my dream and farther away from the chaos of what exploded things into bits and pieces to be healed back into place. 
 
And so are we with this pandemic in our lives. And maybe we too will cry daily for a year and not get things back to norm for 5 years, but SO BE IT. We cannot control what befalls our path, but we must trust the journey in how it builds us into better humans. I WISH I could have started my business days with the way my mind and body and ego feel now. Instead I will have to make it a 2nd return, but who I am now is only because of all the challenges from the past 5 years. So, it was not a mistake, and neither were all the things taking you into the gutter and into the negative spaces and into the throes of viscous life circumstances. It all is a part of your song. Sing it low when it goes there but sing it loud and high because that too is always to arrive. 
 
 
 
Trust your life.
It all is a part of your song. 
Sing it low when it goes there, 
but sing it loud and high because that too 
is always to arrive.
 
​

S U N D A Y 23 august |  
 
We have a big warning day that will lead to an energy that sits on top of your life for a few days. So, HEADS UP – you are the creator starting today and what you say yes to is what you will get more of. There are huge tests trying to keep you from growing and getting better – but this really can be seen as tests seeing if you are ready to stand up for the life you WANT to be living. 
 
If things feel hard it's only a test to see how you handle it and not anything for you to get super worked up over. We are to think like the detective and to go into problems with a willingness to uncover what we really need to see from this situation and from a psychological perspective. Things are deeper than superficial glances so just stay fixated into things and the solution will eventually rise. 
 
Continue to see that things that are coming towards you are things that you have attracted in some way. So don’t reject what is here and instead be steps ahead of it in wait and where you are consciously working to not fire off and do some explosive thing with another when you don’t feel like your needs are being met or something is coming at a bias to how you wanted things to go down. 
 
Don’t act bossy and try to not get in any line of fire with others who are acting that way. Do not engage and do your all to lay low and be unaffected. It is okay to say that you need to wait, or this needs to be shelved for a minute. So be aware that you may have to draw that boundary as a way to protect your own space or energy. If you are not feeling it, be okay putting this on the back burner for a minute. 
 
Be aware that dreams are big right now in letting you know of potential love or something to do with an aspect of your creative nature that will be coming into rebirth. Listen for what happens as a message is to come that lets you know about timing or a delay or an obstacle as to why this has to wait. Just be open to what comes for you but realize this was perfectly timed and planted because there IS something there that you need to keep on dreaming for and stay open to it eventually manifesting. If you dream it around this day, it's something real special for you. Now let it unfold in its own timing. 
 
 
 
Don’t let them trigger you. 
Don’t give in to what 
Could hurt you and hurt
The beautiful day you got planned to do.
Draw boundaries and don’t compromise. 
 

S A T U R D A Y 22 august |  
 
Now loves. Be aware that things are kind of weird right now and they will be for a minute. The test is on us not needing to know – and to be okay with that. Things are forming in ways that you just aren’t built to comprehend, but they are moving towards something that is getting us to better days. 
 
What is happening on Earth is that people are facing their private fears and things that they thought you could keep on the downlow. They are facing the energy of what it is like to hate others and to say things that are totally mean and devastating to reputations. We have thought that if we keep something on the inside, or just share it with our best friends that it is okay and that we are still spiritual and it is our right to express such venom – because the other person DID THINGS that possibly warrant the venom sharing. 
 
BUT IS THIS CORRECT TO DO? Is it okay that we share the venom, and allow it to be something coming out of our bodies, our mouths, our minds where we ARE going to have to sit in this and take responsibility for it. It may feel good to talk smack on another and to get other people to also feel negatively for this person, but just like how alcohol can feel fun going in, it also can have you feeling so toxic and gross the next day. 
 
Hating on others is to hate on one’s own life. Hating on others and trying to disgrace another person is like pouring poison down your own throat. We are to understand this week that we had it all wrong! And when others come in to test us with the deplorable behaviors, truly the test is on us to not become what we see in them – which we do when we put them in their place to their face or behind closed doors, that inevitably lead to leaks, that often spread wildly. 
 
As we clean up, our vibration elevates in order to do more cleaning up of the collective energy. So we need to wake up and see that if we attract discord around us, WE ARE THAT SAME DISCORD that magnetized this thing our way. We were not innocent victims to them – we attracted something in them that needs us to not be like them and to rise higher in how we digest their disfunction, be it in reality or our misconception of them. 
 
But when we eat a non-complimentary meal, we are to do what we can to support it passing through without ripping our guts to shreds. We will not always get to digest lovely situations in life. And things are elevating and quickening in what we see because of the inner level of hatred people feel for themselves and the lives they manifested. 
 
Being angry at others feeds not having to face how angry we are with ourselves and the lives we manifested. The angry parent coming home from work where they were belittled by a misogynistic boss then beats the kids with a belt feeling expression finally from using their own hands to do what they wish they could do to the boss. From one thing we explode into any open space and inflict more harm to our life by where we let go too freely because we are so incredibly frustrated with our lives not moving as we wish. 
 
But my loves. Our lives can come out of stuck in the blink of an eye and race us forward 100 steps around the next corner to come. Things change quickly and it is on us to not get so stuck in this one position to the point we mess everything up even further like getting stuck in mud that gets you 10 times more stuck if you try to gun your way out.  
 
This chapter in your life may not feel like the best, but it is not forever. Release your hold on wanting to paint and talk about what is not working and try to focus on what you can do to bring more beauty and balance into your own life. Where you are blocked, just keep looking for something else. Don’t see any blocks as the end because they are like a baby gate, saying you don’t need to come in here just yet – and trust me on this. Signed, The Universe. 
 
