​S U N D A Y 31 jan |  Good morning sweet beauties! OKAY. THIS DAY. Be aware that you are going to be tested to go with the high road, and to have hope with this mysterious situation, or to take the low road and go scarce with things and go into your mind to worry about what you are going to do. There WILL be a mystery, and you are going to be asked to trust in what you don’t know or can't ground down into reality just yet, but you are to keep going into what feels like the best thing to be in. 
 
You will have visions for where you want to be going but today brings that level of a test that is to get you questioning and wondering if you really should use your time to worry and fret and think limiting thoughts about money and how to get through future situations that MAY come. You also may even make yourself sick thinking this way. You can feel like you are holding a dead weight. 
 
And love, look at that! If you FEEL like you are holding a dead weight, you aren’t where you need to be. You are playing the hotter/colder game with the Universe and staying where you are being warned to remove yourself. 
 
I went out walking my dog the other morning and the moment we hit the pavement I was GRUMPY. Like, I was so irritated in my body – and keeping it real, I haven’t had one moment of that feeling since I moved back to New Mexico in August. Grumpy isn’t a way I have felt AT ALL. So, I wondered what was up, but kept on with the walk, bitching about everything – things that normally I love. We HAD just gotten a snowstorm, so it was slow to walk and precarious all the way. And then, we get 2 blocks from home and I slip on this patch of sidewalk that had just been shoveled, with the guys just up ahead. I stepped my left foot and it just kept going until I went down on my right knee to catch the lunge. It all happened in .00001 second. How the fuck did I get down here?! 
 
But I did stretch my groin muscle on the right side to the point I limped for about 4 days, but I now 100% trust the new energies to speak to me that way again when I am not supposed to be walking into what I am planning on walking into. Now I know to just turn around and go back home if I feel that grumpy going out for a walk, or going to the store, or going out with the person, or going over to that party (PARTY?! WE WISH!!!!)
 
LEARN to judge and decipher in new ways where you do honor the go with the flow of it and don’t get too much in thinking you know how things are going to be, to the point that if they aren’t, you go negative and plunging into seeing that you are not skilled enough to succeed. This energy wants to keep you from backsliding in ways that you are the one pushing yourself away from what is good. You give up and don’t complete the cycle and process of what needs to be done. 
 
STAY DILIGENT with tasks today and don’t let the waves of the mystery or other people’s drama pull you from where you know you need to be. Stay neutral but know things need to get done. And you need to keep with them until you can feel the satisfaction of a job well done. THEN – you will see it pays off. You won't see it until you walk the longer job that is not a shortcut and that is not about giving up midway because NOW you think maybe you got it wrong or don’t have it in you. No. You are right about your dreams. You just need to keep growing them. You don’t plant them in the garden and then walk away. You got to keep with protecting your seeds. Would you go out to the garden and yell at them about what losers they are and can't trust who they are destined to be? Would you ignore them for months, giving them no water or weed pulling? Don’t do it to your dream seeds. You deserve what you are rebuilding and putting into better order. But you won't see until the job is done. Get going on what you know you need to dedicate yourself towards. 
 
 
Get going on what YOU KNOW
You need to dedicate yourself towards.
Don’t let the drama of others
And the mystery of life
Be what keeps you from your dreams.
Stay grounded in where you need to be. 
And patient as you grow into a tree. 

S A T U R D A Y 30 jan |  
 
Hello sweet beauties! Today we have Mercury going retrograde, and that is such a good thing!!! We need this time to now stop and see how to make improvements upon things that will actually ground us and give us the platforms we need. 
 
We are on the hunt for what is real and what is a true connection. BE AWARE that since we have been downloaded with new ways of disconnecting from what IS a fractured experience in our lives, we will be QUICK and assertive in placing things in their best position. If you have a window open in the cold weather, you shut that window. 
 
At this time, if it is an open window for you, you will know to be assertive and prompt in drawing that boundary and taking care of what needs your attention. It's about getting up and doing, but for the purpose of bringing things into healing and into where there is true support and care. This new space is FAR OUT! It's where our minds are finally adulting it in a better way -- where we don’t allow the negative, or to go glass half empty – KNOWING THAT WE HAVE CHOSEN THAT PATH 100% OF THE TIME IN OUR PAST. 
 
And look – most likely your fears did not come true, and the ones that did, you somehow have risen above and gotten stronger from. The mountain journeys that tested you are the ones you remember when space is put between.
 
Things are coming at us where our day is busy, and connections are happening. You will notice that many people are showing up as love or really here in being aware of this moment. I can't get over this energy and look forward to seeing how it plays out. But this energy has me fluttering in my heart and so excited about the potential and the excitement to upgrade and live something to the max. This reading room is filled with faith and magic and synchronicity and things just suddenly falling into place. It's beautiful. As you start to rewire, allow your mind to stay on OPEN in regards to knowing a solution is there that IS to get you feeling like you are living your souls purpose – whether this be about having kids, falling in love or doing your creative gift. What you feel destined to walk with is NOW HERE and waiting for you to stay open to its final connection. 
 
Back in the 90’s, before the internet and cell phones, we went to malls. And when you went you KNEW you would find what you wanted. You had TOTAL FAITH that you would leave with arms full of bags of goodies and dreams for what you could afford on your next trip. 
 
We are learning to be that same way each day that we wake, where we are stoked for another day of mall shopping – where connections and magic collide. And the smells! And the feeling of being in an active and shifting space, with corridors to get lost in, but satisfaction ALWAYS to eventually be found. Maybe today we leave with a new puppy??
 
Be open. The magic is here, and it wants to eat up your loving and real heart. Can you allow the new story in where love IS what surrounds you? SEE IT and you’ll find your satisfaction. Things are coming together now!! Time to play your music loud and just feel how great it feels to be alive. New sweet things are rising.
 
 
The mountain journeys that tested you 
are the ones you remember fondly
when space is put between.
Trust and love your natural journey.
It will get you to what you need.  
​

​F R I D A Y 29 jan |  
 
Good morning you! Okay!! I am feeling heart flutters and excitement about wanting to do more in life where you go for things and don’t keep holding yourself back because others got you to feel sensitive and insecure in regard to certain things. 
 
Energy matters, and that you feel insecure and that others are better or luckier, keeps you in scarcity and holding an actual vibration that expects to be passed on by. This energy wants you loud and proud and like a peacock in saying, I WANT THE BEST THINGS! I WANT LOVE!! I AM READY TO CREATE A LIFE OF JOY!
 
This energy wants you just being like a kid for a minute, letting all the things go -- that WOW, look at how all the things from times past are no longer on your mind. 
 
Just the same, you need to see that you don’t need to be in control of it all – but if you do stay in the love, and play in life, and learn from when you fuck things up, YOU WILL love the precious moments you do have left. And we don’t have many! We all are on the road to death. And seeing that our paths are defined in certain ways, and we can either go or stay stuck, so might as well wake up and start living more consciously where your words and thoughts are not so shitty and poopy and clogging up your future life spaces with the same. 
 
We were taught to be mean and to judge others and to be envious. We were taught to get even and destroy and diminish EVERYTHING that doesn’t go our way. And that way of being keeps you out of healing and really seeing how YOU are a huge part of the disfunction around you. 
 
And you also are a huge part of getting yourself out of it. You just got to clean your pool. You just got to clean your mind, clean your words, clean your actions, clean your thoughts, clean the way you live your life. We all are waking up out of our toxin filled lives – and when we do, there are rainbows and dancing and people SENSUALLY coming back down into reality. 
 
This is when you notice the smells in the air and the birds that sing so sweetly and the kind things that others are doing and the kind things YOU WANT to be doing. Things can feel fresh and new and like a baby, where – I don’t know, loves. I get chills with this energy today. It feels like the old days, at a park or family get-together. It feels like there is fun in the air and ways to build this excitement as we come together and love again, as we find our peoples and our things that ARE what finally are showing they support us. 
 
Welcome in your new. The space you make, is the joy you will call in. YOU DO THIS FOR YOU. And you deserve what will next come for you! KEEP IT ON LOVE. Know that something is coming to help you see that you ARE special, and we need you keeping it real about what you naturally do. There is room for all, so show us your unique way that comes from your real heart. Take this leap of faith and come out of your comfort zone and SAY SOMETHING. 
 
 
Welcome in your new. 
The space you make, 
is the joy you will call in. 
YOU DO THIS FOR YOU.

T H U R S D A Y 28 jan |  
 
Oh hello Full Moon!! We LOVE LOVE LOVE when you go full in Leo and with the Sun conjunct Jupiter, with Mars and the Black Moon and Uranus also coming in to bring the energies of the square – which is my favorite aspect, along with the inconjuncts. Together this is the t-square of our dreams. And the Sun/Jupiter sit exact on my Venus in the 1st house so for sure I am someone to tell you more on this moon experience!!
 
SO. EVERYTHING CHANGES NOW. Something is a whole other vibration and where information has come that now makes it so that we can draw strong boundaries, without an ounce of regret or pause IF something doesn’t feel good to us. 
 
This will be a collective letting go of all the ways OTHERS keep you from shining and believing in your perfect path. This is when your heart cries out for more, more, more, but not in a needy way. It won't be from desperation; it will be from excitement. It will be from -- my gosh, this moment feels so amazing!! Please, Great Mystery, help me stay on this vibration so that life continues this way.
 
I am seeing the image of waves and us finding them, some of us for the first time. But when you get up there you understand how it takes you needing to hold a certain position, like, use your core, focus on balance, be fluid in how you deal with what moves you. When in the water and getting ready for the wave, you are this one thing. But when on the wave, you are this VERY AWARE other thing. We are stepping into life where we are to be very aware with every move – not just getting distracted and falling off the surfboard. You only get a few chances; DO IT RIGHT. 
 
This energy is really sweet, and if you remember that video from around 2015 of that little curly haired girl on the bathroom sink giving the motivational speech -- that came into me where I just want to speak to you in that same way and say, LOVE, don’t focus on what others are doing, and try to be yourself!! See that you don’t need anyone to control your choices or be an authority over you. Stand up for yourself!! Don’t give up on yourself!! There is a new world that needs seeing how important you are and special you are and essential you are. Any other message about your value is untrue. 
 
But you are in some way clouding your path because all you can see is how awesome of lives everyone else gets. In ways in your life, you sit jealous of others who seem to have, or angry at those who have done something to keep you from having.  But they came on your path on purpose. They screwed you or stole from you or fractured your path forward ON PURPOSE. And from that you are to go the 2nd round or the return and do this better from learning how you gave yourself over to people who didn’t know or value you or could even hold what you need. 
 
