S A T U R D A Y 24 oct |
OH WOW! First off, we are in one of our days where the veils are thin and those who have crossed over can reach us easier, and they TEND TO. Usually Grandma or Grandpa shows up with their scent or a strong thought out of nowhere. My Dad came on the last opening, and we’ll see who it is today.
BUT HERES THE THING. This day will actually test you hardcore!!! Like, you won't just get to sail into the magical feeling of the day, and you will be tested with things you need to be tested with to see if you will grab onto this negative thing and allow it to ruin your day. So, you can grow super fixated into something that upsets you to the point your mind replays the debate of what you would like to say.
DON’T LET THIS HAPPEN. It IS the trick of the day. And just like in recognizing that a speed bump is up ahead, this is where you just need to slow down and pay attention, but don’t steer off into the gutter to go fighting with someone or to blow your fuse because then you WONT get a visitation or the thing that inspires you with surprises or upgrades that show you the way -- when you have been so stuck for a while and you NEED this gift.
This day is to liberate you in seeing there is something else, but it needs the correct foundation to lay onto. Like a basecoat or a primer that comes from you being in a certain state of mind today. Just 100% don’t fight and don’t tango with anyone who has a tongue that you KNOW could do a lashing. Don’t be that annoying person who has to be right and who has to be superior and one up you and dominate you as if their way is the only way. Be aware that the test may invite you to dance, but I think you all will do good and will swat away the fly instead of getting into a fight with it. IT'S NOT WORTH IT!!!
IF you are too much in the world today you will start to feel like you don’t have a place and you don’t know how to work with others so that you can get your truth through. Just be aware that we are learning our way out of situations where we are tangled in caustic ways with others, and how we end up being the fuel to fire them into a fury – WHEN we need to learn to be the higher beings and to not have to fight back or get even or show them who is boss. We need to learn to pick our battles and STOP GIVING OUR DAY AWAY to the dysfunction of others who should NOT be stealing our energy when we need to be focused on fixing things and coming together and realizing how precious our energy is.
People are waking up through things coming at them like synchronicity and out of the blue SO THAT you wake to your value. An old friend may appear to affirm that you are a gift to the world. Open up and receive this connection that wants to ignite you into positive action. This day wants to bring you together, not tear you apart.
This day wants to bring you together,
Not tear you apart.
Go to where you are supported.
And don’t you dare one up anyone.
That is not the higher way.
And you don’t want to plant those seeds
In your dream garden to be.
Value your time and space.
F R I D A Y 23 oct |
Wow. This day feels very different and where most of you are going to notice that you are in a different space and much more focused on putting things into better order from a higher sense of value, and also with the awareness that illusion is taking most people but you are somehow seeing into the depth of hidden material to the point you are in alignment with what is NOT being shown.
But it's confusing because it requires that you believe in yourself to step into the rebuild of what you can see is out of balance. And therefore, there will be the temptation to follow along and do as the masses are being programmed, because it is the main prescribed way – OR, to totally go against all that and stand solid with what you feel inside.
This energy is PROFOUND. And it deals with you finally getting yourself out of the gutter, where you ARE positioning yourself because YOU DO expect the worst, or you are entertaining negative scenarios and PAINTING THEM INTO YOUR FUTURE. For every thought and action you put out there, it comes back 100 fold somewhere in your life up the way.
You will be crushed in the future if you keep planting negative things in this NOW. It is because we only get things later that we don’t want to believe this could be true. But it is true. Life on Earth is about Karma, and we always get back what we put out there – and it hurts to admit or to see that one’s current position could be from past decisions.
But we also can correct our ships today. We can start it over where we keep our minds and bodies clean and see that doing so actually brings the solutions and upgrades we seek so that we are finally happy and finally loving the lives we create. My new home is magnificent, and it is the best home, best neighborhood, best feeling, best everything that I have ever had in my whole life. How it is today is not like it has ever been before. And I think I’m in heaven in this new town and life of mine! I SCORED.
But dude, I earned this. Because no matter how much anyone wants to misinterpret me or leave something dysfunctional so that they do want to hurt me or discredit me, I have NEVER fought back or defended myself where I hate on them and point out any flaws I may see – which is what we do when we feel hurt by others; we rip them apart.
And we are to stop doing that as of today because it will never get you what you want – in the same way that if you keep saying no one will ever love you, that energy IS being planted. It's like voting for the gutter, when WTF. You deserve to be valued and living a life that no one before you could create in the divine way you are SET TO. Pay attention to those words!!!!!!! It's time to get you a better life.
It's good Karma to let things go and realize that we all are wounded and if you have a problem with me, it really is your problem. And if I have a problem with you and can't stop thinking about how much I want you to suffer and have failure in your future, then OH BOY, I sure am planting seeds of suffering and failure in my future – somewhere up ahead. It's like taking from a retirement fund.
ENERGY IS ENERGY. YOU DON’T GET TO FEEL SOMETHING AND NOT HAVE IT ALSO COME BACK TO YOU BECAUSE OF THE KARMA ASPECT OF EARTH. SO ALL YOUR EMOTIONS ARE ADDING UP TO SOMETHING. ALL THAT YOU SAY IN YOUR MIND AND ALL THAT YOU SAY WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT OTHERS BEHIND THEIR BACKS, IT'S ALL COMING BACK TO YOU. 100 FOLD. ---------- NOW YOU UNDERSTAND WHY SO MANY PEOPLE ARE SUFFERING AND ALL ABOUT HATING ON EVERYTHING DIFFERENT FROM WHAT THEY ARE. That can't stop planting misery seeds in their future.
So clean your shit up. We all have to do this on Earth, and to delve into our shadows and to make peace and to BE BETTER PEOPLES, or we will create miserable lives where we only want to divide because we are so jealous of other people and what they have and how we turn this into a story that because they have, you don’t get to have. So they become a threat and where you can't stop hating on them.
If you face your wounds and the shadowy things you have done, because you have been hurt, and that hurt is expressing, your life gets better because you start being kinder to yourself, and that’s the doorway to being compassionate with others.
Things are manifesting QUICKLY
For the next few weeks.
You got to be aware
Of the energy you share.
Time to wake up hardcore.
Don’t get down if you wake up
To why you are where you are
And it hurts to admit.
WE ALL have been hurtful.
But to face this and correct it
Is the only way to the new earth life
That so many of you have already caught onto.
T H U R S D A Y 22 oct |
Okay!! This is a big day and we are going back into the wound of the last 8 years, with a spontaneous change of energy, that can give some of you vertigo or leave you feeling ungrounded, but where you are going to be saying your final good bye to something that was in your system and allowing this other thing to come your way.
For example, when you are wounded you say YES to things that are absolutely a NO and you say NO to things that are absolutely a YES. You get real confused because you weren’t shown love or loyalty or compassion or whatever. And where we were wounded, we attract to others who will give us what will hurt us or let us down. And we do this until we wake up, or we heal, or until we get a therapist who truly is an authority and who truly wants to see us grow.
When we get less, we choose for less. IT IS A FACT. This one is 100% verifiable. So see that something that was done wrong to you that influenced changes within the last 8 years, that got you choosing for things that did not work out well, is now leaving your storybook where you are rising into the teaching of it and seeing the error of your ways.
For example, when I moved into my last house, I got so many warnings in my body on the woman who owned it. I saw the image of a snake, which I interpreted as me needing to protect myself, so I demanded that we get a property manager so that I wouldn’t have to deal with the owner. I saw that my warnings were just so that I would take protective precautions, like you would with a snake.
And basically, now living in a new home, and with how things ended up, I have a whole other way of walking life, where NO WAY IN SHIT ASS HELL am I going to get in a contract with ANYONE who I feel I have to protect myself from. This was one of the top worst experiences in my life and where I really saw a way that a human can be that I never saw in my whole life. From the moment I moved in, the neighbors poured in to visit to talk to me about how I should probably break the lease and lose a couple months rent because they said NO ONE leaves with what they came with and the owner usually tries to hurt everyone who leaves.
And keeping it real, I didn’t believe them. I actually didn’t take it seriously because I had NEVER heard anyone talk so nasty about another person. This was like Jerry Springer madness. So I kind of judged them for talking so negatively about someone who was not here to give their side of things. But. You know what. At the end of the journey, I now see they were 100% correct and warning me because they didn’t want to see another person hurt by this woman.
But I had to walk it myself and believe it was not as horrible as 100% of everyone, the neighbors, the power company, the propane company, the whole town, was telling me, SO THAT I WOULD GET STRONG ENOUGH TO NEVER DO THAT AGAIN. Because of doing that bad move, that maybe was a perfect move, I have a tongue that is sharp as a snake in that I know if something doesn’t feel right, IT IS NOT RIGHT!! It means GET OUT. Only the wounded would try to make it work. So, think about that. Only the wounded try to make it work. The healed say, fuck that shit and give a clear NO to what is absolutely a NO and unacceptable to step into. I didn’t get it going into this experience, but coming out, my standards have gone next level in what I will or will not allow into my entire world. It changed me that much.