 
 
Hating on others is to hate on one’s own life.
Loving on others is to love on one’s own life. 
I love you. I love me. 
 
 

F R I D A Y 21 august |  
 
A strange energy straight away! Things are full of questions now as we have another piece that makes us wonder. You may feel a bit sad or low today because something in you wants completion or at least to be able to focus in this moment and not on these other things that you don’t have any control over anyway. 
 
We have been presented with things that we can't control BECAUSE we need to learn how to NOT be controlled by them inevitably bringing an influence to our situation. Just as a ball is hit and then moves in a different direction, we too are to learn when we are being hit by energy, or another person’s energy, and we are to move in a different direction. If someone steps too close to us in these pandemic days, we always take a step away. We exert our control of self and move ourselves out of the way.  
 
At this time other people come with strong energies that are trying to dominate you and get you to go subservient with things – thus allowing them to get their way. And you cannot control how they are so control how they hit you and just be like the rolly polly bug and go within yourself as they act out. Going within almost makes you invisible and where the threat does get to moving along as if they lose interest when they don’t get a reaction out of you. 
 
Do understand that you are not playing small in the sense of allowing them to batter you and take it as if you are agreeing with them to keep them calm. But rather, you are going within, WITH LOVE, so that you can just vibrate something better and see if it can change the reality. It WILL today. And it will for now on as our energies are cleared in many of you and now you can be like your very own wifi modem. 
 
I was amazed to just write that because yesterday some female roufous hummingbirds came through and they totally changed the vibration with their extreme aggression. And at the same time my neighbor, who won't be living there forever, was playing the scariest hate metal music and all neighbors like ran inside when they heard it because it does sound like you are about to be killed. And scary to think of what that sound vibration does to someone who is getting off on it. To everyone outside his house it was fingernails down a chalkboard on a loudspeaker. To him it was a hot sexy lady. 
 
But I didn’t want to hate on him because I know how much I can get that to grow – and I don’t ever want to cop out into hatred on anyone – because that’s something I have to hold. No one is worth the negativity I would have to carry in my own life from hating on them. I NEVER attack others and go for the kill. You will never hear me defend myself in a way that goes out to attack another.  And when they attack, I go rolly polly 100% of the time. 
 
So I just sent out love and went out to the hummingbird scene and just said and talked and felt love. And it did feel like it was why I was there in that moment. And keeping it real, this dude DOES look on the brink of collapse in life. So, maybe we are to stop hating on those people who also hate their lives and hate themselves and listen to music that talks about hating everything and watching news that talks about hating everyone else. 
 
Maybe us hating on them is what keeps them – AND US -- stuck in all the hate. But what I know about life now is that I can't control others around me and all I can do is try to buffer their influence, but keep it clean so that I’m not dwelling on how much I resent their intrusion to my plans or my life. And after he showed that side I found places in my house where I can't be touched by it and now I move, like moving plants in the seasons, if something throws me off path, rather than sitting pressed to the window in attention ON what is messing me up. You all know what I’m talking about!! We naturally keep a closer eye on what is messing up our game – focused on the how dare you or the why do I have to deal with THIS?? 
 
And in these high energetic days, what is that going to get us? More of it. --- and LESS of life being lived. Stop giving it away. Use your personal wifi with consciousness. We are not here to like everyone and everything going on around us, but we are here to vibrate a special kind of love that when multiplied WILL change the flow of the collective.  
 
 
 
Seek for glass half full
And you will find it today. 
Things are not what they seem. 
Until you look deeper. 
 

T H U R S D A Y 20 august |  
 
Be aware that we all move right now, and it deals with where we feel driven to put things into order and to finally set things straight so that we aren’t totally blocked by things to the point we get nowhere. We are seeing how others affect us and how they seem to be showing up stronger and forcing us to go with what they bring. This can feel like the masculine energy forcing its way without giving any consideration to anything else. 
 
You may notice others acting like the rooster and making a lot of noise where their ego is all that seems to matter. And your job today is just to see towards the healing of things, while moving in the direction of how you want them to be. So, if another blocks you with loud rooster ways, how can you change something so that they are in your background or not getting all your attention right now? The point is that we need to adjust in order to bring balance, while being careful to not go into judgment mode where we are purely upset over them disrupting how we wanted it to go.
 
We are learning how to be in the world with others, who maybe need to be seriously disciplined for how wrong they are, but where we are being asked to just move with the waves they bring, and not be smashed to pieces and blown apart because we try to digest them and make sense of who they are and why they just did that. This week we are learning how to see that the programming feeds us to act out through our aggressions, our ego, and getting our way at all costs. But that is the baby and we are to wizen into powerful beings who don’t act so quickly to boss around because we aren’t getting our way.  And we can't control others from acting this way, but we need to control ourselves and how we too are groomed to be totally selfish and me first – and when finding our needs unmet we explode and get angry at the world. 
 
We also need to see the illusion in others and realize someone acting like the rooster is really just frustrated with feeling blocked in life, so they are making a stink and wanting to be seen in other ways. Pause with all situations around you today because there is illusion for you to work through and when you do you will see that you don’t need to take others personally and as if this is something you did wrong or you are the cause for their frustration. ACTUALLY, life is blocking them, so they are trying to block and upset others too. To get out of this game, you just need to not be bothered by what they do to you, EVEN IF it throws you to the ground. STILL. Learn from it and pick yourself up better. Just don’t be taken out. We may be taken down, but stronger from it we are to rise. 
 