But you attracted them from your wounded ways. They came to give you what others in your past too have given you. BUT THIS TIME is to be when you see it was YOU who attracted them. That is the whole funny part of it. YOUR energy called them in. What needs to change now is that we don’t call the same people or situations in. WE are the ones to CHANGE. WE do THE WORK. NOTHING is only about the other – it is about how DO YOU WALK through the challenges or miscommunications or ghosting sessions. HOW DO YOU deal.
 
Don’t go looking to them to finger point and diminish. That was the old world. In 2021, you will be destroyed if you destroy others. But you will get more than what you wish negatively on them. Just be aware. That game is over. Don’t keep talking like you are peace if what comes out of your mouth is shit. In the Galactic Vision Teachings, we learn about our impact. Negative thoughts and speech, in energy form, is poop. And it's why you feel so gross around some people. 
 
But YOU don’t have to play that old-world game. You don’t have to keep seeing how you don’t fit in, to the point you only want others to know how THEY are not wanted and don’t fit in. Stop hurting because you hurt. 
 
LOVE is what is real inside of you. And your heart is about to get loved on because you deserve this. NOW it's on you to see it grow. Draw boundaries and let go of the old world acidic ways. What feels alkaline is for you. And YES, there is a place for us all. We no longer need to fight others because we feel they somehow keep us in the dark in life. FAKE NEWS; it's been around for hundreds of years. You can have everything if you shine real love out to the world – and if you come upon those who do not, let them go and carry on. You are NOT to fix anyone who doesn’t fit your new world dreams. Show love and see who stays around and makes you feel good. That’s all that matters. 
 
 
FULL MOON IN LEO.
 
My life dramatically changes at this time
When I awaken again to love --
And how I want to let go 
Of people, places and things
That are in contrast to my dreams.
I know I have a place 
Where I will get to shine
And I feel my way forward
KNOWING my life is divine
AND on time.
I’ll get to where I want to be --
With love on my mind. 
​

​W E D N E S D A Y 27 jan |  
 
Expect to feel driven in a new way where you are NOT going to allow things to control you or get you to nosedive with your life thinking something is wrong. A deep trust is to be growing in us where we see things need a patient and consistent level of support, but we also are STRONG in not staying around if things are clearly trying to take the life out of us. 
 
Your feels are strong now and they deal with nostalgia or how you had hoped things would be now in your life. The feelings calling you to go back in time deal with you needing to plant more dreams in your future where you are coming together with others and cooking and eating and talking about things that make you really love the moment you are in.
 
New needs rise at this time where we want things simple and down to Earth and with our peoples and doing what we love to do. We may still stand in a small position, but we all are expanding our dream and thinking about the ways we want to be supported on our journey. FORTUNATELY, what we do to walk this path is what gets us closer to where we want to be.
 
It is about not bashing this moment because it is not good enough right now, but rather, feeling your way through it and saying, HEY, this sucks, so let me move around and use my voice and think about what I really want so that it doesn’t stay suckypants. 
 
Never in history have we been able to smoothly transition in this way UNTIL NOW. You all will start to notice that where you would continue and stay addicted in an old pattern that deals with you muddying up your life, BECAUSE of how you process it and interpret it to be, you now will just see that you got this and will keep pushing that you TRUST THIS. With the new way, you will know that nothing is working to destroy you and it is only an aspect telling you a story that you need to listen to. How you take it is part of what comes, but also how you move with it afterwards. 
 
I just went through so many problems with a recall on my car, that I didn’t know about, that I was trying to diagnose why my push button start wouldn’t work. There also was a plumbing issue with my home that needed to be snaked. And a few other things I can't remember now, but it was all these things together that had me in wonderment as NONE were clear and easy to solve. 
 
But I NEVER interpreted them as negative. I saw them as interesting. Even when I finally did get towed down to Santa Fe, with the coolest dude and we talked about me being tripped up in my foundation to get my business going where I am doing too much and needing others to take care of me. As he commented on this must be a beautiful sign that I am getting a sweet ride and not needing to take care of a single thing. 
 
THE MOMENT he said that, we were driving by the river and an eagle was eye height and right there so close it was totally unreal. I KNEW the problems were only challenges to rise through with grace and to see with the higher way of the eagle who doesn’t get worked up in the moment but stays focused on the bigger picture. Seeing an eagle AS I just held the Eagle Vision was pretty profound. 
 
I didn’t worry even once; but it was a pain in my ass. All the things were consuming and took so long to come together. But when they did, and when I was towed to get my car fixed, I had one of the best days of my life. And I mean that; my life. It was SO BEAUTIFUL. The car was fixed for free; they fixed a tire for free, they let me drive a new car all day for free, and didn’t even want me to pay for gas, which I did anyway. The towing was free, the dude who drove was an OUTSTANDING native human of only 26 years old. I SAW AN EAGLE!!!  They even gave me 3 months of Sirius. Hemps seeds were on sale. Oatly was stocked. My vegan cheese was on sale. 
 
Like – it was such a sweet day. So ---- if I got so beautifully rewarded, HOW COULD ANY OF IT HAVE BEEN A MISTAKE TO HAVE TO WALK IN THE FIRST PLACE?
 
Keep on your journey in a positive tone, inside and out, and you WILL be rewarded like I was. And THEN you will finally see that even when life gets consuming and fixated in confusing spaces IT IS NOT A BAD THING. The other side will be divine if you allow it to be. Dream positively, my sweet babies.  Nothing is EVER to break you; it's to teach you. 
 
 
Don’t see things as negative. 
See them as interesting.
Nothing is ever to break you;
It's to teach you. 

T U E S D A Y 26 jan | 
 
Okay! Today is showing up with us seeing that we CAN be supported, and we don’t have to keep worrying so much about life and wasting our time in things that suck us dry. This time is about moisture and needing things lubricated and supported and nurturing and like diving into a comfortable couch with cozy covers – after just taking a bath. 
 
When we change, we switch gears. I just got the flash of when organic foods started in the 80’s and how it was this tiny section of 2 feet by 2 feet. But now it's the whole wall or the whole produce section. And after I learned about pesticides versus organic, I only have steered by cart towards the organic section. It is no question. It is automatic. 
 
But there was a time when it wasn’t. We are in changes like this where we drastically alter what we normally did, and start doing something WAY healthier and for the betterment of our future path. What we sit in, we create more of, we vote for more of. And what we sit in, is rising to our awareness so that we can make the change, upgrade the situation, correct our path and get back to business in a better way. But. After learning about organic, you don’t stay there and make it all the focus. You keep learning about more and more.  
 
Where we are now is finding ways to get you in grounded situations that nurture your soul and help you feel wonderful. And it's on you to choose this for yourself. It's on you to make the space and dream for it and take care of your inner health so that you aren’t battering yourself at whatever time plays out in delivering you your dreams. We learn now how to go with the flow and trust that our best things are on the way. 
 
It's time to get in the tub and fill it with beautiful thoughts of the support you will have around you – as you get clear on what support you really need and not just where your wounds cry out for more, more, more -- with the rebel yell of your wounded side thinking you are so right. When really, we need to humble and see that with the rebel yell, there is something to see, that deals with, why do we yell so loudly? 
 
For global issues, bring it on. For personal issues, take it inside and see WHY YOU are wanting to shit in your pool* and be negative with others or your view of your own journey. Why are you allowing yourself to hurt yourself and to hurt your future? Why are you speaking of energy in a lower way, when the Universe cannot distinguish that you think this about another, and it only thinks you think it about, and for, YOU. 
 
WAKE UP CALL. 2021 will not let you front, and it will not let you NOT SEE what you need to see. You will stumble until you get up stronger. And you will feel things so strongly, as if someone is standing on your heart and squeezing out new and unfamiliar feelings, SO THAT you wake up to your energy and the feelings of your actions and the vibration of your thoughts, and see that what you really want is love. 
 
You are my Moonbella who really wants a safe and loving space to land down into. Be patient and loving with yourself as you learn who ARE your peoples. I told you they come to us in 2021. Already, I manifested my sweetest little kitty! And I am SURE there are more peoples to come.
 
See that your needs will be met and declare a start over in how you need the world to support you.NAME IT and start watching how your inside voice shows lack of faith. Start teaching that inside voice to be on the journey of raising a feral kitty. Don’t take things personally but see how you can keep supporting whatever journey needs to play out. 
 
I didn’t get to snuggle with my feral baby until day 17. I COULD have given up and taken her back to the shelter thinking she wasn’t my baby – obviously. -- Then she finally turned this mysterious corner up the way and trusted me. 
 
We have to be open to others showing up to be the trust we need AS WE show up as the trust that others need to see. This is all of us working together right now. We aren’t to be here for everyone, but those who feel like family, even if it is in confusion spaces still, ARE our new families. And their support will help our gardens grow new. So be here for this!! FEEL your way to heaven on Earth. 
 

We aren’t to be here for everyone, 
but those who feel like family, 
even if in confusion spaces still, 
ARE our new families. 
And their support will help our gardens grow new. 
So be here for this!! 
FEEL your way to your heaven on Earth.
That is here now.
Waiting for you. 
 
 
“Shit in your pool” refers to the Pools Teaching in the Galactic Vision Teachings.
Check it out and learn how to elevate with grace and real support.
​There IS a handbook to the New Earth ways. And its here waiting for you!

M O N D A Y 25 jan |  
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The energy is putting you in contact with others today, and you are to take this and open to the solution that wants to help bring things together and get you in the clear in how you are feeling around what has been needing to make it to the surface. 
 
Today is about lots of movement and going along as you feel but seeing that you come together with others and your communication is on empowering things or coming together and feeling more hopeful about life. You may hear people talking about blessings and feeling so supported by what is synchronistically showing up – when most had started to lose faith. 
 
We need to normalize temporary ghosting – because we ALL are at capacity in ways and processing the trauma of the past few years. Now with covid, we ARE with anxiety and quick fuses that can send us into collapse. It's just what happens with trauma and processing it when we haven’t really been able to face it. So, stop jumping the gun in destroying what is still in miscommunication or wounded new understandings unfolding. 
 
Getting a feral kitten was the best decision I have ever made because it showed me the process of YOU AND ME getting out of our wounded ways. I couldn’t touch Moonbella until day 8, where I just stroked her head, while she was trapped in this space where she couldn’t run away. She would hiss as I came in and hiss as I pulled my hand away. 
 