So also see that we all have a playbook of where we too rented the house, signed the agreement, got into a collaboration, a partnership -- when we had warnings galore – and where we then sit in hindsight feeling so down that we said yes to this thing that deserved our no. But just realize, it's hard to understand but we HAVE to learn our lessons through walking them. We don’t just get to show up street smart about life – UNTIL we learn the hard way. So, embrace this hard way and kick this old habit to the curb that gets you accepting less than. You made a choice, you paid the price, let it go and grow from it. It HAD TO BE to get you this wise. Trust.
You made a choice,
You paid the price,
Let it go and grow from it.
It HAD TO BE
To get you this wise.
There is no other way to enlightenment.
S A T U R D A Y 10 october |
Today is an important day where things are coming together, and you are being asked to express your emotions and to talk about what you're feeling as you bring it to the forefront and let what is inside of you be known. You may feel unstable over what you are seeing in the world to the point it freezes you and you don’t know what to do. Be okay with how things hit you, knowing that you feeling and expressing emotions is the point of this.
The energy wants you speaking up about how you feel and not letting others gaslight you and steam roll over you to the point you just follow along and end up miserable on their dead end path. You are to break free and do what you feel and do it with gusto, knowing that you need this steam in order to get you through the rebuilding process where other things were done wrong.
Many people will not understand what is going on right now and they will beat themselves up for it. Some people will feel the pressure of what they feel inside their bodies and it will be too much to hold. Be compassionate with others and do what you can to get them talking about their emotions. We just need to talk and express how things are sort of scary and unstable. But from seeing how so many are on the same page, we also are finding ways to declare stronger boundaries about what we need to feel safe, secure and like we are supported.
From empty places we awaken to designing something that WILL hold us and that does help us feel like we have a place in the world. Things are to reboot and start over at this time from what you are feeling and how something stronger is growing in you where you will NOT back down just because some people want to tell you that you are wrong or selfish or only looking out for yourself.
Be aware that people only want to fight today, and that is why they argue with anything you are deciding to do. But see that inside they are feeling scared and miserable – but they haven’t processed their emotions so that they can digest it and get the fuel that motivates them to make the changes. So, YOU hold compassion and be the space for the belief that we can start over and that we are not too far gone. Walk like you know you are starting something new and THIS will hold you in all the ways you wish. Just don’t let go of declaring how better you need things. And don’t buy into the illusion of others who are dead set on driving their lives further into the gutter. See beyond their aggression and use it to motivate you in a better direction. What hits us is to get us creating something better and NOT buying into its dysfunction or manipulative ways.
You will do something today and you won't know why you did this, but something will pull you into it and you need to surrender! This is testing to see if you trust but also if you will go on what your body spontaneously tells you to do. It wants you to GO on this but to not have any clue how it could possibly come true. Seek to protect and preserve what will support you.
From inspiration inside your body
You will decide to GO
But you won't have any clue
How it could possibly come true.
Keep at it! Here is where
Love finds you.
F R I D A Y 9 october |
Good morning my loves! So today you should feel a bit tired because we are at the top of the moon mapping wheel where we move into 2 weeks of an inward space of putting things into a better order. But we get super inspired today to want to think and plan around something and to start laying it out so that your life runs better in the near future.
The energy can have you wanting to work on your home or what you have around you BECAUSE it helps you feel in control when the world outside of you feels so out of YOUR control. So, take advantage of how you naturally want to nest or work on the home or do things that get you feeling safe and secure and nurtured and in SOMETHING that gets you creating the space of safety.
You are to work towards the feeling of what has you feeling full or like you are supported from what is around you. You may even want to paint your walls a dark color, which you should! Dark warm tones are LOVELY, and they DO NOT make the room look small; they make it feel unbelievably cozy. It's like heated walls. Cool tone colors are a different story. But make the changes, even if they are small, and where you are using your voice around where you need support and nurturing and things that help you feel more comfortable at home SO THAT you have more steam to go out there and kick some ass in the world.
So where you feel soft and you want to pull away or not be out in the world, DO SO. It is 100% perfect timing for you to unplug and NOT JUDGE that your body needs to rest for a minute. Stop fighting your natural flows because this normal cycle is to get you seeing that you are ready to really assert yourself this time and really find the way to not get conned by what sucks the life out of you, and to make the essential and often fluctuating changes that keep you feeling nurtured and supported and held like a good mama letting you know there IS a mama bear watching over you. And they would be wise to step back and get out the way.
So allow this time to hold you and listen to what your body tells you to do. You are to not fight the cravings or the baths or the many blankets or the movies you want to be the way of your day. You are to just listen and support your own self SO AS TO THEN manifest the best support from others, OR the voice and words you need to share so as to GO FOR the support you need.
You also may feel low or sad, but you won't have words or understanding as to what exactly this is for. It may not make sense. But something is sad in order to move you, and also to honor that too much is too much, and sometimes you have to take care of you before you think others will. And OFTEN you taking care of you gets you feeling so brand new that you wonder why you didn’t do this sooner. Massages always get us feeling like we should have always been doing this and now have to include it in our monthly self-care. Allow your body to guide you to something that may need tears and food and down time but let it be okay and allow this natural reboot that WILL get you full steam tomorrow and ready to start over with serious power. Let this day first soothe you and get you ready. Do only what feels like a yes in your body. LAY LOW.
It's time for you to say no
To all that needs you
To tap dance for it.
Make today about your own self care
And go towards what feels like
Support, love and mouthfuls of yummy.
T H U R S D A Y 8 october |
HERE WE GO!! Something about this energy is the golden ticket. I also heard the words, ding, dong, the wicked witch is dead. And since I do the readings early, who knows what this really means, but what I feel is that we are losing aspects of our nature that fell for deceit or that could be conned because we were so wounded -- and made gullible from the wounding.
But now the lights are turned on and something is undeniable. This creates a mass movement of change that now speaks in a different way and where we are going into wanting to learn how to heal the ways we push away the good and attract and run full speed ahead towards the bad. Something snaps us to attention where the lights get us seeing what is revealed that is about going towards things corrupt or that hurt others.
And it's like the mama bear is waking in us all where we are thinking about our impact on others, thinking about how to take care of our babies when threats abound, and thinking about how to come together to do more together. Mama bear puts her own issues aside and strives to learn as quickly, and to vibe highly as graciously, because there is a bigger job to focus on, and getting these babies saved is everything. Imagine what the mama bear went through who lived near me in Jemez Springs and how a speeding car killed one of her 2 babies. And then they started coming to my house every night, which I think is because of my dog that looks like a little bear, and me too, but I think the twin or the mama was drawn to him. Imagine what that mama went through, knowing too it was a tourist in town speeding through the mountain curves, as they did on weekends. That human going too fast for the thrill of it, of venting his frustration at feeling so powerless in life, and then killing what was just in its natural habitat and having a beautiful day.
We are in something like this where the toxic minded are creating change to what is innocent and love. And you are to know that this only means we get stronger from the pain, and from the horrible journey of loss that ends up placing us solid in this moment where we ARE aware and grateful for what we have still, as we EAGERLY step into position to protect what is being threatened. Mama bear protects – and at all cost.
So you may be called to show yourself where you maybe overhear something in public where someone is being harassed or something is just not right, and you WILL notice yourself quickly acting like you are doing something as you really wait to hear if this needs you intervening. You also will notice OTHERS are intervening, so you may just want to pause and see who is also processing if they should jump in because they are better qualified to be this thing that stops a negative force. This may be happening a lot, and right after you had such a gorgeous day. So be aware that when you need to protect, you will step up – and it is ON YOU to say yes to this opportunity to show yourself stronger. You got it in you!
Never it is awesome
that we have to go through death to vibe higher,
but always does it happen.
From here today,
to gone tomorrow
should get you loving more on today.
W E D N E S D A Y 7 october |
Today is exciting and it's when things feel to be coming back to together or your hope is rising because of news that comes that deals with the rebuild and setting things straight. People are talking and there is going to be a lot of action over the next 2 days. But we are coming together, and something has transformed how we see the patriarchy and the manipulation that is keeping people small and not dreaming for more.
So with this knowledge, we are changing in wanting to do what we can to personally keep our mental spaces pure and where we are MORE tuned into our own bodies, rather than the media manipulation, which is owned by a handful of the elite, who own them all, manipulate them all, and have millions to advertise so as to control YOU. I always say how I stopped watching the news with the OJ Simpson trial, which wildly the Kardashian father is the one who got OJ off -- but being a Pisces, I was NOT about the news because I quickly noticed that it would change me and make me sad and hopeless from all the scary stories. So, I instead went out and walked life, away from the addiction to thinking I needed news from some billionaire source – that OBVIOUSLY has intentions of controlling me. I feel doing this made me a better judge of character and also it got me seeing where I feel very wrong about messages that the media is saying are VERY RIGHT.
If you only know one thing, you believe it heart and soul. But now that you know we all are being manipulated, you need to get to your mind and stay focused on what you SHOULD be believing in and what you SHOULD be taking in that influences your energy to hold hope. If you can't do anything about something AND it squashes your hope for a bright future, get out. That is the plan put into place to keep you behind the TV and out of the world where you gain in strength to really kick ass and show that you DO know best and ARE vibing to a station that is about love.