 
 
Be in the world with others, 
but don’t BE LIKE THEM 
Unless you love how they are. 
Be like all the people you love. 
​

ARIES: You are close to what you need to feeling like you are free to be yourself and feeling joy with your life again. BUT. This energy is about you needing to see what your heart is asking and saying and allowing that to be okay if it goes against what you were taught or conditioned to believe is possible. This may be about you seeing the words you use and how you cut down the dream or of finding love or of feeling happy in life – but you are to open to the reality that things CAN change and CAN be the antithesis of your worst days. So, play with life again and pretend that dreams do come true. Something about this energy wants you making space where others have put in concrete and THEIR WAY. Paint this your way and make it hella colorful. 
 
 
TAURUS: This time is about you getting to know different sides of yourself that have stronger needs around security and stability and with wanting to see things move along towards a corrected vision. Where before you would be more patient and waiting for things to change, now you will be stepping into a new pattern where you expect things to upgrade and get better -- and where you will have to roll with things to see them grow in the best ways. This means you will be aware of what is around you that is not supportive or safe feeling and you are being asked to focus into it so that it can shift for you. Don’t look away or to another to fix this; you give it your attention and see that you are here to move mountains. 
 
 
GEMINI: There is serious magic going on where you are going to be able to start over or steer things in a better way through how you communicate or show yourself where you are saying what you need to and believing that there is a solution if you put your things out there. Something old is leaving where you have held back and thought of yourself as a fraud or not really holding the space. This new pattern is getting you to see that you are a work in progress, and that is okay!! If you see that you are always growing and learning, then you aren’t judging what is out of balance, and you instead see that you are getting somewhere and that there IS a solution if you need it to be. Step into a new role and talk like things are where you want them to be. 
 
 
CANCER:  This energy is to set your heart alive with visions for things you want to grow and ways you want to plan your future into brilliant growth where all your dreams manifest. A window opens for you where ideas will come flooding in and you will want to talk about how to express more beauty or create more joy in your life. This energy has a hum to it as if it is helping you to vibe in a new way where you are staying focused and persistent on showing up and believing there is a way – even when things get real stuck and seem to be going nowhere. Truthfully, we never do make mistakes in life. All of our choices lead to paths that will always lead to where we need to be. So be in this sweet moment and keep growing better things.  
 
 
LEO: You are to be seeing in a new way in where you are to go in life and with what your heart is really telling you. Something will shift quickly and create a window or new perspective that gets you seeing a whole other thing going on. This is to bring the feeling that life is short and that if you don’t live the dreams you see for your greatest wishes, then who will? Something is to tickle you with excitement but to also show you that you have to do something about this. You will have to break out of line or show yourself different or go back to a return. This is also to humble you in seeing you really don’t know as much as you think. Go to where you were and do it better this time. 
 
 
VIRGO: Do be aware that you should feel a bit pulled back and not operating at the speed you want just yet. This will change quickly, but you need to soften and change how you word things when you are not flowing in the ways you wish. Something about this moment brings and requires self-care that will be the thing that powers you up by the end of day. So, change that pattern within that always finds fault if you are not on GO. You are to learn that your GO keeps getting better when you honor the natural flow of occasional slow. Don’t judge your process – trust it always and allow it to change as it changes you into a better person. 
 
 
LIBRA: You are being asked to trust where you cannot control how others are or are not growing in life. People are reactive around you, and most likely where they are coming at you in ways that don’t feel comfortable to you. This moment asks you to trust so that you don’t go in too deep with this and instead believe things will balance out and believe that if you see it in your mind then it will occur. You are to dream for the solution and to expect that you are to rise into a higher way of responding to others IN ORDER to get to this better space. You really do lead the way even though you think others are in control. You can lead them by working with them as you work them into where you want them to be. 
 
 
SCORPIO: Things are coming that are up for interpretation and for this reason you need to see that you DO have the way and you WILL get to where you need to be. BUT. Do expect things to come that have a potential negative to them, or where this is not what you thought would occur. The test will be in you staying glass half full and looking at things with searching eyes, even if there is only a 1% chance for success. You are to think that you are the one to make discoveries that get you higher in life because of your creative gifts and your souls purpose work to offer. Hold the space that YOU ARE HERE and expect that others will come for you. 
 
 
SAGITTARIUS: Something is shifting, and it will come out of the blue. Be aware that you are moving along and things are not yet showing you all the pieces. Listen to your heart and expect to have to take a risk or to do something that goes against what others want from you. Don’t get too loud because you don’t need to. This energy wants you to be clear but showing up with your heart saying that things DO need to change and there IS a better vision for how life can be lived. But it takes a risk of the heart and something where you do finally listen to the call waking you up to something new that needs your passion.  
 
 
CAPRICORN: This is all a test where your old patterns are coming together to bring you situations that need you walking in a new way. This will mean you have heavy loads that need you guiding them up the mountain with faith that all will go better than planned. You are learning that you can trust life – and that when you do, things actually go smoother. You are learning that the road changes often and the conditions cannot be counted on, so this time is just getting you to walk lightly with what is here, knowing it leads to what then leads into the next thing. Your life is ripples right now and things build upon how you hold the vibration of today. See that all is good, and it has to be. 
 
 
AQUARIUS: You are to show yourself in a new role where you are an authority and not falling into old patterns where you just shoot off or need to get the last word in. This time is getting you to rise higher through things out in the world going low and missing the whole target. You are to see things that need energy to get them growing better and you are to be that vision of a better day or a solution or something new to discover that IS what is needed to move this along. So, look farther than what is here and keep believing that you are the one to lead us into the depth in order to find what we need. Deep situations occur to get you rising higher on the other side. Create a new pattern. 
 
