M O N D A Y 4 jan |
Oh look! We don’t see the 0 all that often in the daily energies but we have it today. We have 0, which means IT RETURNS. And we have 1, which means ASSERT.
So, we step into similar energy from yesterday, and now we really get that we need to go towards what will bring healing or balance into our lives. I told you all how doing the 40 day fast rebooted my emotional system to the point my wounds couldn’t hold so tightly to my future.
But because of what I came from and heard, it was REAL HARD for me to welcome in love or be loved or be adored. Inside I would get stumped on WHY you could want me. It wasn’t an automatic where I would expect it, but rather where my wounds stopped you at a gate and then threw you into an obstacle course where I would TRY to push you away.
And, I know I AM NOT ALONE in this. But when my system rebooted, I said how now there is NO WAY I will let love pass me by. Like, there is nothing in me that thinks I don’t deserve, and in fact I think I deserve the very best. And all the no, no, no is nothing but knowing I am getting closer.
Our minds are being shifted to steer towards NOT ALWAYS THINKING WE ARE VICTIMS. When you stop getting mad at how the world and others have kept you from something, you get up and DO the something. But staying mad stays you in the energy you SO want to see turn into something else. WE SEE THIS NOW. And it can be a rude awakening to some, where you stay a bit stunned and almost teetering back into the past and to what feels like it still hurts you.
So be aware that we are side by side with the old world and the new and it is time to stop painting the fear into your future. And to really get it that your thoughts and actions matter. Just try it! Just try and see how holding the better thoughts brings you the better life. It is time to start walking and to stop crawling where things are harder. But it takes doing the work to get you there. You absolutely have got to get up and clear the clutter and organize the spaces and do and do and do UNTIL your things return or arrive.
Don’t think like you will do something IF this thing happens. Do it now and see that THEN your thing happens. Pay it forward or do something that banks on another thing happening – and don’t just fear it away and keep it from happening where it ends up on your list of regrets.
To stop the regrets that eat your mind alive, you have to DO and get into the habit of answering or keeping with things, even if bit by bit and step by step. But TOWARDS ACTION is where our lives are headed. Enough sitting around and giving your life to a screen when you can give your life to a hike, to sharing with friends, to nature, to a nap, to writing letters of appreciation. There is more for us to GIVE OUR LIVES TO and it needs to be about what feels like love and beauty. Enough of staying fixated into what ultimately keeps us sad and jaded.
UNDERSTAND that you may have heavy loads to work through and will for some time. SEE them in a new light. Don’t only see the problem and don’t think it isn’t PERFECT that you now have to dig your way out of what you chose when you didn’t really value and love yourself. The journey THROUGH this heals and it will bring you to the other side.
When you stop getting mad
At how the world and others
Have kept you from something,
You get up and DO the something.
Fuck em for putting you through this
But fuck if it will get you down.
All obstacles lead to greater heights
So, thank the fuckers for “fucking up” your path.
They actually are getting you to greater heights.