Then day 17 she was snuggling with me on the couch and letting me do all the loving I wanted to do on her. But I could have given up on her sooner. Having a cute little kitten that had no human contact is kind of torture because all you see from them is that they don’t like you. And I had to look beyond that. I had to see that this is what she knows and it's what she will keep giving me until she learns she can trust me. 
 
And over time, it has actually worked! This gives me so much faith in the human condition, and in my own wounded human condition! Now she trusts me, and she is in LOVE with Mamba and rarely leaves his side. We are the cutest little magical team of total connection. But I didn’t see it for almost 3 weeks. I had to stay around and trust that this would be worth it. Now I got the best kitty for me!! 
 
And keeping it real, day 16 I was sort of fed up with how distant she was with me and I started to lose faith in her ever losing her old ways with me. And the next day we snuggled on the couch. What a difference a day makes. We need to honor this truth and GIVE PEOPLE A CHANCE to come out of their wounds. We are wild hissing cats way too quickly, and others push us away way too quickly. We all are cats in a cat fight and are just being very dramatic with it all. When really we need to slow down and see how OUR EFFORTS can be different, can be more patient, can be more compassionate. 
 
From my journey with Moonbella, I learned a new patience because I decided I would give her whatever she needed to feel 100% safe and with things on her terms. I expanded as time moved on, which led to finally petting her. 
 
So, see how you can dance different in seeing what others need first, or understanding there IS a 3 week time to work through before you cut things off and continue that old pattern of yours where you don’t deal with what is really here. What you are going to put out is like the salve to your own soul in what you need others to see about you. Even me and my cat, I was TOTALLY feral with a mother who hated the sight of me. Who only showed me anger and disgust. 
 
So. I was Moonbella who didn’t know I could trust anyone, who didn’t know what organic Mama love felt like. So that I would hiss at you, is something I totally understand now. And I didn’t take any of it personally with my kitty, and you don’t need to take any of it personally with those around you who blow off steam in confusing ways. Why would they push your love away?? Because they don’t know what love is. Give them a chance and others will give YOU a chance. 
 
 
Let’s normalize 
Temporary ghosting. 
It's not personal. 
We all have a lot going on. 
If you weren’t sensitive around rejection 
You wouldn’t take the silence
As an insult to your value. 
We’ll get back to you! 
We all need a pause button right now. 
Believe your connection will come
When we all are ready. 
Don’t turn it dirty.
MOST LIKELY it's not as bad 
As it seems to be.

S U N D A Y 24 jan |  
 
Good morning baby! THIS DAY IS HUGE. What is happening right now is that compassion is going next level in our bodies where we can't hold back from feeling and from coming up with words that need to be shared in regard to what gets us to feel. 
 
This means we aren’t talking the way we used to, and we are wanting to not keep falling into the trap of our wounds that keep us in misaligned relationships with others – and constantly fueling the projections of what needs your attention. We are learning to work through upgrades and improvements instead of slashing them dead and moving on whenever we feel triggered or hurt by them. 
 
We feel it, and then we cut them off, and then we go to others to support how we valued ourselves by being so drastic and severe. But we didn’t! That wasn’t valuing yourself. You don’t value yourself as you slice and dice and then leave the scene. That’s ESCAPING. That’s a wall. And all you all do on the daily is escape from reality, from healing, from the better life you can have, BECAUSE you are addicted to the pain and so used to it that you do unintentionally call it back into your life. 
 
For example, you know how it is when you see someone disagree with a comment or post and how they RAGE on them and then go off to broadcast and discredit and destroy the person or thing. They disagree – then they rage and say words that are purposefully hurtful and mean – and then they go off and spread what they are feeling to others. This is the big hurdle in life that keeps people never getting where they could be.
 
It keeps them creating a similar situation that plays out unique for them, but where they also are fueled by the “demonic” energy of low vibe hate and gossip talk. It feels like taking a drug when we come together and slam people who trigger us. It can feel “good” to see that others are disgusted by this person in the same way you are, at least after you shared your side of them. It can feel “good” to talk about them eventually losing it all or having their hearts totally broken. It can feel “good” to sit in those energies, and we’ve done it for all our lives. 

BUT. To sit in those energies is to manifest more of them. There is no other way to digest the energy that you are putting out there than to ALSO LIVE IT FOR YOURSELF. You will NEVER get to the life of your dreams if you spend any time working to ruin reputations and destroy businesses and COME FROM YOUR OWN WOUNDS to get back or get even. Because love, if you didn’t have the wounds, you wouldn’t get so sensitive with certain things. You get triggered because something is there that needs you applying compassion and CARE– and seeing how, in some way, what triggers you represents either, 1. What you want and wish you had, 2. What you need to face but can't see about yourself, 3. What is what you used to do that now you feel sickened in seeing others do. 
 
NO matter what, we need to talk with more compassion and with keeping it on the heart in how we treat others. To treat our neighbor in the ways we treat ourselves. And there is the problem!! MOST of you hate yourself often and use words that break you into shattered pieces. YOU DON’T support yourself or talk about love and compassion for how you have fucked up and didn’t get it right SO OFTEN. 
 
And with that inside truth, you bash others and cut them down and try to make them small – because you feel the same way for things you have done in your own life, that you probably can't even admit, and especially not to others. But loves. This is the human condition. And this time is about SNAPPING YOU AWAKE so that you stop what you have been doing that is only hurting you. 
 
Just like when you learn about the only oils that do not go toxic when you heat them are grapeseed, sesame, avocado -- and how knowing this will steer you to only using those oils when you eat a fried food. If you take in toxins, you won't be as healthy as you could be. If you gossip and disgrace others in big ways – based on how THEY hurt YOU, then you are eating toxins and all the negative talk becomes what you have to walk. IT IS A FACT in the new energies. If you want to be here. You need to get clear. 
 
 
If you talk negative about others
Because they personally trigger you
It’s like you are eating toxins 
And all the negative talk becomes 
What you have to walk. 
IT IS A FACT in the new energies. 
If you want to be here. You need to get clear.
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​S A T U R D A Y 23 jan | 
 
Okay loves! Get ready to FIND THE SOLUTION – but to see that it comes after you let it go and just open to whatever change or message you need to hear. 
 
When we hit rock bottom in our lives, we are at a good place!! Don’t EVER judge rock bottom as bad. We go there many times in our lives and it always is for a purpose. If you are falling and on the decline, allow yourself to gracefully fall like a mess on the floor. Just be the splattered egg and deal with it. 
 
The change can splatter many of you as you were stuck on the illusion and were needing it to be your truth. But when we awaken, there is no going back to how we used to be. So, expect change – and know that this 100% will be what gets you excited to start using your brain in different ways so that you actually see a different life unfold. 
 
We are in a magical space where things will manifest out of the blue and like a miracle. You will run into people or something will be orchestrated in ways that couldn’t even be imagined before. This connection is to sit with you because it IS FOR YOU and it is to ignite your brain to wake up parts of it that forgot to dream, and forgot to just buckle in and go with the flow of how it needs to be. 
 
The old world wants you planning for retirement and fearing that everything will get in the way. The new world wants you planning for a better future and knowing that nothing will get in the way. The old world drove you to the grave. The new world drives you to heaven now. 
 
Today something will light you up so that you see you ARE needed and something inside needs YOUR LOVE about it. This may be with a message or creative offering that you want to share far and wide. But it needs YOU LOVING YOURSELF DOING IT. Something needs to upgrade and shift where your perspective is better placed in seeing that you need the journey of reality to get you groomed for excellency. 
 
Everyone can position themselves at the top. But only those who are top dogs will be able to hold it over time. You will be able to hold it if you HONOR your natural timeline. Something in you gets it around this day and it may even have you more patient with getting to your destination. This will be brand new, but much needed!! This is a seed of patience where we won't want to race to the alter, but rather make sure every single base is covered and NOT RUSHED, so that it can be the best thing ever when we do get to that moment in reality. 
 
Until then, strive to be HERE NOW and watch the signs that get you wanting to be BETTER in the future you can create today. This may feel like balancing, but when you get it, life is good! People will be singing and skipping and enjoying this day when they get the connection that is on the way. Your mind is always either your best friend or your enemy and FINALLY you see that you have control in being your very own best friend to yourself. How beautiful is that to be! The connections coming are to SET US FREE. Get ready for change that gets you leaping into the unknown but KNOWING this is yours to own. 
 
 
 
People will be singing and skipping 
And enjoying this day 
When they get the connection 
That is on the way.
Until you get hooked up
Enjoy the fuck out of 
This moment now.
It will only get better
If you do. 

​F R I D A Y 22 jan |  
 
Things are coming at this time in order to get you seeing how you have been following along and not really opening your mind or using your voice, where you DO feel inside like you have been needing to let it loose. You KNOW you need to speak up and you KNOW you need to stand up for yourself. But doing so can be another story! This time is pushing us to make things known, to speak from the heart and to see that there are ways to support and rebuild things – even if the plans to do so will be lengthy. 
 
It would be a good day to look out at your whole year and see how you want to complete things, but see that you ARE going to set your life straight and start a better crop of a life that feels more creative, or where you are using your natural gifts to support you and to BE what is a big part of your life. 
 
The old-world fake zone is on the rapid decline – but also the realization of how brainwashed we can be, where you literally can be manipulated to reject reality and stand up proud in bashing it completely. You can be convinced to go towards what is fraudulent and to think THIS is the thing to trust. Just because things have numbers doesn’t mean they didn’t buy and/or exploit to get them. Like they say with white privilege; are you on this pedestal because you are authentic and operating from true gifts, OR, are you just white and that affected you having the audacity to push yourself forward or the opportunities to figure it out. 
 
In 2021 our gifts will be found out. And this is a beautiful thing! It will show us where we need to be and what is OUR lane to own and rise into as an authority. AND it brings us with those that help us to naturally blossom. You are to find people and associates and neighbors who are a battery to you keeping with showing your new truth. We really do this healing journey together, as we project onto others. But the more we face the projection, and how things are NOT about THEM with our wounds – they are about US. Where we lash, we have been hurt in our past and we just know this path so well. We took on the role back in the day and now we follow along even though inside WE KNOW THIS IS WRONG. 
 
At this time something breaks apart and no longer stands from what has shown itself to be illusion and a mirage on the wall and nothing close to the grounded truth you need. You will be tested to go with the flow, and to see that sometimes you say you are in it for the long haul, but then awareness comes through, and you HAVE TO GO.  
 