Others are coming to inspire you to keep at some goal and to assert towards your own personal rebuild. So, keep your head up today and know that the messages coming are what you need to see, and they also are to get you lightening up in your mind! Some people talk about their fears, and they are opening up about how they made it right again. So, listen to how this shows you that you need to see something in a more positive light.
You also are going to feel creative or will be thinking about your creative projects and how to do more of what you love. It comes from giving less time to what gets you to hate! Think about that. Like, if you walk in a room that has a real bad smell, don’t you back out and shut the door and move on? Do the same with what is around you and keep going towards what feels light and invigorating. SOMETHING is to spark you alive today – and it WILL change the way you have been thinking! This is just the thing to set you alive again. Be ready. This day is very important for us.
Something will spark
And it’ll get your heart to speak up
About how you DO deserve
To see, hold and manifest a better story.
Open your mind to a better side
Of why things had to be.
But open your mind
And look to what is high.
T U E S D A Y 6 october |
Oh my! Things are busy in the airwaves today and you need to stay conscious of putting yourself in the light and declaring that only things of the highest vibration come your way. Know that things connect but they also change quickly, and it means we will get up and go, but maybe not know we are going to get up and go until we hear the call. You will be coming in contact with others, and there is a lot of fear around you, but you are to stand strong in this beam of light and just use the energies of today where you are seeing yourself higher and feeling something better about life. Put your focus on some higher point and just don’t let go!
Things are amplified today, and it means all will be out and about – and we are coming together with others who are talking about things that we are learning to process in new ways. Right now, it's important that you are valuing yourself and declaring your boundaries and using your throat to go for and not hold back. Our throats will be getting stronger in not backing down when something is wrong. And what shows up now is for you to show yourself in a way that is carefree, but assertive when needing to stand up.
You may even notice yourself changing drastically today where you are going along and all peaceful and then you spark up furious over something. If it happens today, it's about something you need to stand up in regard and it deals with something you will be asserting more in the coming times. So, injustice may spark you, and that fury is something where others HAVE had control over you, or you followed along only to realize they were way wrong.
At this time, you are to come to another side, and it is to change from what you share or talk about -- and it also is to inspire you that you CAN change. You may even be saying things to partners where you are working to be clearer and to speak in ways that empower and not just see all that is wrong and then take that inwards and find reasons to think YOU are doing something wrong.
We are in mental spaces today because we are getting to the bottom of how we have had some glass half empty approach, like thinking we are too old to fall in love or have missed some boat for career success. If in the mind, it's always being pushed into your future to walk. So, we have to hit moments like today where we really wake up to what we are doing, where we really pay attention to the words we use and the intentions behind them. We are to see that what we put out there is watering our gardens and the food we will eat.
Stay very conscious and in the moment today – because you will see what is the culprit in keeping the good life away. It is in your thoughts today. All that is negative needs to be documented in a notebook for you to examine. Why does that thing trigger you or get you feeling negative and as if there is not enough to go around? What thoughts present right now that cut you down or give reason to say you are a fraud? Look closely and see that you hold the key to shifting the negative thoughts into something more compassionate and trusting of the journey. Do what you can, and you will see a difference within hours!
If in the mind,
it's always being pushed into
your future to then personally walk.
Be mindful of your mind.
It CAN be shifted to a higher station.
But you got to make the change.
M O N D A Y 5 october |
Okay. We now come out of the tests for a minute and into us feeling like we have free rein to roam, as things have changed so that our passion is totally focused and aware of what is valuable about life and what we need to do to make sure we are building or planning towards the correction of what we now know is transforming and in need of guidance on how to lay down a proper foundation so that corners are not cut, like in the capitalistic corporate way, and value is back in the picture.
Quality over quantity. Amazing sex over random sex. A homemade meal over fast food. Hanging out with friends in the physical over a relationship only by text. Things in the world are getting us to want to hold on tightly and to bring things back to where we are connected to them and life feels valuable to us, like we are working for something that will grow and develop. In the air we are seeing where those in power are stifling all motion and trying to keep people hopeless, down and out.
But the people are waking, and our focus is on Mama Earth and how we can stand up to others who are carelessly doing spinouts in the beautiful flower gardens. Things are having people stand up louder and your voice is needed in going against manipulation that is fear based and stealing your power. Basically, what you need to know is that it IS stealing your power. And just like if you were needing to memorize words from a book but a tv and stereo were going on, those things would be stealing your power.
You need to be clear with boundaries and getting stronger with your words when you know this is unacceptable and not okay. So be aware that you may have to come in louder, but if you feel it in your body, do it. You need to move where you feel called to stand up for the matriarchy in ways the patriarchy has used and abused. Something is really hitting the airwaves right now and it IS a clash and it IS the old not wanting to let go while the new is showing up with palpable situations that are sensual and where things are so full of life.
So, it's really a no brainer when the dark situations come to tease you. This moment is really affirming that you have changed, and you value your time and space too much to dip down into negative waters where you know people are wounded and lost -- and NOT in need of you joining them. Hold yourself higher and expect better. Invest if you have to and do something that plants the seeds that you do believe you can make this investment of your creative gifts or something that you see sustaining you. You are to ground something in at this time and know deeply in your soul that you will stick with this AND that it will eventually grow you something you will be able to hold. This feeling is coming BECAUSE you have been learning to value yourself more. We choose wonderful things when we value ourselves. The world will grow beautiful when we value ourselves.
The world will grow beautiful
When we value ourselves.
When we know we are love
We want to love others.
When we don’t know we are love
We want to hurt others.
Find that you ARE love.
No more intentional hurting.
S U N D A Y 4 october |
Okay love! Be aware that another test is here! This just goes to show how huge the upgrade was with the Full Moon in Aries! There always will be swings from good to bad or extra tests when you stand at the gateway to the new. Basically as we have moved into the New Earth vibrations, and many of you are like REALLY in this wildly loving space, but it then tempts you to go back and to fall into your old ways and to be what you most know you have grown beyond and don’t want to take with you.
This energy is much like yesterday, but way stronger. It's where things are sparking like lightning bolts where before there was nothing, and now it has all our attention. Just trust that this is a test to see if you roll with it, or if you make it everything and then it sends you into feelings like you don’t belong or you can't support yourself or there is something wrong.
This time wants to see that you instead are falling into creative spaces where you want to get to work and clean your things up and get in alignment for what you want to see unfold for you. Like getting your outfit picked out the day before an interview. We are to be getting ready, even if we don’t know what for! I would say just start on one project, one little thing. Maybe even walk around with sage and as you go see if anything pulls you, like what about repotting that plant and putting it in the bathroom? Or sweeping outside and cleaning up energy suckers like cobwebs and dust.
Just notice that when you start with one thing, you end up getting so much done today and it can really feel awesome. You are to connect things that get you moving more efficiently. But it comes when you wander along and just keep at making things more beautiful around you – like really taking care with time so that you are doing what needs to be done so that you feel secure in life or like the crops and flowers are taken care of. Like if the flowers out front are dying from no water and you are inside in front of the tv – like, get your ass up.
Tend to what is around you and your life will be blessed. But you need to value yourself and see that you deserve to have things be more beautiful. And bitching about how wrong things are won't get you the new things you want. Realize this today. See that where you want something fixed, go fix it, you badass. You can do whatever you set out to do. Just do it. And stop doing it the old way. Don’t allow your mind or your hope spaces to think of anything old that was something that really got you off path. Just see that you have served the time and now you really can dream for something that sticks around in the best of ways, that supports and sees you as a missing piece to what sets things straight.
Seriously. See that you are done and clean what is around you as you send the old away with a thank you and good bye. Make big space for the glorious new that is like a cherished house guest on the way. Get your place ready and you will see actually you have a lot to be grateful for around you. When better placed its actually kind of lovely.
Tend to what is around you
And your life will be blessed.
Tend to what values you
That brings value to what you do.
Enjoy being busy.
It's the action that will make you happy.
S A T U R D A Y 3 october |
Things are forcing you to step up and to vibe in your higher ways, but they do it through trying to trip you up and trying to bring others your way who are on plan to trigger you and get you losing your mind and going fully fixated into something that only has you questioning yourself and wondering if you should have done what you did or can do what you dream.
So just be aware that it's a test to stay conscious, but it is only a test. And you only need to step beyond what is there that is trying to get a reaction out of you, and to put that pattern to rest where you see all it was doing was showcasing that you have wounds to heal. If you get lit up and furious and want to rip people to shreds, there is something still to heal in you because even in the face of the most grotesque injustice, we still are only operating at higher mode if we use it to be a step ladder to something or a call to action where we didn’t know we were needed. Be like a vacuum cleaner and just clean it up. Don’t let it make you mad when it is on the way out. Be joyful that now you know, and get that shit sucked the fuck out of our atmosphere. Time to go.