 
PISCES: Make this the day you finally put some pieces of your life into order where you are deciding to lean into complications in a way where you know there will be a solution. What changes today is that you don’t bash into discord, but rather dance with it in order to make it better. You are leading the way where you must show yourself higher, and this means situations are here for you to show that you are a healer of imbalance and here to shine your wisdom ways. But you need the chaos in order to get you to stand up. We don’t just rise through peaceful situations. See that you are here to heal this and NOT just call it out for how wrong it is.  
 

W E D N E S D A Y 19 august |  
 
Oh hello again New Moon! The New Moon hit in the late hours of last night so the rising feelings are still here and many of you will feel extra sensitive from what you see and feel going on around you. Be aware that this is not necessarily bad – and the theme this week is about us seeing that we interpret too quickly in seeing it ALL as bad if things are not 100% smooth. Just like with my move out of Durango – it was brutal!! Everything that could go wrong, did – but I didn’t really see it as bad. I saw it as me making an epic shift into a better life and the old world wanting to hold me back in all ways trying to get me to give up on the dream. So every step I imagined in the process was actually about 100 steps – making it uber challenging – but still, I used it, like the heat from yesterday’s reading to get my water boiling and to get me into the new thing. 
 
We just need to realize that provocation leads us to the better, as does us choosing for our heart and taking a risk when others maybe would never do such a thing. We were raised to think being conservative is best, because it DOES work for the government if we are more apt to not want to change things and to just go along with how it has been. If you watch old history movies you see how they programmed the people to think wanting change is evil – like kids questioning their parents or adults. We were programmed to become sellouts and to follow along even if our actions do hurt others and ARE operating under questionable ethics. We still were programmed to look the other way and to follow whatever authority has been put into our paths. 
 
But now we see that we have been led over a cliff, and where we trusted this higher authority, we all are being used and abused – to enable those not worthy and to take from those who deserve things to be balanced and fair. Just how corporations got an almost 50% tax cut with this current president and the elite got permanent tax cuts that cannot be taken away by any future president. That was done. That happened. No one wants to talk about it, but it took out 3.3 trillion from our budget – that you and me and all the little people will have to compensate and cover. It’s like 10 of us went to dinner and 8 were the elite and corporations, who have all the money, who now will not have to pay for dinner as the other 2 people like you and me will have to foot the entire bill. THAT HAPPENED – and no one talks about it, or at least not the programmed news sources that are trying to keep you pushing us over the cliff. 
 
So, wake up or get out of the way. We won't be stopped by programmed people who think they are woke and doing all the wise research. If you are doing research online, which we also lost net neutrality with this president, giving even  more power to the corporations to decide what we see on our google search – so, what you see is planted research and there to keep you supporting corporations and the elite. 
 
Wake up and you see how the web holds you in many ways but to think you know best because your news source promotes with billions of dollars on youtube is what is getting us to gun it over the cliff and to our death. Question authority – question every news source because they all are using you and most likely you don’t want to be wrong, so you are leaning into whoever supports you not having to change. Question who is supported by you not changing. 100% you staying the same keeps corporations and the elite growing stronger, and the divide wider where more people with hearts are suffering. Do you really want to be a part of that movement??? You are being conditioned to keep this going and to never give power to the people. It is time for this to change.  
 
 
 
Change is good. 
Change needs to occur. 
Change is where we heal. 
Beware of others trying to keep you the same. 
They have ulterior motives.
 
Listen to your heart.
Keep going to what feels light
Even if it is what you were programmed to fight. 
 
 

T U E S D A Y 18 august |  
 
Hello New Moon! We love when you go new in Leo and when you wake us up to realizing we CAN have more and we DO deserve to listen to our hearts and to reach out for the ideas inspired from the feelings growing inside. We love how you tickle us with sensitivities and insecurities that show where we need to believe in ourselves and GROW. 
 
At this time, you are going to feel a force of energy moving through you and your life. It can feel like someone is herding you or ushering you into another room, another idea, another way of seeing your past so that you aren’t holding it to some stuck manifestation based on what others have done, and are instead seeing that we ARE to come from nothing, or to lose it all and to have to truly start from zero – and that is NOT a bad thing. 
 
Where we start as insecure with life, we grow solid from coming out of our comfort zone and seeing that the sensitive feelings were inspiring us to do more and to commit to some process that will make us solid with what we want to bring. Just as the baby falls many times before really walking and doing it right. But there is nothing bad about the learning process. There is nothing bad about not being secure or confident from the get go. Imagine a service worker day one versus day 300. We need to think about this because our old-world selves are so quick to judge our process and we are actually looking for ways to cut ourselves down and to stop our progressive movements – because it has been so programmed in us to do so. 
 
And this time offers a new pathway to open where there will be a start over or a return or something that goes next level BECAUSE you stay with it and give it another way to manifest. Just as the water in the pot is one thing until enough heat is applied and then it turns into a bubbling, boiling force. We need heat to get us seeing how awesome and incredible we really are. We NEED the sensitivities guiding us to where we still want to grow. Imagine falling in love and how nervous you are in the beginning. Is that reason to not go through with it? Should we stop when we are sensitive – or should we get comfortable with heart flutters knowing they mean something important that we need to MOVE INTO – and not away from. 
 
It is time to start over and to seek for more joy in your life. What you want is there waiting for you to take a creative leap of faith, with the force of your heart leading the way. Listen to the song forming and allow it to get louder even if some of the beats are shocking to your system. You need this rise. You need to feel again and to see that your heart speaks as a guide to your better life.
 
 
NEW MOON IN LEO
 
I got my eyes locked on a new prize
That has my heart lit up and ready to fly
Into this new space that before I could not see
But now my heart sings of this new dream. 
And I don’t want to let go of this
because I can feel it time to 
leap from a cliff and take a risk 
With a new song rising that speaks of bliss. 
 