This is a time in your life where things MAY NOT value you enough. And it will be on you and your inside voice REALLY valuing YOU that gets you manifesting a life that is what you deserve. You deserve what you get – but we are not the judge on what that means. How could you deserve to lose someone you love? You deserve to walk the journey of fully understanding what it feels like to have it all, then lose it all – for the purpose of REBUILDING IT ALL BETTER, and only THEN finding real joy. 
 
You know and hear this often with people in recovery. They are some of the ones you MOST could have a successful and exciting future with. They are learning all the emotional ways and become more vocal on what they are feeling – instead of running to something that numbs those feelings.  But they gained the skills FROM the backward motion of their addictions. The gutter it put them in is what gets them going for the best life that they still have the precious moments to create. Snapping awake snaps you aware and on purpose. 
 
Our time on Earth is unusual. But we really just need to trust this and grow the best crops we can. That means not following along WHEN it FEELS WRONG, and continuing to rebuild and keep with things -- NOT LETTING GO. If you dream of offering your teachings to people far and wide, then you need to grow a slow crop that covers all the bases and grounds in something that you see you really love – and not just what you THINK you will love. 
 
We are all internet fucked, so none of us have minds that think appropriately at all times. We think we want it all way too quickly. We LEAVE this moment now all too often. WHEN THIS IS ALL YOU EVER GOT. It is ONLY THIS MOMENT that is reality. 
 
 
 
Snapping awake 
Snaps you aware and on purpose.
Allow yourself to snap
Back into your passion path. 

T H U R S D A Y 21 jan |  
 
Okay loves. Something is firing off and you need to stay out of the stubborn and stuck perspective where you think you need to defend yourself because you see things in a different way. DO NOT ENGAGE TODAY! It is a red letter warning fire danger day where you just need to keep your heads up and keep your mouth QUIET. 
 
#1 is that you do not need to state your side of things or try to convert others. This is a day that war is ready to be started – and it's like going into a situation that you know you shouldn’t. Honor that your body will warn you about which battles to take on. But today, pretty much you need to keep hidden from all things that are NOT LOVE. 
 
The reason is that today is a SPECIAL DAY!! It is when you finally let go of some pattern that kept you not really valuing your creative gifts or your ability to sustain yourself on Planet Earth. When we think we are pathetic and fraudulent, we overcompensate to show we are not, and we totally come out in the world out of balance. This is basically becoming someone BECAUSE you think others or social media wants you to do it this way. When there are no guards and protection around YOU really being able to walk what you can so easily talk, there IS going to be a disconnect with the learning process. 
 
For that reason, you all need to be awoken again to the natural timing of things where you aren’t always thinking of money and getting attention, showing that you ARE important. As you will see in 2021 what we did that we thought we could get away with comes back to bite us like the boomerang. The energy is another layer higher from 2020 where suddenly our collective insides were on the outside (AND LOOK AT HOW THAT WENT). 
 
Now we start breaking down the fake. The energy will be like waves against your system that is a rock FOCUSED on how you have been manipulated to function, which ultimately is about giving your power to others. And when we are in our fake states, we don’t know happiness yet, or we don’t know the feeling of just walking down the street and being so in love with life. The feeling of waking up early because life feels so good and you want to make the most of it in all ways you still got. 
 
As you get beat down and forced to see how you take short cuts or get the cheap one or cheat others or exploit those who did the work, and get nothing while you get all -- as you face what you would rather keep hidden, things WILL feel dark and heavy and STUCK. If you are stuck, you got something planted in you that needs OUT. 
 
Today you are to see this clearly and to just set the intention that NOW you don’t live that way, think that way, treat others that way, treat yourself that way. You CAN snap out of it. You CAN feel liberated and born again TODAY from what you let go of that then manifests a sweet glimmer of hope that you ARE on track and there IS a place for you. 
 
This means big sparks and surprises today. Some that are scary – those are the distraction to keep you from this upgrade that will set you grounded in a better way. DON’T BE DISTRACTED. All of that is part of the soap opera keeping you creating more of the soap opera. Enough with the drama. It's all about keeping you in illusion and fighting each other and draining your own life resources. Enough of that. NOT good enough for YOU. Stand firm in honoring your truth. 
 
 
 
 
Don’t be distracted 
By the fight. 
Shift into the light
And focus on keeping your eyes clean
Of obscenities.
Your eyes crave beauty.
Give them what they dream.  

​W E D N E S D A Y 20 jan |  
 
Today be ready for this strange cold wind that blows through that can hit you in unusual ways that get you focused on your love nature and on the state of what your heart is going through. For this reason, some of you will feel this and will feel it as cold, but others feel it like the shivers of excitement when you are noticing that things have really changed or something exciting is on the way.
 
A new flow is starting now where we are bringing through things that affirm that we are BEST OFF when we choose for ourselves and the feelings that inspired us to move and go for this.  But those moves can be scary – and they take us putting ourselves out there and declaring that we are something that needs attention and approval. 
 
They take us crawling out of our wounds and upping our value BECAUSE of the journey to heal what broke you. It will be 100%, that as you level up, you will expect things that feel like family support with people who got your back no matter what. WITH this approach, you walk different. Even if you can just stop and imagine that, because I know many of you DID NOT grow up with family support so that you feel them at your back and behind you, no matter what. So, imagine yourself leaning against a tree and feeling the solid support holding you NO MATTER WHAT. You can let go. You can lean hard into it. It stays. 
 
Some of you got that in your life. Most of you did not. And it's time to relearn that way so that you can be more assertive with yourself in being sure that you DO deserve to be here and DO have a voice that offers what we need to hear, and you ARE something special. You are to stand out – when it's time to step forward. Hear your call to step and you shine. Improvise the call -- and step before your time, and you may stumble. 
 
We can't just assert because we feel a desire right now. We always are waiting for the right time. It's always timing. And IN THAT WAIT, you discover more that you want from life. Like, sleeping and getting rest so that then you can have a full and busy day. From the inward, you create the ability to do the outward.
 
We now are switching gears and all of you will notice. But don’t think you have to run before your time. And also, don’t think you need to know it all right now. We can still tumble and fall, but 100% the rise out of that will be the most beautiful thing. 
 
No matter what, a new support is here, and it means you can look out at life with brand new eyes and trust that now we rebuild and face what has been done wrong, but don’t make it wrong so much so that we can't see our way out of it. Look beyond what comes at you as work to do, and just see how you can empower yourself or others to keep with it and to SEE that this new flow in your heart is helping you to get up and go. 
 
And it IS learning to not be so cruel to YOU when you are just climbing the normal journey mountain of life. There is no need to get worked up and think anything is but a beautiful step towards the best life you can live in this incarnation. Blocks will be there because they build up a new passion INSIDE OF YOU when they release. We need to pay attention to the block as something that will actually lift our spirits once we pass this by. The block is not the enemy – and it does not need you seeing that you are the victim because it is there.  
 
 
 
 
 
You are to stand out 
– when it's time to step forward. 
Wait for your call to step, and you shine. 
Improvise the call -- step before your time, 
and you may stumble.
 
Plan your great future
While loving your current day.
Nothing to race for. 
That isn’t already on the way. 
 

​T U E S D A Y 19 jan |  
 
OKAY THEN! Be aware that people are LIT today. And it may be that they are lit up in love and stoked to get on with it with this certain area of their life that has been blocked for some time, and loud in the mind of wonderment. So, freeing this backed up pipe is going to feel liberating and where those who are there are completely transformed in how their eyes NOW work. 
 
This means they are seeing the sunshine and the rainbows and the light that is in the dark, because there is no reason to fight what is your life. In some way and for some higher calling, you need to live this right here. You need to walk through the on-the-edge feelings SO THAT you are forced to surrender and let it go and pray to higher powers that support arrives. 
 
I was going through NOT having a car for months now, but really since Christmas Eve. My car had a recall on it that would make it unable to start at random times, but then leading up to not starting at all. I, growing up with a stepfather who was a mechanic, and forced me under the hood for all repairs, chose to try to diagnose it instead of racing to the dealership to let them save me straight away. 
 
Instead, I spent months destabilizing my life AND wondering profusely about what this could be. It ended up being the break light switch that goes inoperative when in contact with cleaning supplies. So those who keep the car clean get stopped down the road at some 100% unknown time. 2 million cars were playing that Russian roulette. Is it today; is it next year? I got next year, but. 
 
Anyway. I WASTED SO MUCH LIFE FROM BEING SO SELF RELIANT FROM MY CHILDHOOD THAT I DIDN’T EVEN THINK TO ASK FOR HELP. I was afraid they would say no on something or give me bad news – BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I MOSTLY SAW WHEN I SPOKE ABOUT MY NEEDS. 
 
So, I stayed private with my problem, wondering all the horrible google potential causes. And, I only figured it out because someone in my private space talked about a recall with her vehicle, unrelated, but RECALL made me get to google to see. And there were the words talking about what can happen, which was happening to me for months!!
 
But my point. Getting my car to the dealership meant I needed to get it towed 2 hours away, UNLESS it would miraculously start on the morning of my 9am appointment. And then I could drive it down in peace, where they had a brand-new Crosstrek for me to drive for the day. 
 
And the night before, when I had not heard back from the tow company where I put out an order for a future tow through my towing protection. So, I didn’t even know if they would come. And the night before I had NO answers still. 
 
But I was like, I’m just going to pray and ask for a miracle where the car miraculously starts and makes this process easy on me. I decided to NOT see all the worst case scenarios and to just finally let it go and dream my wildest dreams taking care of me and making it all no big dealio. 
 
What happened is the tow driver DID come, and only got the request an hour before arriving, not when I sent it out over the days before, AND the car ended up starting for him to easily load on the trailer! THE CAR STARTED after days and 12 attempts. I thought it had finally done the last die. And even though it got hauled for me – and I got the best ride with the most rad 25 year old person ever, the car started. It was a miracle -- and all I could do was surrender and hope for the best. Then the best happened!
 
But now that clog is fixed! I also had a bad tire that needed repair and they took care of that too! Didn’t even want me to put gas in the loaner car! They were like, go have fun! So I drove back home and stayed at home until later in the day when I drove back down and picked up my car. Even as I drove towing the car, we were going along the river and AN EAGLE was right there at eyes height getting ready to go down into the water and catch a fish. But it was like RIGHT THERE and never in my life have I been sure I was really seeing an Eagle. This was feet away and 100% an Eagle!
 