We are moving into a 4 day window where things are really going to go off the charts where it is as bipolar as you can imagine. This is on purpose, and just think like with video games, and expect the bad dudes are going to try to get in your way. But don’t go plowing into them unless you know you got the extra juice to move them out of your way. You know they are coming so don’t just accept decimation. Make your time and life sacred today, seeing that you are to use your energies in the best way -- and is fighting with someone else the best way? Especially when you know this person is not going to change in the ways you want them to right now.
You in some way need to let something go, almost as a sacrifice, to allow this upleveling to take place. But what you are sacrificing is the bullshit that has been trying to keep you down! We now need to strengthen how you value yourself, and what you really feel about who you are – inside and where you think no one can see. You are battling something where you are either the whore or virgin – and you aren’t allowing an inbetween. Try to see how you can be either and at any time and it's still okay. See that it is okay to make shifts and to make changes in your life where you expect more and start to look out and see that you want nicer things around you. Something in your energy needs to change to draw them closer. So be aware that you are switching a theme right now and over the next few days where you will become the virgin again or the whore again. Because it is always again and again. We change.
At this time you are to look out and see where you are not being valued and you are to send out your call that you are ready to connect in situations that bring you the things that see you and support your creative gifts, to fill you up with water where you have been left dry. Call it to you by getting real clear on what miraculous thing you would love to see now move into outward motion, like into the whore where you have spent enough time introverted and to yourself.
Feel where you need to change and trust that what you need will be provided. Grow something new where you are feeling taken care of or heard or seen or valued so that it does get you focused on doing more of what you love to do and feeling like you are really living your soul’s purpose gifts right now. We are to jump into new waters, but ones that ground us and that get us feeling highly creative and as if we want to tend our gardens and upgrade our spaces and do what we can to take care of what we can control around us.
The secret right now is that for us to clean up the mess on Earth, we need to clean from inside our bodies, and also around our immediate spaces. We need to make the most of what we got but to not let things go into slovenly and lazy states. The new energy saturating Earth wants you BUSY -- until you need self-care down time. It wants you making decisions and then asserting your energy to get it done. So, allow your body to be led and just see how grounded and solid all the new changes make you feel. It is worth it, as are you.
Allow your body to be led
And just see how grounded & solid
All the new changes make you feel.
It is worth it.
As are you.
Expect your tides to change
And for the good life to be on your horizon.
It’s time for you to passionately be loved on.
F R I D A Y 2 october |
We got a big test here, loves! Today you are coming face to face with a pattern that began in the last 8 years where now you are to be assertive with what you bring where you are NOT waffling or going back and forth trying to be nice or pleasant, and instead you are to be strong in declaring a new way where you are NOT buying into a fear or some disappointment or shift in energy that got you on this current path that is NOT making you happy.
You went wrong a little while ago from something that did you wrong that you haven’t really been able to let go of. And now you are facing a gateway that has to be entered from facing what got you out of order, and where you are to handle it this time in a way that makes you laugh – instead of scream or cry. Whatever comes today that was the theme of your last few years, that had you wondering about what this means or if you did something wrong, it is here today in the energy for you to set it straight and to start creating a new workout program that gets you moving in the direction of correction.
Be aware that others are HUGE tests for you today and they will be a lower vibration that is full of rage and fury. Don’t be one of them. Don’t fall back into the angry pants patterns that only keep you in hell inside. Others will be loud and in your face and all about wanting you to know how right they are. And you are NOT going to bite, my loves.
Realize that you need to keep your attention on where you act like a baby when you don’t get your way. You need to see when and where you get angry and want to hurt others or push them out of the way or scream and act short and violent. Think about how you get mad in traffic and push your car against another person’s car and stay fixated on how angry you are that they are in your way -- and realize that only assholes act angry inside over things like that. And assholes are just in need of therapy and healing. As we all learned when we too were cruel about things where we weren’t getting our way and it made us furious and violent.
But truthfully is it okay for us to act like that and to inflict our negative energy to others who were just driving along, trying to get to work, trying to figure out how to pay the bills, trying to stay hopeful in this scary climate – and then you come up on them with your car to their rear end, trying to inflict your power OVER them. I mean keeping it real, what do you think this will end up manifesting you? Seriously? What do you think? Nothing? Do you think nothing happens when we are cruel hearted and intentionally mean to others?
Or do you see that someone HAS to also now be a car that comes up to your rear end and sends you daggers of hate vibrations, thus disrupting your drive to work where you were seeking out hope. This pattern has all of you full of hatred – and way more hate than love. And we all need to wake the fuck up.
So. To get out of this pattern you must act neutral by what you get hit by today. You must show that you are not affected by the car behind you as you realize it is just a part of life. You are to roll where the punches come and do what you can to pull over and let others pass you or do things where you are not keeping aggression pointed your way, which is not always possible, so at least where you are not changing who you are because they disrupted something. Instead put out words that talk like you know something magical is about to line up and you are going to see the most awesome people cross your path.
See and intend that you won't be ruffled in any negative ways and that doing so will get you to way better days. Today we cross something, but we have to pass this test! We have to go straight up high vibe with it. And it just means, don’t let the assholes get you down. You stay high with it. Try to be on your best behavior so you can be proud of not always losing it over the smallest most insignificant things. Enough of that old baby pants pattern. Let’s grow up and Save Earth.
Today there will be a test
And someone will try to get your goat.
So, don’t let them throw you off your boat.
Think like the Zen master and just float.
This IS a test today.
PLEASE, don’t let the assholes get you down.
Go high with it.
T H U R S D A Y 1 october |
Sweet beauties!! It’s October. Oh, please let this energy be different for us. First notice that today is a SINGLE DIGIT. We only vibe as the 6 today and 6 is love, love, love. It is when we are to be kind and to love and to seek out all ways to vibe as highly as we can with whatever is around us. There are no other numbers playing with the 6 so it is only full strength. And we have the moon in Aries, which is all about force and getting things to get up and GO. And we are in the moon phase of bring it forward which is the most outwardly active moon phase there is. So, we are jackpot baby!!! We are in a sweet space that we need to make the most of!! Okay let see what the feels are for today…
Oh! HELLO FULL MOON!!! We LOVE when you got full in Aries AND in a tight ass conjunction with Chiron when you get us to really see how we get in our ways and how now it's time to WAKE THE FUCK UP and realize that we are powerful beyond belief and that the life we dream for is just beyond the wound reactions we keep giving off that then have us needing to clean up the mess we make by putting it out there. This is when you all are to notice something very different and as if something is on fire and something inside of you moves you in ways you maybe couldn’t have thought you could do before. It is like ACTION ---- and FOR peace or for correction or for finding the ways to stop the polarization and confusion, and get to cleaning things up so that we feel that life is beautiful and we want to live for the next day so that we can again see so much more beauty.
What divides people in the world right now is: who has done their inner work and got therapy for the ways others wounded them and let them down, and WHO HAS NOT. If you have not done inner work and really faced that actually you’re probably can sometimes be an asshole BECAUSE others hurt you in such bad ways and you are reacting to that hurt level where you want to see others hurt or you want to shame them and GIVE what others gave to you.
And until we step into the healing journey, we have NO idea we are doing this. We have NO IDEA that person we KNEW was the one, who then let us down and left, which everyone else knew would happen, but we didn’t know they were the worst thing for us because we were still creating a world based on the pain we have seen and how we now keep expecting to see more of it, as we MAKE more of it, through our actions leaning into what is familiar.
So we don’t get that we are saying yes to what everyone else clearly sees is a no. We go gung ho straight for it with a tattoo because we KNOW this is the one. But until you heal and face how others did you wrong, and got you leaning into the wrong expectations, you will never stop the hatred inside and the anger at everyone else and the addiction to wanting to give it airtime and to keep getting even more mad at how unjust things are.
BUT – when you do the healing work, and face your shit, and make peace with how cruel YOU have been BECAUSE of the ways others rendered you powerless, you rise like helium and life DOES have a better view up there. It is DIFFERENT when your balloon takes you higher. But it will only take you higher when you lighten your load and release all your hatred and how you spend so much time inside your mind acting like you are powerless and vengeful at others for what you see as them having more power. If you want to see others crumble and fall and experience pain, you need to do your inner work. Period. That is NEVER where we are to focus our energy, even if we are facing a total narcist who is putting others in danger. We still are never to seek for revenge and to spew hatred from within our sacred vessels where we stain our insides and then live a life manifesting from that stain. It is NEVER worth it.
And in this energy you are able to see more clearly where you stand on WHO is still standing in your way, because you give them airtime to BE what you believe in, such as with fake news or the mass manipulation going on right now with billionaire media sources convincing people of an alternate reality – that is woven with truth, and deceit, but together, and leaning more into deceit, with a sprinkling of truth to anchor the hypocrisy of this “reality” soap opera. And if you give them airtime, you give the lies they preach air to breathe.
And when we are wounded we give negative things LOTS of airtime. We fan the fires. So allow this space to open you dramatically where you know you need to just keep it real and do this because you KNOW there is a better life there for you when you stop waring, and make peace inside so that you are beautiful to us all. From within, we feel who you are. In 2020 we all are transparent, like I’ve warned you since 2019. So, strive to be beautiful and accept, accept, accept and then do everything you can to make it better.