M O N D A Y 17 august |  
 
Oh loves! We have a huge energy shift today and I can see that we will love this new vibration coming through. Something turns on, turns over, turns to another side and it will feel like a season change where you suddenly forget how miserable you were in the one that is now leaving. You are being asked to listen to your heart and to really bring the ideas/words/creativity to the surface as things that really can manifest for you. 
 
We all have gardens before us that are ready to be planted with seeds. And with this new energy it is about us really believing that we can have it all and where we start to crave more color or creative life in the days we still have. Things will feel short, as in time is going by so quickly, and it's like a store that will only be open for 10 more minutes and how you need to hustle to get what you want. 
 
We need to think like this where we are actively going for things and not just making them a daydream, but instead trusting the great mystery so deeply so you see that if you came up with it in the first place it MUST mean something about your future to come. There are dreams inside of you that your parents, grandparents and most generations could NEVER live up to. Like, they didn’t trust themselves or love themselves enough to believe in going so far out of the lines with their lives. We are locked into old patterns because we don’t want to let anyone down or to make a stink and say no. 
 
But at this time something exciting is getting ready to blossom and get you feeling giddy in life, but it is 100% outside of what has been done before. So, it is not in your database – it is not in your old photo albums of what you have seen. But somewhere in your life you are going to have a return or a rebirth or a brand new day on how things were expressing. For most of you this will deal with romance or some new creative spark where you are going to want to use your time in different ways. 
 
Around today we are planted with seeds of what we want to grow that would bring more joy into our lives. Make your feelings valid and listen to new ways you are wanting to play more and to fill your days with things that bring you into those creative meditative spaces that DO calm anxiety and fear. See that your medicine is in the choice of change you decide for in bringing more creative expressions into your life. 
 
 
 
See that your medicine 
is in the choice of change 
you decide for 
in bringing more creative expressions 
into your life.
Choose what your heart wants. 
And don’t make that a bad thing. 
​

S U N D A Y 16 august |  
 
Something 100% is coming your way and it will 100% get some sort of reaction from you where you feel like the space is too crowded or other people and their opinions or dominating ways are too much for you to handle. Just be aware that you are feeling things that don’t fit and that in some way need you to name them where you draw boundaries and even make changes that seem abrupt to others, but where you are holding your own space as sacred and not just giving it away to all. 
 
You will do something where you feel strongly in your body and it requires you to make a change or to go against what was written for you to follow. So be aware that you will have to stand your ground, but this is just about standing up for the feeling in your body, when you don’t even have anything outside of you to validate why you would feel such a thing. Expect to trust in yourself, but to not really have proof or a reason or anything concrete that anchors the why of your sudden movement. This is just how it needs to be so that you listen to yourself, even when a million others are diehard fans of what you feel negative about. 
 
EXPECT others to push your buttons today and for them to come at you from an angle where the alignment is a bit uncomfortable. We don’t fit today because others are pushy and pushing us -- and that is how we no longer want to live. And where others play the role of flooding us with their energy so that we go numb and just follow along is coming to an end in our systems so that we choose to opt out and NOT get flooded in the first place. We see the flood, the drama, the limiting and controlling ways. And as we value ourselves and trust what our bodies tell us, we see that we ARE warned, we ARE halted, we ARE given some sign that is trying to get us to follow what it existentially brings. 
 
So expect a bit of mystery today and things that cause strong emotions around you needing to protect yourself and not just give because others pound on you or tailgate you and try to make you go at their speed. Remember that they feel out of control, so they push, but you really don’t have to be moved just because someone roars loudly and acts all huff and puff on you. Stand your ground. Stand true. YOU know best. And now it's just on you to trust yourself and to do what you feel called to do that goes against others ideas for you. 
 
 
Stand your ground. 
Stand true. 
YOU know what is best for you. 

​S A T U R D A Y 15 august |  
 
Be aware that most of you are going to feel a bit sensitive with things hitting you harder than you would think. Do not apologize for this! It is good that things are bubbling to the surface as this is getting you to see that you are important and you can speak up and at least see if your needs will be met. 
 
I was working with this incredible dude who helped me move and since the moving company was a no-call/no-show, I was going to have to drive the truck to my new home in a new state. And later on the guy told me how he got the idea to see if I would want him to load the truck, drive it to the new place, and then unload it – which is what I wanted!!! I didn’t ask because I didn’t think he would say yes, and he didn’t ask because of the same. But we both wanted what we were feeling inside. 
 
SO KEEP IT REAL and speak if you have an idea. At least get it out there. This can be like not asking someone out because you are nervous they will reject you, when in fact they want you hardcore and it will be a total loss if one of you doesn’t speak up and get over fears of rejection. Expect to look at your life and feel like you have to go for something or that something new is really important to you. The energy is changing where we are more receptive to what we want to see manifest and therefore we are naming things or seeing how uncomfortable we are when being controlled in ways that are not good for our future growth. 
 
And realize that if you are feeling uncomfortable it needs your words and passion to get it moving along into a better position. We do need to DO, and we DO need to declare that our space is important, and we need things around us that feel supportive and caring. You also will be around others who are stuck in the old world and you WILL need to navigate around them and NOT slam into them thinking they are in your way. 
 
Be flexible today, like water, and think about moving around so as to not fully absorb and get waterlogged by others who maybe are going through their own tsunami of emotions rising.  Just because others feel one way doesn’t mean you need to take it on and try to save them or make things better for them. Focus on your feelings today and shift and move and alter so that you actually feel good or at least are sharing your feelings as they rise from your more vocal system. Think of opening a kombucha and how most likely it will fizzle over and you won't be able to stop it. See yourself in this natural process and just allow those extra bubbles to rise if they need to. 
 