But back to my point. I made my situation worse by not asking for help, and trying to do it all on my own. BUT -- WHEN I DID ask for help, things turned into magic where I was swooped up and HIGHLY taken care of.
 
I made something WORSE OF THIS because of my wounds. I didn’t have to suffer like this. I could have had it fixed back in July when it first happened. And it got me losing the trust of my car, where I suddenly could be stranded, and it would take a few minutes to get the car started. I didn’t have to walk that. BUT I DID. And I complicated my life further from that inaction/action.
 
BUT, cleaning things up forward, I got the most blessed outcome from it. We all walk like this. We can get there quicker, if we got things right the first time, BUT no matter what, we get rewarded when we do good things. VALUING YOU and your time IS a good thing. Making YOU important is a good thing. Asking for help IS a good thing. 
 
 
We get rewarded when we do good things. 
VALUING YOU and your time IS a good thing. 
Making YOU important is a good thing. 
Asking for help IS a good thing.
 

​M O N D A Y 18 jan |  
 
Get ready to assert today in a new way, but in a way you have always wished you would. We face a wound that is on the way out but that needs us showing up where we remember that we are valuable and that we have every right to thrive on Planet Earth and to get what we wish for. 
 
Today there will be something that gets you to feel where you start to remember an old wound pattern and how it makes you feel like you have no right to exist. But today you will set something straight where you are skipping over that crack in your tapestry and giving it a rest on allowing it to be what you really believe about your potential. 
 
When you get hit, take that crack and show it who is boss. SERIOUSLY. The energy just wants you standing up for yourself and making your heart and your needs a priority. This time wants you NOT HOLDING BACK, but asserting your way with love, going towards what feels right and not letting the fears or the old stories to continue on their way. This day wants a brand new showing of how you can be and where you have rounded a corner so that you hold more wisdom and less insecurity and resistance to new things.
 
Something WILL come out of the blue today, so expect to be surprised, but then also to be surprised with your approach or response. This moment is showing you that you have changed and that you are getting older and wiser about things. Like with yesterday how we realize we all are wounded so we have EVERY RIGHT to pick and choose WHICH wounded souls we will take on to be the trust they need to see. We don’t have to be there for everyone – and that is a mistake we make in thinking we need to! 
 
Swift and clear movements on your part are what are needed where you clearly draw boundaries and move from what doesn’t feel good in your body. Now, do know that the feeling in your body is a voice – and it's more existential than it is solid. And the feelings in your body when you are going through a challenging situation are NOT the feelings we are talking about here. 
 
You can feel bad and be in a bad situation that is for your good. Those feelings are solid while you are in them. But the voice feeling comes and goes – but around the thought and space of the ideas you are considering. It's existential in that you don’t know what this means, but you do know something just came over you. 
 
THE POINT is that we now need you giving credit that something just came over you. And that it is NOT nothing. The engines in our car give warning signs when warning situations are near. Things don’t work when things are out of balance. And then one thing can be replaced with a new avenue of expression and then the car is just fine! Allow your warning signs to speak, and be assertive in honoring the message. For many of you the car is now gassed up and you are about to hit the edge of town on a road trip to what you have been waiting for. So get ready to go when you FEEL the call. But BE DIFFERENT today. Do it different but make your voice and needs a priority to all around you. Be clear in going towards what feels good to you. The good dangles before our eyes seeing if we are changed enough to see that we deserve this – and then seeing if we assert towards it. 
 
 
Your intuition is existential. 
It is that something just came over you. 
KNOW.
It is NOT nothing. 
The old world wants you applying the discount
To what is most valuable. 
Say NO to no.
Go get YES
Because it feels so good
In the depths of your mysterious soul. 

​S U N D A Y 17 jan |  
 
Good morning sweet beauties! Today is EPIC and huge, so pay attention because tests also loom. Expect to be in a situation that is full of heavy loads and confusion and where pretty much the only thing you can do is let it go and trust. We are being put into situations so that we dive into a space inside where we remember that we can trust this journey and that we are dealt things, but they are never the ultimate interpretation of what we have learned, being programmed from the internet nation. 
 
We are in the process of changing how we handle what life brings so that we don’t constantly interpret that there is a winner and a loser or that more followers is actually better. Our compass has been set wrong and we narrowed the potential for greatness in our lives by always seeing that things mean we are a loser. 
 
We are learning to see that we were not chosen, or are not being chosen at the moment, but it is just another NO on the way to the YES that is the ONLY thing good enough for you. When we shop for jeans, we wait for what we want. We don’t buy the first pair we try on, or 2nd, or 3rd, or maybe even it takes many trips to find something that really FITS. Things in life are to FIT YOU. They are to FEEL in a certain way where you realize you want to stay around with this and give your all to this. 
 
We need to understand that we are working for the YES, and the YES is on the way. But there will be shit tons of NO’s before that YES. OR, YES will come first. OR, YES will come after 15 tries. The point is that we don’t know when, but we do know that there IS a YES that is different than all the NO’s. 
 
Things that fit us and feel right are something we always take note of because we spent so much time trying to make the wrong jeans fit us right. We kept badgering them about how they need to be something other than what they are, but they were just keeping it real and showing you who they REALLY are. And those out of shape jeans never get back into shape. Or you may be able to wash them and they hold the shape you want them to for a minute. 
 
People are this same way, and we have adapted around people who are teaching us lessons, but they DON’T feel good to us and we DON’T really feel like we can be ourselves around them. We instead try to be the jeans we think THEY want us to be. Or we never let them off the hook about the jeans we want them to be. And all of us only hold our out of the dryer form for a few minutes. Then we stretch into our truths. We all can hold it together for a minute! But – then reality shows through. 
 
As you feel things stronger, DON’T make them negative!! Just see what fits and what doesn’t. The new world you want to walk needs you supported from all sides and allowing you to come out of the shadows and be whoever you really are inside -- to be the jeans you see yourself as, without needing another to fit it first or be the jeans for you.
 
DO NOT let anyone tell you that you are not allowed to express your feelings – BUT don’t expect everyone to want to stay around you or to be the jeans that want to support you. The NO who tries to manipulate you back into the shadows is NOT your YES. The YES where you feel like you can keep it real and live the dream and grow together IS your reality, and it IS a YES up ahead on your yellow brick road. TRUST THIS. Remember that all is going on plan, actually – and the best IS yet to come. No room for loser or victim in your words today. 
 
 
 
Taming a feral cat
Is identical to having a relationship
With a wounded human. 
And every one of us is wounded. 
What a feral cat needs 
Is one person to trust.
They don’t need everyone.
And not everyone will have it in them
To want to walk the journey. 
 
So, wait for your peoples,
And know they will WANT 
To help you heal --
As you help them heal.
But MOST are NOT your fix.  

​S A T U R D A Y 16 jan | 
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Things are coming together today for you to examine the dance you have with others, so that you are not giving too much of yourself or overextending in ways where you want others to love you. 
 
This energy wants us coming together with others where we give of what was left dry in us, or trust when before we have 100% seen that we could not. It is to give yourself to the wildest dream, and to trust that you can give and believe that things won't be taken away. 
 
For many, your emotional state right now is a place you may have never been! Things can feel surprising in how much they hit you and how they make your body feel in all these ways that are uncontrollable. Allow it all and set yourself free to not define how things should look in your mind. 
 
Feel how you are moved and see what it moves you to change. Things are changing based on what we are feeling around this day and into Monday. The feelings guide to you needing to solidify something with your love nature or a creative gift that now will grow solid in the repair or regenerative spaces. This can be when a plan appears, and you had no idea this was the way to go – until this moment now. 
 
Things are to flash us awake in seeing THIS is it. And for the reason of getting us to trust the journey and honor that the way we FEEL with things matters. We don’t need to have sight to our feelings. We don’t need to understand WHY we feel this way, but we need to believe in what they get us to feel. 
 
If we feel a warning, it is a warning. If we feel sweet love, it is sweet love. If we feel hope for something, even though it looks not what we thought, it is something to have hope for. Our feelings want us to walk a bit blindly and to take leaps of faith with things that put us with others. You may even get a new animal or join a new group, or something that aligns your energies with those of others. See that what you need is coming quickly, and this is what will require you to change in some way. Don’t be worried and don’t think that you will get something wrong!! You may go that way in your mind where you think you should doubt yourself. But still, KEEP IT ON YOUR HEART. Make your heart the art. All art from hearts is beautiful. So share what you feel, my love. 
 
You also may go frazzled today and need space desperately. Do for you. Do kind things that self care. Space is good today and it gets you seeing this other way. But you have to choose for you and make the space. Today will give you that choice where you can follow along and only do for others -- or do something for you that does help you feel sane. 15 minute baths are possible – and energy altering. 15 minute naps are too. 15 minutes of coloring is too. 15 minutes of a stroll in the neighborhood is too. 15 minutes on the spin bike is too! 15 minutes cleaning up that thing that needs your attention is too. There are things for you to do that when done will help you feel better. See where you are guided to make a change. I was in the tub a few weeks ago and got the vision to move my desk into another room in my home. I had to take my desk apart to get it in here, but all in all the process to get my new office set up took about an hour. And OH MY GOSH! Everyone in the Galactic Vision Teachings hears all about it – and walked it with me, but I get so much done now!! I even wake up at 4 or 5 am every morning to go to my sweet little office and bust some ass. 
 
But I haven’t been able to do that since Moon Bear died 5 years ago. I’ve struggled every day to get what I do get done – and I still have TONS to go. This move got me in a different groove and now I work close to what I was doing before I lost my girl. I am a Capricorn Rising and Virgo Moon, so I love to work!!!! If I have a job that needs me, I AM THERE. But – the healing journey took that ability from me – until now. Or, until I moved my desk into another room. I could have just let the idea come and do nothing – because it did require taking a desk apart. But I felt like this is what I needed to do. Right now. And I did go from tub to getting to work. You are encouraged to do the same.
 
ALLOW YOUR FEELINGS TO BE HEARD BY YOU – and do what they inspire you to do. Intuition coming now means something. 
 
 
 
 
Keep it on your heart.
Make your heart the art.
All art from hearts is beautiful. 
 
Allow your feelings to be heard
By you. 
And do what they inspire you to do. 

F R I D A Y 15 jan |
 
Good morning sweet beauties! Today is going to get many of you emotional as you think about having more compassion for where before you would just discard and move on to the next. 
 