Don’t allow the old to be what you still walk in the world. CHANGE TODAY. Strive to not let all the others, who are not yet understanding their wounds, BE WHAT messes you up on your own game. Don’t let them swerving into your lane put you in the ditch with a flat tire. Be wiser than the wound reactions and be ready to move out of the way, with MOST people out there. Seriously. We are tiny numbers right now, but we are growing wildly as of this Full Moon. This cracks us open where we have to look and have to see that holding anger inside is nowhere you need to be. You are worth a way better life that manifests from you cleaning your insides!!!! Come up this way! Lighten your balloon and your life will look more beautiful.
F R I D A Y 25 september |
Oh loves! This is such an important day!! SO. This energy feels to me like moving day and how there is so much to do but how you have to stay on things and remain positive in knowing you are building something important here and it WILL bring a sudden change to your life. We are in something where we do need to pay attention and give it our all, but we also need to play with this and have fun with this and laugh, even though you have 6 more times of work to do than you planned. Moving is always 6 times what you thought.
So, know that things are heavy and also that the loads need your constant attention. AND the real big point of today is saying that you need to remember that these big moves do not last forever. They are one big point in your life where all these things come together that HAVE to come together – all at once – but then you move on and it just becomes a memory of what got you to, hopefully, you next great leg of the journey.
So be in it but also be in the big picture and keep reminding yourself that this too shall pass. All things do. But this passageway is just SO important and it needs your love and EXTREME attention. Think of being a surgeon and showing up for this person (your life) who needs you to heal it. It will take all your skills and all that you have learned from the journey thus far, but this is your big moment. Don’t forget that you DO got it in you to walk your talk and show your expertise.
Now, do be aware that many people around you are doing things or saying things that are very shocking to your soul. Things may look extreme like with violence and war. BE SOMEONE who can throw out an anchor to others. In the stores, if you feel called, through some pain in another’s eyes, pull your mask down and give them a smile. We need to start connecting again and, on a day like today, you showing them even a smile can flip them back into having hope again. People are that on the edge and it's why we all need to look out and do whatever tiny thing we can. It matters today.
Waving is great! If you feel that anyone needs you just wave to them in their car. It's a sweet thing that is really lighting people’s hearts. It helps to see these happy go lucky things when most people are magnetized and addicted to only reading and talking about very hateful and negative things. So shine your light and know that it really matters today. We are to bring back the old days in some way but remember, sweet family of mine, we are the leaders here. And the flock of sheep out there are following the wrong leaders. Are we to try to convince them of that or are we to walk this beautiful life that shows we ARE happy here and ARE working for better days? Eventually, like all trends, the tides will shift. So don’t wear what you don’t wear anymore. Don’t wear the style they are trying to front as the in thing when you know it needs to stay in the past.
Watch that John + Yoko interview in bed and how what they talk about is where we all are now and it's mainstream – but watch the battering patriarchy try to make it seem crazy or where they bring big anger in trying to point out and create division. That is happening the same in our world right now. So don’t fight back! BE the new way and walk it until our trend becomes mainstream because it sure AF will. Trends; they take over when you least expect it. Because of trendsetters like you and me! And our numbers are growing, my loves. We are waking like popcorn and when we take this new form, we can never go back to the limited, small minded, conservative, fearful seed that we began as. Get ready to pop into expanded form where you ARE lighter – but from the friction of changing from seed to popcorn. That transformation is where we all sit right now. Let’s pop together and jump into our new magnificent world together! 1… 2 … 3!!
Think of being a surgeon
And show up for this person (your life)
Who needs you to heal them.
Be here now.
Do your best.
That’s all we need from you right now.
T H U R S D A Y 24 september |
OKAY THEN! Get ready to have A LOT to say and also to see that you are looking into your life in a new way where you DO expect to be supported and taken care of and IN NEED of more comfort and good vibes that surround. Expect to make a decision or to see that something needs to be let go of as you see that you need to make space for this other new and expansive thing.
Something feels very changed, where we are dedicated and really aware that we have to take advantage of this opportunity or this moment in time and not let something fall away because we feel inadequate or too wounded or NOT worthy of getting the support we need. We are aware of where we pause, but where we feel pulled inside to SAY SOMETHING, to DO SOMETHING. So, see that you may have to compress in order to squeeze out movement where your truth rises and you seek for what will make your life better.
REMEMBER that we are so wounded, we automatically go to what will NOT give us what we need. We will go to less than and we manifest things that give us our fears. So, to manifest a better life we have to find the places where we have bought into others’ programming that keeps us only seeking for what is in one small box – the safe route, the conservative path, the limited way, the plain version.
And ENOUGH OF THAT. ALL OF Y’ALL are sitting side by side with something that is the other side to what would hold you and what IS a start over with something that IS nurturing and supportive in the ways I speak of how my new town is for me. Like, where I have a need, it races in to fill it in the most comforting ways, as if meeting me with beds of wool pillows. And in the last town I lived in, I was met with people pulling away as I fell into them and letting me slam into jagged rocks and broken glass. So, this is REALLY NICE for me to now experience pillows.
See that whatever lessons the Great Mystery throws your way, that deal with the truth of the hidden things that are inside you, manifesting as outer world situations, can NOW rebuild this aspect and set it into a higher level of expression. We all can heal and we all can make our lives better. Just like when I said free education is BRILLIANT and it shows that we love our children and want the best for them.
But, keeping it real, not everyone will go, so it's not like it steals opportunities from those deemed more worthy. It still takes people showing up and wanting to commit to some long-haul process. With no price to it, only those who really got it in them to finish, will show up. Many others will make excuses and keep delaying the mountain climb. So, it should be free. Our tax dollars should go to that. If more people were in college and climbing the ladder in life, they would feel like they have a purpose and they wouldn’t be out killing others and struggling to survive. It would be an out that we all could count on, like having a good parent that we know would be there for us no matter what. It would be a counted on support system.
And something in life right now is presenting a real support or something that will facilitate you really stepping into a better position in life where you ARE more secure than you have been in your past. Things are here for us to invest in and they may deal with our creative gifts, our love nature, or something to do with our careers. A special piece is here and it takes us believing we deserve to get another chance to do something better with our lives. So soften when you want to judge yourself or think you are too limited to rise above and have what would make your heart happy. It's time for YOU. It’s time for YOUR dreams to come true.
Soften when you want to judge yourself
Or think you are too limited
To rise above and have
What would make your heart happy.
It's time for YOU.
It’s time for YOUR dreams to come true.
Make the space and keep making it.
moon journey: 4 to 16 Capricorn
moon phase: start to get the ball rolling
numerology vibration: 1| Assert. 9| Let go.
W E D N E S D A Y 23 september |
Good morning loves! It is fair to expect that you will be a little tired today. Something will have you feeling a bit spacey or where you just keep going into daydreaming spaces. It can be like how night owls are in the morning and how they seem to be a bit stunned for a minute. So be patient with yourself as this feels like a sudden seasonal change where it just takes you a minute to acclimate.
You also may have things on your mind that keep pulling you into: what does that mean or where should I go with this? You WILL be led to something that is far off and not yet in your current moment and you ARE to sit there with the feelings and notice how you feel inspired to see them grow. What comes at you will want some space to expand into, so be there for that and take all the time you need.
At some point today you will snap into motion, where you will be seeing into a plan to rebuild something better and from a changed perspective that is planting some seed that you need to go for this and leap into the feelings that it is giving you. Do expect layers to the information coming to you, but also know that this time presents a better path for you to walk down and to do something where you are walking your talk and taking advantage of what feels good to your heart – where you DO see that you deserve things better.
A gateway has opened and it deals with us attracting things that are otherworldly feeling or where you can tell that something magical is going on. This means, where we have been dreaming and hoping for something wonderful, things finally start to come our way. BUT REALIZE we also can be tested with something so magnificent that we go back to our victim visions as we wonder why would I deserve such a thing? You may start to look with negative eyes and think you are NOT worthy of a beautiful life -- but let that go.
Stay focused on seeing into a higher understanding, where things bring clarity to aspects of why things had to be what they were in your past, but relinquish control in thinking you know how things really do need to look. Just put it out there that you want big love and a life full of joy because there ARE things around you that are a part of the rebuild into your better world. But something will ask you to see all sides and to listen to your heart when it tries to confuse you in getting you to wonder about your own value or place in the world.
Expect to go there but also expect to be the one that lifts your OWN SELF up in seeing that the next chapter will be better than the old chapters. SOMETHING waits to greet you and it IS what your heart has been wishing for. So, move where you feel called to reach out but don’t expect to have all the answers or to even understand why you feel so moved by this. The heart knows more than your mind could ever try to understand. Surrender into this new way of navigating life from your heart speaking new things to you.
Your heart knows more
Than your mind
Could even try to understand.
Listen to the song
That softly plays.
This means something to you.
T U E S D A Y 22 september | sun into libra.
What a beautiful day! BUT, only about half of you will say that because 100% how you are seeing things - before they happen - IS WHAT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW.