 
Let what overflows
Lead the way 
To something that holds you better. 
You deserve support. 

F R I D A Y 14 august |  
 
Every year I get so jazzed by August 14! And I only noticed in the past few years that the day conjuncts my South Node. Which is why I always have said, “I don’t know why this day is important to me, but it resonates to the oldest parts of me”. When I discovered the Sun is at 22 Leo on August 14 it made sense as my South Node IS my past, but the past I am making peace with in order to step into my North Node, my destiny, my position of power at 22 Aquarius – so I SHOULD get jazzed when I cross this gateway knowing IT IS important to me -- You need to look up your own South Node and find what day it happens each year. And because I REALLY want to start teaching Astrology soon, go figure on this day I start the reading in this way! My past is being pulled to the surface to dance and sing in the vibrations of my North Node and where I must walk a long road to earn the position that I am here to learn. 
 
Anyway --- good morning! Today is going to be ACTIVE to the max! 100% you are not going to be able to avoid others, so don’t make today a retreat day! Things are like ping pong balls in that they come our way quickly, can seem small, but can cause some serious pain or curiosity if they hit you in a certain space. Just like you all are wondering what day your South Node hits each year! It was small but your curiosity was awakened. 
 
Today you are to go step by step with things and just realize they can change on a dime and nothing is wrong with that! We should feel like we are spinning from so much we need to take in, but it also can feel exciting to see new things that we were not aware of that do bring lightness to where we thought we just were. Think about that as you move along, and don’t get too stuck -- you do get to places where things feel like spring or rejuvenated or where now you can see clearer into something that was bogging you down or keeping you fixated in seeing how this was blocking you, when actually it was schooling you. 
 
Like, our South Node and how we have got to learn and learn before we walk the North and hold the vibration and embody our highest purpose. We don’t just get to incarnate and walk our highest purpose straight away or use our money or privilege to skip ahead and not do the work. When it comes to our destiny, we don’t just get it handed to us, but we do get the South Node handed to us and it comes because it is the cumulative cause and effect expressing for us to learn how to use our past to fuel our magnificent futures. 
 
 
 
Use your voice
To break the ice
To declare a new way
To express that change
Is okay. 

T H U R S D A Y 13 august |  
 
You all need to be on your toes today and super aware of what is going on around you. We are in a space where accidents will be happening, and people will be throwing fits around all ways where they feel they have no control. So, where some people have been tied up and quiet, they will suddenly burst. 
 
Something needs to happen where people are talking more and getting things out, even though maybe we think people have been going overboard in that arena, still, during this week we need to hear people really hit rock bottom and use words of frustration. Like I told you how I always manifest things, like my new home, that came last minute, this time at noon on the day I had to move out of my old house. When the moving people arrived, I got the call that the new house was mine. Before that I walked with Spirit and trusted, but the night before my house was made known was when I got loud and said BRING ME A HOME NOW!!!  And as I have known from my past it is when I get that big wave of passion that I am able to ask in just the right way so the Universe can really hear I am in pain and need a miracle to arrive. 
 
We ALL have that gift of using our tone in just the right way so that we WILL get what we want. We don’t have to call the person stupid for what they believe, but we can, and we will if we feel anger inside that is misdirected and frustrated that we are not getting our way. So be patient as you hear others acting so wrong but learn from it. See what you know is not the way to bring about healing. But DO be clear with your own feelings – and step up to voice your opinion, but clearly and where things are less personal and more about making it clear how this DOES make more sense or your way is looking into the reality of moving parts that are still up for interpretation. 
 
Do what you can to be humble today and NOT beat the crap out of things because they frustrate you or were not what you planned. Trust the journey and expect things to change. But if you go with the flow you will get to where you need to be. If you fight the flow you will get your ass kicked sideways and in between. Think of driving down the road and then driving on the warning strip. This day can be non-stop warning strip day if you play it wrong, but a slight shift can get you back into smooth sailing. So, position yourself better and your ride will feel better. 
 
 
Change = Life. 
Same = Death.
Go with the flow. 
 
 
 
 

W E D N E S D A Y 12 august |  
 
Something powerful happens around today where you see through some illusion or aggressive move that had repercussions and now you will come out of some stuck position and things will feel like they are moving along again. 
 
This will come as great news for most of you – although still, unfortunately, it is not for all of us. If you are NOT feeling high as a kite, you are holding onto an old thought pattern that causes you pain, and that you do want to release, but parts of you are still not believing that you can change or get yourself out of some situation that may feel too stuck to you. I can tell you that you are never too stuck, although we all will feel that we are at certain chapters of our life. The point is that you are not a mistake and the life that has befallen your path was on purpose to get you to higher positions. All the pain teaches something that when discovered moves us to higher spaces. We DO get promoted. We ARE rewarded. But never on our own timelines and only as per some higher plan. 
 
But be aware that you have more control than you think. You are choosing to do, or to not do – and it does come at a price. I hired people to pack my moving truck, since the moving company was a no-show. And it was all last minute because I got my new home the day I had to move out. But this one dude that showed up was totally slimy. And I was irritated by him the whole time, which just as Durango taught me, I need to be more discerning and I should have sent him home sooner. But this dude was in his late 30s/early 40s and you could see he was always trying to take the easy way out, was lazy and not really showing up in life. He was a Pisces. But I have been sort of fixated on how gross he was and how he gave a bad name to masculine energy. Although lazy is just never all that attractive no matter the gender identification. But MOSTLY with a mover.  
 