When you stop to have compassion, it opens you to seeing the addiction you HAVE HAD to expecting things are going to go wrong and that won't work out for you. Your fear is so deep that life will always be a test to see if you can ride the ripples and see them as just a part of the thing called life. We don’t need to make them bad anymore. If something breaks down, it is not the end of the world. If your plans were thwarted it is not the end of the world. It’s just a day in the life of you getting to your best life. It's a step on the mountain that will be forgotten in a week or month, and certainly in a year. 
 
The gears shift today and for that reason you may feel a bit confused or too much in your head and unable to process how the emotions come into play. We overlap today and it will cause many of you to short and to frazzle when you thought you had your mind around something. 
 
Maybe it will feel like a fear you think you are maybe intuiting and need to believe in – as if you can't trust the dream that it will be better someday soon. You may think you can't trust the energy and will think you ARE to doubt yourself into thinking you WILL be the one left behind. 
 
And honey, if you show up in these energies WANTING to be aligned to your best path, it will happen! No one gets turned away. But you got to TURN towards what is a view that feels compassion and sees there MUST be a better outcome, that this CANNOT be the end of the story. Your feelings are everything. You have been programmed to be so incredibly mental that you doubt yourself the day after you awaken yourself.You will always go UP with faith and then a few days later, crash with doubt. 
 
This time wants you to see that you will crash and to be there like a good parent ready to show you the new way again, to show you that YES you may fall, but you also can get back up. You don’t need to see the fall as the end all. Be a bouncing ball and don’t forget that up always comes after down. You will need to train your mind often on this!! We just need you continuing to look to the horizon and to see beyond corners, EXPECTING something magical to line up and make this all understandable. In no way are you to go back and try something again, you are to move forward and see what works this time – and from this desire to come to an understanding and to be on the same page in correcting things.
 
You will need to bring your feelings to the forefront and possibly through showing your love nature in a stronger form, where you feel led to express in these ways, but didn’t plan it at all or didn’t expect yourself to show up this way. Be okay in knowing you may need to come out of the shadows and into the light in how YOU feel about things. If others want to ripple that out of you and shut you down, because, how dare you, and who do you think you are, just STILL STAND SOLID in what you believe in. Don’t back down. This is The Year of Our Peoples and those that get you to go smaller are not going to be in your future life. You will only be with those who get you to feel bigger. Watch what you feel because it is the real deal – and you don’t need to know anything more about why that is. You just need to follow the breadcrumbs they drop. Over the next few days, your feelings will tell a new story for you to believe in as your future reality to live for. 
 
 
Watch what you feel 
Because it is the real deal – 
And you don’t need to know 
Anything more about why that is. 
You just need to follow 
The breadcrumbs they drop.
​

T H U R S D A Y 14 jan |
 
OKAY!!! This energy is what we all need. A new layer is coming into our systems that will help us see why things don’t look the way we want them to, where we see deeper into the story behind how things present to us in this moment. 
 
This shift is saying that where before we would totally take it personally and have issues with others who disrupt our day, and now we will see more into what is getting them to blow up, while not just focusing on the blow up. Just like with the pipes clearing last week, when there is a backed-up situation, the problem is somewhere hidden, but what shows will be a backed-up toilet or tub. But the toilet and tub are not the problems. The water in the toilet and tub are not the problems. It is the pipe buried deep that you cannot see where the problem resides – outside of your eyes vision. 
 
We all are waking up to something that gets us getting this. And it only comes when we stop making everything personal and stop LOOKING FOR A FIGHT and stop looking at all life fluctuations to mean something negative about who we are and where we are on the journey. 
 
The addiction to see that you do NOT have a place in the world is being replaced with a compassion that sees we are all in this together and we have to try to come to understandings and work to upgrade and bring solutions to things. We have been shown how to bring death to things, destruction to things, devastation to things. 
 
And now it is time to bring the healing to them. To see that we are not too far gone. To see that no matter what did us wrong in our pasts, we CAN RISE AGAIN – and we CAN believe that others can too. 

With that vision, we have our New Earth. It comes from not wanting to kill everything. Every one of you wants to kill and destroy things, especially when you don’t get your way – and you are DONE with others if they let you down just once. Then they do really toxic things that they say are just showcasing the toxic they have seen. But ultimately it is an opportunity to BE MEAN – and many of you like that feeling, the feeling of putting someone down and spreading that down to others. You sit where you just want to make the backed-up toilet everything.
 
It is time to be patient and feel love for things. And we can only feel it for others if it lives inside our own beings. This unconditional love will be waking up in you and through collaborations or coming together where you just wake up to wanting to be your best version. And to NOT attack at first crack or to get frustrated and so quickly break things off. 
 
When you really love on the inside, you will really want to show love on the outside. It is just the frustration and anger on the inside that EVER gets you to lash to others on the outside. Planet Earth is where Gravity + Karma rule. The 8 that sits on its side, that goes out with what it then brings back in, is what our lives will always be here on Planet Earth. 
 
But it's too easy to think the worst, to feel like an outsider and to remember all the times in your past when you WERENT given soft and tender loving care. Be open that we all are in this space and we all will see how others may be broken but we don’t need to throw them out just because others threw us away. 
 
Enough of punishing those with what punished you in your past. Rise, my babies. See for your way out of that old racetrack, and switch into a higher road where you actually work to expect the best and to expect that you will have all your wishes granted and dreams manifested. Go to where you WIN in the equation, and no longer where you lose and have to fight others who you perceive as keeping you from winning. 
 
Your old way of thinking was wrong. It was flat out WRONG. And now you need to see for better solutions rising and YOU taking the lead by doing kind things and working at all cost to try to understand instead of destroy and break down. 
 
The hills are up and down and left and right and roundabout as you go up the mountain. NONE are bad parts. Don’t see your own twists and turns as bad parts. This is supposed to be your journey!! There are no mistakes. But it is time for you to be expecting better and showing us that you ARE that better. 
 
 
 
 
We show these bad things 
Because we have seen these bad things. 
Be patient with those who show you 
The bad things they’ve seen.

W E D N E S D A Y 13 jan |  
 
Oh hello NEW MOON IN CAPRICORN! The power in this energy is coming through like nothing else at this time -- and for sure this will activate our awareness on how things are trying to control us – and how we no longer will be privy to that sort of arrangement. 
 
EXPECT to say FUCK THIS SHIT to something, or many things, or everyone. Who knows how it will play out for each of us, but the buck stops here. Something will inspire us to no longer tolerate a certain level of expression, and with that BOUNDARIES to the 1st degree will be applied.
 
DO KNOW that there is an old way to go about this opportunity, and there is a new way. You will automatically be pulled into expressing in an old way, in a way that can be like mafia badass or you know best or you are the authority over others. 
 
REMEMBER – no one is to be an authority over anyone. If someone comes and asks, we can give of what we know. But we don’t get to slam our perspective IN AGGRESSIVE WAYS and think that someone is not gonna bite back, and at least we do know, The Universe will. Where there is gravity ruling, your physical actions DROP INTO your future steps – whether your actions were for YOU or for OTHERS. On Planet Earth, all that YOU DO comes back to you.
 
And we didn’t incarnate to be the bosses of others – nor did we incarnate to be saved by forces other than our own. But The Age of Pisces is addicted to having a savior. The Age of Aquarius will be addicted to focusing on how to help and how to not be so all about me with our journey on Planet Earth. When we wait for a savior, like saying we won't be happy until we are in love, when we wait for something to save us, we start focusing on our wounds and all the things we think are negative about ourselves that are keeping us FROM being happy right now and with our partners right now and living the top dog mountain position of our career right now. THE INTERNET FUCKED YOU UP. And the majority of people don’t even have a sliver of happiness that they acknowledge in their day to day. When you wait for a savior, you don’t give your all to this moment. You sort of sit and wait in life. 
 
And this moment is gone because you think you need to be in another moment. But what blocks you are things that you CAN and CANNOT control. What you can is where you need to start standing up and putting a new plan into motion that will rebuild what got built wrong. You built it while waiting for the happiness of your dream job or dream partner and what you built was from an absent mind, absent to the awareness of what you CAN do, and CAN create, and what CAN be your next grounded in reality move in life. We have to ground solid in this moment in order to rebuild. And we have to face what is fucked up. This time will motivate you to go in there deep and to really go after things with more structure and stability for you. 
 
This is why social media is on the decline now because it's full of people fronting and exploiting. The authentic presence is not a double digit. It’s rare because not all of us can be cooked and ready to hold and embody who we want you to think of us as RIGHT NOW. We COULD fake it in 2016 to 2020. But now we see the manipulation and things trying to control us, like fake news, which is ALL sources that are big and have money to promote -- 100% of the big ones are fake news. 
 
But we too are conning things, and we don’t get away with it this year – because HONESTLY we are not to be the 6th grader who thinks they should be driving because they can, or the person in 2nd year college who will be a doctor one day but wants to do surgery on their sibling now. – NO, don’t! Wait, is what we would say. 
 
We are learning where we need to wait so that what we manifest is on the natural timeline of our divine plans and not the expedited microwaved version that we have learned others are doing. And if they are doing it, someone is going to do it, so why not me? It is that way of thinking that has gotten us all in trouble. We do the wrong because we see we can get away with it. But no longer. 
 
You will be stopped at the gate if you aren’t really holding the vibration. Period. So expect to see things heavy that maybe you didn’t want to see, but SEE that you got to build your empire better. You can't keep going from what is collapsing in the corners and really only something that can sustain for a small amount of time. 
 
Think forever and rebuild in the highest of quality where you REALLY get healthy and whole before you front that you are. 2021 will be brutal if you are not in your lane. But find your lane and you grow WILDLY – and as if it is everything you dreamed. Rewards come for jobs done correctly. Confusion comes for those who took the short cuts. But that’s okay!! Correct today! See that you do need to rebuild and write out your plan for the steps of doing this right, making amends, letting go of what doesn’t fit 100% and expecting that on our unique path, what we need will always be where when we trust that it will be. GRAVITY 2.0. Get it and you HONOR what you grow, as something coming back from what you already did or said or contributed to. 
 
Keep your actions clean, but be firm with boundaries in a high vibing way of being. Clarity, NOT BRUTALITY. That is the old way, and you will pay if you keep walking that way. 
 
 
 
 
NEW MOON IN CAPRICORN.
 