So, this day kind of comes as a big warning in that you have got to wake up and stop this old pattern of steering yourself into the gutter and into the fear and into KNOWING this negative thing was going to happen! Well, yeah… because you wished it into place! DO NOT WASTE YOUR MENTAL SPACE ON NEGATIVITY today! If you do, you will get what you are thinking about.
If you have a free day and you sit at the computer and game for 3 hours, then you will have 3 months of the feeling of what was in those nasty and addictive cigarettes, I mean games. So seriously be aware that you don’t want to escape or lose this opportunity right now. You want to be out and about and you want to be around others who are on your vibe and all about growing better together.
This day is real potent in bringing the love or shining the light on us seeing new perspectives about something that would make us happy or be something that IS solid and secure. So be out and about and expect to find yourself in something that gets you seeing that you have changed and now your love nature speaks a new language where you ARE expecting to have the happy ending or something that comes later in life and IS the best thing ever.
Just like I have been telling you about my new home and the town I live in – like, I didn’t know this place existed, that I could find land that felt like I am at the spa on the daily. It's totally a spa to my soul. It's just where I fit into all the spaces as if they were created especially for me. Like, WHAT??? I seriously had NO IDEA I would find what I have now. And I am almost 50! I’m where the patriarchy and those programmed by it are trying to tell me it all is dead and done.
So how come EVERYTHING is better than it has ever been my entire life? How come THIS HERE is my favorite thing ever? It’s because I kept with the journey and kept hoping that the more I healed, the more I got to receive, and the more I took a leap of faith, the more I got to see that things DO actually get better and better – and thatONLY IF I still believe them to be on the decline do they actually travel.
Just like when I told you, in Durango, the space I was in was on a vibration that was at a clash to my natural code, so it instantly sent me on a decline, that I was 100% aware of, and constantly trying to steer OUT of fear -- and then the moment I got here I have been on a swift incline – with much to clean up from 2 years of decline, BUT I AM ON AN INCLINE and now it is all I can see!! All I can see is where I want to fly and how I want to expand and how I want to go for and how I AM going to fulfill my dreams – no matter who tells me it can't be done or I am too flawed to receive the good life.
So be aware that if you are pulled into debt or into fear or into negative anticipations for your future, you 100% will get all that today. AND be aware that if you are waking to seeing that you DO deserve to be loved and valued and seen out in the world as someone special then you WILL get that.
We are magnets right now and it really is about taking us to our new beliefs and giving us reason to see that we CAN believe, and it IS all worth it. Time is but a measurement to give your mind something to grab onto so right now allow it to be something you are excited for and NOT feeling like too much time has passed. SEE that things are happening in perfect timing and see that the best is yet to come for you. Just use your energy to stay away from the gaming escape and step into what is here for you to get to know better. Look around, the Universe is bringing you what you need to expand into. See a better story for this.
You get what you think you deserve.
And it's time to believe that
Next comes the best.
So, sit with anticipation.
Dream into your future
With visions of expansion.
How would you like to see this grow?
So that you do have a heart
That gets to smile and glow.
Look to your horizon
And see it like a rainbow.
M O N D A Y 21 september |
I walked into the reading room today and heard: go into your mystery, go into your depth. We are being asked to keep at something and to not want to run away or to get out of the pain or confusion. You are to stay with things and be fixated EVEN IF you don’t have an answer and you can feel there is something more to this. Your feelings are VERY activated today – but they come 100% with an existential quality or where you can't really put your fingers on anything. But still, you feel that something is coming or something is on the way.
This is a great time to ground yourself and to do what you can to clear before you take more in. You WILL elevate from what is on the way but first you almost have to saturate in too much, to the point you feel lost -- and THEN comes the sun a-rising or the shade parting so that you can see another side of this. FOR SURE something is coming and it will shift things dramatically for you. But surrendering into the confusion or madness or non-sensical things and just allowing them to be something for you to see and feel IS the point of this day. You got work to do and we all need to face things that we otherwise have wanted to deny or even to paint as something really horrendous when, in fact, there possibly is beauty in there.
So open your mind to understanding that if you have gotten off on the wrong foot with someone or you are diving into fears from times or experiences past, then you very well may open to something today that gets you seeing how incredibly off you actually were. IN REALITY there were backstories and they have importance that you won't be able to understand until now.
But the big point of this energy is that we are to see that we had something wrong. That what formed us, got us looking at something that NOW needs a new appraisal. Time has passed and more layers are being revealed so YOU need to go with the flow and upgrade as you go. THIS MOMENT is one where YOU need to step higher and to NOT do what you would have normally done. That old way was not honoring – and you know that now. Allow these new pages of this interesting chapter to reveal on their own. But stay present to knowing that light will follow whatever deep feelings are rising now. This will bubble something beautiful to the surface that has needed YOU TO CHANGE how you see something and allow it to define you or your life or your future or your healing journey or whatever.
So, expect a big rise today that feels different from how things began and see how you are making good changes that ARE rebuilding your life. See that you DO have something to dream for and to move into that IS a leap of faith. See that something is rising lighter in you from the depth you have been EAGERLY looking and feeling into. If not for you showing up and doing the work, you couldn’t go through the gateways up ahead.
So KNOW THIS and feel that you ARE with a therapist now and you ARE safe and you CAN look and you DO NEED TO USE the hour with total consciousness – like, be present in your deep experiences. If they cause you to feel – this is something you just need to be very present with and not wanting to hide it away or color it anything other than what it presents to you, minute by minute.
Like with sobriety or changing deep, outdated patterns, it all is day by day – but that is what gets you acclimated to the beauty way. From the day by day you see that you ARE stronger than you were programmed to believe. And when YOU WAKE, the world changes. When you stay asleep it stays the same. So, hello my love, good morning to your new life. There IS light up ahead for you and you ARE turning a corner. So sit tight and feel it all and see how it inspires you to want to change. THAT THERE is the lesson here. We need to get your passions rising.
From the day to day
From feeling on the edge
From feeling you have no control --
From there, you find your voice
To draw boundaries
To speak clearly
To heal your past
And to rise with direction, determination
And a passion that can't be burnt away.
Fire won't destroy an ignited heart.
It merely wakes it up.
S U N D A Y 20 september |
Here comes a big warning that something is going to ask you to draw boundaries and to be clear on how you need this to be different than how it is being delivered your way. But there is a big test to the day where you also will need to pick your battles! So, expect to need to apply discernment where you will walk away from a fight, giving it none of your valuable attention, and possibly also asserting your voice in another way, where you ARE making your needs known.
I imagine the fight will be an ego thing, that you will bypass today, and using your voice will be a heart thing where your feelings will get you to stand up stronger. There is a fine line with this so be aware that it can be awfully tricky for many of you. Another example could be if you feel the need to defend something that makes no sense or needs all this explaining, back out! BUT if you are in something that needs you to set the record straight, where you can just step in and then step out with it, then do so. If it could potentially create baggage, don’t go there today.
Now something about this day is really special where you are to find the strength or gain some powerful feeling from choosing to draw a boundary and to not give when others are trying to manipulate you or stronghold you or distract you from where you really need to be. BUT – you are to do it with grace and not in a disrespectful way. What you put out there is coming back your way, so be clear with it, but don’t go low or don’t allow yourself to lose control because you feel controlled or manipulated by others. Today, honor that you deserve to be treated a certain way, and if it's not going on, get out.
We also are to open to something that liberates our minds into wanting to see for a new outcome or to focus on some new thing that really does light us up. MANY of you are going to feel like a gift comes today and it somehow opens the light or gets you seeing into another corridor that you didn’t know was there. And this should feel exciting. It should feel like you are onto something or you are digging away at something that screams, warmer, warmer, warmer.
So, expect something kind of exciting that shows you it really is worth the hard work. But do know you can pass this glimpse of an opportunity by if you get tangled up with others stealing your energy. And if you DON’T GO THERE, you get to go somewhere new that is beautiful and that inspires you to keep growing your new crop of wonderful things to come. So remain open! Don’t let anyone get in your lane and try to show you the way – UNLESS it feels like love.
Don’t let anyone get in your lane
And try to show you the way --
UNLESS it feels like love.
You decide today.
Draw boundaries around a beautiful day to come.
S A T U R D A Y 19 september |
Just remember! You DO deserve things better! You DO deserve to have people treat you in a better way. You DO deserve to feel like you are looking out at the life you are walking and you LIKE what you see, or at least you like seeing that it IS getting better. So today know that you need to spring into action where you are going towards things that support and nurture you or GIVE when you have a need. Choose for better things. Weave them into the story of your future.
Like, during the first week of living in my new dream home, I was throwing a stick in the back yard and it went deep into Memo’s throat where he suddenly gushed blood and foam.