But yesterday I noticed that he stole some pictures of me that I had set out to show my friend who was helping me move but I later threw them on top of some other pictures in this bag so I could show her them later. And I put the bag in a section that I told him was my things that I would be taking in the car, like lamps and such. But he brought the bag out, and I was like, no, that whole area stays. And I didn’t notice then but all these awesome pictures of me when I was like 24 to 28 are gone. What a slime bag! He made $60 an hour to be lazy and to always give the heavy jobs to the girl who was there helping too, AND he stole my private property and pictures I can never get back again because it was before digital. And like, he chose to do that. He chose to do something low. And he will continue to have a life that showed as one just barely getting by BECAUSE HE DOES THIS KIND OF SHIT. 
 
And his name was Dan, so we need to start the Karen movement as don’t be a Dan. Don’t be cutting corners and always looking for a deal or to get the free things or to push off the effort for others to do, always looking to escape and get the easy way. 
 
EXPECT to work for what you want and to know that what you do is what your life will look like. If you want it better, you need to be better. What do you think Dan will get for taking my special pictures for his jackoff sessions? If you were bringing in something that will receive something, like tin cans, gold, diamonds, copper … what do you think Dan’s move will get him? Because our moves do get us. 
 
Don’t be a Dan. Be better. Value that you got the job and are being paid good money to do easy work. Then operate as a kind human and have respect for what you COULD do behind closed doors which could lead to a selfish gain. Think about that. I’m serious. We do things when others can't see, but we do know better. Now we need to be better. If you were moving things for someone and found a $20, would you take it? If you do, in some way you will have to pay that back with 1000% interest. Is it worth it? It never will be. Think before you are mean. 
 
 
 
 
If you want it better, 
you need to BE better.
It's simple as fuck. 
 

T U E S D A Y 11 august |  
 
Be aware that you will start this day feeling a bit sleepy and out of sorts. But do know most of you are being put into this sort of numb state because today brings some surprise that is to be delightful, and that gives you a good jolt. Something breaks through today and delivers the answer or the opportunity or something that connects what was in limbo or confusion. This day is to be real good for most of you, although it won’t be for all of you. But the majority will feel moved and altered and like you are ready to work with new plans for something you now know you need to draw closer into your life. You may be needing something or wishing it was near, and this is to be the juice to get you inspired to really change where you have been stuck and staying because you feared the change or feared the process of getting the old out of the way. 
 
At this time, you are to focus on the ultimate goal, but don’t get down on the steps of the journey. You don’t need to know how to get there, but you need to sign up in your heart and be drawing lines saying that you ARE going to do what you dream. You are NOT to compromise and think it can't be done because you haven’t seen it done before. You all got to witness, or you will soon, how I left one home but didn’t have a new one until noon on the last day of my lease at the old home. But I NEVER feared that a home wouldn’t show up for me. I knew it would be last minute and that I would have to trust for the best. 
 
So, I did. And I DID get the best. I SCORED. I am paying so much less for SO much more – and who knew that could happen? When I started this process, I even set the rent for what I wanted to pay, even though I had been looking at houses that were way higher. And I ended up getting the rent I wished for, which was so low. I even said, I hope I find a house that is worth more but where they charge less for it (as my last place charged more for it being worth less). And I totally got it AND I was the only person picked to even look at this house – and there is a HUGE rental market going on right now that they’ve never seen before as large amounts of city folk are trying to take over the small places that now seem to be safer. 
 
But the Universe hears you when you hold belief that you are growing veggies that are different and that will support you. I NEVER feared that a home wouldn’t appear. And the more it stayed out of sight, the clearer I was with what I wanted it to be. The night before I found my home, I finally put desperate words to asking for a miracle. I said, I NEED A MIRACLE NOW. BRING ME A HOME NOW. And then I went to bed and the listing for this home posted the next morning, about 30 minutes before I saw it.  I have seen this happen before. It is when you are most desperate that you send the best prayers out there. So don’t ever question what trips you up because it may be the final thing that gets you to really dream and to only expect that progressive change WILL be delivered. 
 
 
 
It is when you are most desperate
That you send the best prayers out there.
So, allow the dips to bottom you out
So your voice can get real clear. 
About what you need to feel happy and secure. 
 

M O N D A Y 10 august |  
 
Today is another hotbed warning day where you need to check yourself so that you don’t go out there doing more damage to your path because you fail this test where you just need to show yourself as a higher being. I was thinking the other day how our animals are who we are – or so they say. Which kind of is similar to how we become like our parents or like what we saw and were programmed by. 
 
And keeping it real, if our dogs are dysfunctional, so are we and we need to make it a priority to do our inner work and STOP following along in these ways just because we naturally fall into them – such as with anger or frustration with others. If we so easily snap, then there is something wrong inside where we are not healed and hearing something that was hurt or neglected or let down inside of us. 
 
We don’t just act like assholes all willy nilly and out of the blue. We started as and are here to be loving & compassionate humans, but we act out because we have gotten away with it before and it feeds some expression that otherwise is being kept mangled and not coming out as what it really is. Like, when you have a bad day at work but then take it out on the kids or the animals. We have got to GET REAL and see how we are mean or where we cut things off and don’t really open to there being a way to make this better. From our wounds and where we haven’t felt valued is where we now act out at the slightest provocation when we feel we are not in control. 
 
So, expect to have someone come in and to not feel valuable or to not feel that your opinions are being seen.  They may come with a strong agenda and your ultimate lesson today is just not biting onto this bait that can throw you down a few steps. Don’t be distracted today into being a bad side of how you can be. Strive to make something better and to start planting in new soil with new plans for how to grow something more satisfying and honoring of you. This energy gateway is about you valuing yourself and not losing your footing because others surprise you or shock you with their audacity. You don’t need to put anyone in their place. Focus on your place and your sanity. You can let this go and focus on what really matters. 
 