GRAVITY 2.0. 
Get it and you HONOR what you grow, 
as something coming back from what 
you already did or said or contributed to,
THIS HERE is what you have done in your past,
THAT THERE is what you can do better,
From what you rebuild today, 
Keep it real and go for the slow road
That gets you the best load
The fast road is like a bubble
Where for a second you see this 
Big and beautiful thing. But then it pops 
Because inside it was a mirage
Based on short cuts that were all about
The bubble and not about
BEING the dream. 
 

​T U E S D A Y 12 jan |  
 
Okay then!! Today ends with a New Moon in Capricorn, which conjuncts Pluto. So, today we say, Oh hello NEW MOON!!! We love when you go new in Capricorn and when you sit right next to Pluto where everything you are doing is under a mode of transformation and rebuild and get this ship cleaned up. 
 
ALL ENERGY is towards flushing the toilets and getting rid of all the old-world limitation and scarcity putridness of the power that has been at play in keeping things going towards death. Something was operating in suck the life out of, and now we finally shift into REALLY learning how to do things right, how to love people right, how to treat people right, how to not keep fucking up because our wounds are so deep and our egos so needy. 
 
And how to NOT MAKE EVERYTHING ABOUT MONEY AND EGO.
 
A veil drops at this time and we show our true authority on things. Where we are the teachers or where we do need to take a leap of faith and believe in our creative dreams to be something that will support and sustain us, is where we now have a plan for a rebuild that will deal with going for what your heart really wants. 
 
I told you that 2021 is the Year of Our Peoples. It's where we find the ones who make us feel good. And remember I told you that weeks ago, how we are looking for people and things and places that make us feel like we are even more awesome than we are. 
 
We need that constant support, like the legs of a chair, so that we can then dance in these other energies and ultimately circulate and share them. We need you vibing high so that others see it can be done! 
 
We were influenced by social media but now will see into the front of false and fake – and just not really cooked and ready to be out there just yet. All the balloon energy collapses now, and for that reason many of you can feel confused or in limbo. BE OKAY WITH THIS. Limbo is a state that will happen that places you on hold before things move forward. It may be that you need other players in your game to make moves first. But limbo is just to be experienced. Just notice that it feels like you are on drugs or out of it or spacey – but don’t make it a negative. 
 
This moment ONLY wants you in the thoughts of appraising things in new ways where the potholes in the street are ADDRESSED and dealt with as a priority, but not in any negative way where you entertain negativity in your mind. The things that trip you up are tests to see if you are transformed and ready for the New Earth energies that ARE about not judging it all anymore. 
 
What I have hated about the internet, and you have heard me bitch about it since I first launched my business in 2012, is that people are putting too many words out there that are keeping people in too many boxes. They all are drug dealers. And it's all words. It's all where someone like me stops and says, who the fuck even wrote this and who is the originator and who are you?? 
 
As I pause, you too will do. Because it is like, what are you doing? Is this true gifts and from an overpouring like in the Age of Aquarius to give the water of what we really know and are. 
 
OR, the opposite sign of Leo where we are wanting to do this based on getting attention and feeling how it fills up our balloon so that we do fly high. But then we keep needing that drug – we keep needing others to fill us so that we can fly high. 
 
Today see that you are ready to find something real, to be in something solid, to rebuild what you left behind and didn’t ever bring completion to. Get back with people and make amends. Speak up about why you have been hidden. We face our backed up pipes by getting in there and cleaning them out. Don’t hate what is backed up. Deal with it with grace and just clean, clean, clean – because soon you will fall face first into your dream. 
 
 
 
NEW MOON IN CAPRICORN
 
We face our backed-up pipes 
By getting in there and cleaning them out. 
Don’t hate what is backed up. 
Deal with it with grace 
And just clean, clean, clean – 
Because soon you will fall face first 
Into your dream.
And you will see 
All the hard work was worth it. 

​M O N D A Y 11 jan |  
 
Good morning sweet beauties!! So today we see into something and it connects, and we just won't even believe this is happening! This is when the new view comes in and, WOW, does it change what you thought was reality! 
 
Expect to feel things in your body where you know what is going on, but you don’t know why you know this. Things are coming in where we finally get an answer, or some leap of faith produces exactly what we have been dreaming for. So, it is exciting today! 
 
We also come together, and energy is moving us to speak up and also to show our hearts or declare our love natures. We are looking into new patterns in our lives that include other things now coming in that change our view. This will be about expanding into something that will ground us in healthy ways. It will be something that deals with art or love or ideas that need time to put them into position. This is about us stepping into things that grow and are not the same as they move along their stages. 
 
But now is when we plant the seed and decide to ground into this new way of being. It's excellent that we are so mental right now and seeing how the mind is the enemy to our dreams. But it doesn’t have to be. There are two paths to the mind, and it is UP or DOWN. And to go up is when you soar into things that really do excite you and get you stoked at being creative with the potentials of life. The down keeps you in a bubble where you think that what was is all that can be. It keeps you in gray waters and re-circulating in what already was. 
 
The energy is showing that we are completely leaving these old spaces where we bought into sad and depressive outcomes. Like, how could we have wished for the worst thing, and really believed we would get the worst thing? When we awaken, we see the error of what we were doing, BUT we don’t shame our past because of what we walked because we walked errorous ways. 
 
Now, be aware that there is a process to this. And as an example, I started having problems with my push start button where I was getting stranded when I tried to leave places. Finally, when it took 15 minutes to start the car and it was Christmas Eve at 7pm at a grocery store in the new town I moved to where I don’t really have anyone to call to come rescue me -- THAT was the tipping point where I finally tried to figure out the culprit – where otherwise it WAS eventually starting, so I just carried on. 
 
And now I am in process 2 of what could be about 5 things that it could potentially be. But – ultimately, I now have a fear of my car starting. I’m nervous. Even now I’m wondering if the last thing will be the fix, or if next time I go to start it, it does it again. But even when it is fixed, FOR A WHILE, I will be a freak show in not trusting my car to support me. But it's only because it showed me that it stopped supporting the safe feeling I have had since I bought it. Ironically, I JUST made the last payment on December 30!! But my car will now have to win over my trust – and by showing up every single time for about 50 times. In about a month I’ll trust it again. IF it keeps performing as it should. And until then, I won't have rest. I won't completely forget that my car may not start. 
 
We have these memories around events, and they stick with us!! So, to learn a new way of responding we have to put ourselves in new ways of things that show up, and stay around, who are consistent and do keep doing what they say they are going to do. If people are flaky, as they are in the internet age, it’s hard to trust. 
 
But things are here now that you CAN trust. And they deal with a better plan of something that really grows, grounds and stabilizes your whole life. Who is ready for this!!
 
Keep going. Keep growing. Go towards what wants to be your rock, and not block your shot. 
 
 
 
The mind is the enemy to our dreams.
But it doesn’t have to be.
It can be the expedited way
To our amazing destiny. 
We choose the view. 
We drive the car.

​S U N D A Y 10 jan |  
 
Today we are totally in this space of seeing the error of our ways and waking to a whole other way we now want to show up on Planet Earth. This is big energy!! And, we also are leading up to the New Moon on Tuesday/Wednesday in Capricorn – so this time is made EVEN BIGGER. 
 
Okay. So what you are going to see is that what annoyed you in others NOW is what you are finally seeing you do or have done too, and haven’t made the peace with yet or haven’t brought it to completion so that it isn’t a big hefty fear in your mind. We get triggered by others – with perfect timing of the planets and our soul’s purpose – so that we wake up to how this is an infection inside of us too. 
 
Life is busy, and we don’t all get triggered by the same things. We don’t abuse ourselves in the same way. Just how I NEVER use negative words about myself inside my mind and haven’t really in almost a decade – but most of you STILL DO. And you allow it. And you feed off it, even if you don’t want to admit it.
 
There IS an energy that is like a drug that is created when we talk gossip or talk negatively. It's like energy MOVES us to keep doing it. BUT those things are totally toxic, and they lead to a toxic life with toxic relationships and things that just aren’t right for you, body and soul. 
 
When we clean up and honor that what we are on our insides, is what we manifest on our outsides, our lives transform overnight. Ask everyone who took a chance and just TRIED to stay ultra-positive, not in a phony way, but really working to not speak of negative things, nor to think of them. They ALL tell you how things change overnight. Like people in recovery who give up toxic addictions; they all change overnight. Just how I told you about stopping smoking back in 2006 and then within 2 weeks attracting this beautiful, and out of the ordinary, experience that I’ll never forget. Quitting smoking and applying the discipline to create a new path GOT ME something that brought a HUGE wave of excitement into my life, and for years. The rewards sit side by side with us making a big change.
 
So, see that the road needs to change, and go with the flow of it. All that is out of order is just to be seen as something that will be corrected eventually. And when it comes to your mind, you are to set it straight, AGAIN, in knowing there will be an outcome eventually and to affirm that the reason it comes to your mind, again, is because YOU DO NEED TO FACE THIS and you do need to put energy, AGAIN, into putting it on your to do list. 
 
And that is all you have to do! The negative thoughts are for YOU to adult them into a better order. And when there IS tons to clean up, you need to just keep at it, and keep at it. You go step by step – BUT NEVER do you give up on yourself. That is no longer allowed. 
 
Just talk to your mind in a new way. For example, you get the thought that you have messed up too much and changed others’ lives because of it, and therefore you can't see that you will ever get a good future. To set it straight you say, “Hey, we ALL get good futures if we work for them. And yes, I have done wrong, but wrong was done to me, and that got me singing this wrong song. But thank you mind, for bringing this to my attention so that I can keep staying diligent in bettering myself and being a kinder person. I honor the error of my ways and stay focused on putting them into correction. Period.” 
 
Don’t take the negative feeling and make it a negative day or future. Take it and digest it as a reminder that you DO need to take care of some things. But also, in their perfect timing, and reminders are not negative, they keep you in the game of why you are here. Transform your view and things change quickly in this energy! The past programmed you wrong. All of us are in the same boat. The light incites you to come forward into a new way of not allowing the hate. Talk like you love your kids -- and you are the kids. 
 
(As a side note. I finished this reading and went into tomorrow and realized the thing I manifested after I quit smoking HAPPENED on January 11!! – HOW WILD IS THAT. I used it as an example because the vision came, but didn’t realize this was the same time it happened!)
 
The rewards sit side by side 
With you making a big change.
And when YOU DO
The Universe will reward you
With love in your heart
That spills into your art
That overflows onto your path. 
That you then get to walk.
Lucky you
If you decide to DO.  