AND DUDE. I just moved to this town, which I only first came to see when I checked out this house I moved into -- and I didn’t even know where I was!! So, I looked up vets and called this one and was like, oh my gosh I just moved here, and I think this stick may have gone into my dog’s lungs. Oh my gosh! They were like, where do you live? I was like, oh my gosh I don’t know, um, um, um, um, and then came up with the name of the organic grocery store around the corner (perfectly placed for my dream neighborhood) and they said, you are 8 minutes out; we are prepping for surgery in case he needs it. So I raced to the car and got my baby to them in 8 minutes where they took him in and had him back to me in 6 minutes, with medicine, because it was triaged into being a watch for 48 hours, especially for for white gums. They then went back to their normal schedule to do the other surgeries for other animals in need.
BUT DUDE. THEY TOOK CARE OF US. I was a priority. My huge and gaping need was filled in under 20 minutes. And THIS is because I made the epic change to come where I have never been – BUT I FELT CALLED TO BE – and DOING SO – TRUSTING SO – got me to discover a place that holds me IN ALL WAYS I have ever needed!!!! I have never laid my feet to lands that love me so much. I am only loved and supported here and it has me dancing wildly over how wonderful it feels!!!
SO, my boo. My love. My sweetest of darlings. YOU DESERVE A BETTER LIFE. But you got to work for it. You got to hold the hands of it. You got to stick with it. And you got to keep going into the fire of whatever it brings so that you can heal. You are to shift from the fire into something powerful that is unique to your soul. Just like I now will express more as my truth because I journeyed through years of chaos and pain – since Moon Bear died and through my time in Durango – but I just kept with it and I didn’t ever fight it.
I NEVER fight back with negative things happening to or being said about me. NEVER will you hear me defend what I don’t like to see when it comes to me. I just take it inward and know that it DOES relate to me because I attracted it or because it bothers me or is in a clash with another person. And I can't change anyone else – I can't change what they will do. But it always inspires something for me to see inside about myself what I am not facing and that I NEED TO correct and strive to be better. I know from the laws of the universe that if my life feels fucketh then I am somehow fuckething it up. And I need to be the one to change things. From within we manifest an outer world. Stand by that code of ethics.
To surrender is to just look from a different angle and to understand that we all are magnets – so what comes to us, what comes up, just needs us to surrender as we look with eyes for correction and the desire to be better – TO BE BETTER MAGNETS. And why? Because we are worth it. We DESERVE to manifest a life that makes us happy. So keep digging, keep working, keep holding hands with your dreams. You ARE getting somewhere and you need to be stronger with it. Be determined! This is never too much, but it does lighten up if you allow it to, and then it gets gorgeous! What do you deserve? Something that makes your heart smile. Go out yonder and find it. Expect to find it. And keep at it until you do.
I strive to be
A better magnet.
What I put out there
Will come back to me.
I won't forget this.
I WILL clean things up.
Even if what I see
To clean is to heal.
To deal is to feel better.
F R I D A Y 18 september |
This energy is POWERFUL!! These really are the best new moon vibes ever – even though, for most of you, the pressure or force that gets you to act may not be what you really think of as the best! I am a Virgo Moon, born on a Full Moon, and I do like some pressure, actually. I do like to be pushed beyond what I think I can handle – SO THAT I SEE I ACTUALLY CAN HANDLE THIS – and more. I’m not afraid of pain and I do know that it always and forever leads to gain. It really does. It always does. But if we are in years still of pain, we don’t know how soon “the gain” will finally arrive and shift our baseline focus.
Understand that we all have cycles in our life that some people think are a standard 7, but I think they waiver, like with Chiron, between 5 to 9 years. As in, we all change dramatically and are provided with a new path aspect when we reach those years. For some of us it may feel like every 5, and for others, every 9. It is not a standard 7, across the board.
But we all are coming together at this time, as we all have been synched, whether we are in the 5 team or the 9 team, and at this time we HAVE THE CHOICE to make a dramatic change in our lives. BUT. For this one, we must assert ourselves into making it happen. We must reach out, move out, go for, stop doing, start doing, and completely experience an old world being left and a new world being started WITH DISCIPLINE holding it in place. That is the key as we must keep with it and keep with it and keep with it. This is when we are to stop giving up on ourselves and on things that take time to birth.
All the good things come lately -- so that we can learn and go within and heal and become the better peoples who CAN manifest these brilliant and soul soothing lives. Something is rising now where you are hearing of people who are in really great spaces in life. This is the new energy that is available for us all – and the more we work on putting things into order in our lives, trusting the erratic curves of the journey and all the things that seemed to be a YES until minutes before they became a NO, and the more we just KEEP DOING, but only what feels right, the sooner we get to this new manifesting space where things ARE pleasant and we ARE seeing people come together who are bringing more beauty and light into the world.
You talking about your beautiful journey helps me see the same for myself. So, plant the other side of life and see that we will get around the corners and we WILL see that it was a beautiful ride. Don’t allow yourself to fall into despair because you don’t know! You are rarely to know in life – and honestly, I have found from research that the more you think you DO KNOW what is going on, the more likely something really shocking is on the way to humble you into just surrendering into the journey. Life lesson #1: Try not to ever think you are at the top and you got it all figured out.
Something about life wants us to NOT be all cocky and know it all. Might DOES NOT make right. Love makes right. And we get “mightful” when we don’t like the lives that are in front of us, as we try to rip them open or push them out of the way. TODAY LEARN TO NOT BE AFFECTED BY OTHERS. Stand FIRM in the new discipline of your NEW PATH ASPECT and do not let anyone fear or nonsense you back onto their path, which was going nowhere anyway. Or, at least was not the path for you to thrive.
You deserve to grow and to be happy and to feel healthy and whole. But at this time, we must get up, make a change, and get going towards something that goes against the old way –therefore we need to be an anchor with our dreams – as in we need to be present with them and to hold them and to support them and to not let go. Imagine you are holding a little child’s hands as you move through a crowded carnival. Like, hold your little child’s hands! HOLD the hands of your dream and keep going until you get to the destination. KNOW that you deserve it better and it IS there for you to journey towards. Don’t let the clowns get you down. THERE IS a test here.
Might DOES NOT make right.
Love makes right.
Get that straight.
YOU lead the way.
It’s not on you to get them to follow.
But it IS ON YOU to not follow their negative lead.
T H U R S D A Y 17 september |
Oh hello NEW MOON in VIRGO! OH! We LOVE when the Moon goes new and joins along with the Sun in Virgo! This will 100% bring some sort of shift that gets you wanting to seriously change your life and do something with the time you have left. Something that shifts inside of us also ushers in the people or situations we need, so that we CAN get over some hurdle that has been flipping us back to the old world ways, when we yearn so desperately for change and for something to help make sense of what has not worked out in our lives.
Expect to run into people and for it to really mean something for you. ALSO expect to need to be the person who steps up and does what is right. Many of you will be in quarrels with others where you hold the key to peace, to balance, and to something that gets you both seeing things in a better way. BUT YOU HOLD THE KEY, my love. You need to remember that you are not waiting on another to do what you know needs to be done. You must humble yourself and really go out there and make something right.
Don’t look at any problems around this day as dead ends or something that can't be overcome. THIS is to be a challenge that changes your life. THIS RIGHT HERE is a gateway situation in your story that needs you to lift it to a higher perspective where you DO expect the best to play out. DO NOT dip down into despair or into thinking there is not a solution.
Use this energy to turn your ship around and to finally start the day-to-day habits that get you building something better in your life. It all starts today. Don’t discount the scope of this! Today literally is the first day of the rest of your life. Steer it like this is your only chance and know that you ARE going to be able to shift into a higher gear if you stay in the moment today and see where you need to accelerate. It will come and you will know what to do.
Something about surrendering also plays in with the energy. So, think that you are about to merge ONTO the highway where you will need to accelerate, but you are to wait until the space comes when you know 100% that - now - you are to go. This is a part of the energy where we are working with Spirit, through the ebbs and the flows of life, but where even if things feel slow or like they are not moving, we are NOT giving up on ourselves by deciding to go back home. Stay on the journey and sit in traffic if it is there but know that YOUR TIME is coming just up ahead. Sit patient and with excitement that THIS is what you need to flip into a new gear where you ARE going to see things finally fall into place. Trust this wild journey and know the pieces today need you to stay curious even without totally knowing, but still moving towards, what needs you to pay attention to it being completed.
DO and you will get somewhere today, but don’t forget that you need to do where you feel CALLED TO DO and not where the old-world shames, blames, and guilts you into doing. If it doesn’t feel right, it's not right. Pause, go within, feel what feels right to YOU, and then DO more of that. The feelings are palpable because they connect you to something wonderful that you otherwise would pass on by or not believe could really be yours – so feel to heal your life and to see it fall into better position. Steer your boat like THIS is what you have been waiting for. Put your muscle to it and head into this brand new direction. It opens for YOU and brings a new tune that will get you feeling like you ARE living your Soul’s Purpose. This change is TOTALLY worth it.
NEW MOON IN VIRGO
I am ready for the changes to come.
I am present, in the moment, and
Ready to dive into what I need to see
So that I can feel free to be the real me.
This change is epic and it alters my path
But I will give it my all because
I am worth the sun that will shine my way
When I turn around to accept my birthright
To lead this planet into healing, love, and light.
