T U E S D A Y 23 june |
And here comes these forces that are trying to knock you down, like dodgeball or something where you WILL need to be at attention so that you don’t get taken down by the test that is to arrive.
The thing is that what is coming is really important because this deals with you seeing yourself as essential and feeling this inner need moving you forward and into the light where you ARE expecting things better to come your way.
What I can tell you about my experiences being in trauma therapy is that I now see how I expected so much pain, rejection and for everyone to hate me because that is what I saw in my childhood. I saw that I had no value and nobody wanted me. Even my brother didn’t say more than 5 words to me my whole life, and EVERY TIME he would make eyes with me, where I accidentally looked at him, he would give me a scowl like he hated my guts.
So without even understanding it, and certainly not deserving it, I walked into the world expecting people to see me the way my mother and brother saw me – and not the way my Dad saw me, who I only saw about 3 times a year, but who SAW me and LOVED ME. So I got 99% hate, and the 1% love was what I would hold on to, to pull me through, to get me through, to keep me going and wishing for one day when I would be seen as special and I would really be loved and appreciated for who I was – a basic right that most others got automatically.
I will always have a shredded tapestry that holds me, and I can't change a thing about that, but I now have to adapt and stay conscious to how I CAN fall into lower ways, expecting that to be my life and to then attract people who want to hurt me the way my mother and brother did. I CAN go there automatically -- and it's on me to upgrade what I EXPECT TO SEE so that I see things that bring me joy instead of pain.
In HOW I WAS Iooking out at people with my wounded eyes, it wasn’t until I started manifesting only the most out of sync and hurtful people with me, that I finally woke up to how I WAS attracting them, EXPECTING people like this, people who could do the things they did – and ultimately, they were attracting and expecting me! But we were coming together to feel no support from the other, after the superficial fronts fall to the ground to reveal the truth behind the intellectualized WANT for this to work out.
When you know trauma, you are tested to stand up for your BODY SIGNS and say NO. We don’t just manifest the bliss or win the lottery for reward for how much we went through in our past. We actually then are tested to see if we will continue to manifest what we saw – which we do. OR – if no matter what we are like people in slavery who dreamed every day that one day they or future generations would be free. It was ALWAYS on the mind and in the dreams.
AT THIS TIME in history ---- our dreaming is manifesting quickly. Our thoughts are manifesting quickly, our lives are upgrading quickly and our New Earth is birthing no matter what you see on the news or how you gauge if the guard has truly changed.
Trust this. The Light is on Top. The Light is in Majority. And as I have said for 7 years, Black Women have more manifesting power than other humans. No one comes close to how much THEY CAN CHANGE THE WORLD through the vibration they hold. Things are changing because Our Queens are Rising. And as per Mama Earth, when the Queen Rises, We All Rise. So there is no scarcity when Black Women are in higher roles and being valued. So we need to do everything we can to SHOW THEM that they are special, they are loved, they are essential, they are needed, they are beautiful, they are desired, they are on top because then they will have time to sit with that inside and to use their vibration to set things straight – to see that they are ORDERING how we all need things to be here on Earth. The guards have changed and the Queens Rise to dream this place better where we ALL will get to thrive.
Look into the future with hope. You deserve it better and you are allowed to say NO until it really feels like it will hold you spirit and soul. You deserve the very best and you need to start seeing it deep inside so that it overflows.
you are allowed to say NO
until it really feels like
it will hold you spirit and soul.