IF you stay out of the friction today, there is something sweet to arrive that gets you feeling safe and grounded with life. There are gifts coming to us where we connect something or synchronicity hits that makes it all clear. Keep your channel clean so can receive from the Great Mystery and not be frazzled by a human getting in your way with what should stay in their day. 
 
 
 
You don’t need to put anyone in their place. 
Focus on your place and your sanity.
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S U N D A Y 9 august |  
 
Loves. There is something in the air today and it's a bit mysterious. What I feel is that most people will not show themselves in their best light because they won't really see what they are doing or how self-centered or one sided they are acting. You may feel that everyone is sharing or showing too much and it can upset your own flows where you just want to do your own thing and focus on your own situations in need of repair. 
 
The day is unusual – but it will bring you situations to see how you need to rebuild your own way of handling others so that you don’t let them take you down with their issues or fears. We don’t realize how much of our lives we give away from carrying the issues of others and making them our own because we are frustrated by these people finding space in our day. We were going along just fine – and then this other thing had to disrupt our peace! 
 
But really. This moment is about you taking things that go at a bias to where you want to be, and for what you stand for, and seeing it in a different way as if you are looking at someone with the coronavirus when you don’t have it, or the flu when you don’t have it. We need to think in this way, as we take a step back and make sure there is distance between. Until now we have been trying to control things, and therefore, we point anger and aggression and diminishment towards all that gets in our way. 
 
But if our lives are divinely orchestrated, nothing can actually be in the way, and this ultimately is a test to see how YOU HANDLE IT and if you can honor your mental space by not filling it up with someone else when you had plans to do these other things. Find the way to break away from what keeps you angry and fixated into things or people or issues or life when it doesn’t seem to be going your way. 
 
What we are learning this week is that it IS going the way it needs to in order to deliver the opportunities that lead to doors opening and things connecting down the road. It is an intricate dance and you are to be programming yourself different so that you go with the flow and see where the river takes you. If something is wrong for you, it will feel real wrong in your body – like, heavy, prickly, hot, and where you hesitate. 
 
If it only really feels wrong in your mind, it is just because we only like things to be nice and comfortable – and therefore, we don’t feel good about it. But just like climbing mountains, it is often very uncomfortable. But that becomes the distant memory with each step taken out of the challenge as the conquering of the goal takes the lead in that we did this monumental thing. 
 
So, focus on the path, the steps, the ways you need to just keep with the rebuild, but don’t believe for a minute that things are not going your way. When you awaken to being a star, you will see that darkness is what gets you to really shine your truth – so obstacles and challenges are but stepping stones to our higher selves expressing.
 
 
 
 
When you awaken to being a star, 
you will see that darkness 
is what gets you 
to really shine your truth.
 
Obstacles and challenges
Are but stepping stones
To your higher self expressing. 
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S A T U R D A Y 8 august |  
 
Good morning loves! We now really step into this special space that you are not to worry about understanding, but where things will call you to step into different positions, where you ARE leading and leaning into a new way of treating people, and stepping up where you feel you can make a difference or share the light that you are, and do something to brighten what others believe is possible. 
 
We are to be like lightning bugs at this time and just shine it from within that we DO believe things will get better and that love can save the day. This energy is pushing us to start over and to assert from within, to do things, to reach out, to go for, to NOT hold back and think that you have other things to do. The other things you think you need to do are wastes of time that keep you chasing addictions and things that keep you suckling on the wounds that keep you from stepping up into action, onto the reality of what you wish your life could look like. 
 
We forget that we have these visions and dreams of something we haven’t walked yet because we are to chase after them! We are not to just think it was a fancy thought and something to get us through the day; we are to think we are being sent this yearning for something better because IT IS possible. 
 
I can tell you that I am sitting in a world right now that I did not know was here and waiting for me. I LOVE MY NEW HOME. I LOVE MY NEW NEIGHBORHOOD. I am in love with this space, the aesthetics, the chatty people, who are always out walking and enjoying life. I listened to my visions that would come with ideas of living in a magical space that felt like something better than I had ever known. For months and especially the past weeks I would sit and visualize, and take these ides coming to me, and I would focus on praying and concentrating on seeing myself walking this other kind of life. 
 
But I did it while walking a super challenging space in reality, where I wasn’t sleeping, where I was in fear, where I was being violated, where I was alone, and where I was living in a home that didn’t resonate and didn’t feel comfy and nurturing in the first place. So while walking on water, I would consciously spend time each day focusing on seeing myself living what I dreamed. And it worked. IT WORKED!! 
 
So power through, even if you don’t yet see the light. This space can feel like bombs and razor blades and things slashing into what was once stable. But it all is to break things apart and even make it properly painful so that you stand up for yourself and choose for something better for you. We don’t need to know the journey from A to B; that is on the Great Mystery. But we do need to WANT to get to B. And we need to want it and wish for it and paint it with visions on the daily so that our dreams can be heard, and we fill some bucket up that tips over and floods our life with what we dream. It works. Don’t listen to anyone who hasn’t tried to climb the mountains of their dreams. The journey DOES suck at times. But when all is said and done, we also see it was divinely designed.  
 
 
 
 
The mystery is leading the way 
with big surprises for us all – 
and purely to wake us up 
seeing that we DO matter 
and that our higher selves would like us 
to step into higher positions in life – 
because a better life awaits 
if we ask for help 
and remain humble 
in honoring the pain 
that got us to this position. 
 
 
 Or.......
 
 
Your life is being divinely designed
But only to facilitate your rise.
Sometimes we need big dips in the road
To get us flying high. 
Trust the journey and you will be just fine. 
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