I am here and ready to get to work.
Use me, Great Mystery.
Give me a reason to be here now.
W E D N E S D A Y 16 september |
Sweet loves. We got some BIG TIMES going on right now. You need to listen and listen like your life depends on it – because it does. RIGHT NOW we are going to be starting new patterns that are dramatic and where we change our focus in direct ways where we give purpose to not going as it has been done before. Something needs to stop fully and to take on this new pattern with how things are being run in your day to day.
This is when you will start a new program or system that gets you going at a grain to how you were doing it, or how others have done it before. You will be starting something at this time, and it is to deal with healing you and helping you to get back into some original form. But you were bent out of shape and you won't really see how bent incorrectly you were until you can clean and de-clutter your life and remove yourself from things that your gut DID tell you were wrong for you.
REMEMBER – the choices you make deal with what you saw in your past. If you are wounded – as we all are – you make bad decisions. You say yes to what others would quickly say no to and you say no to what your higher self wants you to eventually say yes to – seeing that you deserve this WAY better. We attract situations so that we can be tested to do the right thing, where we DO value ourselves and DO see that we serve great purpose here.
When you know you have a soul’s purpose, even if you don’t know what it is by definition words, you should LIVE for the day where you DO discover what it means to you. My Soul’s Purpose is to Support and Nurture. IRONICALLY, I came into this Earth with no support and no one nurturing me. So, where I was left empty, I now am to serve in an exalted way. And I supported and nurtured others -- I DID livedmy souls purpose work -- when I worked at cafes and coffee and chocolate shops until I was 40. I’ve always lived my Soul’s Purpose (as do you). I took care of you there; I take care of you here. I take care of people – when no one took care of me – and even that I was named Kerry!
How crazy is all of that ----- OR, how perfect is all of that, that the Universe wants me to really learn that I am here to give the greatest of care, but first I must get none, give none, and learn from that so that I want to GIVE IT ALL to know that YOU are okay and thriving.
WE MUST walk aspects of life from empty, to then doing it wrong (because of the empty) to THEN doing it RIGHT because we wake up and want to be better peoples. It's like recovery – where we do see BEING in the pit of hell is actually what inspires you greatly to never go there again and to finally REALLY LIVE for the first time in your life. We must change something to bring this new light.
So. KNOW that we are in a VERY, VERY, VERY SPECIAL SPACE RIGHT NOW. All caps are needed, We are tuning into something where we will surrender into the perfection of it, even if we never could see it or understand that THIS IS IT.
We couldn’t see what we needed to see -- until the next 3 or 4 days. When you GET IT, you are going to be good to go in the best way and with a new you showing up seeing that there IS a way and you ARE perfect just the way you are, with all the things you thought of as mistakes because they did put you in the gutter, or in an addiction or in something that ultimately is keeping you far away from the love and joy you DO NOW seek.
So, open up and wake up to your new world. It's time to change your groove. Something better awaits you. Do something to reach for what is worthy of you and that gets you excited to go and grow. It's time to start a new way to run your daily flow.
Open up and wake up to your new world.
It's time to change your groove.
Something better awaits.
And it comes when you MOVE.
Nothing right now needs to stay the same.
Get up and rewrite this thang.
---- It goes UP like this…
And, it’s gonna be hella better like that…
Reach for the stars, you beautiful star.
Reach out for what you really are.
T U E S D A Y 15 september |
Something feels so sweet today!! Expect to have your heart hit with something that really gets you looking around and appreciating what you DO have access to. New feelings are going to be bubbling up where you are wanting to be creative and wanting to spend your time fixing things or redecorating things. You will be looking around with new eyes wanting to DO where before you maybe didn’t even give it a thought.
Time is changing for us right now where we are finally realizing that we waste a lot of time. And it can give you anxiety, but also make you hyper aware of what needs your attention or what you COULD do to make a difference, to be more creative or playful with the time you DO have. When we wake up to something, like water shortages, we go frantic when we see others with water running down the street, because they are wasting something that we know is running out.
Which, for the record we ALWAYS need to honor that others have backstories that are not what WE think they are. We may go straight to negative, but they might have a perfect reason for why they are doing what irritates us. I was living in West Oakland in my mid 30’s and was on a nightly walk when I noticed water running down the street. So, I followed it to its home and marched up all mad that they would waste precious water, as I was ready to scold them for NOT paying attention to it.
And I knock on the door. This dude answers. I go in, all dramatic, in SHOCK that water is running down the streets, and then he just blinks at me a few times, with no facial expression. Silence between us. Crickets chirping. Then he says, “we just had triplets; we have 3 babies that are 3 weeks old.” – And I was like, oh, wow, congratulations, 3! As I started to take steps backwards, with hand in the air waving bye and, “okay then, just letting you know the water can be turned off now. Have a beautiful day!”
So, comprehend that your new sense of timing running out CAN get you a bit dramatic in needing attention, or in getting your message out. So, roll with who is around you and don’t jump any guns or do anything until you really are in agreement that your thinking around what got your heart to react was correct.
Our hearts, they do speak today!!! And now it's just on you to still be compassionate as we come together with others and try to work together to create the better days. We all are the walking wounded. We ALL have been hurt, let down, lied to, violated and we really don’t know what is going on anymore. We THOUGHT we were about to expand and rise this year, but now we all look around and wonder WTF?
But understand, the intensity of the times + Earth’s time running out + time going by so quickly in our own lives = YOU & ME finally really waking up and taking a risk on what we feel from our heart and what we DO see we can control through taking these day by day steps into running our life in a different way, with different patterns throughout the day.
Being lazy is on the out – but don’t get me wrong; lazy days are to be self-care and rejuvenation for the inward cycle of being able to move outward with proper steam and dedication. But the lazy, to the point you only scroll the phone and get down and lifeless and feel depressed like you don’t have a place in the world and nothing WILL ever work out for you, IS the lazy that was programmed in you so that you DO stay a cookie cutter, an assembly line, and someone who doesn’t really reach for the stars.
Something is rising in you and it needs to. But once it gets out of you, WORK WITH OTHERS to take things next level. None of us are the only ones that are correct. But the more open we are and true from the heart, the more we come together and create something more beautiful. Express and blend or merge so that something progressive DOES occur.
Don’t be a sell out
To a life that has no passion.
Reach for the stars.
Go towards where your heart
Is telling you THIS risk is worth it.
The new way is about love.
Expand into it.
moon journey: Leo + Virgo
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 9
M O N D A Y 14 september |
Good morning sweet loves! OKAY. This day is wildly important, and it deals with us facing something that is a part of a pattern that we are letting go of, but this one was more recent and not really childhood or back in the day. We are letting go of something that got us to stop dreaming wildly and to instead focus on our insecurities and thinking maybe we are past our prime or there is not a place for us in the world.
This ultimately was a dent to your car, like I talked about how the last few years were for me, but it doesn’t mean the car has to continue to drive in the pattern of defeat or insecurity or feeling like you don’t got any creative gifts or way to be seen for what it is that you love to do. Just because you got hit and they messed up your game, doesn’t mean the sun is not ABOUT to come shining your way soon.
This is the kind of energy that asks you to pick yourself up, but to also put yourself to the front as 100% valid and deserving of good things. Don’t hold yourself down and out and think you DO deserve to suffer. RATHER, you ARE smart and you ARE beautiful and you ARE special and you ARE going to kick ass at life when you get over the damn ripples in the road caused by others and how damaged they were.
No one has been able to handle their anger in a healthy way, except for some Italians, where they are so overboard with all feelings, so it all is drama when a message needs to be shared, whether positive or negative. But it is never that big of a deal and you can ALWAYS calm them by letting them know that you hear them and understand their point. But I have never known an Italian who was mad, and I didn’t know it. They don’t do downlow, they do in your face because they so naturally bring things to the surface and get them out of their bodies. They keep it moving and flow with whatever it is, honoring that sometimes they also are like smoke alarms, with things really needing to be addressed.
At this time, YOU kind of need to be dramatic and expressive and in their face about really sharing who you are in getting your messages out there. Know that. We need more artists, not sellouts. Just at least try to look at a blank canvas and imagine what you would like to do.
This energy also wants you putting the spotlight on your heart where you are asking what YOU really want --- and how YOU really want it to be – and WHAT you imagine when you think of a dream coming true. What would that be? Where would that put you? What leap of faith or risk would it take? And, ARE you willing to take it? Remember too that we don’t have a price until we hit rock bottom where then we see that it is now or never, so we finally get up and go for the dream. This is bottom for many of you so that you do finally show up and let us know what is in your heart. Roar the love you feel and demand that it become your reality. Just share whatever needs to rise and take a risk in knowing that your heart needs to speak. And maybe this wasn’t something important to you before, and you didn’t feel need to bring it up earlier, but things can change, and now you DO feel this way. Good on you. Share your truth. Free the way.
Roar the love you feel
And demand that it become your reality.
There is something that needs to be created
And it will be inspired from pain.
It's the artist way.
It's the only way to travel.
moon journey: Leo
moon phase: pull back to process
numerology vibration: 1 8 9