S A T U R D A Y 9 jan |  
 
Oh loves. So. We now take a step into a new pattern in life or a new person or a new THING that lights us up. We step into the reality of this now -- and have something that we want to hold onto and keep around. 
 
This energy is TOTALLY grounding our far out dreams or the passion we now feel for doing it right this next time and not falling into fears of our past where we then stay present in thinking the old will happen again. Where we are being tested is to NOT think the old will happen again. We are to see that the old is like leaving a town as you drive past it on the road trip across your country. After you pass the town, you are physically gone from it and it's out of your mind. 
 
It needs to be the same with you right now where you think of something repeating in a negative way. Just because you passed a town that looked like THAT doesn’t mean each new town that awaits will be the same.
 
Slates are wiped clean and this is a higher level where different rules apply! For many of you things have changed where it will be easier to get what is right for you. Things come as blessings where your interaction with others is changing and it is more hopeful and FOCUSED on a better future to come. 
 
JUST WATCH how it really is physically harder to hold the thoughts of your past. It's taking even more weight on you. It's even MORE burdensome. And for many of you, you need to hit bottom before you shoot up into the love. And that is okay!! Those who hit bottom have more steam to push up and do even bigger things FROM the painful story of a journey hitting bottom. 
 
So, trust where you end up, my loves. We must stop living from a handbook that wants us all to only seek for good times and party all the time. Life goes up and down, but the down gets us a better up – every time. Down teaches us soul level shit and things that get us really finding ourselves and understanding why we attract scarcity or boundary issues with others. 
 
Where that dog attacked us – we will attack the good life – until we start the healing process. And then in goes into the unknown on how the process is to proceed. But down is good. We must stop seeing down as bad. Just like with the Prosperity Gates, my closed gate is when I created the business you get to enjoy now that is GROUNDED IN REALITY. You don’t come to my page and feel like I am an imposter or trying to be something else. Nothing is puffed out. Actually, I sit grounded and confident with you. And you know it. 
 
But I didn’t sit this sweetly when I started! I sat confident but I still had lessons to learn on how to hold the love you share with me. YOUR LOVE sometimes pushes me into freeze mode – because it's so beautiful and it takes me a minute to see if this is really illusion as it has been so many times in the past. Right? So, we freeze, to see if we can open our eyes and this is still here. Now I can handle your love AND I can show up as exactly who is KV. Which I have been getting more into teaching and a saucy mouth. :) 
 
So, freeze for a minute if you just can't believe, but open your eyes and see that the dream is ready for you to take a leap of faith and JUST SEE. You need to grow and it's time to show that you are ready for this. Look to the horizon and hold steady in knowing you are about to know satisfaction, mind expansion and new space to grow new dreams. This is when we cross bridges into different lives where the past no longer grows reality. Make the horizon, and the new, your place of focus. 
 
 
Things don’t make me better 
or worse than you. 
They don’t make things anything. 
It is just that I do it this way
And you do it that way.
I look this way
And you look that way.
Get used to seeing
With this new perspective. 
No book in the library is the best.
They all serve levels of importance.
We just are. 
And need to give our best
At what we are to show up as. 
​

​F R I D A Y 8 jan |  
 
Okay then! Powerful day here! You are to be taking a leap of faith into something that feels solid and like something you can grow new with. We are finding things that feel like they are rewards for jobs done good, for the ways we have grown and faced our things and stopped the addiction of making everything about everyone else. 
 
It seems that only when we have a problem with someone is there something inside of us that needs to heal. Otherwise people and their ways don’t affect us. Remember when I told you about my friend and how I told her this thing that someone else said about her, and she just smiled and kind of laughed. It didn’t hit her at all, even though MOST people would have then thrown back defensive punches. I had NEVER seen a reaction like that before! 
 
But it didn’t hit her because she didn’t have a wound around other people saying negative things around her. Me, knowing so much of that from my childhood would have gotten me springing into defending myself. But she saw right through it, so she didn’t get stuck in the REACTION of life that OFTEN IS just to test us and see how we handle this. I think about her response ALL THE TIME. It just stuck with me as there being other potential ways to process things. We don’t HAVE to get lit or fired up or full of ego in needing to be seen or needing to be the one who is best. 
 
And it is wise to entertain the pondering into areas where you DO need to be the top dog and to have others see you as such. Even with social media. Do you flow with the unfollows and low likes, because you KNOW how awesome you are no matter what, or does it really bother you. It NEEDS TO NOT phase you anymore. That illusion needs to have its cords cut from you – and energetically that IS happening.
 
So, expect to be in a limbo space with social media where you are seeing that so much of it is a front where those who DO have imposter syndrome HAVE positioned themselves as your authority.  In 2021 it grows stronger where we see how this is an avocado that is not yet ripe. They may look the prettiest and have the prettiest things to market and promote your way, but something will feel off in this oversaturated market now. 
 
And honestly, thank goodness. The coconut cream DOES need to rise. And it is not okay if the coconut milk fronts as coconut cream – but energetically and statistically is coconut milk. Your coffee will know the difference! Other people’s coffee will know the difference.
 
We MUST grow into our expertise and stop hiding our fears and insecurities yet STILL pushing forward with ego and money as the main drives of motivation. Only when we are in our true authority, where we don’t have to push or manipulate, are we home with our true gifts. Discover and go deep but understand that truth rises now and what that means is that things are not what they seemed. No shame blame or guilt, but slide back in line where you need to be and keep growing until your doors open effortlessly.
 
I’m offering my Prosperity Gate readings again! And what I boil it down to is that when you are in a closed gate, you need to stay in the car and keep allowing it to take you places where you learn things and where ultimately life IS happening automatically. EVEN if you don’t understand or enjoy what is coming your way. When in a closed gate, this is your schooling period. You REALLY CAN get cozy in the backseat and just take it all in. 
 
When we move into an open gate, which only happens 3 to 8 times in our life, we are to GET OUT OF THE CAR and now start on foot to go looking around for ways to expand our lives and share what we learned WHILE RIDING IN THE CAR. When we are in an open gate we are TO NOT stay in the car and just receive. We ARE to be outside and looking and making ourselves available as we stay PRESSED to knowing a solution or way to rise is coming our way. 
 
If you know your gates you know your place in line. When you fight your place in line, you get out of the car before you should and then you position yourself in a desert where now you have to hope you can find water up a way, which you may, but it won't be as easy when you are SUPPOSED to come out of the car. You will put yourself in situations that are HARDER if you push when you are in a closed gate. In a closed gate, amazing opportunities can and do come – but they come to you riding in the car. They come on the automatic because they were supposed to in order to help you be even more for when the gate opens. So good things happen for sure!! 
 
But when the gate opens, we need to WAKE UP and be alert to amazing opportunities. They will be there if we are there expecting them. If we stay in the car when we need to go out and greet the blessings, we miss out. 
 
When the gates are open the opportunities DO NOT COME if we are still in the car! It's like stars shining for us. When the gate is open, we need to get out and find our stars. 
 
So, it's important you know your flow, so you know to relax in the back seat and trust the process and be open to receiving -- OR, get out of the car and start walking in search for next step clues on your journey. Open means we need to be way more assertive and active with expecting good things to come. 
 
Open means you need to go to the front door and EXPECT visitors are just about to drive up your road. Closed means you can go get cozy on the couch because if someone is coming, they will come to you and you don’t need to wait at the door for them. When in an open gate, you need to BE IN THE WAIT for something new and wonderful – you need to be pressed to the front door. 
 
What you look for, you get when in an open gate. In the closed gate, what you NEED finds you and often it deals with schooling you into an authority for when your next or next few open gates open for you. 
 
 
 
When in healing
Fears and insecurities are normal.
When healed
Hope and confidence are normal. 
You’ll get where you need to be!
Don’t worry!
Just keep with the journey.
Make getting better your priority. 

​T H U R S D A Y 7 jan |  
 
Something is changing here, and it speaks about how you have decided to let something go, and in doing so another space is to open and THIS somehow deals with a solution or some way that you now will figure out how to rebuild. It almost feels like we have gone as far as we could in one direction and now need to start building from what we learned, but not repeating what hurt us and going for what isn’t exciting to us. 
 
Be aware that people are changing BIG TIME right now and it deals with this huge let go of our pasts and how you all are in silent spaces alone and connecting things so that it is easier to see this and let go of what is ultimately hurting you and your future. This time is when you go deep within and see how you are thinking incorrectly because of the leaning from others pushing you out of your own particular and preferred groove. 
 
Just like when you woke up when you heard certain food facts or life hacks, and now you totally don’t do what you DID do on the automatic. The lean starts to change FROM you acknowledging what got you to change and lean in a certain direction. The looking into the wound, and the spaces you would rather just hide from, gets you choosing a different life and correcting the leaning tower of Pisa that you are so that you can stand straight in your truth. 
 
Think about walking with your wounds and how it turns you into the leaning tower of Pisa and imagine how the lean is gonna make you hit people. It's gonna have you coming at others from the wrong angle. When you stand straight, you honor their boundaries. When you are wounded you tend to cross boundaries – and not be so clear on your own! Standing straight is standing powerful. Standing leaning is standing vulnerable. Just honor that you being hurt ALSO hurts others. And until we heal, we just keep showing up as someone less than who we really are. 
 
Now is when we are to go deep and find what needs to be set straight with a flashlight and time to process this. You should be in your mind, but in older spaces or from the past or where you are researching and looking for what is needing a healing and a wiser view that will have you choosing a different path or way to go about things. 
 
Just like how I told you now, I would NEVER give the mixed messages or push away something that feels good to me. I now ONLY am surrounded in all things good and loving. But it took me facing some hard facts and keeping it real on how things were demolished because of my own wounded wrecking ball.
 
And seeing that hurts – but it strengthens me to never go there again and to be present with life and to see how I am getting in the way because others first got in my way. We all have people who got in our way and did us wrong so that now things are harder. The point is that now we need to go another way and not concern ourselves so much with the problems as we rise more powerful and determined to break through anything that gets in our way. When you heal and rise, you are the Mama Bear protecting babies. Aint NOTHIN gonna get in your way when you awaken. And especially not yourself and your wounded leaning Tower of Pisa.
 
 
 
Standing straight is standing powerful. 
Standing leaning is standing vulnerable.
Your wounds get you to lean.
Your healing journey sets you straight. 
When you come to the fork in the road
That says heal or stay wounded.
Choose the healing journey.
Don’t repeat what done you wrong.